Chapter 45: Disbelief

Nessie's POV

"Impossible," my father shook his head. "I have officially lost my mind,"

"Edward what's wrong?" Mom asked. Worry was now mixed into her sadness.

"Dad you're not crazy," I knew he could hear but chose to igmore me. Pretending I wasn't here was easier than accepting the truth. As crazy as it was. I could understand his disbelief. Hell I was the one going through it and I couldn't even fully understand it.

"It's nothing to worry about Bella. It's just the grief getting to me. That's all that this is,"

"That's all what is? Edward you can't just say things like that to me and not explain,"

My happiness instantly deflated. Sucked out of my body faster than helium from a popped balloon. For brief moment I thought I would have a way to communicate with my family. But if my dad didn't believe that I was here what use was there?

"Dad," I cried. "I'm here. I'm right here," I snivelled but I knew that it was no use. He refused to believe that I was here.

"I'm sorry Nessie," For a second I had forgotten that I was not alone. I had forgotten about Sandra.

"My dad knows that I'm here but he doesn't want to believe it,"

"Come on Nessie. Maybe it's best if we leave for now,"

I couldn't speak anymore so I nodded in agreement. She grabbed my shoulder and guided me out of the house. I hated this. I hated being dead. I hated that I could not even communicate with my own family. I hated it so damn much! I kicked a nearby discarded empty soda can expect my foor to pass right through it. I was shocked not only when my foot actually made contact with it but kicked it so hard that it went over the wall.

"How did I do that?" I asked. My voice full of shock.

"Interacting with the physical world is possible. I can't really explain how it works but it's usually fuelled by emotion,"

Suddenly I wanted to be alone. Completely alone. I didn't want to be around anybody. "Sandra I don't want to sound rude. I mean you've been so helpful to me and all but-"

"You want to be alone right now," she finished for me. "It's okay kid. I completely understand that. Everyone processes this differently. We can meet up again later if you'd like. Same spot we met earlier maybe?" she sounded hopeful for reasons I did not understand.

"Yeah, maybe," were the only two words to come out of my mouth. I left before she had the chance to say anything else. Right away I felt bad for how I had treated her. She'd been nothing but extremely nice and helpful and I was just rude. I made a decision right then and there that I would go back to her later on.

I was walking down the street when I spotted Alec once again. He looked sad and desperate. My heart ached for him. I sat next to him on the bench where he was sitting.

"Oh Nessie where are you?"

"I'm right here," I said even though I knew that he could not hear me. Was it possible that my heart could shatter into even more pieces than it already was?

"Oh Nessie where have you gone? I'm so sorry for all the pain that I have caused you. I know that's why you're gone. That's why you left me. I'm sorry. I love you. I wish that you would've at least left a note saying where you were going and that you never wanted to see me again. I would've understood that. But not knowing where you are is killing me,

Yes it was definitely possible for my heart to be shattered even more than it already was. My heart had been shattered and trampled by heard of elephants now. How is it possible that everyone I loved could be so close yet so far at the same time? Poor Alec. He still had no idea what really happened to me. I wish I would have told him everything sooner. Maybe I should have mentioned the bullets. I should have told him that I'd forgiven him. I should've told him I loved him.

"Oh Alec I'm so sorry," I cried. I grabbed his arm and he yanked it back with such force that I'd think he gotten electrocuted had I not known any better. He looked very confused and a little scared.

Then what Sandra said earlier played again in my mind. Interacting with the physical world is possible. I can't really explain how it works but it's usually fuelled by emotion. It was love. Or sadness and love mixed together to create a strong concoction of emotions.

Poor Alec. I had to figure out a way for him to find out the truth. He deserved that much at least. As much as I wanted to stay I knew that I couldn't stay with him any longer. I had to figure something out and thinking would be an impossible task for me if I stayed around him.

I walked away and I continued to walk around for several hours still. I wasn't sure how much time had passed but it was already nighttime. That was when I spotted them in the distance. My blood would have ran cold if I still had a body. I sprinted as quickly as I could toward the black cloaks.

I skidded to a halt a mere two feet away from them. The first person I recognized was Jane. She looked pissed for reasons that I could not understand. Then there was Aro, Caius, and Marcus among several others.

"The Cullens are here as well," Aro said. "They're scent is fresh,"

"How do we know they haven't just recently left," Caius asked.

"We will search all over for them. If we find them we will catch them by surprise and we will destroy them. If they're not here we will continue our search for the Alec and the girl. Then we will decide what punishment is appropriate for them,"

I ran back home as fast as I could. I had to warn my family and then Alec somehow. I would get my dad and the rest of my family to know I was still here. I ran straight through the door. I heard Esme cooking in the kitchen. Lucy was sitting at the table patiently awaiting her dinner.

"Lucy!"

The girl looked started and first and then smiled widely when she saw me. "Nessie you're back!" she yelled. "Please don't keep leaving," tears fell from the small girl's eyes.

Emse was so shocked by her words that she dropped the glass bowl of soup she was carrying. Shattered glass flew everywhere.

I could hear the rest of my family coming. My dad was the first to arrive. He looked at Lucy and then where I was standing . He was in pure shock like earlier. I had to get him, all of them to believe I was here.

"Sweetie who are you talking to?" Esme asked the little girl.

"Nessie. She's my friend. She's dead though but I can see her. She is standing right there," she pointed to the exact same spot I was standing in.

"Lucy I need you to do something for me," I told her as I tried to ignore the shocked looks on my family's faces. "I need you to say something for me okay," she nodded yes. "Say the Volturi is here,"

"The Volturi is here,"

The words sounded horrifying even when it came from the voice of a three year old girl..

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