After finishing our dance we then sat on the leather couches cuddled in silence as we watched the fire. As I continued to enjoy the remainder of my time with Ben I still couldn't escape the mixed feeling of doing best for our baby and supporting Ben throughout this Uma situation. Even though I was crippled with pain and guilt at the fact that I was leaving Ben I was driven to protect our baby; and just like Ben they were innocent in all of this but I needed to make sure that they weren't going to be at risk of any harm.
When we left the Belle Vue Lounge and climbed back into Ben's limousine I couldn't help but give the Belle Vue Lounge one last glance. This was probably the last time in a while, if not at all, that I would have the lifestyle that Ben gave me. Yes at some point he would find out about our little one but when he did there were going to be three situations that we wound find ourselves in.
First of all, he could only know about mine and his baby as he was in fact the father to Uma's baby. There was no way that she was going to tolerate another contender to the throne in years to come; and sadly as her baby is older than mine they would take the crown of Auradon.
Second of all if Ben wasn't the father to Uma's baby we could continue where we left off, well that was on the assumption that Ben would be happy about our baby. Yes children was something that me and Ben had talked about in the past; but not now so I didn't know he was going to react - which led us into the third possible situation.
Thirdly if Ben wasn't the father to Uma's baby he could completely freak out, especially given what he was currently going through. I would understand this; but I knew that if he wasn't ready for a baby then we would have to talk about where this would leave us - as I knew that I couldn't do anything to hurt Ben's baby.
As I cuddled into Ben as we started to make our way back to Auradon Castle I pushed away what each of these situations would mean for me and Ben. I know which one I secretly hoped for; but I didn't want to fixate upon it too much in case it didn't go the way that me and Ben wanted to. As this would break my heart even further as it was already currently in the process of shattering into a thousand pieces.
When the limousine pulled to stop me and Ben broke apart from our make out session and we smiled sweetly at each other.
"Ready when you are my love" he smiled at me as he brushed his nose against mine.
"Ok" I smiled back.
"See you later Dawson" Ben directed to his driver.
"Ok your Majesty" I heard Dawson reply. "Lady Mal" he added.
"Goodnight" me and Ben said together which made Dawson chuckle. Me and Ben then tightened our arms around each other and we smiled at each other; I then quickly teleported into my room in the right wing. We both chuckled as we landed on my bed. We then started to gaze into each other's eyes as I continued to let my brain plague me about what I was about to do.
"What's wrong Mal?" He questioned, which broke me out of my train of thought.
"I'm just thinking that we did have plans to live here" I advised.
"We still have plans" he replied.
"You can't say that Ben" I sighed.
"Mal I believe that we will get married" I urged. "Live here" he continued. "And have children of our own" he finished and I pursed my lips together.
"But-" I began as I started to think about whether I should tell him about our baby.
"No buts Mal" he urged cutting me off and making the decision for me to stay quiet. "We just have to listen to our hearts and believe" he stressed.
"I am trying Ben" I urged back. "I really am" I added. "It's just I can't come to believe it fully until we know the truth" I advised. This was the truth I couldn't make myself believe that me and Ben could enjoy a life together until the paternity of Uma's baby. I couldn't bring myself to start to hope and dream about the life and children that we wanted.
"I know baby" he said with a meek smile. "But as long as we have each other I know that we will get through this" he added.
"You told the council that you might have to marry Uma" I reminded him as I started to run my fingers slowly through his hair.
"I know" he sighed. "Error in bad judgement" he added as he cupped the right hand side of my face with his left hand. "But I have a few ideas to stop that" he advised. "Should that happen" he gulped.
"Like what?" I questioned in confusion.
"Abdication" he muttered.
"What?" I asked in shock. I didn't want Ben to give up his crown; he was born to be King. This Kingdom needed him; and it wasn't going to be fair to take him away from his duty. And surely he knew that him abdicating would have consequences?
"Ben you can't do that" I stressed.
"I can" he pressed. "Yes a lot of people would be upset-" he continued. "But you are my world" he smiled at me.
"And you are mine Ben-" I began as I brought my right hand down and cupped the left hand side of his face. "But I don't want you to give up your throne" I advised sadly.
"I know that baby" he replied. "But I will if it means we can be together" he shrugged.
"I don't think it will work" I advised.
"Why not?" He questioned.
"If you abdicate Uma will act as regent until your child is old enough to take the throne" I said as I took a couple of deep breaths to steady myself as I started to panic at this thought.
"No she won't!" He exclaimed. "The council would never allow her to be regent; they would vote a leader" he explained.
"Someone has been looking into this" I teased.
"Of course" he chuckled as he brushed his nose against mine.
"So you are happy for your son or daughter to rule in years to come?" I asked. "Have nothing to do with them?" I added. Yes I wanted a life with Ben and our baby; but I didn't want him to give up his duty. I also knew that if he was the father to Uma's baby he wouldn't turn his back on his baby. Yes I would come to terms with this but I would never expect to give up on his Kingdom or baby.
"Well I would have to have something to do with them Mal" he confirmed.
"I know" I nodded. "I just don't want to think about these things" I confessed. "Everything is just getting too much" I admitted as I tried to push away the continuing burning of apprehension in my stomach.
"Hey!" He exclaimed as he dropped his arms from me and he pulled me into a hug. "Everything will be ok Mal" I heard him say over my right shoulder. "I promise" he vowed.
"I hope so Ben" I answered as I snuggled into him. "I hope so" I muttered to myself. I didn't know what life had planned for me and Ben as a couple; but I knew that I was doing the right thing protecting our baby - and this is what I was currently concentrating on.