Chapter 5: I can't Tell
"Ah…Rei-Reiner," I moan his name as he pushes in and out of me more and more. "Please… sl-slow down." Biting the pillow to muffle my moans because I know he doesn't like it when I moan aloud. He says that's too personal whenever I do that.
"No, I'm not slowing down." He grabs my hips in place and slams into me and I can't help but moan a lot louder whenever he does that. It feels good and I can't help it. I grab on the sheets and bite the pillow as Reiner is slamming into me again, and again. He's always rough with me, and always leaving me sore when we're done.
"Rei-ner," I moan his name. "I'm gonn-ah, cu-cum.". He leans over me and puts one of his hand on my cock and starts pumping it. All he does is grunt and pant. "Gaah! Plea-se. Aaah!" I moan out loud as I cum into his hand and he cums inside me. Reiner pulls out and falls on the bed beside me and I lay on the bed. We're both exhausted.
We rest there for a little while until Reiner grabs some tissue from the tissue box he keeps in the corner of the bed and wipes my cum off his hand. "Sorry, Reiner for the mess…" I Say hugging the pillow I have under my head. "Yeah, its no problem. Besides I'm the one who made you make the mess." He says smirking.
We've been having sex like this since High school actually. We both had problems. Him with his difficult relationship with Bertholdt and Me with my one sided love for Jean.
One night we ran into each other and started hanging out and then we started talking about our problems with each other. And, somehow, one night I was crying while talking to him about my problems, he kissed me. I guess it was to console me but I kissed back because that kissed made me forget about Jean for at least a second. then, it just went on from there.
"Hey, how are you and Jean doing?" Reiner asked suddenly. I turned my head to look at him, Reiner staring at the ceiling. "It's going okay I guess.". "You guess?". "Well, yeah. I mean we aren't going out but… I don't even think he knows I'm gay." I said, kinda sounded surprised myself.
He turns his head to look at me "How the hell does he not know you're gay yet… Dude, You don't go out with girls and I'm pretty sure he notices when you're gone for a long time with me."
I giggled at that.
"I'm pretty sure he could care less where I'm at. He's always having sex with some girl on campus. So, I highly doubt he's worrying about me.". "He'll come around soon." Reiner says as he give me a kiss on the lips and gets comfortable on the bed, going to sleep. "Yeah…" I get comfortable on the bed too and start thinking until I fall asleep.
"Here you go." Reiner says as he hands me the ice cream he bought me from the shop he works at. It's his day off. "Ah, Thank you!" I smile at him grabbing the ice cream from his hands. "No problem. "Bye Annie." Reiner waves to Annie as we walk out the ice cream shop. We start to walk around campus for a little while until we find a bench and we take a seat on it.
"So, what do ya want to do today?" Reiner asks.
"Um, I don't know." I look at him and look back at my ice cream and start licking it. "Hmm… How 'bout a movie?" Reiner suggests. I look at him "That sounds fun. What movie thou-".
"HEY, MARCO!"
I hear Jean yell out my name from a distance. shit. I look over to jean whose running up to me. "Heh, He's here, huh." I could hear Reiner mumble.
I stand up "Hey, Jean." I say before he gives me a huge hug, making me drop my ice cream. "Aww, Jean." I say in a whiny voice. "Oh snap, sorry, Marco." Jean says, letting me go from the hug. "I'll buy you another one to make up for it! Oh, What's up Reiner?" Jean looks back at Reiner, who only smiles and waves back. He doesn't look so annoyed like he does whenever Jean is around.
"Hey! What are you doing today, Marco?" Jean puts his attention back on me. "Well I was gonna go watch a movie with Rei-uhh…" I look back at the bench where Reiner is sitting but he's gone, nowhere insight.
"What?" Jean says. I look back at Jean "Uh, nothing. I wasn't gonna do anything today." I say quickly.
"Okay cool cause Connie and Sasha invited me to go to the movies with them. So, I decided I'd take you along with me." He tells me. I look at him with a really confused face. "What's wrong, Marco? Do you not want to go?" He asks concerned. "No its just that why would you wanna take me out of all the people you could take with you?" I ask. "Because you're my friend, Marco. Now c'mon we're gonna meet up with them at the movies. The movie starts at 5." Jean grabs my hand and we start walking toward the movie theater.
Why is he grabbing my hand! Oh my gosh!
We finally arrive outside the movie theaters. "Hey! They're here!" I hear Sasha yell out to Connie. "Gosh, finally. Took them long enough." Connie says jokingly. "Shut up, man." Jean says, Still holding my hand. I stare at the floor, my face is flushed and I don't want them to see. The warmth of Jeans hand leaves me as we approach Connie and Sasha.
"Hey, Marco!" Sasha yells out, hugging me. "Uh, Hey Sasha." I say, hugging back a little until she lets go. "So what movie we gonna watch?" Jean asks. "Well, we're stuck between 3. How to Train your Dragon 2, 22 Jump Street, and Maleficent." Connie says.
"Well, I've been wanting to watch 22 Jump Street." Jean says. "How bout you, Marco?" he asks. "Uh, I don't really mind what movie we watch." I say rubbing the back of my head. "Alright 22 Jump Street it is." Connie says, walking up to the ticket booth, buying 4 tickets for us and we walk inside the building.
When we walk in Sasha immediately runs to the food court and we follow right behind her. We end up buying 2 large popcorn buckets, one for Sasha and the other one for the rest of us. Sasha gets a Blue icy and I get a red one. Both Jean and Connie get regular cokes.
Later, we soon find our seats and I get to sit next to Jean, Sasha sits on the other side of Jean and Connie sits next to Sasha.
Through out the whole movie we were all laughing. I think Sasha has the most obnoxious laugh (Not that there's anything wrong with that.) and Sasha finished her popcorn and almost finished ours as well.
"That movie was freaking hilarious!" Sasha says out loud, still laughing, as we walk out of the movie theatre. "Yeah I totally agree." Connie says walking next to Sasha.
"How'd you like the movie, Freckles?" Jean asks me. I look at him confused because he hasn't called me that in forever. "Freckles?" I say.
"Yeah. I haven't called you that ever since- Hey why are you laughing!". "Sorry, Jean its just that I miss you calling me that." I laugh, wiping my face with my hand and look at him. Jeans looking at me while blushing. "And I really did like the movie, Thank you, Jean." I give him a smile and we all start walking back to the mine and Jeans dorm room.
"What do you guys have to eat?" Sasha says as she pushes her way through our room door and towards the kitchen. "Yeah I'm hungry." Connie agrees as he walks behind Sasha.
"Is that the only reason why you guys come here? To eat our food." Jean complains as he closes the door behind us.
"Naah, we come here because we're your friends!" Sasha yells out. Jean only rolls his eyes and sits on the couch.
I take off my jacket and hang it up. I walk towards the couch and take a seat on it. I look over to Jean and I see him on his phone, I think he's texting someone. Nothing new. Sasha and Connie are laughing in the kitchen about something.
"Hey, Marco where were you last night, man? I came back last night and you were gone, I tried calling you but you wouldn't answer." Jean asks as he puts his phone back In his pocket.
Shit, my phone! I forgot it!
"He probably was at Reiners place. right Marco?" Connie comes in the room chuckling, leaning on the door frame. "Wait what?" Jean turns his head to me in surprise. I put my face in my hands, trying to hide my face. "Yeah didn't you know, Jean?" Connie says smiling. "What, no I didn't. Wait, you're gay, Marco." Jean asks, hella surprised.
"OH. MY. GOD." Connie says out loud. "How the hell have you not figured that out, Jean! Gosh I knew you were stupid but I didn't think you were that stupid." Connie continues.
"Shut up, Connie. But, Marco I didn't know you were gay. For how long?". "Uh, since forever." I say in a low voice as I look up at Jean.
"How did you not know that?!" Sasha comes in the room with a bag full of chips. "I don't know it just never crossed my mind." Jean replies, rubbing the back of his head. "Wait but with Reiner?" Jean looks back at me. "Oh my god! Why the hell do you think he didn't come back last night you idiot. He was with Reiner." Connie explains.
"Wait, how do you know that!?" I look over at Connie. "Dude, I was walking out of my dorm to go to the liquor store for some chips and when I looked over I saw some guy enter Reiners dorm room. It didn't look like Bertholdt so I assumed it was you since I see you and Reiner hang out a lot."
Dammit, Connie.
"Wow, so you and Reiner are a thing?" Jean looks up at me, curious.
I look away from Jean and to the floor. "Not really." I reply. "Wait, so you and Reiner are just friends with benefits!?" Sasha yells out.
No! That's not how it is!
"Not really." I say. "Is that true, Marco?" Jean asks. Gosh this is bad. Really bad. I don't answer Jeans question. I kinda feel ashamed of myself. "Woah, no answer, huh Marco? Dam I didn't think you where that kind of person to have friends with benefits." Connie laughs. "You wanna put on that maid outfit and come see me later?" he asks jokingly. "What!" I turn my head to look at Connie, embarrassed. He's laughing. "Oh c'mon, Connie, Leave him alone. So what if he likes to do it with Reiner." Sasha says, stuffing some chips in her face.
Jeans not saying a word. He's just starring at the floor. Is he mad at me? I can't tell… I need to get out of here. It feels really tense in this room. I get up from the couch and towards the door. I stop to get my Jacket and put it on.
"Hey, where you going?" Sasha asks. "I forgot my phone." I say in a low voice. 'Oh, at Reiners place, huh." Connie laughs. Jean is on his phone now. Probably texting one of the girls he messes around with. "I'll be back later.." I say as I walk out the door and close the door behind me. "What about you, Jean?" I hear Connie ask. "Yeah Ima go out too. Ill be back later." He's probably going to some girl.
Instead of walking upstairs to Reiners room, I walk out the building and start to walk around campus. I just need some fresh air. I'll get my phone later…