Chris was a fixture at his bed side for the next few hours. They had taken the ventilator out as he was breathing ok on his own. She held his hand, talked to him and occasionally let herself daydream about a happy future with him. Nurse Jamie knocked at the door. Chris motioned for her to come in.
"I'm sorry, I just need to check is morphine drip" she smiled politely.
"That's ok" Chris said, "don't mind me" Nurse Jamie smiled looking at Chris's fingers intertwined with his whilst her thumb stroked his hand. Chris was sitting in the chair right next to the bed, one hand in his and with the other was scrolling through her phone.
"If you don't mind me asking," Nurse Jamie began "How long have you two been together?"
Chris blinked slowly, "Ah, we ah …." she looked at her hand in Streets and then looked up at her, "I guess we really aren't together like officially," Chris was suddenly self-conscience. "We …um…...have been close to getting there, a few times and…. Gosh it's a pretty long and complicated story"
Nurse Jamie nodded caringly, "Sorry I wasn't trying to pry or make you uncomfortable, I just like to get to know my patients and their loved ones. I can see how much you care about him is all."
Chris smiled. "I get it, this …... almost losing him…. I mean" she said squeezing his hand a little "this has made me see that I need to stop worrying about other things and focus on what is important in life." She glanced back at Street and pursed her lips. "We were working on sorting the last little hurdle and were just getting back on track and then …. Um…. this…..." she sighed.
Nurse Jamie walked back around the bed. She placed a hand on Chris's shoulder.
"He is a fighter, I will give him that. He must want to get back to you"
Chris closed her eyes and smiled. "God, I hope so…" she said.
The sun began to set, and Chris sat on the window ledge watching it. Not realising that the roles were completely reversed now. Street had sat on her ICU rooms' window ledge waiting for her to wake up too. Then she heard them, heard them before she could see them, Deacon, Tan and Luca's voices were drifting through the quiet ward. She glanced back to the door and smirked as Deacon shushed Tan and Luca who were laughing loudly and carrying on.
"Hey…" Deacon said opening the door.
"Hey… how was shift?" She asked as they came in.
"Meh…" Tan said frowning, "Pretty dull. You didn't miss much"
"Hondo and Logan are on their way up too, they stopped for sodas." Deac explained.
"How is he Chris?" Luca said walking to Street's side and patting his hand.
"Um…. Apparently, the surgery went well, they are just monitoring him and waiting for him to wake up" she said sitting on the end of his hospital bed.
The team laughed and joked for a few hours. Telling stories of Streets antics and Chris really liked it. Spending time with them all and actually feeling good about being here made her hopeful, hopeful he would wake, and she have him back.
As it started getting late, Tan said he needed to go, he had to pick Bonnie up from work, and Hondo figured he better start sending them all home, before the nurses get upset with their noise. As Luca and Logan headed out with Tan, he said
"I'll bring some fresh clothes and things in tomorrow"
Chris nodded at him, "Thanks, night guys". Hondo looked at her.
"You should go home and sleep Chris…you need to rest as much as he does"
She was tired and she knew he was right, but she didn't want to leave his side. She picked up his hand and held it,
"I…. I hate leaving him here alone" She said glancing at Hondo and Deacon before looking back at him lying there.
Deacon frowned and gave a Hondo an 'I'm worried about her' look. Chris couldn't look back up at them. She sat there holding his hand and looking out the window.
"Chris" Hondo started, stepping towards her. "You need to sleep,"
"I can sleep here" she cut him off,
"No, I mean really sleep…. rest and recharge." He added
"I just …... hate the thought of him having no one here for him…. What if …." She gently squeezed his hand as she felt tears beginning to well slightly "What if he…..." she stopped mid-sentence and looked up at them both with shock all over her face, then quickly her attention was back on Street….
"He … ah … he just squeezed my hand" she yelled excitedly.
Deac and Hondo moved to the bed. "Hey Street…. Street can you hear us?" Hondo said.
"Hey…...Street" Chris gently touched the side of his face. "Street" she leant into him a little holding his hand to her chest.
A faint murmur escaped his lips. Chris smiled a smile so wide… she glanced at Hondo and Deacon who were on the other side of the bed, they smiled to and Deac patted Hondo's arm.
"Yes…. Come on Street" he said encouragingly.
"Can you hear me?" Chris said as his eyes finally after 2 days and 2 surgeries began to flicker slightly.
"Hey…... there you are…... hey" she said sitting on the edge of the bed and running her hand over his head. Blinking and slowly flickering his eyes began to open as he tried to focus. Chris leant over him. "Hey, you" she said with sweetness in her voice.
"mmmmmmm…" he mumbled and groaned "HHH…. (Cough)"
"Hey, take it easy" Deacon said, "maybe don't try to speak"
"Can you nod if you can hear me?" Chris said. He slowly opened his eyes and managed to focus on her. She was smiling at him and holding his hand and for a moment he thought he must be dreaming or had died and was in his version of heaven.
"Street …..." she touched his face with the back of her fingers, "Hey… can you hear me?"
He slowly nodded. Chris felt her heart explode with happiness. "Oh god…. Thank god" she said looking at Deac and Hondo.
"You bloody gave us all a fright kid" Hondo said. Patting his shoulder,
"Yeah… don't do that again" Deacon said patting his leg.
"You good Street?" Hondo asked
Street felt groggy and sore. Pain shooting through his chest, abdomen and legs. He grimaced and Hondo could see he was in pain.
"I'll go get the nurse" Hondo said.
"Excuse me," Hondo said poking his head out of the door "he is awake"
Nurse Jamie dropped the paperwork she was sorting and quickly came in to assess him.
"Jim…" She said approaching the bed, "Nice to have you back with us, are you in any pain?"
He again grimaced and blinked slowly with a slight nod.
"I will increase the morphine drip to make you more comfortable, okay?" he managed to nod at her.
"Is he ok?" Chris said looking at Nurse Jamie.
"His body is likely in shock from the amount of pain he would be in now. He may not be 100% aware of his surrounding now as I am increasing his pain meds. I'll go page Doctor McGuiness"
Deacon and Hondo went to call the team and let them know he had woken up. Chris sat there with him, they were briefly alone. She leaned into him from the side of the bed.
"Hey… you" she said, a loving tone in her voice as she stroked his hair. His eyes moved to look at her. She could see he was weak and tired and in pain but she desperately with everything she had wanted to tell him…
"I…..." she moved her hand to cradle his face and whispered, "I've been waiting to tell you something…. I need to tell you something…" He summoned all the strength he could to lift his hand to hers on the side of his face and squeeze it a little, with a smile.
"I…... I" she breathed heavily, shit…... why was this so hard? He closed his eyes and nuzzled her hand, she could see he liked that contact. It was so comforting to him.
"Hey …I need you to know something" she said softly. He opened his eyes and turned his head to face her, he smiled a strained smile at her.
"What?" the whisper of his voice was so quiet, she barely heard him.
"I want you to know right now…I need you to know because I almost lost you and lost the chance to make sure you …."
Street was weak but still managed to smile at her fumbling and rambling. He squeezed her hand enough to get her to stop talking at look at him.
"What is it?" he whispered,
She leaned down put her forehead on the side of his forehead. "Oh god" she mumbled,
Her being that close made him happy, he still had hold of her hand and he stroked her fingers, blinking slowly at her. She drew her eyes up to his and brought her face around to be in front of his. With her forehead on his and amazing burst of tingles ran through her, she looked deep into his eyes and whispered,
"I love you"
Street was weak, yes, and in pain, yes but in that moment hearing her whisper those words to him he felt incredible, invincible and like the world was perfect. He looked in her eyes, he could see the how much she meant what she said, the sincerity and love in her voice was unmistakable. He blinked at her and smiled, and his dimples beamed.
"You know I love you too" he whispered back.
Before they both moved in and locked their lips together, the fireworks that exploded inside her heart as she kissed him was the most amazing feeling. Street in that moment still didn't feel his physical pain. The endorphins and pheromones his brain was producing in reaction to the love of his life admitting out loud that she loved him was making him feel nothing but a surge of love and passion.
Chris heard voices coming down the corridor and drew back from him. Smiling at him, her eyes locked to his.
The door slid open and Nurse Jamie came in with Doctor McGuiness at her side.
"Mr Street" Doctor McGuiness began. "Nice to have you with us now" his voice was kind and compassionate. "How are you feeling?"
Street was still soaring high on cloud 9. He was about to say "Amazing" when a wave of pain shot through him. He suddenly felt it all again. He looked down at his lower body, and saw the bandages and dressings covering the burns, his chest hurt, and he lifted his hand to feel the wound on his chest.
"Sore" he managed, Doctor McGuiness spoke to Nurse Jamie about his pain medication.
"We will give you something stronger to make you more comfortable" he said touching Streets lower leg reassuringly.
"Can we get another ECG, and full blood count" He said turning to Nurse Jamie.
"Doc," Street managed to half whisper half mumble, "Am I gunna…. (Cough) I am I gunna be ok?"
"Mr Street, you have some very serious injuries. You are going to take time to heal and you need understand that I can't promise you 100% what will happen right now. You are on the road to recovery through, and you need to stay positive".
Street nodded and rested his head back on the bed, closing his eyes. Doctor McGuiness turned to Chris. "I'll go and arrange some tests and hopefully we will know more"
Chris smiled and nodded at him. Nurse Jamie was fixing the drips and adjusting his dosage of pain medications, she glanced at Chris who was smiling at Street laying there with his eyes closed. She was holding his hand in hers against the side of her face.
"I love happy endings" she whispered to Chris as she went to leave, Chris smiled and nodded and closed her eyes to saviour the moment.
Suddenly, Beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep
Chris's eyes flew open and it took her a second to work out what it was. Her eyes focused as she realised the noise was alarms on the monitors across the bed and looking down at her hand her fingers intertwined with his, she knew something was wrong. Before she could turn around Nurse Jamie was at his side and had hit the emergency button. The PA began dinging loudly, calling a resus team to his room. Chris was frozen, shaking and holding her breath.
"Mr Street … Jim" Nurse Jamie said gently touching his shoulder, trying to get a response from him. Dr McGuiness was back in the room asking her to step back.
Chris moved quickly back, her hands shook, she couldn't speak. Deacon and Hondo ran down the hallway, hearing the alarm and voice knowing that was Streets room. Deacon grabbed her and tried to steer her out of the room.
"Come on they need to work" he said
She raised her arms, fighting him. "No…. no… he was just"
"Chris" Hondo placed both his hand on her arms. "We need to let them help him"
Again, she felt like her world had shattered in an instant. They guided her out to the waiting room across the hall.
