A/N: Well, I wasn't planning to put this up for today but I decided to anyway! They don't take too long and I like the bittersweetness it gives me when I read over it.

Anyway, I just thought to add a chapter for this year since at the age of four most kids start school in the UK. This would be a big change for Duncan plus I can insert some scenes with the other characters. Gotta wait for the 7th year for a Lilith chapter, or 5th if I get Duncan to help her. Probably 5th.

Thanks for the kind reviews TDFan and Perfectlove990! I'm glad you guys like the story.

Anyway, hope you all enjoy!

D.L.D

4th Year- School Begins

Well, it's been a year. I'd better tell you everything that's happened.

Four years. That's right, it's been four years. That means Lilith's starting school and I couldn't be anymore on edge. Not that I'm worried about her, but I'm worried about her feeling like she's different. I guess it's because I'm scared of telling her why it's only me and her and why her mom's not there. I don't feel like I can bring up that topic without breaking down. It's been a while since I've actually broken down. I just suffer on the inside.

Courtney and Leshawna always say I'm overthinking when they come to visit. In my opinion, I say they're overreacting. Sure, I'm worrying about this a lot, but I'm not overthinking. That's Courtney's job.

I remember the last time she came over. Lilith and I were just mucking about outside, trying to plant some flowers since she's been fascinated by them for a while. Then the stuck-up and annoying woman comes and gasps at the sight. She then goes on a rant about how girls shouldn't be getting covered in filth and playing with insects, when we were just planting flowers. She acted like I let her play with knives. Wow...

She also scolded me about letting Lilith repair the car with me. Not that I let her do much more than hand me a tool or two. But can you blame me? I'm not exactly the type to say let's do each other's hair or makeup. Or let's be fairy princesses! I doubt Lilith would like that anyway. She seems to enjoy playing in the 'filth', as Courtney calls it, with me.

But the snob does have a point. Lilith can't just be raised by a man, she's gotta have some female input. Too bad I don't see myself getting with anyone else for the rest of my life. But Bridgette, Courtney and Leshawna should be fine. But Lilith doesn't need to worry about makeup or boys. Oh, that second one scares me. Hopefully she'll have a good sense like her mom, or I don't know what'll happen. I guess she'll find ways to be more feminine as she gets older. Only time will tell.

But now, I gotta think about the whole school thing. It's definitely going to be a shift in my usual schedule. Waking up early, getting the both of us ready, dropping her off and picking her up. I'm pretty sure you'd laugh if you saw me doing her hair. Tying those damn bows sure does get on my nerves, though I seem to be improving. Like you used to say it just takes practice. I wish the same could be said for getting over losing you...

The pain's still there and I just feel like waiting for it to heal is just making it worse. Sometimes even looking at Lilith brings back memories...

You know, doing this has really helped with the whole school thing. I have a feeling our Lily bud's gonna be ok. She's a tough one, just like her mom. Hey, she managed to get me out of my mopey mood! Something even you struggled to do. She'll definitely achieve great things.

Everyday still feels like a million years,

Duncan.