After making out for what felt like a perfect eternity me and Ben then went and got ready for bed; I was glad that I had suggested that me and Ben have this time together. We were both going to need it and hold it dear when I leave; and I knew that I couldn't tell Ben about what I was intending to do - he would never let me leave.

When I walked back into my bedroom; I couldn't help but smile at the fact that Ben was already waiting for me, dressed in nothing more than his dark blue boxers with small golden crowns on.

"Mal" I heard him say as I started to make my way over to the left hand side of the bed.

"Yes?" I answered, not looking up at him.

"Is something wrong?" I heard him say causing me to look up at him to see A sea of concern in his usually calm leaf green eyes. "You looked deep in thought" he noted.

"Just thinking about how things are for us at the moment" I advised as I climbed onto the bed and started to pull the covers back.

"I see" he noted. "Mal let's not try and think about that" he dismissed. "I know it is difficult to do but I just want to be in the moment with you right now" he smiled as he rolled onto his right side and propped himself up on his right elbow.

"I know" I muttered as I rolled onto my left side and copied his actions. "Nothing is going to ruin this moment" I smiled as I really wanted to spend our time together wisely. "I just want to be with you" I said lovingly as I reached over with my right hand and I cupped the left hand side of his face.

"And I just want to be with you" he replied as we both kicked the covers back. "Come here" he grinned and we both cuddled together.

"Hmmm" I purred as Ben pulled the covers over us. "I've missed this" I smiled as I snuggled into the crux of his neck.

"Me too" I heard him say and I slowly looked up at him. "I love you Ben" I advised as I cupped his face in both of my hands. "Please never ever forget that" I urged as I stared into his eyes.

"I never will" he promised as he brushed his nose against mine. "As long as you don't forget that I love you" he smiled. "And that you are the only one for me" he promised.

"I will Ben" I promised as I dropped my hands from his face and I quickly slid my arms around his neck and pulled him into a hug. I couldn't help but let my face drop in pain and disappointment over his shoulder; I hated the fact that I was going to hurt him but I needed to keep our baby safe. Until I knew where me and Ben stood after the truth finally came out about Uma's baby; I was currently being driven by how much pain and risk our little one was at and I could only hope that Ben would understand my actions - in time.

When we pulled away we grinned at each other and we began to gaze in each other's eyes. I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed by how much I loved Ben. He was everything to me; which is why this situation was breaking me in two. Before I could fixate on this any further I crushed my lips against his lips and I sighed against his lips as I felt his lips move against mine. I then felt Ben slid his hands onto my hips as his lips continued to slowly move against mine. I slowly slid my arms around his neck as he deepened the kiss and his tongue slid against mine. We moaned against each other's mouths as our arms tightened around each other; which kept our bodies pressed tightly against each other's. When the need to breath came we broke away and rested our foreheads against each other's as we started to work on calming our breathing down.

I watched as Ben smiled at me and before I could say or do anything he pressed his lips against mine once more. When he crushed his lips against mine once more and we started to fall into a long and loving make out session. The longer the kisses went on the more heated they got; I slowly cupped his face in both of my hands as I felt Ben's arms tighten around me. I moaned against his mouth again when his tongue slid against mine; we broke apart for a few seconds to quickly take a breath before our lips found each other once more. We started to kiss quickly and passionately and then it started to turn very wet and messy with our teeth and tongue clanging together. After kissing like this for what felt like a blissful eternity, we pulled away and smiled happily at each other. Yes I was happy that me and Ben had this time together; as it was what was going to get me through this whole mess.