Hope you enjoy. Warnings in the first chapter.

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Tailgate laid on the berth. Chromedome left the two alone. Tailgate talked a bit and pleaded Cyclonus to kill him. Cyclonus refused to do so. Cyclonus rested both arms next to Tailgate, one hand on his left hand covering his face. Tailgate rested his right arm on Cyclonus'.

"You always said that Hope is a lie. I guess I showed you," said Tailgate. "... Cyclonus? ... hey, it's okay."

"How is it going to be okay?! You're dying and will be dead really soon," said Cyclonus and then whispered the rest. "I can't bare to lose you. Not after all we've been through. I love you."

"I love you too Cy, but fate had different plans for us. Don't grieve too much for me. Keep me in your spark at all times. Never forget me," Tailgate whispered. "I will always be with you. Don't do anything stupid. I don't want you to follow me."

"You can't die. I won't let you," Cyclonus murmured softly. "You need to hold on. Just stay with me. I don't want to lose you."

"Cyclonus please, you won't lose me forever. Just keep me in your spark. Let me go," Tailgate pleaded.
"Everything will be alright. Please let me go."

"I won't ever let you go. Not in a million years," said Cyclonus and leaned forward. He gently kissed Tailgate. "Never."

He moved Tailgate a bit and climbed on, kissing Tailgate. Tailgate reached up with both arms and gripped onto Cyclonus. They held the kiss there, not knowing that Whirl watched them. He left and thought of something to save Tailgate.

~~~000

Cyclonus came in with his Great Sword. He took Whirl's advice to save his secret lover and friend. Tailgate looked toward the door to see Cyclonus with the sword. He thought that Cyclonus was taking his advice and killing him. He only had less then two minutes to live.

"Cyclonus, I think this is it," said Tailgate.

He watched Cyclonus raise his sword. He prepared himself to die. The sword went through his chest, spark, and berth he laid on. Cyclonus offlined his optics and held the sword there. He was getting weaker by the minute. Tailgate reached up one last time and held onto Cyclonus. He didn't feel his spark getting stronger as Cyclonus got weaker.

"Cyclonus, what do you think you're doing? Get away from him now," said Rodimus.

Cyclonus didn't move from where he stood. Tailgate gasped and groaned in pain when Cyclonus was ripped away from him. The purple bot struggled weakly to get back to Tailgate.

"Cyclonus," Tailgate whispered quietly as he reached out.

The last thing he saw was Cyclonus getting hit on the back of his head, and falling to the ground.

~~~000

Cyclonus woke up in the brig. He looked around and spotted Rodimus in front of the cell. He tried to get up, but found himself cuffed and chained.

"I am disappointed in you Cyclonus. Why were you attempting to kill Tailgate?" asked Rodimus.

"I was trying to save him. I was transferring my spark energy to his. You pulled me away. He could be dead now because my spark energy isn't keeping him alive now," Cyclonus growled.

"Why do I get the feeling I don't believe you," said Rodimus.

"He is telling the truth," said Whirl and walked up next to Rodimus. "The Great Sword is connected to the welder's spark. When he stabbed Tailgate, his spark energy went right to his spark. I told him that it may be the only way to save the shrimplet. Pulling Cyclonus away was really stupid. He won't wake up ever again now."

"He's dead," Cyclonus whispered. "It's all my fault. If only I had put more energy into him. My lover is dead now."

Rodimus nor Whirl heard him. Cyclonus screamed in anger and pain and hit the wall, denting it. Both looked at the chained bot in surprise. Cyclonus broke the chains and cuffs off and ripped the door off. He pinned Rodimus by the throat to the wall.

"You had better hope that he is alive. If not I'm going to kill you," Cyclonus growled dangerously.

He ran off toward the room he had been in. Cyclonus opened up the door and ran inside. He found Tailgate there motionless on the berth. The sword leaned against wall. Cyclonus walked forward and fell to his knees next to the berth. He held onto Tailgate's hand, hoping that he would wake up soon. He needed to know that Tailgate was awake, alive. He stroked Tailgate's face with his knuckles, hoping that it would wake him up.

"Please Tailgate, wake up," Cyclonus pleaded, a few tears streaming down his face. He wiped them away but more replaced them. "Just open your optics. That's all you have to do. I know that you're not dead. I saved you. Please just wake up."

"Cyclonus, he's dead," said Ratchet. "There is no way he can be alive."

"No! He's just sleeping! Tell me that he's just sleeping! That he's still alive!" Cyclonus shouted and went quiet. "He has to be alive. I just know it. I saved him. My spark energy went to his spark. I know that he's just sleeping and will wake up."

"Cyclonus face it. He's dead. Nothing could of saved him," said Ratchet.

"I could of saved him. My sword is connected to my spark. I was killing myself just to let him live. Rodimus pulled me away saying that I was killing him. The process was never complete. Now he's dead," Cyclonus whispered. "I'm going to kill him. It's his fault that Tailgate is dead. We loved each other."

Cyclonus stood up and left the room. He searched the ship for the one responsible for his lover's death. He was going to tear him apart slowly piece by piece. Everyone tried to stop him. Word had gotten to them of Tailgate's death. They didn't suspect Cyclonus to take it hard. Rodimus was walking with Whirl when Cyclonus.

"RODIMUS!" Cyclonus screamed.

He charged forward and punched Rodimus. The commander hit the wall. He looked up to see Cyclonus stomping toward him, growling in anger. Whirl got in the way and held onto Cyclonus.

"Cyclonus stop. It's no one's fault that Tailgate is dead. Not Rodimus', not yours," said Whirl.

"Let me go Whirl. If he hadn't pulled me away, Tailgate would still be here," Cyclonus growled. He stopped struggling and gripped Whirl as tears came. "I could of saved him. Just a bit more time and he would still be here. I couldn't save him."

"It is no ones fault. Quit blaming yourself or anyone. Tailgate is a hero. Heroes don't last long. They never do," said Whirl. "Come on, would Tailgate like to see you this way? Blaming yourself for what couldn't be stopped?"

~~~000

Cyclonus sat in his hab suite. He couldn't bring himself to go to Tailgate's burial. A knock was heard.

"Go away," Cyclonus called back.

"It's me Chromedome. I just want to talk," said Chromedome.

He walked in to find Cyclonus staring out the window. He walked next to him and stared out the window too.
"I know what you're going through. Rewind was my lover too. He died a hero also, just like Tailgate," said Chromedome.

"Just leave me," said Cyclonus.

"Locking yourself up won't help anything. Believe me," said Chromedome. Silence. "Fine, I'll leave you. Tailgate will always be with you in your spark. He wouldn't like to see you like this. Hiding away."

Chromedome left after saying that. Cyclonus sighed and laid down. He stared at the ceiling. He couldn't... didn't want to believe that his lover was gone, dead. He got up and left outside the ship. He transformed and left. He knew where to go.

~~~000

"That can't be the best you got," Cyclonus growled.

He had left to some old enemies he had to settle a score with. They had him on his knees, which were tied together. His arms were also tied together behind his back. A chain connected it all and was wrapped around his body. The red and black mech growled and punched Cyclonus again, harder. Energon leaked from the purple mech's mouth and chest.

"Why did you even come to us after all these years Cyclonus?" asked the red and black mech.

"Something bad must of happened," said a yellow and grey mech.

"That isn't your business. Just kill me," Cyclonus spat.

"Not yet," said the red and blue mech.

They continued to beat Cyclonus to death. They finished and left started to leave. When they turned around, they saw Rodimus, Whirl, and Ultra Magnus standing there. They ran away. Cyclonus barely saw them. His head hung from how weak he was.

"Cyclonus?" asked a small voice.

Cyclonus froze at the voice. It couldn't be. He is dead. He managed to lift his head to find the image of Tailgate faded and blurred. He saw Tailgate run to him and rest against his chest, keeping him up.

"You're dead. This is just an illusion," Cyclonus whispered.

"I'm here Cyclonus. You saved me from death. Your spark energy was enough to save me," Tailgate whispered and undid the chain, freeing his lover.

"I missed you so much," Cyclonus muttered and darkness took over.

~~~000

Cyclonus woke up in the medibay. He looked over to find Tailgate sleeping in a chair next to him. He sat up and stared at Tailgate. His love was awake. He was alive. Ratchet was wrong. He knew that Tailgate was only sleeping. Said mech woke up and looked at Cyclonus. He took off his mask and set it down. Cyclonus picked Tailgate up and held him close. Tailgate pulled Cyclonus into a kiss.

"I love you so much Tailgate," Cyclonus murmured.

"I love you too Cy. Please don't do anything reckless like that again," said Tailgate.

"I won't. Not with you here," said Cyclonus and kissed Tailgate again.