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Hey guys thank you so much for the warm welcome. I am glad that some people are still enjoying this story. I am also glad to be back in the groove of writing it lol.

Shout out to Puella Lector SaintsFan1 WhitskersOnKittens kaybal3 and the awesome guest who reviewed.

To WhitskersOnKittens: I hope you enjoyed how he reacted and how she reacted (well I guess as much as you could for it being dark XD) It is definitely going to be a long road to recovery but honestly they had to have what is happening here to happen in order for the healing process to begin. This confrontation had to happen at some point.

Please let me know what you think I love hearing all of the thoughts and ideas of my awesome readers!

The tension in the room was almost physical as Kylo Ren and Isla Hux stared at one another from opposite sides of the room. Kylo took a moment to assess the state of his wayward prisoner. In only a week she had changed so much. The vibrant life he had first noticed about her was gone. She was deathly pale as one close to death. Her lips were cracked and tinted blue. Her cheeks were becoming sunken in as were eyes that were once so bright and mischievous now they blazed with anger and hatred and fear. Even though she was standing behind the storm trooper he could tell she had lost weight. How could she have changed so much in a week? Had she been eating? He knew he had food delivered to her. But he had never ensured she had been eating it. The storm trooper had never reported anything to him other than she was being fed. His anger bubbled because he had ordered her to be properly taken care of and it seemed that hadn't been the case at all.

Her thoughts swirled loudly in his head. She was waiting for him to speak. She was angry, and terrified of seeing him standing before her. She was holding the man in front of her hostage, but she was also hiding behind him as well keeping herself as far away from Kylo as she possibly could. He could tell she did not want to hurt the man. He could hear her apologizing to him again and again in her mind as she stood there holding the blaster and glass to his head. But she was also desperate and that was dangerous. She wanted something. Surely she did not expect this to be her way to escape. But her thoughts were so chaotic he could not tell what it was she wanted.

He could see her physically trembling behind the storm trooper. A part of him was highly satisfied at the fear she showed to him, another part of him was hit hard with the guilt of what had made her so. Before the events in Snoke's ship she had showed no fear. She had been strong and wild...and breathtaking..now look at what she had become. Kylo shook those thoughts away. She was his prisoner and... slave, he decided that he detested that word. But he still needed her. He also could not have her killing his men. It would not help his reputation on the ship if he allowed the idiot to die.

"What do you mean to accomplish by this?" He asked breaking the silence with his robotic voice causing her to jump and pull the storm trooper closer to her which in turn caused him to yelp.

"What...Did you expect me to lay down and be your well behaved little bitch?" She asked in her low growl. "Did you expect me wait here quietly and then spread my legs for you again?

Kylo had to force himself not to wince at her words. He didn't expect that at all. He slightly bent his head forward. What kind of man did she think he was? Did she not know how much he regretted what he had done? Did she not know he would have never laid a finger on her had he not been forced? No of course she didn't, and even if he were to try to tell her she wouldn't believe him. A memory suddenly flashed before his eyes from somewhere deep down where he had forgotten. It was an image of them as children. They were by a bonfire at night. He stood in front of the fire as she sat on a log with a look of awe on her face. He waved his hands in the air telling her the stories he had heard of his grandfather. But that image quickly faded away and he lifted his head again and focused back on her across the room. Once upon a time she would have believed anything he told her...but not now...not ever again. But he still had to try.

"Let him go….No one will harm you….I swear..." He said slowly.

Isla froze and stared at him for a moment. Suddenly her mind's voice loudly screamed in unison with what came from her mouth as she tightened her grip on the glass pressing into the storm trooper.

"LIAR!"

There was a suddenly click on his arm as a red light on his device turned red. A second later Isla gasped as her collar tightened around her neck and the needles of the device shot into her neck. She choked out a scream as the veins around her neck turned black and her shaking became worse. A strange black liquid began to stream from her nose. But she still refused to let the storm trooper go.

"See..what your bastard of a master has done..to me.." She gasped out.

Kylo felt his anger surge and his hands ball into fists at her insult of his master. He had to stay cool. He had to remain calm.

"Isla stop this." He said calmly. " Do as I say and this will stop...release him."

Isla scoffed and as she did she spewed out the black oil like liquid that ran down her chin and mixed with her blood. Her laugh came out as a broken scratchy laugh.

"You, you know you once told me that you wanted to be like your grandfather...But that will never happen..because...because you...are a coward." She stammered. "You will always only be Snoke's dog...and he...he will betray you...and leave you to die...as you deserve…"

That was it. Kylo felt his temper burst into flame as he pulled out his light saber and activated it before he pointed it straight at her. He raised his hand and in a single pull of the force ripped the storm trooper from her grasped and pulled him across the room until he hit the wall at Kylo's side. The man quickly scrambled to his feet and out of the room to his comrades. With a flick of his hand Kylo slammed the door behind them. He would handle this himself. He stepped towards her causing her to shrink back against the wall with wide eyes. How dare she insult him in this manner. HOW DARE SHE MENTION HIS GRANDFATHER. He was as powerful as him. HE WOULD SURPASS HIM. HOW DARE SHE SPEAK OF HIS MASTER! Kylo suddenly made a decision. He didn't need her. He would find another way to get to Skywalker. But she..she would pay now...and dearly.

"I told you I have killed for less…" He growled as he suddenly surged forward and crossed the room in two steps.

He grabbed her by the neck pressing the needles harder into her skin and lifted her off the ground. He reared back his arm preparing to run her through as he had his father when he suddenly froze. She had stopped trembling. Her thoughts had gone quiet in his head. He looked up to see she had closed her eyes. Her face had relaxed, the look of fear gone. Once again the feeling of relief washed over them both like a cool wave of water. Then a realization hit him. She was doing this on purpose. She was trying to get him to kill her. That was what she wanted. Kylo stared at her face as she waited for the killing blow. She looked at peace as she had the first time he had put her in the chair while she slept. How had he not realized before that this was what she was doing, and what was worse...he had almost done it. Another arrow of guilt hit him in the chest followed by a hit of anger at how easily he could be goaded to anger.

He slowly set her back down and released her neck. He lowered his light saber as she opened her eyes. He could feel the confusion coming from her as she looked at him. Then he saw her realization that he did not intend to kill her. Her eyes widened as feeling of despair exploded from her and he heard her scream in her head NO! NO NO NO NO! She gasped and suddenly lurched forward towards his light saber intending to throw herself on it. He gasped and barely had time to deactivate it before she ran herself through causing her to fall forward onto the ground. He stepped back from her. Isla slowly lifted her head staring into nothing.

"No," she thought in her head. "No no, this can't be..he was supposed to kill me. No...NO I have failed. No NO NO NOOOOO!"

Isla's scream in her head became a physical scream as she suddenly grabbed the abandoned helmet left by the storm trooper that had been dropped less than a foot away and jumped to her feet to attack Kylo Ren. But this time Kylo was ready for her. He blocked the helmet that she threw at his head but was not able to block the rain of punches she rained down on him afterwards. Her mangled cries echoed around the room and in his head as she fought like an insane vicious cat. Kylo did his best to grab her arms as she continued to beat on him. As he did he heard another click on his arm and heard her cry out as her device began to punish her for hurting her master. She began to gasp as the collar tightened around her neck cutting off her air supply.

"Isla STOP THIS!" He demanded.

Her answer was to lunge for the broken glass she had used to cut her arm. He lunged for it as well to keep it away from her causing them both to tumble to the ground. They struggled for the glass but she enclosed her hand around it first causing its sharpened edges to cut into her hand. Kylo could feel the pain she was feeling from it. He used the opportunity of her grabbing the glass to climb on top of her to straddle her stomach to hold her down. He reached out with his long arms to knock the glass from her grip causing it to rip her skin even more. She yelled out and began to throw punches at his face again.

"STOP THIS!" He cried as he struggled to grab a hold of her arms.

"WHY COULDN'T YOU LET ME DIE!?" she screamed as she rained punches on his mask and shoulders. "YOU HAVE TAKEN EVERYTHING FROM ME, I AM NO LONGER A HUMAN WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME DIE!?"

She landed a hard hit on his mask causing it to fly off his head. Kylo grunted in pain as the metal hit his nose on its way off his head. Suddenly everything stopped. Her punches ceased as she looked up into his face without the mask for the first time. His hair was wild and partly stuck to the skin of his face from sweat. Her eyes widened as she looked into his dark eyes, and he could see the recognition on her face. He felt confused as her feelings of fear and anger seemed to evaporate to be replaced with an immense sadness. Tears welled up in her eyes as she looked at him. Another vision flashed across his mind, this one came from her mind.

"I don't want you to go," young Isla sobbed and wrapped her arms around his larger frame as they sat together with their backs against the wall of the pantry.

She had heard that they would be leaving the next day and ran away in tears to hide. He had been the first to find her in their secret hiding place. She knew the adults were still looking for her but she didn't care. She never wanted to see them again because they were taking her Ben away.

"I don't want to leave either," The older child whispered as he wrapped and arm around her to return her embrace. "But my uncle says I have to..."

Before long they began to doze off leaning against one another.

"Ben," She said with a yawn.

"Yea?"

"One day when we are older I'm going to find you..and I'm going to marry you."

"Ok..." the young boy replied. "I think I would like that..."

He had no idea what that meant. But it sounded nice.

"You won't forget will you?" She asked

"I could never forget you...You're my best friend. Forgetting you would be like the sky forgetting the stars.

"You promise?"

"I promise."

"Hey Ben?"

"Yea Isles?"

"I love you.."

"I love you too.."

"Always and forever?" She asked as her eyes closed.

"Always..and..forever." He replied as he dozed off.

Suddenly a strangely familiar voice echoed in his head as the memory faded into darkness. It was the voice of an elderly woman. He recognized it from long ago as belonging to her mother.

"My child, you know he is not the same person you loved so long ago. He has changed. He is of the darkness. He will not remember you, he has forgotten the light...If you do this..you will be caused a pain the likes of which no one can imagine…"

"I know..." he heard Isla's voice echo in his mind.

"I know..."

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Alright wheewwww what a ride. Not gonna lie writing that memory after all of the in tenseness had me in tears. I love this couple so much even though this is a biiiigggggggg hurdle they are going through. Idk I'm just kind of like THEY BELONG TOGETHER! IT WAS FORSEEN IN THE STARSS! I love how as a kid he just kind of agreed to everything she said even though he had no idea what it meant. Girls tend to be more aware than boys of these things. Anyway we are going to start to see some changes this next chapter. As one of my awesome reviewers INVISIBLESKY0 called it, she had not seen his face up until this point only the mask. I did that for a specific reason. After the whole rape scene because that is what she saw during and after, that is what she has attached her fear to. But she remembers his face as someone she once loved. So we will see what happens. I'm not going to have her instantly fall in love with him again or forgive him instantly for all transgressions but I put these memories there for a reason because now we are about to start seeing a change in her and a change in him and their relationship from this point on. As I said before this confrontation HAD to happen for things to begin to change to get better with them. Anyway please let me know what you think. I will have the next update ready to go sometime this week, before Friday. Have a great evening!