After us both deciding that we wanted a private meal away from the world; Ben rang the Belle Vue Lounge and they prepared us a private room. We then talked aimlessly for twenty minutes and as the limousine pulled to a stop I couldn't stop a smile spreading across my face at the fact that me and Ben were finally away from the world.
When we got out of the limousine Ben directed me to the back alley of the Belle Vue Longue; and he led me by the hand so we could enter without the whole world knowing.
After we entered the hotel me and Ben were then shown to one of the private rooms in the hotel and I grinned as they shown us to the room that me and Ben had shared so many date nights before. Our room was a large room that had wood running along the walls; there was dark blue carpet on the floor and a long large wooden table in the centre of the room. Not too far away in the left hand side of the room there was a small bar and an assortment of dark blue leather couches with a glass table. On the right hand side of the room there was an already lit fireplace with similar couches and glass coffee table; waiting for us if we should want to use them.
"I love this place" I grinned as Ben closed the door behind us.
"Me too" he agreed as he eagerly walked forward and pulled my chair out for me. I smiled at him as I slowly sat down and I let him push my chair in for me; I loved how gentlemanly Ben was - and this was something that I was going to miss come tomorrow. "So what would the lady like to drink?" I heard him ask as he stepped up to my left side and grinned down at me. "Red or white?" he asked and I froze at this.
"Actually-" I began. "Soft drink" I added. "I'm not in the mood for wine" I advised further.
"Oh" he muttered. "I see" he noted. "Well what the lady wants she shall have" he smiled as he quickly turned around and walked towards the bar.
"Thank you" I said as he walked behind the bar as he poured me a coke zero as he got himself a beer. I then watched as he quickly walked towards our table before he placed both of our drinks down. "Thank you" I repeated as he quickly dropped onto his chair in front of me.
"You're very welcome" he smiled warmly at me. "This is nice" he added. "Thank you for suggesting this Mal; we both needed this" he advised.
"Yeah" I smiled back at him.
"I want to say I am sorry-" he began.
"What for?" I questioned in confusion.
"Since our engagement party I feel like I have neglected you" he admitted as he pursed his lips together.
"Ben you have had a lot going on" I replied. "Please don't start worrying about this" I urged.
"Hard not to Mal" he stressed. "I had imagined that after our engagement party it would be very different" he advised.
"How?" I asked.
"Well I had planned that we would have went away on a short holiday" he admitted.
"Oh" I muttered. "I didn't know that" I added.
"No" he said. "I was going to surprise you" he confessed.
"I appreciate it Benny" I stated happily.
"Thank you" he answered as he reached forward and took both of my hands in his. "I love you Mal" he advised lovingly.
"I love you too Ben" I replied as I run my thumbs along his hands. When we continued to gaze into each other's eyes I started to fill with confusion as what to do. This would be a perfect time to tell him about our baby; I opened my mouth to start the conversation but I involuntarily froze. I was then hit with a sudden wave of fear at the fact regardless whether Ben was the father Uma probably would try to hurt my baby. I felt driven to protect them at all costs - even if I had to hurt Ben for the time being.
"Mal" I heard Ben say, which broke me out of my train of thought. "Everything ok?" He questioned.
"Yeah, why?" I answered.
"You looked deep in thought" he noted.
"I was" I confirmed. "I was just thinking about how things are against what they could have been" I lied; as I started to mentally kick myself.
"Yeah" he sighed as he looked down at the table. "Mal I am trying to make this better for you" he urged.
"I know you are" I urged.
"I might not be the father" he said and I watched as a glimmer of hope entered his eyes.
"I know" I offered. "But we can't make any plans or decisions until we know for sure" I reminded him sadly.
"Thank you for being here with me through it" he smiled warmly again.
"Of course Ben" I answered happily. "Of course" I repeated as I began to mentally kick myself once more. I hate myself due to the fact that I am really going to hurt my soulmate; but hopefully he will understand - eventually.