Chapter 16
Anyone's POV
Soda and Darry stood up suddenly as everyone looked at each other. There was another scream, and almost instantly everyone recognized it to be Ponyboy.
"I got it." Soda said and rushed to his room. He opened the door to see Pony laying on his stomach and crying into his pillow. Soda looked over at him with a sad look, then slowly walked over to him. Soda sat down on the bed next to him and gently rubbed his back. Pony jumped and started pushing Soda away, crying harder.
"Hey hey hey, its me Pony its me. Calm down." Soda whispered and tried to rub his back again.
Pretend like he's forgiven, Pony thought. He calmed down but he was still tensed up. Soda rubbed his back again and watched him. Pony buried his face into his pillow again and tried to stop crying.
Soda knew that Pony was still crying and so he laid down next to him. he gently wrapped an arm around Pony and whispered to him. Pony was still tensed up but he tried not to let it show.
After a while, Pony was able to stop crying and Soda ended up falling asleep with his arm around Pony.
Pony didn't fall asleep though. He had something on his mind that he wanted to do before he went to bed.
He wanted to forgive Soda, but he was scared. He didn't want to be hurt anymore. He figured that if he didn't let Soda in, then Soda couldn't hurt him anymore. Every time he was around Soda, he remembered Dally's words.
Get tough. Don't get hurt. Pony thought to himself.
Pony heard Darry, Steve, and Two-bit talking out in the living room, and smiled a bit when he heard Darry say that he was going to bed. Pony wanted to do something, but he had to wait until everyone else was asleep.
Pony heard footsteps lead to a near-by bedroom, and Darry's door close shut. Since Sodapop's door was open, he could see the living room light be turned out and smiled a bit more.
He waited a bit. He was debating if he wanted to go through with his plan or not.
He finally made up his mind that he was going to. He wanted to. He had to.
Pony decided to wait a few more minutes. He wanted to make sure that everyone was asleep before he got out of bed.
A few more minutes went by, and he smiled when he heard no more voices.
He slipped out of Soda's grasp and quietly snuck into the bathroom and quietly closed the door behind him. He started looking around for the thing that he wanted. As he was looking around, he kept telling himself, I want this. I want this. I need this. I need this.
He repeated those words over and over again in his head as he continued to search the bathroom.
Where is it?! He thought and continued to search quietly.
As he looked around, other thoughts ran through his head. He thought of his mom and dad. He thought of Johnny. He thought of Dally. He thought of the gang. He thought of Sodapop.
Sodapop... Pony thought sadly. At that very moment, he found what he was looking for.
I want this, I need this, he continued to think. I have to do this..
The thing he found was his switchblade.
The thing he wanted to do was cut.
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