I ended up going to bed, too embarrassed by Jasper to actually look at him and talk to him about the things I wanted to be done to me.

When I woke up, Edward was already gone. He didn't bother waking me up as he was leaving, so I took it as a clear invitation for me to stay here. It was Sunday and that only meant one thing – he was at the gym. I had some business with Jasper, so I didn't mind.

It was a good thing I had some overnight clothes here, so I wouldn't have to be wearing the satin dress or the pj's I sex dreamed in in front of Jasper. I put on the jeans and the t-shirt I had here and went out looking for him.

I didn't know what I was expecting to find; him on the sofa or again sitting at the kitchen table, but he wasn't out in the living area. The shower was off as well, meaning he was in his room. I've never been there before, and I was getting more nervous than before.

I knocked once and waited for an answer. When I didn't get one, I knocked again. God was I waking him up?! I was about to kick myself when I heard him call out to come in.

As I entered, he was putting on clothes. The scene reminded me of when I was pulling my nighty over my head when Edward came in the room, the other night. I looked down on my feet, embarrassed to see his naked torso. It's not like I haven't seen it and it's not like I didn't want to see it. It just seemed too early to eye fuck him.

"I didn't mean to disturb you." I said, "I can come back later."

He shook his head, smiling "You're not disturbing me."

Silence fell upon us and I didn't know what to do. Should I beg him or ask politely? He knew why I was here so why not just give me what I asked for? I was shifting my weight foot from foot.

Why couldn't he just get it over with?

He came over to me, standing in front of me, finally saying "Tell me what it is that you wanted?"

I hated this so much… So why was I getting tingly? Was he really waiting for me to say it? Again? I wanted to bite my lip off.

"I want you to show me… The way for my problem?" I tried.

"What exactly is your problem, Bella? Spell it out for me." he squinted his eyes

"I want to be satisfied." I started to breathe heavier, feeling suddenly too hot "I want you to show me how to be that."

He smiled, putting his hand on my shoulder. I was afraid that he was going to lean in and kiss me… And, I was afraid that he wasn't "Let's sit down. I have a list of things written down, so it's easier to navigate what you want and not, what you're into and not. We can navigate between what you want and between what I want."

I swallowed and nodded. Suddenly, I was very quiet. I was too nervous. I looked everywhere but him. His room was really nice. It was bigger than Edwards, surprisingly. It had the same white floorboards as it did throughout the house. He had a bigger, fluffier bed, with four huge bed frames – I couldn't imagine getting out of it, once I was in it. It seemed like the most comfortable thing. Every furniture he had though was black, and sleek. I noticed a big painting above his bed, classical and beautiful. The style was something I had seen before, but the painting didn't register.

Jasper noticed me looking at it "The painting's by Alexandre Cabanel. It's called Nymph Abducted by a Faun." He looked at me again "Let's go to the kitchen? Common area."

I looked at his table, the only thing that was messy in this room, full of books and papers "I see why you use the kitchen table."

He smiled and nodded, guiding me out of the room "Bella, I want to get to know you before we do anything, if we will that is. I only know you as Edward girlfriend. What I thought about you was completely wrong."

I laughed "Yeah, a week ago I thought you were the shy flat mate Edward had."

"Does he know about this?"

"No… I need to explore this first." I shook my head. I didn't want to open that can of worms now.

He nodded "What do you do Bella? How old are you?" he asked sitting down.

"I'm twenty-three. I'm doing my master's in literature – I want to go into publishing. Other than that, I work in the library." I shrugged. I knew that I was saying something, but I wasn't really telling him anything. I tried again "I didn't really want to go into studying, just travelling. But it just so happened that I did start something that I enjoyed. How about you?"

"I'm just a year older than Edward. I work in physiotherapy." Edward turned twenty-five yesterday, so Jasper must've been twenty-six "I'm happy with what I do and what type of a person I am. I got in the lifestyle when I was kinda young. I knew what I wanted, I knew I wasn't going to settle for less and I never did."

"How did you get into it?" I had to ask.

"It was the things that always got me horny and what didn't. With my partners I always tried to try something new I found on forums and other sex friendly platforms. Some worked and some didn't. When I was of age, I tried to go to meetups and parties and so on, meeting like-minded people. It has been a good journey."

I wondered why I never went into the same route. Deep down I knew – the same reason Edward didn't want to touch me. Females sexuality wasn't a good thing, in society "And then there's me."

He smiled "Welcome. Where do you identify yourself in?"

What.

"I mean, there are a lot of ways to identify yourself in the lifestyle, but just to start off with the most basic one. A dom or a sub? Do you want to do something to someone or do you want them to do something to you? "

I could hear my heartbeat in my ears "Both?" I wasn't sure.

"Would it be something to please, if you were to do something?" I swear his eyes were getting darker "Or would it be, let's say, to make them feel pain?"

"The first one." I tried to answer as casually as I could. The word submissive was a beautiful one to me. I wanted to please, and I wanted someone to do as they pleased with me.

"It's good. I myself, identify as a dominant. There are things I like and some things I don't. Though there aren't a lot of things I don't like. What are you into? What do you dream about Edward doing to you? What did he tell you he wouldn't do to you?"

Que the blush.

"That blush. It makes me wonder, Bella. But do go on."

"I had asked him to choke me, and he said no. I also asked him to spank me and he told me no. When I mentioned I wanted my hair pulled, he said he could never hurt me, so anything physical was out of the window. So, I asked him to call me names and he was disgusted by it. Then I surprised him with an outfit, and we had a huge fight. Since then he doesn't want to touch me."

He shook his head "He's a fool. So, you imagine of being spanked, chocked and your hair pulled. Is there something else, you didn't tell him, that you crave physically?" He asked as if he already knew the answer.

I knew it as well, and I had to look at my hands as I answered, "In fact there is, I imagine I would love to be taken advantage of."

"Consensual non consent." He nodded "When no doesn't mean no. Good." He liked it. I didn't even bring this up to Edward seeing as he overreacted to spanking. "And names? Slut? Bitch? Cunt? Whore?"

All I could do was nod and swallow. When he had said that I knew I was horny. That's what did it. His eyebrow slowly lifted up, silently asking me to answer and I mustered up "Yeah, all of them."

He nodded again. I could smell him. He filled my nostrils and I wanted to get lost in him. "There's this one BDSM test, I think it would be sufficient of you to do it and show me the results. I have an excel of various things where you can grade them from one to five, one being a 100% no and five being 100% yes. Can I have your phone number?"

We exchanged our numbers and I tried to keep calm "It's Jasper what?"

"Jasper Whitlock."

"Bella Swan." I answered the same.

"What is it that you like, Jasper?" I finally asked. I had wondered that for a while. He seemed so mysterious and free. I wanted to just be near it, and dream to experience it.

"I have a list of fetishes, Bella. I don't want to tell you what exactly because I don't want you to pick something just because you know I like it. We can talk about more of it -" He stopped dead in his tracks, as he heard the door being unlocked.

I swear I heard him mutter something under his breath.

As the door was pushing open we heard "… And then she had the nerve to invite me on the last day, can you imagine how bad it made me feel?"

I heard Alice's voice. What was she doing here?

Jasper got up from the table and turned to the high voice of Alice Cullen, probably wondering who this girl was coming into his apartment.

First, we could see Alice and Edward right behind her. Alice saw Jasper and stopped dead in her tracks, Edward almost hitting into her. Alice looked good, stylish and fresh – like she always did.

"Hey man," Edward said to Jasper "Remember, this is Alice, my sister"

Jasper stepped forward, giving her his hand "Of course. I'm Jasper, nice to meet you sweetheart." I saw Alice smile and suddenly, I felt like a hot iron was thrust in my throat and I wanted to go home.

Edward noticed me sitting, behind Jasper "Bella! You're awake!" He came up to me and kissed my temple I looked up at him and smiled. I didn't know Alice was coming. It bothered me because I feel like he didn't even consider me enough to tell me that someone was coming over.

I was trying not to think how Alice was looking at Jasper, and why it made my stomach drop. So easily she had gotten them both.

I got up from the seat and went inside Edwards room. Just as I was walking in the room, I heard Alice laugh at something Jasper said. I also heard Edward excuse himself and come with me inside his room.

"Hey, where are you going?" he asked sheepishly.

"Oh, I'll just get my bag and slowly go home." I smiled at him, trying not to show my emotions. For one, I didn't understand them myself. What the hell was I doing? I had to have time to myself and clear my head.

"Oh… If you really want to." He did sound sad about it.

I took a look at him. I missed us in a way. I changed the subject a little "What is Alice doing here?" I finally asked.

"Oh, she came over a couple of nights ago and thought that Jasper was cute." He smiled "She was begging me to invite her when he was home. I forgot to tell you, love." He hugged me from behind "By the way what were you guys talking about?" When he asked me that, I bit my lip. Was this was going to be like it? Lying to him… But was I doing something wrong? It felt wrong and right at the same time.

"Nothing really. I was waiting for you to come back." I turned and kissed him.

What I had imagined was going to be a peck on the lips, but it turned out to be heated kiss, and this time induced by Edward not me. I was surprised to say the least. He kissed me deeper, pushing his tongue inside my mouth, laying me gently down on the bed.

Oh!

This was finally happening.

I took his t-shirt off and he repaid me by doing the same to me.

"You're not wearing a bra." He mumbled against my neck, trying to undo my jeans "God, you truly look gorgeous Bella."

I didn't say anything, but I was thinking that my breasts were probably on display for Jasper, just the thin material of my t-shirt between us. His words rang in my head clear Slut? Bitch? Cunt? Whore? I imagined Edward calling me that.

I couldn't help but to moan.

Edward took that as a sign to get my jeans off and his fingers inside of me, and I remembered my dream last night. Closing my eyes, I could see Jaspers eyes looking at me. I felt hazy with my daydreaming of men.

I had forgotten how skilled Edwards fingers were – this was kinky for him, fingering me before sex. I would take it, it was better than nothing. I finally was feeling so good.

The knock on the door interrupted us "Keep going." I whispered, begging him, hoping to god that he wouldn't stop.

"Edward? Mom is calling for you." Fucking Alice!

"Damn it." He muttered "I'm sorry." He got up, adjusted his jeans and put on another shirt, probably going to say something about getting changed because god forbit what we were doing here was sexual in nature.

I didn't lay around with my naked breasts for too long, rather getting up and getting my stuff, leaving, while bee lining for the door. I didn't think too much of it just that I had to get out.

I did make it out of the apartment, but not the apartment house, when I felt hands coming around my waist.

"Edward, let me go please. I just want to go home, we'll talk later." I said calmly.

"I'm not Edward." The voice definitely wasn't his "Come here." Jasper pulled me in a hug "What happened?"

It felt weird and weirdly secure when I was in his hands. It felt more friendly than sexual.

I felt tears fill my eyes and I was trying so hard not to let them spill "He finally touched me, but as soon as there was the tiniest thing, he just left. Again." I felt my tears spill and I tried to pull away, but Jasper wouldn't let me.

"Let me take you home." He squeezed me "It's the least I can do for you."

I looked up at him. I knew he was tall, but as he was hugging me, I realized just how tall he was.

Did I want him to take me home? Did I want it to be Edward?

I nodded towards him, and he just pushed in the other direction of the building, at the back entrance, where his car must've been parked. I needed to distance myself from Edward.

Half of the way to my place, I was crying. I felt lost being with Edward. How was it that this was happening. But truthfully, this wasn't the first time. It also wasn't the second and the third time. The fourth or the fifth… It has been happening for almost all the time we have been together, but since I brought it up, I just see it tenfold. I was lying to myself before, telling myself that this is what a relationship was.

Jasper didn't say anything. He let me cry in his beautiful slick car

Why did I have to value sex so much? I rubbed my eyes raw not knowing the answer myself.

I looked at Jasper again. Who was this beautiful stranger? I barely knew anything about him and I trusted him. Did I trust him?

"Tell me about yourself." I mumbled, not trusting my voice fully.

He gave me a glance quickly and turned back to the road "What do you want to know?"

"Anything." I needed something to focus on.

"I grew up in Texas, with no siblings, with no animals, but one hell of a mom. I never knew my father, but not because he was out of the picture, but because he died in a car accident when I was little. I have very little memories of him, the ones I have are sometimes confusing and pleasant. I lost my virginity when I was fifteen. I had no idea what I was doing, and I wasn't very good at what I was doing." He laughed a bit about that "Should I keep going?" He looked at me and I just nodded a yes, not speaking, just listening "I loved swimming so much I thought that I was going to pursue that in a university but the fate so happened to be quite different. I injured my shoulder and I had a gorgeous physiotherapist. We had a thing, but she showed me something more, and I liked her job enough to pursue that. Now I work but I mostly do research. I try to help people how much I can without losing my own health." He looked at me again "Your turn. You must have been thinking about it, but why are you with Edward?"

I rolled my eyes. I was wondering the same thing "I have no idea… You can park right there." I showed him a spot. I had a feeling he was going to come up.

And right I was. He took my bag from me and followed me upstairs. The three story walk up had me almost out of my breath, but Jasper seemed completely at ease. I really needed to start doing something, but I couldn't be bothered. Not now anyways.

I had a small one-bedroom apartment. It was cozy and warm always. I walked in the kitchen to make some tea, seeing as I was going to be talking. When I heard him walk inside the kitchen, I answered in more depth "Edward has always been nice. He is someone to have a future with."

"So, you gonna marry 'nice'?" he leaned against my counter.

"He is sweet, and he cares about me." I answered him almost rudely. Why did it matter to him! I knew I was getting angry because me myself didn't know why and what was the reason.

"Do you have a bath?" he asked suddenly. How… random.

"I do…"

"Go put on a swimming suit, I'm gonna run you a bath. Before you ask why on those things, firstly, I don't know you like that for you to be naked in front of me right now, and a bath because it will relax you and calm you down. Before you can say that you don't need to – trust me on this, okay?"

When I went to change, showing him right where the bathroom was, I was thinking about myself and Edward. And Jasper was really interested in that. I could understand that it was important to him seeing as what we were talking about doing… But what was it, that we were going to do? Was it just spanking or was it something more?

It wasn't like he wanted to see me naked. He did say to put on a swimming suit. If I wanted, I could just come out naked. I didn't think I could do it. And I didn't think I could stay in my room. That bathtub was going to mean something.

I walked back to him, to a half full tub, and he helped me in. I swear he tried not to look at my body.

He sat down at the end of it "So did you think about Edward and you?" I scowled at him and he smiled at that "Okay, tell me how you two became an item?" He really was so keen on knowing, it was driving me crazy.

"I was getting coffee and he came up to me. At first, I thought it was because he wanted to chat me up, but it turns out I took his order. He teased me that my coffee was too sweet for anyone to drink, and I fell for that, and so he asked me out and we have been together ever since. Two years now." I always thought that it was cute. It was a nice story to tell people.

"Meet cute!" he exclaimed "And why did you stay with him?"

I shrugged, feeling the water relax my muscles. Jasper was right. I felt more comfortable "Honestly… I think because it was a relationship that made me feel safe…"

He nodded "That's honest. Give me your foot."

I reluctantly gave it to him, and he pushed on the muscles in it and I swear to god I almost came then and there. Who needed sex when you could have a foot rub!

"Why do you need to know so much?" I asked him. He was almost grilling me on Edward.

"Well then… You're in a relationship with someone, asking me to do what exactly? Edward is the third person in this relationship. I know him as a flat mate and before this I knew you as his girlfriend. Now you're becoming Bella Swan, a girl who is interested in the lifestyle, asking me to do the introduction and he is becoming the sad boyfriend who can't do the job, who it seems like, shouldn't have been in the picture in the first place." He kept massaging my foot as he was talking "Darling, I need to know. What it is you want me to do? Is it sexual or platonic? BDSM can very rarely not become sexual between two people. But if it is sexual, I don't think I want you to cheat on someone you say you love. I don't want you to become Bella Swan, the girl who made a big mess of her desires."

Was I cheater? Was this cheating, what I was doing?

"No, no sex… I just want to know how it will be like. Is it just in my mind, or is it reality and worth the heartbreak?" I was too ashamed to admit that perhaps if I hadn't gotten this idea in my head that I needed it Edward and I would be golden. So I had to be sure if this was going to work out and if leaving Edward for something like that was worth it – I would hate myself if I would do something that wasn't worth it. I can forgive myself for being spanked by a stranger, or even my foot being massaged by one. I knew we weren't for each other, but I was afraid anyway.

"Why are you doing this?" I asked him, knowing I was almost naked, in a bathtub, Jasper massaging my foot.

"This is what it's going to be like. After I, if you want me to of course, spank you and otherwise punish you, after I have done everything what I have wanted and what you have let me do with you, while you're a whore and a cunt and whatever, I will make sure you're alright. I will take care of you because this is what it's like. You will hate me and idolize me sometimes, sometimes you will adore me for my actions. But at the end of everything you make the rules, and your wellbeing is important, and I will take care of it seeing as I will do the opposite to it as well."

"When do we begin?"

AN: Okay so this coming sooner or later – Hi to everyone who has made it this far! I hope you like the story, and I hope you like to give back – I sure as hell love to read what you guys are thinking and feeling about this. I am trying to upload as fast as I can, seeing as I love to type this story out. I'm not gonna lie – the reviews make me type faster. The next chapters should be fun, so I hope you're gonna stay and play with us 3 See ya!