A/N: So I was scrolling through some fanart and I saw a piece that inspired me to write this. It probably helped that I watched shelter as well, but yeah. Most of this will be written from Duncan's P.O.V but I'll add in a few chapters with Lilith's P.O.V. Anyway do tell me what you guys think.

Till next time,

D.L.D

1st Year- It's hard without you

It's been a year. A year since you left. A year since Courtney's been nagging at me to get myself together. A year since I've had to push you to the back of my mind to focus on being a dad. Ironically I actually listened to Courtney for once. Funny, huh. But I guess the only reason I listened to her was because of what you left behind.

Lilith.

Where do I begin? You've missed so much. Her first steps, first words. Things that you'll never get to see. It's a shame you had to... I could imagine you there, all happy and fine. None of this would've actually happened.

I still can't believe you're gone. It's difficult to get past that. Denial or maybe just grief. I'm not sure which yet, even after a year. I used to spend hours just moping about while Bridgette, Geoff, Courtney and Leshawna tried to snap me out of it. They always used to say I was a mess and needed to find a way to stay strong and stuff like that. Though it never swayed me, I always used to brush it to the side. Now that I think back to it, it was pretty funny.

But right now, I've gotta focus on looking after our Lily bud. Even if it still hurts I have to put on a smile for her. All because I'm hurting inside doesn't mean she won't have a good childhood. There's no way I'm following my father's footsteps in being a shitty dad. I'll never stoop that low. I swear my life on it.

She's always full of surprises you know. It makes me feel better to know I've still got a piece of you left behind. It makes me feel better about everything.

A few days ago Lilith surprised me with a picture. She's great at drawing, I wonder where she gets that from. But then again, that's a stretch since she's only one. Guess I'll have to wait for her to get older.

Love you always Sunshine,

Duncan