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Warning: There are lemons ahead

Rey

Things hadn't gotten better for Rey concerning her darkness, even after she and Kylo meditated together and he showed her his own memories of accepting his darkness as a part of himself. No matter what he did or said, nothing seemed to help her. Rey could sense his growing frustration with the situation and knew he really didn't need the added strain with everything else going on. So, she allowed him to think that she was doing better. She buried the feeling of being overwhelmed under the pressures of everything else to mask the truth.

She spent so much of her mental energy hiding that truth from him that when she was able to let her guard down her darkness overtook her rational thought within moments and then it would take her hours to get her head back right. The time spent with her darkness left her feeling used up, worthless, unlovable, angry, scared, disappointed and lonely even though she knew the emotions and the reasons behind them were completely irrational. She would often spend long moments weeping like she hadn't even done in all her years of solitude on Jakku.

After almost a month of faking it Rey finally told Kylo and the others that she needed a day to herself to recharge and renew her connection to the light. It wasn't a lie because that was exactly what she had intended to do.

As Rey wandered the grounds of the castle, she couldn't help but wonder how her friends hadn't noticed the drastic change in her moods and behavior. Rey had been neglecting Finn, Rose, Poe, Connix and Chewy. She also hadn't fixed on anything since they'd been back from Vodran. She was distracted and constantly exhausted from the mental strain. If Kylo didn't remind her, she would often forget to eat and groom herself so she must have looked as terrible as she felt.

She was off. Just not herself at all.

Finally, she'd had enough and was going to deal with this business today once and for all.

She'd found a pool of fresh water and shed her clothes, swimming through the water, picturing it flowing through her body taking with it all of the negative thoughts that her darkness had planted there. As she did so, she did feel a little better and that gave her hope.

When she was done, she climbed out to sit atop a large flat rock. She fell into a deep easy meditative state, focusing on conjuring a manifestation of her darkness. It didn't take long before a red, black tinged mist began to swirl and take on the form of a woman. The mist settled on a dark version of Rey with pale, moon lit skin, midnight black hair and yellow Sith eyes. The visage startled Rey for a moment and the apparition laughed at her.

"Calm down, Rey. I can't hurt you; I am you. Plus, I don't want to hurt you," Dark Rey said with a smile that was more of a baring of teeth than anything friendly or inviting.

"And yet you constantly fill my head with vile thoughts and emotions. Emotional and mental abuse is a tactic that Snoke used on Kylo and the Knights of Ren. All he wanted was to control them," Rey argued.

She got to her feet, even though she knew she was really still seated on the rock in her meditative state. She walked out to where her darkness stood in midair. The two of them stared at each other, studying the slight differences. The yellow irises unnerved Rey more than the deathly pale skin and she found it almost impossible to look her darkness in the eye.

"Snoke wanted to make them more powerful and he did. Look how strong our brave lover is," she said with a grin and then began pacing back and forth in front of Rey. "True, his bloodline screams strength, Leia could have been a Jedi to rival your precious Skywalker, but she chose the love of that smuggler Han Solo over power, a foolish yet effective move. The galaxy is better for Ben Solo being born," the darkness said with a nod. "But Ben Solo's raw strength needed to be refined, honed and Snoke did that, did he not?"

"Luke could have done the same thing if Snoke hadn't been poisoning both Luke and Ben's minds," Rey said reasonably.

Her darkness shrugged in response and kept pacing.

"Too bad we'll never know now," she said with an evil smirk at Rey. "Kylo is the one who has been to teaching you, and he was doing a great job before but he's going too easy on you now. Ever since you opened those legs of yours, he's fallen in love with you, so he won't put you in any real danger or hurt you enough to push your power to new heights."

Rey blushed furiously and wanted to both cover her face with her hands and run the apparition through with her light saber.

"I am strong enough to purge you from my system if I so chose," Rey said. Rey saw fear pass through the yellow Sith eyes but the darkness schooled its borrowed face as Rey said, "But I am supposed to learn you as I learned my light back on Ach-To with Luke, so I wanted to try that, on the condition that you back the kriff off."

The darkness seemed to consider her offer.

"I suppose I can consider that," Dark Rey said. "But you must stop fighting it all so much. Humans more than any other species are full of both positive and negative emotions. You are the Grey that balances the darkness and the light, internally and externally."

Rey nodded. The darkness spoke true. How could Rey demand the Knights of Ren accept the light, when she couldn't even accept her own darkness?

"Then let us begin," Dark Rey said and went over to settle down into Rey's true body.

Rey spent the next few hours reliving every painful memory, every dark thought she'd had in her twenty years of living. It felt like Rey's soul was rending itself in two.

Around her, the ground shook, the pool boiled and the loose rocks and pebbles around her began to float with the rage that filled her. She released an angry scream and a large tree near her split all the way down the trunk, the stone under her began to crumble and the grass began to wither and die.

Rey, Kylo called into her mind.

In the chaos that was her mind, Rey barely even heard Kylo's call. Instead, her darkness showed her Kylo's broken body, and she knew it was her fault that he was dead, that she hadn't been strong enough to save him. The very real pain that coursed through her only added to her rage.

In her mind Rey began slaughtering First and Neo Order soldiers with wild abandon. She had come up to Zoroyais, whose face shimmered, showing Snoke, what she imagined was the monster calling itself Zoroyais and even Hux and was about to run the being through when a hand touched her shoulder.

She was jerked out of her meditative state and came to with a frustrated sigh.

Rey looked up to see that it was indeed Kylo who had interrupted her. Her darkness hadn't receded and at first, she wanted to snap at him since she had wanted the day all to herself but that thought quickly left her mind as she noticed his body's reaction to her nakedness.

"I was calling you," he said in a rough voice.

"Sorry, I was pretty deep into my meditation," she said.

"I could tell," he said and looked around at the destruction that had been caused by the release of her energy.

This is destruction caused by the dark side, Kylo thought and Rey knew it wasn't meant for her to hear by the wide look in Kylo's eyes.

She hadn't held the bond this far open since she'd started being attacked by her darkness but right then since her darkness was sitting comfortable under her skin, she figured no harm could be done. With the bond open this far she could feel how much enjoyed looking at her and how much he wanted her.

"What were you doing out here, sweetheart," Kylo asked leaning down to kiss Rey on the forehead.

Instead of answering, she moved up on to her knees so that his kiss landed on her mouth. Her hands reached up tangling in his hair keeping him in the kiss as her lips moved over his lush mouth and her tongue pressed over the seam until her opened for her. As their tongues danced, Rey let an image of her on her knees in front of Kylo, his hands buried in her hair. She was pleased as he groaned in agreement. Her hands moved away from his hair down to the fly of his pants.

They continued to kiss as Rey slipped her hand into Kylo's pants to free his erection, but he caught her hands.

He broke the kiss and looked down into her eyes, his own dark with lust but Rey could see concern in them too. Hoping to distract him, she squeezed his hard flesh in her palm.

"Do you think this is wise? We aren't that far from the base," he said, fighting the pleasure that was pulsing throughout his body. "I'm not sure you should have been out here in the nude; anyone could have come upon you," Kylo said, his voice dropping even lower.

"It's fine. No one comes out here; that's why I picked this place," she said. "Let me suck you," she begged in a sweet, lust filled voice. "We can talk about my progress later."

Kylo closed his eyes, hips jerking as her hand squeezed rhythmically.

Rey knew she had won when he released her wrists and stood up so that he was no longer looming over her. She sprung his cock free and immediately licked all around the tip of it causing him to moan. She opened her mouth wrapping around his hard, smooth flesh, sucking on it. She moaned at the taste.

Saliva ran down her lips as she moved her lips even further down his shaft so that he was moving into her throat with every bob of her head. Kylo moaned for her and she took that as a sign to keep going. She acutely felt his pleasure so that her own arousal was running down her thighs as she sucked him deeply.

"Oh fuck, Rey," he moaned as her tongue swirled around the underside.

Rey slid his cock out of her mouth until just the head rested on her tongue. She lapped at the pre-cum leaked from tip. Her small hand stroked him in a slow sensual motion.

Kylo's hand gripped her hair, forcing her to keep up with the quickening pace of his thrusting hips. Kylo threw his head back, lost in the pleasure of her warm, wet mouth.

Rey rolled her eyes up so that she could watch the pleasure play out on his face as she sucked him. One of her hands dropped down to rub at the sensitive bundle of nerves at the top of her sex. The echo of pleasure went down the line of their bond into Kylo and then bounced back, doubled as it returned to Rey. Her body shook as she felt herself nearing orgasm.

"Fuck, Rey. I need to be inside of you," Kylo moaned suddenly springing his erection from her mouth with a loud pop.

Rey stood up as he shed his clothes and pulled her against him. Without waiting for her saying something he lifted her into his arms, settling her small form just over the head of his cock.

"Say yes, Rey," Kylo moaned as the tip of his sex slid against her slick heat.

Rey shifted in his grip wanting to feel him stretch her with his large appendage.

"Always," she moaned as she rubbed herself against him.

…

Kylo

Kylo hadn't been expecting to find Rey completely naked in the middle of the jungle and he certainly hadn't expected to find the area in the state that it was in or for things to turn to sex as fast as they did.

It had been almost a month since the last time they'd had sex and Kylo was a sucker for her perfect little body and the wet heat between her legs. So much so that he was willing to put away his worry for her just for a chance to bury himself between her legs. At least for the moment.

As soon as she said always, Kylo sheathed himself inside of her slick, wet heat. He groaned her name, hands digging into her thighs as they joined. The scream she released, made him growl and being to move inside of her. Kylo kissed along the column of her neck and pulled her earlobe between his teeth. He held her up with the force changing his grip so that he could bury his hand in her hair, holding her so that they could kiss again.

Rey moved against him, creating friction that sent pleasure rebounding through the two of them.

"Kylo," she moaned as her head fell back in pleasure.

"I missed this, sweetheart," he whispered, watching at the euphoric look on her face.

He could feel that she missed it too by the way her core spasmed around him. She was so wet that his stomach and thighs were slick with her need. Her nails dug into his back and the little flare of pain made him growl, thrusting into her faster. He dropped to his knees, staying inside her as he laid her back on the warm, soft grass to the side of the rock she'd been meditating on.

With the leverage of the ground underneath them, Kylo planted one hand on the ground and began moving painfully slow. He was teasing her and himself, drawing things out for as long as possible.

Rey wiggled under him impatiently.

He laughed and sped up just a bit. Not where she wanted but enough. Kylo smirked down at the pout on Rey's face. He'd given in to her, but he wasn't going to just let her have her way. Kylo hadn't dominated his little sun Rey in a while and he figured it was time to remind her who was in charge. Kylo looped one arm around her waist to keep her in place when she tried to lift her hips to meet his.

"Kylo," she whined.

"Rey," he said in a calm tone.

His hips continued the lazy rhythm he had established. He pushed deep into her, filling her up until their pelvises touched. He ground against that sweet spot deep inside of her until she felt heat begin to spread from her clit.

Rey's legs began to tremble.

"Please, Kylo," she pled.

"Not yet, little one," Kylo said. He closed his eyes, trying to keep his head as he started to move in time with his words, "You distracted me with this beautiful mouth of yours." He leaned down to kiss her, then said, "We will discuss what you were really doing out here but for now I'm going to make you beg me to fuck you and then I will oblige until you scream for me to stop."

Rey's grew wide as she realized that he was being serious.

He stared down with her, his dark intentions leaking down the line of the bond as every time they'd shared together filled her mind. He sat back on his heels using the Force to hold her still as he used his free hand to circle and then pinch and pull on her nipple making her jerk and writhe under him. He still didn't move, just stayed deep inside of her.

"Kylo-"

She was going to try to argue with him or beg him to let her cum, but he cut her off with a look.

You can't lie to me with the bond open so wide, Rey, he said through the bond because he didn't trust his voice. Whatever you were doing out here had to do with your darkness and the dark side of the Force. Don't go too far by yourself, he warned. And you haven't taken your punishment yet .

She blushed and looked away, when she looked back some of the darkness had left her eyes so that they were the pure gold he was used to seeing every time they made love.

I was just communing with my darkness. It was showing me things, some that made me happy, some that made me angry or sad, she said through their bond.

You can explain yourself fully later, he told her as he finally began moving again.

She nodded, her lithe form stretched out as much as his Force grip on her would allow, revealing in the pleasure of him filling her completely before pulling almost all of the way out.

He thought about letting her go but figured it would be more fun to hold her there while he brought her pleasure. He removed his arm from around her waist letting her body relax on the ground. He slipped his hand between their bodies and circled her clit gently as his speed increased little by little. He could feel her body clamping down on him every time he pushed into her and she cried out for him.

Soon he was pounding into her and she was moaning for him, her orgasm close at hand. Kylo poured all the pleasure he was feeling down the bond into Rey, allowing him to keep his shit together a little longer while he made her come apart. He circled her clit faster, applying just enough pressure that her eyes rolled into the back of her head.

A small scream escaped her lips as her orgasm took over. Her walls spasmed around his cock. His thrusts became erratic as he began to let go of his iron self-control.

Rey pulled against the force hands holding her wrists above her head as waves of pleasure spread throughout her body. The overflow of pleasure came back down the line of the bond.

"Oh fuck, Rey," he moaned again. "I love you, Rey," he moaned as he dropped his forehead to hers.

"I love you too, Ben," she moaned, and he let her wrists go.

Her arms came around his neck and pulled him into a deep kiss. Her hips moved in time with his. Her fingers snaked up to bury in his raven tresses. She gripped it tight keeping his mouth to hers as he groaned against her mouth.

His jerky thrusts became rough and deep as his seed spilled inside her. He held his weight off of her for a second before rolling them over so that she was lying on his chest.

"I'm sorry I made you worried," she said.

"I know how seductive the dark side can be. I don't need you to fall to it completely. You are the greatest source of light left in the galaxy, without you there is no hope," Kylo said seriously.

"I know Kylo. I just felt like I needed to deal with this on my own. My darkness had been overwhelming me, telling me that you wouldn't love me if you knew how weak I really was," Rey admitted. "But then I realized that things were so bad because I was fighting my darkness when I should have been embracing it. I promise you that things are better," Rey said with a small smile.

"Good. I want you to know that you can always tell me when something is wrong. We are stronger together," Kylo reminded her and she nodded.

He knows that you are stronger than him Rey, and he will cling to you and your strength until you are all used up, her darkness warned, and Rey nodded again in understanding…