Disclaimer: i do not own any of the characters within this story, they all belong to Jay Asher.
Chapter six -
As we are walking down the stairs my anxiety and nervous begins to increase, I really don't know how Clay's mom will react to me being here or even if she will like me. There's also that fact of her job and I may have to tell her about what's happened to me, well I feel like I may need to, maybe that will help me to move on with my life. I mean what else can I do, I was raped I cant just forget that, no one who has been could ever forget that. I'm pulled from my thoughts by Clay rubbing my hand with his thumb as we walk towards the kitchen, I'm guessing that's where his mom is. As we walk into the kitchen I am correct in what I was thinking. Mrs Jenson looks up at me and clay and looks a little shocked at the fact that I'm in her house and she looks at our hands and back to clay.
"Hey mom, this is Hannah Baker my..my girlfriend" he says while still holding on to me.
"Well hello Hannah, I've been wondering who this Hannah person is in Clay's life, I'm guessing your the Hannah from the Crestmont" she says sweetly.
"Yes thats me, it's nice to meet you Mrs Jenson" I say shyly.
"Please call me lainie" she smiles.
I nod at her and look at clay who is looking between us with a smile on his face so big you'd think he just saw the world's biggest cookie.
"Clay, stop smiling like a clown you'll scare her away" his mom joked.
"Thanks mom" Clay joked dramatising that he was hurt.
This makes all of us laugh and it's nice, I haven't laughed with more than one person in a while and I enjoy the feeling.
"So how did this happen then" Lainie asks pointing between me and Clay. This instantly makes me put my face into Clay's shoulder to try and hide the blush from rising up more than it already is.
"We talked about things and our feelings. Something's have happened lately and it made me and Hannah realise how much we actually love each other" Clay tells his mom as he holds me close.
"Love is a strong word Clay" his mom states.
"I know mom but trust me it's been a long time coming we both just didn't realise how much we actually felt for each other. We were both scared to tell each other how we felt until recently" Clay answers. I look up at him with a small smile on my face and tears in my eyes, if only he knew how much I actually care for him. He leans down and kisses the top of my head which is comforting as it's his little way of showing he loves me.
"Well aint you a pair of cuties" Lainie teases.
"Mom really" Clay deadpans.
"Ok ok I'm sorry, who wants pizza?".
I feel so full after the pizza and so comfortable in Clay's arms on his bed that I don't want to move, I can feel myself slowly falling asleep listening to the sound of Clay's heartbeat. That with the sound of the trees swaying in the wind is slowly lulling me to sleep. I'm deep in thought about this when Clay speaks.
"Han, do you know how many times I wanted to tell you how I felt towards you?"
"No clay how many?" I ask while drawing circles on his hand that is on my stomach.
"So many times, especially three nights in particular". He answers.
"What times were these then?" I ask looking up at him.
"Well the night we watched the stars and moon on top of the Crestmont especially when you shuffled closer to me, the night i walked you back home after work and rode home after saying good bye and then the night of the winter formal when we danced with each other". I feel him pull me closer to him as he says this and I immediately snuggle into him.
"I wish you had of told me but at the same time I understand why you didn't. I was scared to say anything to you as well and by the time I got to where I was in that bad time I thought you hated me and thought it was to late" I say and then look down.
"Hey, now look at me" he lifts my chin up to look at him. "I never told you because I was scared but never, not for one second did I ever hate you, even when you pushed me away. I have always loved you Hannah Baker" he says stroking my cheek.
"I love you too Clay" I say sweetly leaning up and kissing him softly on his lips before snuggling myself back into his chest.
We lie on his bed for a while just listening to each other breathing before we decide to put on a movie and have some popcorn. It's kind of funny since we both work at the Crestmont well Clay still does unless I can get my job back. At least it doesn't smell bad in Clay's room like it does sometimes at the Crestmont. I realise that it's getting late now but at the same time I couldn't care less, I'm so comfy and content where I am that I don't want to leave. I think clay feels the same because he hasn't moved since we sat here and he hasn't said he wants me to leave but it is getting late and I should get home soon even if I don't want to.
"Clay I think I should go home soon it's getting late" I say looking up at him.
"No, I won't let you, you have to stay" he says in a childish manner putting is face into my shoulder and holding me closer to him.
"No sweetie as much as I want to stay I do have to go I mean I don't think your mom would appreciate me staying the night" I tell him.
"She won't mind you can stay" he answers.
"I wish I could"
"Ok come on I'll walk you home" he says as he gets up. I get my stuff together and we walk down the stairs. Clay goes to tell his mom where he's going and she comes over to say goodbye, she even a gives me a quick hug before telling Clay to hurry back once he's walked me home. He nods and gives his mom a quick hug and a little wave as we leave the house. Once we're out the house Clay quickly walks to my side, grabs hold of my hand and interlocks his fingers with mine slowly stroking his thumb against my hand.
All the way to my house he doesn't let go of my hand and even pulls me into his side while still holding my hand. He's so cute well I'd probably call him adorable and that's a better word to describe my Clay. I giggle to myself thinking this.
"What's so funny" Clay asks looking at me.
"Nothing I'm just thinking how adorable you are" I answer him.
"There's that word again" he smiles.
I just look at him and smile which rewards me a sweet short kiss from Clay. Without even realising where we are, I realised that we were walking up my street and my house is only a few doors away. I don't want to leave Clay but at the same time I know I have to as he needs to get home too. He walks me up to my door step and gives me a sad smile which tells me he doesn't want to leave me either. He gives me a big hug and holds me close and tightly to him which again brings the word 'adorable' to mind. He lets me go and holds my hands looking into my eyes.
"I had a good day today Han even if the start was a bit heavy subject wise but other than that I've had one of the greatest days in my life" he admits.
"Me too Clay it's been relaxing to say the least"
"Well I should let you get inside it's starting to get cold and I don't want you to get ill" he says giving me another hug.
"Ok good night Clay".
"Good night Hannah I love you".
"I love you too Clay" I say still holding on to his hand. He leans in and gives me a sweet soft kiss and holds onto my cheek giving it a soft stroke with his thumb. This makes me blush a little and I don't want to let him go again but I do anyway.
"Bye Han".
"Bye helmet".
I turn to open my front door when I get a slight glimpse of my mother's hair and the curtain moving in the window. I shake my head at her being so nosy. I turn one last time to see clay near the end of the street and he turn also, we share a little wave and smile and I walk into my house. When I shut the front door I see my mom dying to act normal which makes me laugh a little. As I walk towards my room I turn to my mom.
"I know you was being nosy mom I'll talk to you about it in the morning. Good night".
"Night Hannah sweet dreams" mom replies.
With that I walk into my room and get into bed and I'd be lying if i said I couldn't stop smiling because I can't. I blame Clay for that for being so adorable. Sending a good night message to clay I curl up under the covers and welcome sleep with a smile on my face once again.