Chapter 18: Something New

She was merely thirteen, she didn't always know what was right, or wrong, frowned upon, or rewarded. The older she got, the more curious she became. She was growing bored despite The Order being all she knew. A teen was bound to wander, bound to break the rules. But for most, the punishment wouldn't come close to Maya's.

"See?" she said, as she phaselocked a cherry blossom that had been floating from a tree. "You think that's cool?"

The hand maiden nodded delightfully. "Yes! I've never seen anything like it, it's just…amazing. You're amazing," she said to Maya. She had never seen Maya's powers before. Her duties kept her busy, and she was not of high enough status to be around such a holy figure. Maya had found her when she snuck off from one of her lessons, to get away from it all for awhile. It drove her teachers, and Brother Sophis, nuts to no end, but she was never berated too harshly for such things. She had been wandering the gardens, when she saw her there. She was on her hands and knees planting seeds of some sort. She appeared to be of Maya's age, so she approached.

"Hi," Maya said, startling the girl. The servant girls eyes widened in recognition of who Maya was, and immediately bowed to her. "Your Holiness, I apologize for my filthy appearance-"

"Ugh, just call me Maya. I don't feel 'holy'."

The girl was speechless a moment, before lowering her head and tending to her work. Maya was desperately in need of a friend, someone other than the monks and teachers. "Do you want to come walk around with me? I'm going to go to the stables."

The girl looked stunned for a moment, before looking back to the seeds. "I fear I could get trouble if I leave…"

"Don't worry about it! It's me, they cant say no to me anyway. I mean, only if you want to. But I promise you won't get in trouble."

She gave the girl an encouraging smile, and she received a small one back.

"Okay then," the girl said softly. She stood to her feet and brushed herself off before following Maya down a back road towards the stables.

"What is your name?" Maya inquired.

"Hailey," the girl replied. Maya was noticing the girls beauty, she had long brown hair pulled back into a sleek ponytail, with large hazel eyes and a sweet smile.

They chatted about her work, the girl was slowly opening up and relaxing around Maya as she soon realized the Siren acted as any thirteen year old. Maya was overjoyed that someone was finally treating her like a person instead of worshipping her as some higher being.

They reached the stables and sat under the large cherry blossom tree that stood just outside. Hailey spoke, "uhm…I know you must be sick of it, but….do you think I could see? Your powers? I've heard they are wonderful," she asked shyly.

Maya chuckled, "They really aren't that special, see?" she said, as she phaselocked a cherry blossom in the air. "You think that's cool?"

"Yes! I've never seen anything like it, it's just…amazing. You're amazing," Hailey said. Maya turned to look at her and the girl was right there, their faces were inches apart. They locked eyes and Maya was stuck in some sort of trance, she could feel Hailey's breath ghosting her lips, and her face was dusted with a light blush. She hadn't even realized she was leaning in when all of a sudden-

"MAYA!"

Maya and Hailey jumped apart before contact could have been made. Brother Sophis stood some distance away. She couldn't describe the look in his eyes. "Maya, come. I must speak with you in my office. Come now."

Maya have Hailey an apologetic look, while Hailey just sat there looking mortified. Maya's eyes lingered on the cowering girl for a moment before she tore her eyes away, walking to Brother Sophis as though her feet were made of stone.

When they finally reached Brother Sophis' office, she figured she was in deep shit this time. She wasn't sure what he saw, if he was mad about the lessons, or mad about the servant girl. Maybe both.

"Place your hands on the table."

She was confused, but she complied.

"Do not fight me on this child, or your consequences will be more dire than they already are. Now, I saw you."

She looked to him confused, "s-saw what?"

He went to the drawer of his large oak desk, rummaging around before pulling out a steel ruler.

"Do not play me for a fool. I saw you and that servant girl," he spat. "Do you realize what you almost did? What this could have done? You almost gave into your perverted temptations and committed one of the darkest sins." He strode over to her menacingly.

"B-brother Sophis, p-please, I wasnt-"

CRACK!

He brought the ruler to her hand with such force she almost didn't feel it for a split second, until the white hot pain struck her like lightening and her knuckles began to gush red. She screamed, "BROTHER SOPHIS WHAT-"

CRACK!

This time she removed her hands from the table, cradling them to herself as they stained her clothes and the floor beneath her. The wounds were angry and swollen and open, the skin peeled away from the force of the steel.

"We had this conversation! You were aware of the sin and you disobeyed our Holy One! You will not be some harlot! DO I MAKE MYSELF CLEAR!"

"YES, GOD YES I SWEAR!"

"Be gone."

She ran from his office with her disfigured hands and tears streaming down her face. She ran sobbing all the way back to her room in the temple. She had broken two promises that day. The first was the one she made to Brother Sophis, the first time they had spoke on the subject. The second was to Hailey, for she assured her she would not get in trouble. But after that day, the servant girl was never seen again.

Maya woke, not with a start, but slowly and painfully. Her pillow was wet with the tears she had shed in her sleep, and she whipped around to make sure Lilith hadn't woken. The red head still lay asleep, her chest was rising steadily with each breath she took. Maya sighed with relief and leaned back against the headboard. She wiped her eyes and tried to forget to avoid her guilt bubbling up again. She looked back to Lilith and willed her mind to the present. She slid back down on the bed doing her best not to move around too much. But Lilith rolled over in her sleep, her hand falling to Maya's chest and brushing her nipple through the thin fabric of her shirt. The shockwave that hit her left her feeling mortified-and strangely intrigued. It was ironic after having such a devastating dream regarding this very subject.

She lay very still in fear she would gasp or worse, cry out. She carefully took Lilith's arm and moved it from her breast, causing another jolt to run through her. She slammed her legs together and was torn between wanting to do it again and wanting it to stop. It was immensely overwhelming but it felt so good.

After placing Lilith's arm to her side the red head began to stir. Fuck.

"Hmm...Killer…you okay?" Lilith said in an adorable sleepy voice, reaching up to caress Maya's flushed face.

"Uh-yes I'm fine…baby. I just…couldn't sleep." Maya said lamely. She was a shit liar thanks to The Order.

"Are your dreams back?"

Maya chewed her lip for a moment. She thought of trying to lie again, but something told her that Lilith would see right through her. However, she also knew Lilith would just drop it, being the saint she was. But Maya didn't want to put her through that. She wanted to be honest with her girlfriend, she shouldn't care about appearing weak anymore. She nodded slowly.

"Tell me," Lilith said softly. She rubbed soothing circles with her thumb on Maya's jaw.

"There…was a girl when I was younger. Just becoming a woman. One of the monks saw me and her…almost kissing. He punished me by beating my hands raw with a ruler. And she…I think she was killed." She finished quietly.

Lilith's hand went from Maya's jaw to her good shoulder, and was now kneading her there. It felt good

"You never saw her again?"

Maya shook her head. "No…I assume The Order must have done something with her. For being with me. You know I've been taught that s-sex is more than frowned upon. I know, logically, it's not. But I've literally seen people killed over something so frivolous. I cant help but be afraid. It's funny, how I have no problem cutting down a hundred bandits and spilling their blood without batting an eye, but I'm afraid of something so silly. It must sound ridiculous. I guess it's because killing for some reason was never a sin in The Order's eyes. It's so fucking backwards."

"It doesn't sound ridiculous," Lilith said assuredly. "but you're right, everything they taught you was backwards. That's why we're gonna move forward together. Take your time Maya, theres no set rules to this. Enjoy your discovery as it comes."

"How is it…fair to you, going at my pace?"

Lilith raked her nails lightly on Maya's chest causing her to shiver. "I've done my pace killer, and had my own experience. It's your turn to have yours."

Maya looked into her lovers eyes, her heart beginning to thud under Lilith's ministrations.

"I think…I think I would like to try," she couldn't believe her own ears.

Lilith just smiled warmly at her before leaning in for a deep kiss. Lilith's tongue was gently asking for entry, and Maya obliged her, opening her mouth slightly to let her lover explore. Lilith was gentle with her, her tongue flicking carefully over her own with passion. Maya felt the butterflies in her stomach begin to grow and the pressure in her core was noticeable. She broke for air and was breathing hard. Lilith propped herself up on one elbow and looked down at Maya. She rested a warm hand on Maya's stomach and was rubbing small circles, moving upwards ever so slightly. "Do you want me to touch you?" she breathed.

And she did. She did more than anything. She decided instantly she was going to take that leap, she knew Lilith would never do anything to hurt her, she would never take it further than Maya was willing to go. She merely nodded as Lilith's hand moved upwards, still outside Maya's shirt, and came up to cup Maya's right breast. Maya's face immediately turned many shades of scarlet, and she sucked in a sharp breath. Lilith slowly began to palm the soft mound, slowly and carefully and made no sudden movements to spare Maya's already pounding heart. She was deliberate in her movements and stayed away from her nipple for the time being, instead focusing on massaging the breast. Maya began to breath deeper, the initial shock was ebbing away and she began to melt under Lilith's touch.

"Is this okay?" Lilith asked softly, lovingly.

"Ahh, a-yes…" Maya breathed, letting her eyes close and involuntarily arching her back. Lilith leaned down and kissed her forehead. "I'm gonna do a little more, okay? Tell me if you want me to stop baby."

Maya just nodded. Yes, more!

"Ahh!" she cried out as Lilith rolled her nipple gently between her fingers. Maya was embarrassed by the noise she made, but Lilith was easily helping her forget. She couldn't hold back the moans that followed.

"Hah-ahhhh…Lilith….mmhhmm…"

Maya could feel the wetness seeping between her legs. Her palms were sweating and her head was swimming but it felt so good she surprisingly found herself lost in the moment. All of the overthinking seemed miles away, she just needed to take that plunge.

She felt emboldened. Perhaps it was the darkness of the room, they could barely see each other. Somehow it made her braver, as though in this light she could be a different Maya. Not the broken, scared girl anymore. In the cover of night she would do the things that were once forbidden, that were now addictive.

"Ah, Lilith…please," she pleaded.

"Tell me baby, tell me what you want."

"Can- ahh- can you…take off your shirt?"

Lilith removed her hand and Maya felt the loss. It was but for a second as Lilith removed her shirt revealing her own breasts before she went to work on Maya's other mound, causing another moan to tear from her throat. "fuck- Lilith?" she breathed.

"Yes baby?" she responded before planting a hot kiss on Maya's neck.

"Under…can you?" Maya said in a small voice.

Maya was taking another huge leap, requesting Lilith go under her shirt. To feel her skin, this was it. She would bare her body to Lilith as she did hers, and just hope that Lilith would like it. That she would desire hers as much as Maya desired Lilith's. Lilith stopped kissing Maya's neck and straightened herself to look in Maya's eyes, searching for any hint of doubt or hesitation. But Maya was sure of this, and she bit her lip and nodded shyly, permitting her Siren to continue.

Lilith's hands went to the hem of her shirt, and Maya sat up to allow her to pull it over her head. It was a quick motion, but to Maya it was achingly slow, and as she watched the white fabric move across her face she wondered if she had made a mistake. But there was no turning back now.

Her first instinct was to hide herself once her breasts were exposed. It was dark, but Maya was sure she could still be seen in the pale moonlight. Her arms went to her chest but Lilith stopped them, gently touching her forearms. "Don't hide yourself baby," Lilith said comfortingly.

Maya slowly lowered her arms back down, allowing herself to be seen. She thought she would chew her lip till it bleed, her face was hopelessly on fire as she waited for Lilith to say something, anything.

"You're perfect," Lilith breathed. And it was genuine, it was full of what only could be described as love. Both of Lilith's hands went to cup Maya's breasts again. She mewled and arched her back into the touch. Lilith went up to a kneeling position, settling a leg on either side if Maya, before sinking down to straddle her. She captured Maya's lips in a heated kiss, it was more desperate than the last. Her hands were still on her breasts, rolling and pinching her nipples into stiff peaks.

"Fuck!" Maya hissed, "this…this feels so-so….fuck!" She whined into her lovers mouth. Her moans only spurred Lilith on.

"I want to suck them," Lilith panted.

"Y-you what?" Maya gasped. "People do that?"

Lilith smiled, lightly grazing her fingernails over Maya's sensitive peaks causing another squeal of pleasure to burst forth and she nearly doubled over.

Lilith leaned into Maya's ear and nibbled her earlobe. "Yes," she whispered seductively. "I would love to see how good it would make you feel."

Maya was already falling apart at the seams. She felt like her heart was going to beat out of her chest and she was sure she'd ruined her current pair of underwear, but she found the words coming out of her mouth nonetheless, "Yes…"

Lilith kissed her neck once more, biting the skin gently causing Maya to hiss before she licked the area soothingly. She then kissed her collarbone, her clavicle, Maya couldn't keep up with all of the different sensations.

Lilith took a moment to sit back and admire the goddess sitting across from her. Her gorgeous blue hair was falling over her perfect breasts in sapphire tresses, and even though the dark Lilith could see her dark blush and the adorable biting of her lip.

"What is it?" Maya said unsurely.

"I'm just enjoying every inch of you," Lilith responded causing Maya's blush to deepen.

Lilith leaned forward and wrapped her arms around Maya's back. She slowly raked her nails down her skin, delighting in the shudder that the action produced. She peppered kisses down Maya's chest, before she hovered over her right nipple, her breath ghosting on the skin causing goosebumps to break out over her body.

"Hah-ahh, Lilith please…" Maya begged, tangling her hands in Lilith's hair. She was so aroused there was no fear. She had forgotten why she was afraid in the first place. All that remained was the hot passion that lay between them, Maya drowned in it happily.

Lilith latched onto her heaving breast, gently swirling her tongue and sucking the peak with a slight pop. Maya was enthralled, there were explosions of ecstasy unlike anything she ever felt. It was a bigger rush than any battle, more important than any mission. "aaaAAAHH! FUCK LILITH! YES ohhhh God!" she felt her legs begin to tremble, and she dared look down and the sight caused a fresh wave arousal to soak her underwear and her heart to skip a beat. Seeing her lover suckling on her breast, it was such a lewd act. She never would have thought in a million years she would be here in this moment, but here it was unfurling before her. The pressure in her core was beginning to feel unbearable and she shot a hand between her thighs, pressing hard, trying desperately to rid herself of the strange ffeeling.

Her other hand was still holding Lilith's head to her breast. She didn't want the sweet ministrations to stop, but she needed to address the situation down below.

"Lilith-mhhhhmm fuck, theres s-something…" she began desperately.

Lilith stopped what she was doing and looked to Maya's face with a concerned look upon her own.

Maya was beautiful with her hair in a mess, breathing hard and shimmering with light beads of sweat and goosebumps. "Lilith, my…my…" she looked down to where her hand sat, still between her legs holding her privates. She hoped Lilith knew what she was trying to say.

"What's happening to me?" she asked breathlessly.

Lilith suddenly was scolding herself internally. She had been so wrapped up in pleasuring the Siren that she didn't realize that Maya was probably experiencing these feelings of arousal at an overwhelming pace, and she didn't know what to do about them.

"Come here sweetie," Lilith said softly, sliding off of the trembling Siren and taking her into her arms. "That feeling you have, I mentioned before it was called arousal. I should have told you how…intense it can be. It's your body telling you that you need release."

"Release?"

"Yeah, doing the things we are doing now is very arousing, for both of us. It causes the wetness and the pressure. Your body wants to orgasm. You uhh, know what that is right?"

Maya furrowed her brows, "I-I do, but…I thought only men did that? And that it was to reproduce with a woman? I thought that was the only reason we had s-sex?"

Lilith squeezed her a little tighter. "No love, we have sex for pleasure too. And women can have orgasms of their own. And let me tell ya, it feels amazing." She breathed.

Maya was surprised by this new information. She was totally unaware of female orgasms, and now that she was, she was all the more curious. The pleasure she got from Lilith fondling her breasts was in itself mindblowing, how on earth could there be a better feeling than that? She knew now that they would most definitely be taking it further, not now, but someday she wanted to experience the feelings Lilith was describing. Hell, she wanted it now, but the fear…

"I think…I would like that. S-sometime, I mean…does it hurt?"

"It doesn't have to. You see, I'm not sure how savvy you are with what goes on down there, but that nub at the top, your clitoris, can bring you to an amazing orgasm with stimulation. But you would remain a virgin, because technically you wouldn't be entered."

"So basically what you're saying is, we could have s-sex without taking my…virginity?" Maya whispered the last part. Lilith found her shyness endearing.

"Yes, we could. Although…one day, if you were ready and willing, I would like to be your first. And…only." Lilith said emotionally.

A blush crept on Maya's face, and she kissed Liliths chest, right on her tattoos. "I would like that too."

Lilith pulled her closer with the arm that was around Maya, while grabbing the blankets with her other hand and pulling it over them. She peppered Maya's face with gentle kisses, eliciting a giggle from the Siren.

"You are so beautiful Maya. I never want this, what we have, to end. I've never been so fulfilled in my life. Even vault hunting doesn't compare to you."

Maya laughed, it was like music to Lilith's ears. "I must be pretty special then. Lilith, can I ask you something?"

"Anything."

Why am I so nervous? Just ask her!

"You might not remember, but…back when we were in Overlook, and I was saying g-goodbye to you, you were about to say something. Something before the echo cut out and Axton took us through the fast travel. What was it you were trying to say?"

Lilith looked down to Maya, her beautiful blue haired lover. The Siren of Athenas come to save the Crimson Raiders, to save the planet and had stolen her heart. She pushed a strand of hair from her face, and she could see Maya's eyes were on her, they looked hopeful and longing. Lilith leaned down suddenly, stealing a deep kiss from Maya causing her to squeak in surprise. She poured everything she felt into that kiss, sealing her fate with her Siren lover. She broke away, looking surely into Maya's eyes.

"I wanted to tell you I love you."

Maya gasped softly and her eyes began to well with tears, but she was smiling big. She had not been told she had been loved with such tenderness since probably her Mother, and she had forgotten the sound of her voice. She would never forget Lilith's for she vowed to never be without it.

"I-I've never been in love before. But being right here with you, right now, there is no question in my mind that I am utterly and hopelessly in love with you too."