Disclaimer: i do not own any of the characters in this story they are owned by Jay Asher.

Chapter Eight-

Stuck. Thats how i feel. Do i run? Do i stay and wait? Do i vomit or cry? I feel stuck on what to do. I really dont know what to do now. Ive just told someone who works within the government about whats been happening to me the past few months. What did i just do? Omg! Omg! I cant breathe i think i may scream, i can barely hear what clay is saying in my ear and that can only mean one thing. Im having a panic attack. Before i know it im outside taking in deep breaths sitting on the curb with my head in my knees. It doesnt take long for clay to join me outside and sit next to me. I just cant believe ive told someone else. I look up at clay who is just watching me silently, i know hes worried about me, i can see it on his face. I lean my head on his shoulder while i calm myself down and wipe away my remaining tears off my face.

"You ready to go back in and see what mom has to say" he says as he stands up and grabs my hands.

"I guess so".

He helps me up and we slowly make our way back inside hand in hand. We sit back down and wait for his mom to come back out of her room. It makes me more anxious the more and more we have to wait but after 20 minutes she finally comes out of her room with a few pieces of paper.

"Hannah I've wrote down all that you have told me on these official documents but I will need you to sign them to say that it's true. I know this is scary but I need to help you the best I can especially after what you nearly did. I'm thankfully that you had my baby in your thoughts to pull you out of it." She says as she passes me the files.

"Oh and also I will need your own version of what you told me to go with it as evidence." She adds. Nervously I look at the papers and remember my tapes, would they be good enough?. I think a little about this before mentioning it.

"Erm I have some tapes of me telling the story of what's happened to me would they be any good" I say holding onto clays hand.

"Han are you sure, they are difficult to listen to" clay asks concerned.

"Clay sometimes the hardest things to listen to can have great results" his mom replied.

After about an hour i had wrote down on a document that the things on clays moms paper were correct and that i had told them to her. I had also wrote down a note to go with my tapes to say that they are correct and in my own words about what happened. In this note i also mentioned what my intentions were with these tapes and what i had already done and reversed. In this time clays mom also listened to these tapes so she now knows all of the details that clay knows about my problems. Once she had finished listening to them she walked over to me and gave me a big hug, i could hear her sniffling into my shoulder and i knew this meant she was crying.

"I'm so sorry you had to go through all that hannah, no one should ever go through any of that especially not at your age." she said to me as she pulled herself back and grabbed clays hand from next to me. "I'm so glad you and my son were able to find each other and find comfort through what you nearly did, i know he will look after you and never hurt you".

Shes right though, i know this and i know clay knows this too as he holds my hand a little tighter and strokes my hand. After i've finished filling in the paperwork and signing the documents that i need to clays mom takes it and puts it into a little box with all my tapes and her documents.

"I will need to take these to my office in the morning and file them but i will also need to contact the authorities hannah ok and they may want to speak to you and maybe your parents". She says as she locked the box up.

"I know".

Later on that night when me and clay are in his room, it hits me how serious this will become. There will be police interviews, possible DNA tests, arresting bryce, charges, a court case and a sentence or maybe nothing at all. Either way im so scared. I didnt realise how much attention would now be on me and i really dont like this idea, i think this may be the main reason that i wanted to kill myself. At least now that im going through all this i wont be alone as i thought i would have been. I have clay and clays mom, also my parents but i dont know how they will react when they hear whats been happening or that i will now have to go through a court case. This is really stressful to think about so I look at clay, he seems to be in a day dream kind of state, or maybe he's thinking about the same stuff that I am. I lie down next to him and took myself into his arm, I've found out that the is one of the most comfortable positions for me as it brings me comfort knowing im safe in clays arms. After what seems like forever in silence clay speaks and says something I've been longing to hear.

"Han I will stick by your side through the whole of this and whatever else comes next. I'll be by your side forever and I will never leave your side for any reason. I have to look after you because if you didn't come back to me the day you did I don't know if I would of been able to survive mentally, physically or emotionally". This so sweet and so sad I do the only thing I can think of doing at this moment in time and that is kiss him and lay down closer to him with my hand on top of his heart. Comfort. That's how I feel now. So comfortable. Without realising it I've slowly started to fall asleep. I only realise that I'm fully asleep when I start seeing beaches and lounging chairs. Oh and clay in swim trunks too. It's quite a hmm what's that word again. Adorable sight.

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