A/N: It's been a long time, but now that I have regained access I am updating this story in a new direction. I have an explicit version of this story at AO3.

Chapter Two: Hangover

The sun pierced Lily's eyes as she started to wake up and groaned as she shielded her eyes. Her head throbbed as if it was in a vice. She tried to remember what happened last night. At the current moment her mind was a giant blur. She only remembered drinking one butterbeer. There was no way she was hung over. Lily recalled the butterbeer smelling a little off now. It had smelled like, like...She bolted up as the realization hit her.

"Amortencia!" She gasped. "Oh my god! Was there was love potion in it!"

Coldness pierced her body as the covers slid off her and she looked down. To her shock she was naked. Why am I naked? Did I take something with it and lose my mind for a moment? Lily looked over and saw a head of black hair. Someone was in her bed; some young man was asleep beside her in her bed. She gasped and took a few deep breaths as panic hit her in the gut. It looked like,

"Oh no, no, no, it was not him. Not him. Please don't be Severus." She thought audibly. She leaned over and looked at the young man's face and gasped in dismay. It was indeed Severus. Had he given her a love potion? For some reason she doubted that. He was not the type to be so dishonest and he considered love potion dishonest and stupid. She knew that. He had told her that much and was quite serious. Besides, she and Severus were not even currently speaking. She almost laughed to herself at the thought that Severus interested in her that way. How absurd! "Of course," she thought, "if he was in bed with me and he did not give me the potion, then that meant that someone had given him the potion too. He wouldn't have come in here otherwise. He hated the other Gryffindors. Why else would he even consider going to bed with a mudblood these days?"

She panicked. He was sound asleep in her bed, beside her. If she was stark naked, he probably was too. She lifted the sheets and quilt and peeked under them. She saw his bare back and her eyes landed on his buttocks. He was naked too. "Oh shit." He had a nice bottom. "No, stop, don't think about that." This whole situation freaked her out. The idea that they would have-"Oh, dear god, no." No. She had. She had slept with him. They had slept together. They must have. If it was a love potion, it had caused them to do the most intimate thing possible. The memories of the day before came flooding into her mind, cascading with horror at what she had done. They had made love and they had done it more than once. They had done it for hours.

"Dammit, I had a roll in the hay with Severus for several hours and worst of all, I really liked it." She thought to herself. "No, I didn't just like it, I loved it. It was amazing. We enjoyed it, every minute of it and every inch of the other. I touched him, all over. I let him touch me, everywhere. Oh, dear god, I did it all with him. Dammit! Dammit! Dammit!"

Severus stirred and she covered herself quickly as he began to arouse next to her. Of course, she had no idea why she even bothered to cover herself. She had nothing to hide. "It's not like he hasn't seen me in the buff before" she thought to herself and cringed in surprise at the reality of their situation. She did not understand how any of this had happened. What she did know was that they were in deep sludge as a result of this night together. After a night like that, there was no way she could forget it. They had bonded so intimately; there was a deep attachment to him instead of her she certainly did not feel at the same time the day before.

"What have I done?" She asked very quietly to herself.

Lily trembled in a panic. She took a couple deep breaths to try and calm herself down. She did not know what had happened. She did not know how a possible love potion, if that's what it was, could get someone into bed with someone else like this.

Nervously, she watched Severus begin to arouse next to her.

Severus opened his eyes. This was not his dorm. Where was he? He grabbed his head and moaned. His head seemed like it was in a vice. He did not remember getting drunk or anything the night before. It didn't feel like a hangover. What had happened to him? "My head." He mumbled with a groan.

"Yours too?"

Severus jumped at the sound of the familiar voice. "What the hell? Where am I? Who is talking to me? Is that Lily? No, it can't be-impossible" He wondered and glanced over to see Lily. She was beside him in bed, covering herself. He sat up and noticed he did not have anything on. "If I am unclothed and she is apparently unclothed, then... Oh shit! Did I sleep with her? No, that was not possible. She would not have done that with me. She doesn't like me. We aren't friends anymore."

As he thought this, the memories of yesterday and last night came rushing into his mind. He gasped in shock.

"Oh damn!" He had slept with her. What were they thinking? "Dammit!"

"You drank a butterbeer yesterday. Did it smell," She paused. "off to you?"

"Yes. It smelled amazing. It smelled like you." He blushed. "I thought I was crazy. I, never mind."

"Oh, my, god." She swallowed. "It smelled like you. My drink, it smelled like you. It smelled like home and you." Her cheeks blushed.

"But that sounds like-almost like amortencia" He twisted his lips in confusion and ran his hand across his brow.

"I think it was love potion. I'm sure of it."

"It smells like what attracts us." He blushed again. "We both drank it, but who would put it in our bottles. Why would you?"

She shook her head, "I didn't. Did you?"

He scoffed, "Hell no. Love potions are stupid. They just cause unrequited infatuation. What good is that?"

"I don't know." She paused to think. It was not Severus who had laced her drink the day before. His had been laced too apparently.

"I didn't do it."

Lily nodded. "I believe you. I don't think you did, but someone did." She took a deep breath. "It makes any sense. Who would have done that? Who would have wanted us obsessed with each other? I mean, most people I know would want me to end up with James. I can't think of anyone though who would have used a love potion on me and you."

Severus held the covers to his chest as he laid there. "No, it doesn't make any sense."

"What doesn't?" She asked, her mind swirling with confusion about all this.

"Amortencia-it causes obsession, but not sexual desire, just desire. It does not make people want sex. I mean, people can and do sleep together under it, but it does not elicit desire. And certainly not as strong as what I felt last night."

Lily rubbed her temple, her hand still trembling. "What are you saying?"

"I'm saying that the potion we were given was not amortencia. At least not normal love potion."

"It had to be some sort of love potion."

Severus turned to her suddenly. "How strong of a desire did you feel for me yesterday? I mean, sexually."

Lily blushed. "Why?"

"I need to know."

"Fine." She huffed. "Very strong."

"Never as strong before?"

"No."

Severus pondered this uneasily. "Lily? I think we were given a different love potion."

"What potion?"

"I think we were given a lust potion."

Lily looked at him from under her hand. "Lust potion?"

"Yes, people give love and lust potions together sometimes. What else could have such intense, um, sexual desire?" The heat rose in his face.

Lily put her hands down. "I gave you that bottle. You gave me mine. But wait, I did not feel that way about you yesterday so how could it do that if we aren't even together. I mean, aren't most lust potions supposed to be given between couples-"

"Well, there is the one lust potion, the common one, Love Potion No. 5."

Lily panicked. "Sev, isn't that a relatively untested potion-"

"Don't worry, nothing harmful is in it, nothing dangerous or fatal."

"How do you know for sure?"

"I don't, but it might be from the sounds of it."

"But how did our drinks get mixed that way? Who would have wanted us together like that? I didn't do it and you didn't do it, but someone did it."

"I think it was a mistake. No one wants us together. Someone probably wanted to be with you or wanted someone to be with you."

Lily huffed in frustration as she laid her head on her pillow. "Most people like James and I together, but-"

Severus frowned as he pondered who did this to them. "Could Potter have meant the potions for you and him, but somehow I got his potion laced drink? I mean, together, the potions could certainly get someone to sleep with them."

Lily turned to him. "I doubt it. It did not seem like something he would do. I already know that he likes me, and I just don't see it from him." She laughed. "His friends want us to stay together really bad. They want us to be together. An item. Spiking drinks with love and lust potion seemed like the very thing Sirius or Peter would do."

Severus's eyes widened and he looked at Lily. Lily suddenly stopped laughing.

Lily took in a quick breath of air that was almost a gasp. "You don't think he-? He wouldn't-"

"Well, Black is not one to think about the consequences to his actions now, is he? Neither is Peter."

Lily knew he was right. This was too bizarre and crazy; this whole situation was insane. Her head spun in confusion, but it made sense if Sirius or Peter had tried to lace the drinks for her and James originally, but the plan backfired when the bottles got mixed up somehow and Severus and Lily had handed each other the bottles laced with the love potion. She would not put it past Peter or Sirius to sneak into the cabinet and steal a love or even lust potion.

"If it was Sirius or Peter or both, then he wanted James and I to get the potions. That makes sense, but it didn't work. I ended up becoming obsessed with, with you."

"I knew it was off. I mean, I always liked you, but not like, not like how it was. I was obsessed with you, madly, crazily in love." He admitted.

"Not love, obsession." Her fingers trembled. She wanted to run but was uncomfortable leaving the bed even if he had already seen her naked. Lily knew running from the situation would not change what had already happened anyway. Why had this happened? She was falling in love with James and figured he would have been the first. She had lost her virginity to Severus Snape instead and that was not her intention. It was over and she could not decide how she felt. In a way she was horrified, sick and upset. In another way, an even bigger way, she was happy and excited and amazed.

"I already love you."

She turned to him. His face was redder than a beet with that admission. She blushed. He looked down at his hands. She looked at his face and that odd butterfly sensation from the night before re-entered her stomach. There was no way she still liked him. The potion's effects should be gone. Her breathing constricted. There was a strange sensation in her that was odd, but not like the feelings the love potion had. Was she falling for him for real? That was not possible.

"Is it normal to still feel in love even after the potion wears off?"

"I don't think so. Why?"

"Then why do I still feel so strange? Not obsessed, but butterflies in my stomach type of feeling."

"I don't know. Maybe it was the amount of intimacy we had." He finally turned to look at her. "I mean, we did-well, we-we did quite a lot-together." He could not help but smile as he remembered. It had been so great. He would have the memories of this forever.

Lily sighed. She was not sure what to say or do even think right now. Suddenly, her eyes grew damp and a lump caught in her throat. "What will we do?" She sniffed, put the covers over her shoulders and looked away from him at the other two empty beds beside her.

Severus heard her sniffing and heard her let out a sob. He cringed. He rolled over and put his arm around her. She was surprised to feel his arm around the back of her neck and his hand on her bare shoulder.

"Don't worry about it, it'll be fine."

She turned over to look at him with tear filled eyes. "No, you can't. You want to be one of them. Don't you get it?"

"Get what?"

"You had sex with a mudblood. Your blood is dirty now. It's not safe. They will kill you, us. Please?" Her eyes pleaded with him. "Please, promise me? Promise you won't join them?"

Severus moved his arm off her and slunk back to the other side of the bed. "Lily, I need to."

Lily turned over on her other side to face him. "Why? They are dangerous. They want me dead."

"I can protect you. They won't hurt you. I won't let them."

"You are living in a sick dream. They want people like me dead. You want to be a part of something that wants to kill people like me. Others are no different. I'm a mudblood. I have dirty blood. When they find out you slept with one and are in love with one, they will kill you. Don't you understand? Don't you see?"

He clicked his teeth in frustration. "But you don't understand."

"Then make me understand because no, no I don't understand. You are better than them, smarter, wiser, and kinder than they are. You don't belong with creeps like them. I know a lot of your housemates believe in the prejudice and desire to purge the world of anyone not like them, but they are pures. You aren't. You are half and I know you are not liked at times because of that, but please, don't join him. He's a dangerous man, an evil man."

"It will make me powerful."

"You want power? What the hell for?" Her eyes became almost slits.

"Maybe I'm tired of being the weak one!" He snapped. "It will make me be the one in charge for once. It will let me be powerful for once."

"No, it will make you a murderer. That's not power, Sev, that's weakness. You are strong."

"No, I'm not."

"You have spent six years putting up with being bullied and mocked and teased. I'd say you are strong. Stronger than me."

"I really am sorry, Lily, for calling you a, a, you know, when you tried to help me. I wasn't mad at you. I don't really think that about you. Honest."

"But you still called me that which means you think I am one."

"No, I don't, I, I, really, I, I just lashed out at you because, I don't know. I never meant it. I wanted to lash out at them, but I couldn't, and it was the first thing I thought of. Everyone says it-"

"Only your wannabe Death Eater friends say that!" She snapped at him.

"What about your friends? What about Potter?"

"Don't bring up Potter! This isn't about him or any of the Marauders. This is about you and your friends! They do cruel, evil things, Severus!"

"So do James and his pals!"

"What? Using your spell against you? You and James hexing each other and you and Sirius throwing curses and jinxes at one another, while unnecessary and stupid, is not evil, Severus! Forcing people to do things they don't want to do is evil. Trying to use magic for rape or torture is evil and that is what they do! Killing things is not a pastime. It's not a joke and it's not funny!"

Severus glared at her. "But it's so funny when Sirius tried to get me killed that night at the willow?"

"You should not have been following them, but-"

"But that makes it okay?"

"Don't interrupt me!" She huffed in frustration. "No, it does not, and I would have said that if you let me finish!" She sighed in annoyance. "What he did was apparently dumb and dangerous, yes, I agree. I don't know exactly what he did, but if James had to save you then-"

"Throwing that in my face, are you?"

Lily gaped and narrowed her eyes to him in aggravation. "No. I am just saying that it must have been dangerous if your life was at stake."

"Well, it was, and you don't care."

"I never said I didn't care! Of course, I cared. I think you were careless to even listen to Black in the first place." She huffed again. "But stop turning this to them. Listen to me about your friends. You would not listen to me before. I tried to warn you, but you never listen. Always changing it them instead."

"Well, they aren't good people."

"They aren't cruel people, but you are doing it again."

"I am not weak, and I am tired of being considered weak!"

Lily was taken aback by that sudden statement. "You are not weak!" She said, nearly yelling now.

"That's not what everyone thinks!"

"Your precious little friends are the weak ones!"

"Oh, yeah, how so? They have more guts than I do."

"They are stronger than you?" She scoffed in shock. "Those friends of yours lack morals! They lack a conscious!"

"Weakness is not being able to stand up to your enemies. I am weak. I couldn't even do the crucio when they asked me to."

"You tried to torture someone?" She asked in disgusted shock.

"I couldn't do it. I was too weak."

Lily's eyes narrowed in anger at Severus. If looks could kill, Severus figured he would be dead right now. "Valuing life is not weakness! To not be able to kill someone or torture someone, even when asked is not weakness!" She softened her expression. "I consider it strength. It's hard to do what is right and stand up to people, but if you know it is wrong and refuse to participate, it makes you a hell of a lot stronger than just joining in and the arses doing it for some sort of sick joke" Lily paused.

"And don't bring James or Sirius into this conversation."

"Who said I was going to?"

"No one. But you bring them into every conversation I have about your friends."

The room got quiet. "Are you and Potter dating?"

"What?"

"Are you two dating?"

"Kind of, yes."

"Great." He said. "We cheated on him. They will torture me when they found out what I did to you for certain now. You are in love with Potter. This was a mistake, I know." Severus started to get up. "Forget it. Let's just forget this ever happened. You can go be with Potter and I will go do whatever. No one will ever know."
Lily was very conflicted in her feelings at present, but she could not let the conversation end yet. She grabbed his arm and pulled him down.

"What are you doing?" He asked.

Lily looked into his eyes and her stomach fluttered. She lunged forward and put her lips over his. It was like a bolt from the blue and Severus found himself sucking her lips back. Lily smiled as he kissed her back. As she removed her lips from his, she was even more confused than before. There was a deep connection to him that she did not understand. She tried to wipe the smile off her face. At least she knew now that she could not put the new attachment solely on the potion. What the hell was happening?