For a few moments, Dean didn't speak. He wasn't sure what to even say at this point, if there even was anything that he could say.

Sam didn't seem to be in any rush, just staring at him with her hands clasped in front of her on the table. The most surprising, however, was her eyes.

There was no condemnation that he had thought there would be. There was no anger, no hate, not even sadness.

It was acceptance, more or less; it was understanding. It was a touch of something he didn't know how to read but at the same time, he knew that it wasn't an accusatory like he thought she was going to be.

And that hurt more than if she had punched him and broke his nose, she was due a punch at him and it was long overdue for her to collect.

"You know how you told me that I have a habit of downplaying anything that happens to me?" she asked quietly. "That I say it's no big deal even when it is?" She gave a small laugh. "I think I finally get your frustration with me, Johnny's the same."

"Kid takes after you." Dean managed to speak, needing to clear his throat a few times to let the words go. "Sam...I..."

"The thing is...I'm not surprised." Sam injected first, playing with her fingers. "Not really. It's kinda been..." she paused, searching for the right words. "You and I...it's weird, we've always known that it's weird. We're not a normal pair of brother and sister, normal siblings don't sell their souls to hell to bring the other back."

"Well that just makes us more loving than the other siblings out there." Dean said, relaxing when he saw Sam smile at that.

"It's something that people have mentioned before, it's codependency to its highest form." Sam said. "We're completely and utterly codependent on one another and when one of us is out of the picture, in anyway, the other person doesn't really know how to properly handle it."

The both of them didn't speak for a moment as they thought back; Dean making a demon deal, Sam shutting down completely and ignoring everything around her.

"I'm not mad, I'm even understanding." she continued. "I get it, I do, I don't even want to think about what I would be doing if I were in your shoes at that moment." she paused to take a breath. Dean reached across the table to grip at her hand, she gripped back just as tightly, staring down at their entwined fingers.

"So, after all of this, I've come to this conclusion." Sam said. "I'm not the one that you need to make things up with. I'm not the one that you need to apologize to. I'm not the one that you need to try to create a relationship with."

"The kid." Dean said quietly, tightening his hold on her hand, feeling only slightly vindicated when she did the same.

"Johnny." she confirmed. "Because looking at him is like looking into a mirror at times and I don't want that for him. I know this is a case of pot and kettle and I'm being so many different types of hypocritical right now. But I want him to shoot back. I don't want him to back down and let anyone else treat him in a way that he doesn't deserve to be treated, and I-"

She swallowed hard. "He's a good kid, he's a really good kid." she whispered, barely able to bring her voice up. "I don't want him to be like me, I don't want him to ignore his pain and suffering, I want him to be better."

"And I want you to be better." Dean told her gently. "Sammy...you can't hold this crap in anymore. Unload on me, I'm your brother, it's what I'm here for."

Sam stared at him for a moment, eyes hardening over slightly as she came to a conclusion. "Alright, you want me to unload? I'll unload and work with you." she leaned forward slightly. "So long as you recreate your relationship with your nephew."

Breathing out slowly, Dean nodded at that. It was better than he thought that he was going to get, it was better than he even dreamed was going to happen. He had gotten another chance and he sure as hell isn't going to screw it up again.

Johnny Winchester is here and he's here to stay, there's no denying that in anyway.

And if Sam, Sam who had suffered the most, can look past his parentage, look past the parts of him that was an angel and that belonged to Lucifer?

Then by some sort of power Dean was going to do the same.

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