You found your way back up to the table and to a lookout that allowed you to see the horrible green island in the distance. It took all your energy away, so you refrained from staring too long. You watched long enough to see the Dawn Treader near it as the sun began to rise. Even though you wanted nothing to do with Caspian, you still wanted him to be safe. You sent your well-wishes and prayers his way.

You sat around for a long time, glancing toward the island until the ship disappeared within the misty swirls of grey and green. All you could do was wait.

"Y/N."

Gasping, you turned to find Aslan. He was as glorious as ever, but his face held remorse.

"Why do you sit here?"

"Caspian… he broke my heart… He fell for a star."

"Are you sure he fell for her, dear one?"

You nodded. "The way he stared at her… I stand no chance against her beauty, her character. He will choose the star over me."

"I know the king's heart."

"I'm sure you know what he felt when he saw her."

Aslan sat beside you, his front leg brushing your shoulder. "He did find Liliandil beautiful. She is a star, one of the most beautiful creations of mine. But he does not love her. His heart belongs to you."

"Then why would he say such a thing to her? Why would he hurt me?"

"Humans make mistakes, Y/N. What he said was not meant to hurt you. He did not mean it in the same way he thinks about your beauty. I made you for him and him for you."

Tears welled up in your eyes. "I can't trust him, Aslan. I'm afraid…"

"You can trust him. Caspian is a good king and a good man. You have nothing to fear. If you cannot trust him, trust me."

Silence surrounded you. You stared at your hands and felt Aslan's knowing eyes on you. Aslan was the only one you could trust without fear and He was defending Caspian. But how could you bring yourself to trust him like before?

"It will take time," Aslan said. "He will need to gain your trust once more, but don't give up on him. He will need you. He needs your support now."

"I'll always support him. He's my best friend…"

There was a roar and you spotted Eustace flying out of the clouds.

"Let him fight for you again, dear one."

You looked over to find Aslan had disappeared. You were still upset, but Aslan was right. You couldn't give up on Caspian, especially not when he was risking his life for Narnia.

Standing up, you faced the island and ignored the painful twist of your stomach. "Don't let it win, Caspian. I'll do what I can from here. We're… We're still in this together."

"Oof!"

Flipping around, you saw Eustace lying on his stomach across the way. "Eustace!"

You ran through the table room to the boy passed out on the ground. You shook his shoulders until he sat up on his knees quickly.

"Y/N?"

"How did you get here? You're a boy again!"

"I think I met Aslan."

You smiled. "I knew he'd help you."

Eustace started searching the ground. "I need the sword. We have to put it on the table."

"Is that it over there?"

He got up and ran to it. "It is! Come on!"

The two of you ran back to the table where the other six swords were trembling and shining blue. The sword in Eustace's hand also began to glow. Unfortunately, when Eustace stepped forward to place it on the table, he was yanked back by the green mist. It swirled around both of you, taking advantage of you vomiting on your hands and knees. You didn't know how you could help Eustace get to the table.

We'll do it together.

You opened your eyes and coughed. You had to help Caspian. If you let the mist control what you could do, he'd lose, and they would die. No amount of anger could make you wish death upon the king or the crew. The mist wouldn't win.

Standing on wobbly legs, you swiped your arms through the tendrils of mist trying to keep Eustace back. "Get out of here!" you shouted at it. "Eustace, go!"

The second the sword fell onto the others, a beam of light shot up into the sky. The mist surrounding you and Eustace dissolved. The churning of your stomach stopped, allowing you to run out to see the mist around the island slowly disappear.

"We did it, Eustace!" you cheered, hugging the boy when he joined you. "We won!"

"And now it's time for you to return to the ship," Aslan said from behind you. "Both of you."

You nodded despite the nervousness growing in you. If Aslan wasn't going to take you home and your family was at least a month away, you had to find a way back. You had to talk to Caspian at some point no matter how much you still hurt. Aslan was right and you had to remind yourself that He really did know Caspian's heart. He was Aslan.

Aslan breathed on you and Eustace. What was once warm air turned to warm water. You and Eustace were floating in the sea, the Dawn Treader nearby and hundreds of longboats floating closer.

"Edmund! Lucy!" Eustace called from the water, gaining his cousins' attention.

"Eustace! You're a boy again!" Lucy grinned. "And Y/N! You're here!"

At the sound of your name, Caspian rushed to the side of the boat. It was a relief that he was okay. You had a feeling he felt the same about you.

Reepicheep began to sing his song about Aslan's Country, mentioning the water being sweet. He and Eustace tasted it, realizing they had reached it. It did exist.

The two of you were helped onto the ship with the others. It warmed your heart to see Edmund and Eustace getting along as the older cousin hugged the younger.

Everything was loud. People were talking and celebrating, thanking the crew for saving them. Among the noise, you heard the soft clearing of a throat. You instantly knew who it was. You looked at Caspian.

"May we talk about earlier?" he asked, eyes downcast like a child in trouble.

"I think we need to." It was the least you could do for your relationship.

Caspian didn't lead you to the king's quarters. Instead, he took you to a secluded corner of the ship, still within sight of everyone.

"I know that there is nothing I can do to truly show you how sorry I am… I feel nothing for the star. My love is only for you." Caspian's eyes turned glassy. "I'll do anything to fix this, Y/N. Anything. Just don't… don't give up on us, on me."

"I'm afraid to trust you again. It was only a compliment, but what will it be next time? I'm afraid I'll always wonder if you're being unfaithful when you have to leave for many weeks."

"I would never. Every time I must leave, I will take you with me. You'll never have to worry. I promise you. I… I don't want to see that look on your face ever again because of something I did to hurt you. How can I live with myself if I deliberately hurt the woman I love? The woman I adore? The woman I would die for? What kind of king am I if I can't prove every day why I'm worthy to be loved by you? I am so sorry, Y/N. I don't deserve you."

And you knew he believed what he said wholeheartedly. You felt the remnants of anger evaporate. "Caspian," you said, looking into his sad eyes. "You… you made a mistake that I would normally hang onto… But Aslan… He told me that I should trust you because He knows your heart…" You clasped your hands in front of you. "I don't have His ability to see what He sees… but I trust Him. And if He says you still love me… then I believe it. I can't forget what happened though."

"Never forget it, Y/N. Be the one to remind me where I failed you. Please. Remind me of what I did to hurt you, so that I will never do it again." He cupped your face, relieved you didn't try to back away. "Remind me that I have to win you back every morning and show you how much I love you every second of the day. I will not make that mistake again, Y/N."

You nodded, feeling tears roll down your cheeks that you didn't know were building in your eyes. More fell when Caspian let a few of his own fall.

He leaned forward to kiss your forehead. "I'm so sorry…"

"I'm sorry I slapped you," you sniffled, letting yourself get comfortable in his arms when he hugged you.

"Don't be. I deserved it for being an idiot. I deserve a lot more than a slap."

"Do you still want to marry me?"

"I never stopped wanting to. Do you…?"

You took a deep breath. "Yeah."

"You decide when. No rush. I won't ask for a day. I'm leaving it up to you, okay? I want… I want you to trust me again, so we'll wait until you do."

Nodding against his chest, you closed your eyes and soaked in the warmth from his body.

"Why don't you change into something dry," he suggested. "We'll wait for you before taking the longboat into Aslan's Country. I'll wait for you by the ladder."

"I won't be long."