A/N: I don't know when I'll get the next chapter up to this story or any other story for that matter so I apologize ahead of time.
Disclaimer: I do not own Glee or it's characters nor do I own The Scientist by Coldplay
A yearish after this first chapter. The girls are in their senior year.
Santana had a possessive yet equally protective arm wrapped her girlfriend when Defying Gravity started blaring from the side table. Quickly and sloppily Santana reached over to violently turn off the offending alarm clock. Rachel shifted in her love's arms, burying her face in the Latina's tan neck. Santana sighed as she thought about how the morning could progress, on first hand she could just go back asleep with her girl snuggled up against her and not wake up until her own phone alarm went off, or she could wake up the little diva so that she could start with her morning routine. After a good five minutes of an inner battle Santana came to a conclusion.
"Mi amor," she whispered gently while brushing aside dark chestnut hair.
Rachel groaned and wrapped her arm around Santana's waist, wanting the girl as close as possible. "Different morning routine," she mumbled. "Wake up at seven."
Santana arched and eyebrow in question, "When did you get a new morning routine?"
"You'll see," Rachel breathed out before falling right back asleep. Santana not being one to say no to sleep smiled contently and followed her girl's lead.
An hour later Santana's phone started going off, the sweet sound of Justin Timberlake's 'Damn Girl' filling the air. Santana reached over and dismissed the alarm before rolling over so that she was facing Rachel, a blush quickly made its way to her features once she noticed the tent formed in the sheet over her girlfriend.
"Rach," she whispered while shaking the girl a little.
Rachel opened her eyes, a small smile cracking her features as she looked up in dark loving eyes, Santana stared in awe for a second, finding her girlfriend incredibly adorable in that moment. The moment was quickly swept away though when Rachel realized what was going on in her southern regions. "Oh, shit San," Rachel quickly pulled her pillow from behind her head and covered herself. "I'm sorry, I'm usually up before you so you never have to see it," Rachel smiled sheepishly.
"Rachel, it's fine," Santana said as she pulled away the pillow.
"Yeah?" Rachel asked and Santana nodded.
"So when did you get a new morning routine?" Santana asked her mind going back to earlier.
"Quite recently actually," Rachel answered while sliding out of bed. "You should try it, I think you'd like it."
"Really?" Rachel nodded, and before anything else was said Rachel's lips were molding against Santana's. Santana tangled her hands in chestnut locks a smile playing her lips when the two parted. "Shower?"
Rachel nodded and threw Santana over her shoulder as she charged into her ensuite bathroom.
"Hey baby," Santana wrapped her arms around Rachel's waist and placed a kiss against her cheek as her girlfriend switched out some of her books from her locker.
Rachel's cheeks turned a bit rosey, "Hi."
Santana chuckled, loving that she still had that effect on the shorter brunette. "Hey I'm going to be a bit late to lunch today; Coach wants me to go over some things with her. Is that okay?"
"Of course it is baby. I'll just be in the choir room. Meet me in there when you're done." Rachel smiled at her girlfriend before lightly pushing her against the lockers and leaning into her. Her semi hard pressing against Santana's center.
"Rach, you know you don't have to eat in the choir room anymore. No one would dare touch you unless they felt like meeting the angel of death." A bit of anger flashed in the Latina's eyes as she remembered the last person to bully her girlfriend over a little over a year ago. It was two days after Santana had made Rachel off limits, a cheerleader who had apparently been rather fond of Santana had cornered the girl towards the end of the period when she had left to go to the bathroom. Verbal insults were hurled along with some physical abuse. Santana and Quinn had just left Coach Sylvester's office when they heard yelling and crying; Santana pounced on the red head cheerleader while Quinn went to comfort the crying brunette. When the bell released for lunch Quinn took the cheerleader out the court yard and met up with Brittany where the two made a prime example of the red head and Santana went ahead and drove Rachel home. Since then not a single person had dared to do anything that even remotely came across as bullying the little singer. The wrath of Brittany, Santana, and Quinn just wasn't worth it.
"I know, but some habits are hard to break Tana, plus I kind of like having the time to myself." Rachel tried to reassure the her girlfriend with a smile.
Even though it had been a little over a year since Santana and Rachel started dating and Santana put the band on Rachel, the small brunette still had a hard time hanging out in large crowds. She usually spent lunch with Santana, Quinn, and Brittany, but today she just wasn't really up to it so she opted to spend some time in the choir room.
Things had been well for Santana and Rachel for the past yearish; especially after their first time together. It had changed something in Rachel for the better. She was much more comfortable with herself which lead to no tucking, less skirts and more jeans, tight fitted jeans which Santana greatly appreciated, and instead of sweaters Rachel was now found in blouses and t-shirts; Santana also appreciated that.
"Are you sure? Santana asked, I could ask Brittany or Quinn to meet up with you or something-" Santana was on her way into a full blown speech when she felt soft lips against her own.
"Baby, I think I'm rubbing off on you," Rachel giggled as she pulled away from the Latina's lips. "You were on your way to rambling."
"I was not," Santana whined as she pulled Rachel closer by her hips.
"You were," Rachel laughed and buried her head against the Latina's chest inhaling the citrus scent that she loved so much. "I love you Tana."
"I love you too baby." Santana dropped a kiss to the top of Rachel's head and pulled her in closer. "So much."
Santana and Rachel were able to stay like that for about a minute before the bell sounded, letting them know they were already late for class. Reluctantly the two pulled apart with small smiles gracing their features. "I'll see you at lunch," Santana said before dropping a kiss to Rachel's forehead once more and heading to class which was in the opposite direction of Rachel's. Rachel nodded her agreement and turned to make her way to her own class, unaware of the hazel eyes that had watched the moment between the two brunettes from afar.
Ten minutes into lunch Rachel was sitting in the choir room at the piano, gazing over the keys that had allowed her to express herself time and time again. She was eating her salad and humming to herself quietly when a familiar voice startled her.
"Where's Santana?"
Rachel looked up from her food to see Quinn Fabray standing in the doorway her cheerios uniform nicely pressed and wrinkle free. "Coach Sylvester wanted to talk to her about some things. She said she'd be late."
Quinn nodded and walked further into the choir room, hesitating a bit before taking a seat beside Rachel on the piano bench. Her eyes met with Rachel's and instantly Rachel could feel the hurt and love that radiated from them. "Please don't look at me like that Quinn."
"Rach-"
"Quinn don't, please." Rachel shot up from her spot next Quinn and went to gather her things.
"Rachel, stop," Pale hands gently held on to Rachel's wrist to stop her from packing up her things. Rachel's breath hitched at the contact but she didn't dare look back into hazel eyes. "Just tell me why her. Why Santana, Rachel?" Quinn asked her voice thick with emotion.
"It just happened Quinn, and neither of us wanted it to stop, so we pushed forward. And now here we are. Why are you asking about this now? We've been together for over a year" Rachel answered her eyes glued to the floor.
"Because I can't stand watching you two together. She's not right for you Rachel." Quinn stated bluntly.
"You don't know that."
"I do Rachel. I know Santana, I've known her since we were five, and I can tell you right now that she's not right for you."
"Then who Quinn!?" Rachel yelled her emotions getting the best of her.
"Me," Quinn spoke forcefully. "I'm right for you; I'm perfect for you Rach. We were perfect together. I know I messed up, but please give me another chance. I miss you so much." Quinn had tears running down her face at this point. "I love you Rachel. I have always loved you, and I know you still love me, so please, please give us another chance."
"No Quinn," Rachel pushed Quinn back her tears taking over more than she would have liked. "You can't come and say these things to me after a year; especially not today. Not when to years ago you asked me to be your girlfriend. You broke up with me Quinn not the other way around."
Quinn stepped closer to Rachel not liking being so far away from the girl, "If we hadn't broken up would we still be together?"
"I don't know Quinn! But it doesn't matter because you did, you broke up with me!"
"Rachel I broke up with you because of my father. He found out about us and threatened to ship me off to boarding school if I didn't break up with you. I couldn't stand the thought of never seeing you again, so I did what I had to, and I promise you it killed me to do. To watch you run away crying when all I really wanted to do was take you in my arms and never let go. I never expected you to run into the arms of my best friend."
Rachel stared at Quinn with puffy eyes and tears running down her cheeks, "You never told me that."
"I know…" Quinn took another step closer to the crying brunette and wrapped her arms around her waist, forcing their eyes to meet she asked Rachel to do one thing, "Tell me you don't still love me Rachel, and I'll go."
"Quinn-" Rachel began.
"Look me in the eyes and tell me Rachel." Quinn pleaded, hopeful that the brunette in her arms wouldn't be able to do it. "Say it Rachel. Tell me."
"I can't!" Rachel finally shouted. "I can't look you in the eyes and tell you that I don't still love you because I do! You were my first Quinn," Rachel's voice had dropped to a whisper as her tears fell freely. "You were the first person to ever try and actually know the real me instead what I put out for everyone. You were the first person to look at me in way that made me feel like I mattered like I wasn't just another girl. Quinn you were my first love… and I don't know how to stop loving my first." Rachel ran her hand through her hair as the tears grew harder. "So if you know how please tell me because I would love to know."
"Rachel baby," Quinn's own tears were falling rapidly. "You were my first too, and I want you to be my last. I love you so much Rachel." Quinn pulled Rachel against her chest for a hug only to be pushed back and to watch the girl running out of the choir room.
Unknown to the two girls a certain brunette was observing the exchange, her own tears taking over.
Rachel opted not to go to glee that afternoon and instead to make her way to the auditorium stage, the house was dark, but the stage was fairly lit as she sat at the piano that was surprisingly just sitting there. Before Rachel knew what she was doing sound was coming out of the piano as she gently pressed the keys, her voice was thick with emotion as the words fell from her lips
Come up to meet you
Tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles; coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart
Unbeknown to the singing girl a certain blonde wandered on to the left side of the stage, listening intently to what came from her first love's lips
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science; science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
When Santana realized her girlfriend wasn't showing up to glee that afternoon and that Quinn was also missing she took upon herself to go and find the tiny girl hoping she'd find her alone of course. The Latina had pretty good idea on where her girlfriend might be and quickly made her way to the auditorium, the sound of Rachel's powerful voice already being heard from a few yards away. Quietly Santana slipped into the auditorium her heart clenched inside her chest immediately as she made her way down the aisle, the words taking their toll.
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
X4
At some point during the song Rachel's eyes had closed and tears from the second time that day ran down her face. Rachel's head snapped to the side when she heard footsteps, immediately she went to wipe her tears when she saw her Latina girlfriend. "San-"
"That was great Rach," Santana spoke sincerely even though deep inside she was hurting incredibly. Her mind already convincing her of what was to come. "Who was it for?"
"No one," Rachel answered turning back to the piano. She couldn't stand to look her girlfriend in the eye after what had happened early.
Quinn stayed backstage as she listened to the two girls, her heart soaring at the thought that Rachel might be willing to give her a second chance, to get it right.
"Finn," Santana began to list names, her pain quickly turning into anger.
"It was for no one San, just a song." Rachel responded hoping the Latina would let it go.
"Maybe St. James, or better yet Puck, was it for Puck Rachel?" Santana question her voice leaking with venom making Rachel flinch. It was the same HBIC tone that she used before the previous summer, when she denied her feelings for Rachel with taunts and bullying.
"Santana what's going on with you? Why are you acting like this?" Rachel asked her tears starting to resurface again.
"Or maybe, just maybe it was for Quinn." Santana sneered, her eyes filled with pain, but her words with anger.
"Tana, what are you talking about. Why would that song be for Quinn? I told you it wasn't for anyone."
"Don't lie to me Rachel! I heard you talking to Quinn in the choir room during lunch! I went to meet you, and I saw her go in. How-" Santana's words turned pleading as tears forced their way to the surface.
"Tana," Rachel went to comfort her girlfriend only to have her jolt back and push her away.
"Don't." Santana ground out her face instantly hardening. "I loved you Rachel, I do love you! Not Quinn!"
"I know Tana."
"Hey!" Quinn stepped out on to center stage. "You don't know how I feel about Rachel."
Santana whipped around to see the offending blonde advancing on her "Really Quinn, you left because daddy dearly told you so. How does that transfer into love?"
"Russell would have shipped me away if I didn't break up with Rachel," Quinn yelled making her way towards the Latina. "I couldn't handle the idea of never seeing Rachel again!"
"So you'd rather see her crying instead. I was there Quinn when you broke her heart! I was there to help her pick up the pieces and to rebuild it! I was there not you! I love her! Not you!"
"I was her first love Santana! Me not you!"
"Quinn stop it!" Rachel yelled at the blonde making both Santana and Quinn turn to face the tiny diva. "You can't do this! I'm with Santana! I love Santana! She is the girl I want to hold me at night when I cry. Santana is the one I see myself with years from now. I see myself having a family with her and us growing old together. I'm sorry Quinn, but you and I ended a long time ago, and yes you will always be my first love, but you won't be last."
Quinn shook her head as her tears fell, trying to run away from what Rachel said. It was like a dagger had pierced her heart "I- you- we-" Quinn stuttered out.
"I'm sorry Quinn. I love you, but I'm no longer in love with you.," Rachel approached the blond and rubbed her shoulder comfortingly. "I understand if you need time, but I hope you know I still want to be friends with you. You mean so much to me, and I would hate to lose you."
"I need time," Quinn whispered before running off.
Rachel was pinching the bridge of her nose when she turned to Santana. The Latina's cheek was stained with tears, but the crying had ceased. "How could you not tell me Rachel? How could you not tell me that my best friend was the one you cried over for weeks during the summer?"
"It was a secret Santana," Rachel plopped herself back down on the bench. "We were together for a year before we broke up. I knew how Quinn's family was so I understood when she asked me not to tell anyone. It didn't change anything when we broke up because if they found out that we had dated her dad still could have responded badly. Although I had no idea it was because of her father why she broke up with me until a few hours ago."
Santana sighed and sat down beside Rachel, "You still love her," it was meant to be a question but came out as more of a statement.
"Tana, I love Quinn the same way you love Brittany. They were both our first love, and you can never really stop loving your first love, but that doesn't mean you want to be with them. I love you Santana," Rachel placed her hand on her girlfriend's cheek to turn her face so they were facing each other. "And I want to spend the rest of my life with you."
"I love you too Rachel, so much," Santana leant forward and molded her lips with Rachel's.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Quinn," Rachel apologized once the two broke apart for air. "I should have but-"
"Hey it's okay," Santana placed a finger against Rachel's lips. "I understand, just tell me now if there's anything else I need to know." Rachel shook her head no. "Good. And um, can I just ask… did you ever, you know, with Quinn?" Rachel couldn't suppress her giggle and shook her head no.
"You were my first. First, forever, and last."
A smile spread across the Latina's face and she nudged Rachel's nose with her own. "tu eres mi estrella brillante." (You are my shinning star)
"I love you too."
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Song: The Scientist by Coldplay