Last alternate character chapter! this Friday, Arc 2 will be coming to the story in front of you!
The first time I met Legosi… was obviously when he tried to devour me. But the first time I got to actually meet him… was when he came to the gardening club. His eyes were dead. I could tell, because it was the same mask I wore every day… His eyes obviously recognized me, but His mask didn't change… I looked up wolf biology after the meteor festival. And the only thing that he didn't control was his tail. It was raised and sweeping, he was happy to be there… even before I spoke.
He came for roses, and I had him help me move some plants. I saw his mask crack when I touched his tail to put it in his suspenders. He looked scared, like I, a helpless herbivore, was going to eat him… it was so similar… I touched him several times, but it seems he put the mask back on, so I did too. I asked him to help me plant some more flowers, just because I enjoyed his company… I later asked what he wanted, and it was then his mask cracked again, it was a look all the guys who wanted my body looked at me with, those eyes that stared straight at me with a straight mouth curve… I was disappointed, I thought he was different. Soon, I was disappointed for a different reason, the look he gave me… was just another mask. One hiding behind his previous mask, I felt… I saw the real Legosi that day for the first time, he panicked, like he only realized what was going on before throwing a blanket over me and leaving… I felt disappointed in myself…
Our second meeting was different... I didn't think I'd ever see him again. His mask was looser, his tail was freer, but his eyes still spoke of a crushing loneliness… I was harsh at him because I forgot that he didn't sleep with me, so I offered to eat with him. We went to the cafeteria… but he didn't eat. He kept staring at me… like he couldn't believe I was in front of him. His food was left behind as we walked back to the dorms… along the way, he crouched in front of me, his face was different, his jaw was tense, and his eyes… told me that he was the same, he was drowning in this world, he looked like he was scared… that he could die at any time, even though he was a carnivore. And then, he asked me a strange question.
"What do you think of this world..? Haru."
He knew my name, and probably my reputation, and he still spent time with me. I never answered his question, even though he answered mine, that was the day I learned his name… Legosi…we didn't actually meet the third time I heard his voice… it was after I was… with Louis. He was at the door… I think he knew what we were doing… because he rushed off.
We met at the Festival, he wasn't distant at all despite me suspecting he know about Louis. He always found time while he was working to help me out. It was… fun, I enjoyed it. His mask was barely there… and he always had a smile on his face when he helped… the look in his eyes… was slowly disappearing, and as I looked in a mirror from time to time… so was mine…
When the blackout happened… I really couldn't see, everything was pitch black, and I thought he was Louis, so i called out for him… but when the lights turned on, I thought I saw his mouth frowning, before Legosi seemed to put on a new mask. This time, one that didn't fall even for me…
Then… Came the shishigumi… they kidnapped me so that their boss could eat me… it's strange how I can recollect these memories, despite what most would call traumatic, with such clarity and fondness… it was when I saw Legosi… without any mask… as the shards of glass fell around us…
"Oh, it's you." I couldn't help it, I barely recognized him despite nothing about him physically changing... he was standing there, already taking off his jacket, and turned around for the lions pounce, almost as if he knew he was there, "Why did you come?!" That idiot… his eyes were different, instead of being afraid at the world… they were angry.
"Lots of reasons, tell you later!"
That idiot… he was covered in blood by the end… most of it his. He reached out his hand, and I felt that if I didn't take it in that moment, I'd never see Legosi again. So I took it, and that led to other places… first was a bench, my mind was still getting over the fact that he had saved me from so many Lions… Even if he said he had help. So much changed overnight… I later learned that Louis and Legosi had a fight when I was taken, and Louis disappeared shortly after…
Legosi, while worrying me, was hungry, so we ate cheap noodles… it was there that I learned more about him… he had a grandpa, and he keeps money in his shoe because of that grandpa. Although I got the feeling he was on awkward terms with him. We were told that the last trains had already left.. I felt that I wasn't getting out of troubling Legosi that easily… and perhaps I'm glad, because I wouldn't have gotten to know him better if we hadn't… We both finished our noodles before leaving to find a hotel… everyplace was too expensive, and I didn't want to spend all his money, and then I remembered the Neon district… and the cheap love hotels placed within… I was unsure what my goal was in doing so, but convinced him to get us a room in Hotel Rose.
I was nervous, I went around the room while he stood in the door, before I ran out of things to occupy myself, so I sat down on the bed… he sat down on the bed, and his mouth was so close to mine… I was too nervous, so I quickly tried to wash his bloody torn shirt, I stopped when I saw the scars on his back… There were eight scars going horizontally across his back all the way down… I had to ask, why someone who was so afraid of death, had so many scars…
He bent down and held me in his grip, my arms were held gently down at my side by his inner elbows, my neck exposed to him, he held me like that, but I didn't feel the terror from the first time, all I could feel was his breath by my face, my heartbeat, despite being softer, beat equally with his.
"It started… with you. That cold day, where the only sound was the fountain, ever since that night… everything changed. The… first time you and I met, wasn't at the garden, the one who attacked you behind the lecture hall… was me. I was… about to devour you..." Legosi… I had to respond to him."don't worry… actually, I had a feeling you did it… I wasn't suspicious, I just… there were a few times I kinda sensed it… it was why… I didn't know how to feel about you all this time. You… looked so lost afterwards, that I was unsure what your intentions were..." I wasn't entirely honest with him… I never equated him with the carnivore that tried to devour me… but I felt he needed me to say I knew it was him, I felt he wouldn't accept anything else…
He was wondering why I'd stick around him, a small herbivore, with a large Carnivore...
"Because… you looked the same as me… like you were always close to death..." And that was the truth...He looked lost and afraid in a world where he was one of the strongest, like he didn't belong. "Haru… what if I told you… ever since that day… I never felt like the real Legosi..?" Was he..? did him almost devouring me cause this much guilt? I'm not a psychologist… I'm just a small dwarf Rabbit, so I'll answer in my way, I won't tell him he's right or wrong, I'll tell him…"You're the only Legosi, I've ever known… I wouldn't change it for anything."
We had… decided to try, right there on the bed, it didn't go well, he was nervous, and so was I. At the end, my body tried to get eaten, my instincts forced my arm in his mouth, and tried to jump in! I scared him with that… I could tell he didn't want to try again after I asked… we went on in the morning like nothing was wrong, like last night hadn't happened…
Then the festival came… I was restless, after Juno confronted me in the hallway about winning Legosi from me… I knew it wouldn't work, she didn't see what Legosi was like before he took off his mask, but I still felt worried, so I temporarily closed the gardening clubs shop and visited the drama club stage to see Legosi.
I didn't see that beat up wolf anywhere by the stage. But as the Lights turned on, and the dancing started… I realized something about carnivores… They move with strength and purpose, All unlike Legosi, who seems like he moved more like a Herbivore, always thinking about his next move, and then moving carefully. He seemed so small, but grew so large when he saved me… I was always scared of how small I was, afraid to admit it, But Legosi… You were the only one who actually understood how I felt, who could treat me as an individual. Legosi… I didn't want to be without you.
When I found him… I was about to tell him how I felt, but then he was brought up stage, and Juno gave her entire speech… I… normally was good at being bullied, but this hurt. When the clapping started… and everyone thought they looked like the perfect couple… I wanted to shout that they were wrong. That they were nothing alike! But I couldn't… I was too small, so I left.
I was walking up the stairs to the overlook, feeling sorry for myself that I felt this way… "-ru" It was stupid that of all the bullying I went through, this hurt more than any of it "Haru. It's dangerous to walk alone."
Legosi… just stay back, the world wouldn't accept us being together…
"She's just a member of the drama club. We're both gray wolves… but I think she has the wrong idea about me. I'll have the same problems whether I'm in the light or not. I'd rather stay out of it like I always have..." stupid wolf… "Haru. I think it'll be easier if I bring you into the picture… you understand don't you?
"You'll get hurt Legosi, protecting a small herbivore, while you act like a small carnivore. Besides, I tried to get eaten by you last night!you never troubled me, and besides… I'm sure everyone has experiences like that sometimes..." They don't… the world won't accept it, our bodies won't accept it.
"To tell you the truth… when you were abducted by the shishigumi… I felt like I couldn't save you, I was confused about my place in this world and how I felt about you… I felt unsure about why I wanted to save you… but I now know… And I will never eat you..." Stupid… you can't guarantee that… I started running up the stairs, I wanted him to just devour me because it would hurt less!
"There's no Guarantee that a wolf can't ever eat a rabbit, we can't be together!" I ran up to the top, I was out of room to go forward, and I could only go left or right…
"Maybe there's no guarantee that a wolf can't! But I've got a simple reason!" I chose to look behind me instead. He stood at the top of the stairs, he was large, Larger in my eyes than the dinosaurs which today's festival is about. I wanted to know the reason...
"Because I love you." he said it… and he continued walking up next to me, standing beside me, his arms to his sides tense. "Haru… I'll get stronger… I won't let this world, or my awkwardness get in the way… I want to make you happy… which is why… I'll get stronger..." I wanted to grab his hand, and never let go, but before I grabbed his, mine fell limply to the ground. He looked too tall. All I could say was…
"I'll be waiting..."
That… was how our summer love grew, The wolf, afraid of the world, found his courage next to me, a small runty dwarf rabbit. We met once more in the hallway when I got back to Cherryton after visiting my Family. He was doing much better than when we first met…
I wanted to see more of the New Legosi...