A/N: So, I guess as she gets older I'll make Lilith reach out to her mom for advice. There'll be two chapters for this year since there'll be two letters, one for each person.
Till next time,
D.L.D
11th Year- I'm staying strong for him
Hey mom,
I feel bad for not writing to you all these years. I bet you thought I forgot you...
Well, I didn't. I just haven't had time to think about myself or you. I'm too busy thinking about dad. It's not because I think he's depressed or anything, it's just- I have things I can't tell him. I don't wanna pressure him. You know?
It's not that I don't trust him; I trust my dad with all my life. I mean he looked after me, all by himself, when he didn't have to. I'm a reminder of you, a reminder of something that's missing, something that's not coming back- I'm...the reason you left.
Don't try and sugarcoat it. I know I am. If I wasn't born, then you wouldn't have gotten pre-eclampsia, I looked it up, and wouldn't have slipped into the coma and died. I'm the reason why you're not here and I'm reminded of that every day. By the same stupid people! Why can't they just leave me alone...
Sorry to vent on you. My tears are probably gonna ruin the ink now. Stupid crying. I just- I can't control my emotions right now. I'm trying to stay strong for my dad, no I'm sating strong for him, it's just I don't know how much more I can take.
I really want to tell him, but I don't wanna be another burden for him to carry. So...can I tell you? I'll take your eternal silence as a yes. I'm...getting bullied.
Ok, I know I should tell my dad but it's just another thing to worry about! It's not like I'm suicidal: just emotional, maybe self-depreciating too? I just don't like talking about it. Ava, she's Bridgette and Geoff's older twin, always asks me if I'm ok at school. She always looks out for me, so does Aaron, but one day they won't be there. I'm scared for that day.
Chanel and her posse are bitches. They- they don't care about what they're doing to me. I had to lie once and say I got a black eye from playing soccer. I felt so bad... I don't want to lie to my dad, but I don't wanna tell him what's happening either.
What should I do, mom? I know this isn't what other girls usually ask their moms, but I just want to ask you this. I heard moms give good advice ;)
Just send me a sign,
Lilith