It was a rainy Saturday afternoon when Bakugou found himself laying in his bed reminiscing about all the times you guys spent together. It had been 2 short months since you ended things and although Bakugo would never openly admit it he was having a really hard time with it. It took him leaving for him to realize you were the love of his life. He found himself unable to muster up the courage to go to you and apologize for his actions, so instead he sat and listened to the playlist you had made him months ago. He could remember how happy you were when you gave it to him. The smile you gave him was one he would always cherish. He hit shuffle and listened to the first song that came on.

My heart's as heavy as these nights are long
And I curse these spaces between my fingers where
For a time you belonged

Bakugo looked down at his hands and remembered all the times you would shyly sneak your hand into his. He was never one for pda, but you couldn't help yourself. You loved to remind him of how happy it made you, feeling his hand in yours. He remembered how you would squeeze his hand every time you laced your fingers with his, and when he squeezed back your lips would burst into the most breathtaking smile he had ever seen. It was easily one of his favorite things to make you do.

And you'll find somebody new who's worth your time
Someone whose words sound sweeter than mine
I'll hope to mend, trying my best just to get by

Can you tell me what hurts more?
Is it remembering or forgetting?
The best that once was ours
Am I remembering, still remembering or forgetting?

Bakugo knew he should've said more sweet and loving things to you, but he didn't have it in him. He wasn't wired that way and he told you that when you first got together. You guys had your fights, but you always came back together even stronger. Bakugo hates to admit when he was wrong, but he was always quick to apologize when he thought about how hard it would be if he ever lost you. He just wished he fought harder for you during that last fight.

Looking back he realized what a jerk he was. He came home from a really bad training session with Deku and All-might and all he wanted to do was come home and spend time with you. When he walked in the door to the apartment you shared he had no idea how ugly the night was going to be. A small fight turned into something even bigger, and he would always regret what he said to you.

"What do you mean you don't care Katsuki?" You screamed at him as he dismissed you with a shrug.

"It was one hug (Y/N)! It's not like she had her tongue down my throat!"

"Just a hug? How dense are you? You know she's had a crush on you from the beginning! I told you how I felt about her, and yet you dismiss me like I'm just some crazy girlfriend!"

"Right now you're acting like a crazy possessive girlfriend! You know I hate it when you act like that! You don't trust me even though I've given you no reason to think otherwise!"

"How can you expect me to be okay with another girl throwing themselves at you when you don't even give me that kind of attention! I have to beg for you to give me attention, and I'm the girl your dating!"

"Did you ever think that maybe I don't give you attention because of how desperate you are for it? Desperation is not an attractive quality to have sweetie."

He regretted it as soon as it came out of his mouth, but was to prideful to apologize. Instead he watched as the tears formed in your eyes. You nodded at him as if everything became crystal clear and walked out the door.

I've cut your portrait framed within my mind
It remains untouched of your paints and brushes
Yet, still it changed all the time

When you left, not without warning or regrets
Nothing would fill this hole in my chest
Here's our farewell, I wish you nothing but the best

Bakugou thought you both just needed to cool off before you came back home. He knew the moment you walked out that he was in the wrong. He knew how insecure you were and he went at you like you were his enemy. He figured if he gave you a few days to calm down, he could apologize and everything would turn out fine. He was going to work on his outbursts and try and be the man you deserved.

Two days after the fight he came home ready to apologize. In the past when you fought it only ever took two or three days before you both calmed down to be able to talk. He walked into the apartment thinking you would be home, but he was wrong. He walked into the kitchen and saw a note on the countertop along with the spare key.

Dear Katsuki,

I hate myself for doing this through a letter, but I don't think I would be able to go through with this if I saw you in person. The last year has been one of the best years of my life. I have fallen more in love with you than I ever thought possible. I think it's because of that love that I was blinded with my true feelings. I don't think you've noticed this, but for the last few months I have been miserable. I kept trying to assure myself that things would change, that we were just going through a phase, but the longer I told myself that, the worse I felt. It's no surprise that I crave attention. You called it desperation. It took me hearing those words for it to finally click in my mind. You can't give me what I need, because you don't understand it. I don't blame you for it either. It's not how your hardwired. You aren't one for pda, and you told me that from the beginning. I was foolish to think that I could change you or myself for the matter. I know now what it is you need in a partner and I hate to admit that it isn't me. I'm doing this for you Katsuki. I hope one day you can find someone that compliments you better than I did. Just know that I will love you for as long as I live, and I hope one day you can fully open your heart up to someone.

-(Y/N)

Bakugou would never admit this to anyone, but after he read your letter he broke down into tears. He couldn't believe he didn't notice how miserable you were the last few months. He should've paid more attention to you. He should've showered you with the affection you deserved.

Can you tell me what hurts more?
Is it remembering or forgetting?
The best that once was ours
Am I remembering, still remembering, or forgetting?

So my love, goodbye
So my love, goodbye

Tell me what hurts more
Is it remembering or forgetting?
The best that once was ours
Am I remembering, still remembering?

Can you tell me what hurts more?
Is it remembering or forgetting?
The best that once was ours
Am I remembering, still remembering
Am I remembering, still remembering, or forgetting?

As the song finished Bakugou found a new purpose. He was going to get you back. No matter how many times he had to apologize or grovel. He needed you in his life and he wouldn't stop until you were his again. You were the love of his life and he wouldn't stop until you took him back.

Listen to the song: here