Part 10

Walking back into this new family home was indeed a very strange experience for Bucky Barnes. Yes everything had moved on in his absence but as looked to his heart this felt like his home now. The children in particular were beyond excited to embrace him and for a brief moment , it almost made Bucky feel like he hadn't never missed a single moment in their lives since he became one of the lost five years ago. After being dragged around by Rebecca for a quick yet enthusiastic tour of the house, Brogan decided that everyone had had enough for one day and that it was time for bed. After taking himself off to his room, James headed to bed while Brogan and Bucky headed next door to get little Rebecca settled for the night.

Bucky leant on the door frame of the little girls room, watching in awe as Brogan tucked the youngster into bed. The little girls pale blue eyes now identical to her father's locked on him as her mother handed her "belle" her favourite Teddy, kissed her on the cheek as the youngster snuggled into the pillow. Watching on, Bucky's heart continued to fill with deep love and overwhelming pride for his little girl. Pride at how she had coped since he was taken and even more proud at how she had fully embraced the super serum being part of her. Yes he had inherited it from him but for him right now she was still his beautiful little Rebecca. Bucky's heart filled with so much love for the youngster. This love thankfully drowning out the still extreme guilt and anguish of the fact he'd passed it onto her

"someone wants to say goodnight to you" smiled Brogan warmly reaching up to him "lets go Papa"

Within Seconds of crouching next to her, Rebecca sat up and held her arms tightly around his neck pulling him even closer into a deep crushing hug. In that moment the feeling of being so close to his little girl made Bucky feel more alive than he'd ever been in so long. Releasing the hug Becca began to stroke her face being as gentle as she could with very tips of the fingers, caressing his full beard. Bucky couldn't help but smile at the simple gesture. That one hug making him firmly believe that life Right now seemed a little less bleak than it had been...

"Im so happy you're back Papa" she beamed, literally hurling her arms round his neck once more "James and I have made a wish on a Star every night since you was taken...we wished for you to finally come home and I just can't believe it's come true"

"Someone was definitely listening to you honey... Just shows that you should never give up hope" Bucky planted a gentle kiss on her head as he pulled her blanket over her shoulders to tuck her in "its good to be home darling but I'm just sorry it took so long"

"I always knew you'd come home" she yawned, her eyes feeling heavy as sleep slowly began to take over "You'll be here when I wake up though won't you? Please Papa...you won't go away again will you?"

"darling, I give you my word I'll be here. I promise" A proud smile once again filled his face as he stroked her hair "Sleep tight Becca Barnes..."

"Night papa... Love you "

Before exiting the room. Bucky took one last look at the now sleeping Rebecca before slowly closing the door behind him. As he turned round he couldn't help but gasp seeing Brogan almost waiting for him. She had slipped into her nightwear and for Bucky was standing there almost like some kind of Angel before his very eyes. The small silky White camisole clung to every curve of her body as Bucky took a breath, struggling to hold it together. Slowly he edged closer to her, taking her head in both his hands. Gently brushing her soft cheeks with his thumb. Brogan closed her eyes and let out a soft moan. In that split second before his touch, her brain and body felt electric. She felt intoxicated. Just his scent alone was sending her into a heady trance, one that wouldn't end until their bodies were still once more. Fused together, so close as Two soulmates should be

"Come to bed Bucky..." his eyes were piercing the very depths of her soul as she pressed her forehead against his. She felt him soon slip his arms around her waist and with one pull their skin touched "I've missed you so much...please...let's go to bed.."

Brogan soon felt Bucky's hand move to her hair as reached up to release the clip holding her hair into a ponytail. Her long curls cascading over shoulders. Saying nothing, he kissed hard and literally took her breath away. Their bodies for together so perfectly it was like they had been made for moments like this, just to mould into one another like nothing around them mattered. Their eyes locked for a moment. With Bucky soon leaning in for another kiss, this time his metallic hand pulled at the thin strap of her nightie allowing him to finally at long last gently caress her soft ivory skin...

"I've missed you too... As much as I want to take you in my arms and make love to you Brogan...I just can't tonight..." once again he held her head tight in his hands and could already see her emerald eyes glistening with tears "it just doesn't feel right... I'm sorry"

"What? Don't you want me anymore? " She sobbed tearfully looking down at the floor "I've waited five years for this Bucky... "

"No, its not like that. Of course I want you...I want you more than anything trust me" He placed his metallic hand under her chin forcing her to look up at him "when we make love, I just want the moment to be right. Tonight isn't it. Its nothing to do with you. Five years is a long time Brogan and when we're together I just want it to be perfect...I just don't want to rush things...please don't be upset...it will happen but just not tonight... I think its best I sleep on the couch"

"of course I'm upset but... " she forced out a smile and tucked the long wavy locks of his hair behind his ears. Slowly she ran her hands over the front of his shirt, soon stopping at the centre of his chest "I understand... But just answer me one thing? You say you want me still but do you still love me? Five long years have passed but have your feelings for me changed? Please I need to know"

,"listen to me...nothing has changed in what I feel about you" He felt her pain and let out a deep sigh "I adore everything about you... You Brogan Barnes are my soulmate, you complete me. You're still my world and my life. You were the only thing I ever thought about while I was gone... Everyday I dreamed of coming back home to you" once again he softly brushed away her tears "I want our first night together to be perfect that's all...please... Just be patient"

"okay...I will" she reached for his hand and Bucky squeezed it reassuringly. Just as like he said, Bucky was her everything. She'd got him back at long last but was determined not to lose him again "i understand... Goodnight Bucky...I love you"

Placing her hands on his shoulders, she greeted him with a warm loving smile. Saying nothing she planted a kiss on his cheek. As she soon turned to head to her room, Bucky stood their for several seconds just clutching his face.. He looked up and caught one last smile from her before she closed the door behind her, leaving Bucky alone once more...

"Goodnight Brogan... I love you too"

Climbing in the bed, Brogan reached out to the pillow next to her and couldn't help but run her hand over the empty space that should have been where Bucky lay. Five years she'd waited for him to share her bed once again and yet here she was lying alone and Bucky was sleeping on the couch just down the hall. Everyday since his "passing" she dreamed constantly of being in his arms once more. Yet having him so close and this not happening was killing her. As frustration took over she decided to try and get some sleep. At the end of the day, Bucky was home and that was all that mattered...

As she closed her eyes, the light began to fade away and the room soon filled with darkness. Bringing with it silence that would put her mind at rest...well hopefully...

A sudden nudge to Brogan's ribs oddly make her jerk awake from her slumber. Opening her eyes she could see that someone was standing at the door to her bedroom. Slipping our of the covers she slowly edged closer to the mysterious shadowy figure. When the figure emerged from the shadows she was surprised to see that it was in fact Bucky. Relieved that he was now here, she flung herself at him, covering his face in soft kisses. Oddly Bucky just stood there completely emotionless, not even responding to her touches...

"Bucky? You OK!? What's wrong?"

"Nothings wrong with me... In fact I have to tell you something " still emotionless he pushed her away and took a step back "I don't love you anymore...in fact I never did...you disgust me"

"What!? No...you don't mean that" clutching her chest, it was almost like a thousand daggers were piercing her soul. Her heart shattering at the hate and harshness in his words "This isn't you. .you don't mean that.. Please I'm begging you. Tell me you don't mean that...after everything we've been through. Please Bucky"

"I mean every word... " Bucky glared, his eyes full of anger and hate "Get away from me. Your pathetic... Nobody could ever love you"

"But I love you... I love you" She fell to her knees, begging and pleading with him to take it back. Her sobs drowning out the pain in her heart "but I've waited for you... I've waited for so long...you don't meant this ..we're meant to be Bucky"

"Are you deaf? What part of I don't love you anymore do you not understand?" Rolling his eyes in disgust Bucky turned to head to the door. Not even caring at the broken woman sobbing on the floor, her whole world ending "Get away from me .."

"Bucky please don't go. Don't leave me...PLEASE...BUCKY!? BUCKY... COME BACK TO ME!"

Waking up with a start, Brogan was relieved to see that it was all just a dream. With her eyes still closed, she sat up and clutched her chest as she struggled to control her breathing. She was even more relieved when she finally opened het eyes to see the real Bucky at the side of the bed, although with a somewhat look of deep worry on his face as he clung onto her hand

"thank god you woke up...I heard you shouting and screaming. Every time I tried to talk to you just kept sobbing" the anxious man soon breathe a huge sigh of relief. Glad she was OK but still a little shaken "What the hell happened?" before he could say anything more, she hurled herself at him and buried her head in his shoulder. Once again collapsing in a mountain of sobs "shh...it's OK...everything's going to be fine...it was just a dream...that's OK...everything's going to be OK now"

"but it all felt so real " Brogan sobbed as Bucky could feel his bare shoulder damp with her tears "you was there...standing right by the door"

"me!?"

"Yes... It was you" she reached for his brown and grey scarf that she still took to bed with her and had been her source of comfort in the five years since he had been gone "you said you didn't love me any more and called me pathetic when I was crying. Please Bucky, tell me it wasn't a vision or a sign of things to come...I'm begging you"

While they were on the run all those years ago now, it was always Brogan that was the calming one. Whenever his anxiety peaked she was always there with her soothing words and tender of touches. Yet here, right at this moment the roles were reversed and it was him being the reassuring voice she needed

"shh. Its Ok..OK want to know why I know it was just a silly dream?" he took one of his hands in hers while the other gently brushed her hair from her face. Pausing for a moment he kissed her softly on the forehead "because I'm right here...and I love you. I always have and I always will. Nothing will ever change what I feel for you. I may have been gone for five years and missed out on so much but the one thing I do know is that my love and feelings for you are stronger than ever..."

"oh Bucky...these last five years have been so hard without you in my life" she pulled him close once again as being as gentle as he could, he gently began to caress her hair and after a few minutes could feel her slowly start to relax ",I thought I'd never see you again... I thought I'd lost you forever... I've missed you so much"

"it OK, I'm home now...we always find each other right? Now get some rest" he guided her head to the pillow and kissed her cheek "ill be right here OK? Trust me...I'm not going anywhere...not anymore"

"ok but..." She paused watching him kneel beside her at the side of the bed "not there...next to me please.. Please Bucky, I just need to feel you close that's all...just hold me...nothing else...just hold me please'

Saying nothing, Bucky quickly got go his feet and nodded as he climbed into the covers next to her. Brogan rest his head on his abdomen and wrapped her arm tight around his waist. Almost like she didn't want to let go. Smiling, he lowered his head and kissed Her cheek, brushing her arm with the very tips of his fingers. Within seconds he felt Brogan instantly relax and could see she'd closed her eyes...

"im never leaving you again" his hands now moving from her arm to her back, tracing her spine "I Promise..."