After giving us a little time with our little one Rosie then packed her machine together and left to give me and Ben some privacy. However before she left Ben asked Rosie to go and tell their family how Mal was; but not to reveal our baby's gender. She nodded to this; and she said that she would also tell our family that someone will come to get them when me and Ben were both ready.
"So you wanted to talk?" I asked after Rosie shut the door behind her.
"Yes" he confirmed as he rested his head against my pillow. "I think we have a lot to talk about" he added.
"Yes" I agreed. "I don't even know where to begin" I admitted.
"Me neither" he replied. "Why don't we start from the beginning?" he suggested and I nodded at this. "Why did you leave?" he asked and I looked down at the bed. I knew that me and Ben would have to have this conversation at one stage but it was very going to be awkward.
"I left-" I started.
"Because?" he prompted.
"I left-" I repeated.
"Yes?" he answered.
"I found out I was pregnant-" I began. "And I had to keep them safe" I continued to explain as I looked up at him. "On the night I left I tried to tell you-" I started as I started to remember that night. "But then Uma came in" I added. "I couldn't tell you with her there" I urged; and I watched as he nodded at this. "She would have tried to hurt me or the baby; especially as her baby wasn't yours" I finished.
"Did you know?" he asked in concern.
"No" I confirmed. "Evie told me" I added. "Just before you walked in" I continued.
"I see" he nodded.
"I didn't want to go Ben" I urged. "I really didn't; I didn't know what to do" I continued. "I tried to pluck up the courage to tell you all that night, I just couldn't" I stated. I needed Ben to understand this; I needed him to see why I had done what I had - then maybe we could try and build bridges and try and fix things. "That's why I went to the cottage in the woods" I advised. "I wanted to be close to you" I added. "A stupid thought I know" I shrugged.
"No!" he exclaimed. "No it's not" he urged. "Mal?" he asked.
"Yes?" I replied.
"When were you going to tell me about him?" he questioned as he went to slide his hand onto my stomach but he quickly stopped himself.
"What's the matter Ben?" I quickly asked. "Why did you stop?" I said in a panic.
"It doesn't matter" he dismissed.
"It does" I pressed. "Please tell me?" I pleaded; and he nodded at this.
"When you were gone Uma tried to keep my close but I wouldn't have it-" he began. "Then Harry told us that he was the father, then it was confirmed and it was just so confusing" he explained.
"I can imagine" I agreed. "But that really doesn't explain why you just stopped just then" I stated. "I know our baby has come as a surprise to you Ben; but I thought you were happy" I said as I pulled one brow up in confusion.
"I am Mal" he confirmed. "I am happy that I have found you and our baby" he smiled warmly that started to put me at ease about the situation. "I just-" he started.
"Yes?" I prompted.
"I don't know where we stand" he admitted. "You kissed me" he reminded me; and I bit down on my bottom lip.
"Yes" I repeated. "I'm sorry if that was too much" I offered. I started to mentally kick myself; just at the time I was just so in the moment - I hoped that I hadn't just made things even worse!
"No!" he urged. "No it wasn't" he added. "Mal I love you" he said lovingly.
"I love you too" I said happily.
"And you know what Mal?" he asked.
"What?" I replied.
"I love our baby too" he said proudly as he slid his right hand onto my stomach; and I couldn't help but grin at this.
"Ben come here" I said.
"What?" he questioned in confusion.
"I think we need a cuddle" I advised.
"There's not much room" he stated.
"Hang on" I nodded at this; and I quickly swept my right hand left to right and my hospital bed extended.
"I see" he chuckled as I slid over to the other side of the bed. I then watched as he kicked his shoes off, and he then shrugged out of his blazer and threw it over the back of the chair he had been sitting in.
"Cuddle time" he grinned as he pulled the covers back and started to climb into bed.
"Yes" I chuckled back as we both cuddled together. As we started to enjoy cuddling together I couldn't believe that I had been given another chance with Ben; I didn't doubt that he fell out of love with me it was that wouldn't blame him if he didn't want anything to do with me. But the fact that he wanted to continue the life that we had wanted before this whole mess meant a great deal to me; and I would make sure that Ben knew this.