Disclaimer: i do not own any of the characters in thiss story the rights to them go to Jay Asher

Chapter severn-

I wake up the next morning with a sense of calm after spending the day with clay yesterday. He really makes me happy and feel relaxed especially after everything that has happened I really needed it. I smile everytime I think of him because he is just everything to me, my clay, my world. I love him so much and I know that's easy to say now but it is true because he's my adorable little clay, even though he's taller than me a little, so he isn't exactly little. I roll over and look at my phone to see what time it is and i see that I have a message from clay, sent around half an hour ago.

'Got a surprise for you be outside your house in 45 minutes see you soon beautiful xx'

This instantly puts a smile on my face. I look at the time and realise that he will be here in 10 minutes so I jump out of bed and quickly start to get ready. This is going well until my mom decides to walk into my room.

"Hey Hannah, so who is that lovely boy I saw you with last night at our door" she asked with a smirk on her face. I knew she would get like this and it is actually funny but not while I'm rushing.

"His name is clay and he is kinda my boyfriend but I need to go so I will sit down and talk to you later ok, ok bye" I replied back to her as I finish getting ready, kiss her cheek and run out of my room.

"Erm ok be safe Hannah" she shouted back at me as I ran to the front door.

"Bye mom" I said as I closed the door. As I look up from shutting my front door I see that clay is infront of my house on the path. I look up and smile at him as I walk towards him.

"So how do I look" I ask as I turn around.

"Perfect as always" he says as he leans in to kiss me.

"So what is my surprise?" I ask him as I take his hand in mine.

"You'll see" he replies with a smirk. I look at him with a look that would say what are you up to which he just smiles at me in return. We walk a little down the road when clay comes to a complete stop which confuses me. I look up to see clay nod his head in the direction next to us and I look to see a car, a nice shade of purple car may I just add but i still don't understand, why are we looking at this car.

"After you my lady" he says as he pulls some keys out of his pocket and unlocks the car next to us. I'm still a little confused but I get in anyway and wait for clay to get in the other side but then I realise can clay actually drive.

"Clay why are we in a car and whose car is it". He looks at me smiling and laughs a little.

"Oh Han don't worry this is part of the surprise, I got my lisence a few weeks ago and just didn't tell anyone but tony. I never really had the opportunity to get a car so that's why tony drives me sometimes. However this car is actually mom's car she managed to exchange it for our car for this one since there was to many things wrong with it to fix without costing us a lot of money. So this is why we are sitting in a car" he answers.

We have been driving for about half an hour now maybe a little longer and I still don't know what this surprise is, damn clay and his secrets.

"Clay where are we going seriously. We've been on the road for a while now" I ask as I look over at him.

"I'm still not telling you but it won't be long now" he says keeping his eyes on the road at all times. Good he's sensible like that. Not that I don't trust him driving or doubted him but it's good that he takes it so seriously as many drivers don't. We carry on driving for about another 15 minutes when I hear the sound of waves crashing against rocks and the smell of the sea water that is not far in front of us. I look up at clay surprised, he's brought me to the beach, I love the beach more than anything cus it makes me feel peaceful and the environment around it is quiet and peaceful. I smile for what seems like a long time as clay parks the car into a free space. Before I know it my door is open and clay is standing there with his hand out for me to hold. I gladly take it and get out of the car, waiting for clay to lock it before starting to walk off towards the sandy beach.

"It's so peaceful here so I though we could spend a few hours here so we're away from our town for a while" clay says noticing the wonder I have in my eyes.

"Thank you I love it already" I reply with a smile. It's really a place to think and clear your head and I think that was what clay was getting at when he decided to take us here. I really appreciate that and I think he knows that too. As we sit down in silence just happy to be in each others company I decide I should think about all that has happened and all that it includes but most importantly what I should do next with this knowledge and hurt. So I decide to start from the beginning, before I do I let clay know about what I'm thinking just in case I get upset, he pulls me close and puts his arms around me tightly and protectively and with that I lean back into him and begin my thinking.

As i do think about what's happened in the last few months I start to get overwhelmed with the feeling of need, the need to talk to someone about it. Not a councilor, definitely not a councilor as they freak me out and I don't want sympathy from a stranger or help from someone like that cus I know how that ends already. Just when I think that there is probably nobody I could talk to I suddenly remember clays mom, I could talk to her and she might be able to help me without giving me that stranger sympathy. I know i don't know her very well but it's better than not knowing someone at all.

"Clay".

"Yeah Han?".

"Do you think I could talk to your mom about everything that's happened?". Clay looks at me surprised at first but then starts to nod.

"I think she wouldn't mind if you did she'd help you out with whatever you need".

"I think it's time clay, I need to tell someone that isn't you or tony" I reply. Clay just nods and we sit watching the sea in silence, happy being in the company of each other. Without realising we have been here for 6 hours and we should be heading back.

On the way back to clays house we stop for a little something to eat since we haven't eaten all day and with what I'm about to tell clays mom we don't really want to eat a lot. The drive home however is absolutely beautiful, the sights that we go by are unimaginable and I am in awe with them. They don't seem real, the houses, the town's, the sea of the edge of your eyesight and the sun starting to set on the horizon, it all seems like somewhere out of a movie. I take a photo on my phone to show my mom later as she will love to see this too, I text her to tell her I'll be staying at clays and I send her the picture too which by her reply I'm guessing she loves it when she calls it a beautiful dream land. Within no time we are arriving at clays house and I am a little nervous but at the same time I'm starting to feel relieved a little as I know that I will be able to get the help that I need. I'm still nevous though cus I know clays moms job is a really serious one. Clay opens my door and that is the moment I realise that I've been staring into space in my own little world for about 10 mintutes or so that didn't even notice that clay had parked the car and got out of it.

"Sorry clay" I mumble to him as he helps me out.

"Don't worry about it" he replies.

We walk up to the house and he opens the door for me. We both walk in and see his mom in the kitchen, I look at clay and nod.

"Hey mom can we talk to you" clay asks.

"What you done now" she says jokingly.

"Nothing it's just Hannah wants to talk to you about something" he says.

"Hannah are you ok" she says looking at me.

"Yeah and no" I reply.

She gives me a look that means she's confused, so I tell her everything not leaving out any details. Clays holding me in his arms and I'm crying so hard with his mom holding his hand. I feel relieved and happy to know that I've finally told someone, just as I've calmed down and holding on to clay his mom turns around and says "Leave it with me" and walks off into her room.