A new Earth …Chapter 1

Clarke felt the warmth of his arms around her as they stared out the viewing screen. She felt him tremble and she laid her head against his chest which made him pull her closer.

Her heart was full of hope, while his was full of sadness.

Bellamy looked at this new Earth, but all he felt was heartbreak over the loss of Harper and Monty. Tears streamed from his eyes and he couldn't stop them. He clung to Clarke like a drowning man clinging to a lifejacket.

She felt his body shake and knew. Looking up from the wonder of this new world; she saw his pain and instinctively turned to wrap her arms around his neck in a familiar form of comfort.

"Monty saved us," she whispered and he just nodded; unable to say anything for fear he would let the sob escape his throat; the one he had been struggling to suppress. He couldn't break down, not in front of anyone, not even Clarke.

They held each other as he replayed the past 7 plus years; years that always had Monty and Harper in them. They were there through his darkest moments but never judged him. They were there for him and he felt guilt in not doing the same for them. Moments on the ring flashed through his mind and he still couldn't wrap his head around the fact that they were really gone.

He held on to Clarke silently in that moment, a little longer than he should have, until he had gained control. Bellamy pulled away, "I'm sorry," he mumbled uncomfortably and couldn't meet her eyes. He glanced down briefly before looking back to the planet below.

Clarke felt disappointed by his apology. "Bellamy there's nothing to be sorry for," she said trying to meet his gaze.

Bellamy had spent the last 6 years learning to hold his emotions at bay, and done pretty good, except for the occasional slip when Clarkes name was mentioned. Now here she was standing in front of him. Everything had changed. A whirlwind of emotions were rushing in on him from every direction. Too much happening all in what seemed like only days had started to take its toll. He needed a minute alone to process everything or he was going to slip back into the darkness he found himself in 6 years ago.

He turned and looked behind Clarke as she stood there confused. "Bellamy, talk to me," she said softly. But he tuned her out as he felt the darkness closing in as silent tears continued to fall. He saw Jordan standing there and wanted to spare the kid anymore distress. He looked down at Clarke. "I need a minute," he said to her "Can you stay with him?" he asked her, nodding towards Jordan.

"Yes of course," Clarke said softly.

Bellamy walked past Jordan, but stopped briefly, wanting to say something to comfort him, but couldn't get the words out. He reached up and put his hand on the boys shoulder and immediately saw Harper looking back at him through Jordan's eyes and he nearly broke. He all but ran from the room.

Clarke watched and stood silently for a moment before walking to Jordan. "I'm sorry," she said "He loved your parents. He just needs some time," she said. "How are you doing?" she asked. She wondered how he was able to sit through the heart wrenching video without losing it.

"I'm fine," he said. "I've already seen it… a lot. I waited two days before I woke you'" he said. "Dad asked that I wake you guys up immediately, but I just couldn't; not right away. I knew it would be too hard," he said looking down. "It's like I just said goodbye yesterday, but I knew when I went into cryo I'd never see them again."

"Doesn't make it any easier though does it?" Clarke asked, laying her hand on his arm. "But you should be proud of them. They saved us all," she said.

"I am," Jordan said looking up and meeting her eye with his red rimmed ones. "But you saved them too. Mom and Dad told me about that," he said. "Tell me about it?" he asked. "I've waited over 100 years to hear it," he smiled and said.

Bellamy walked out of the bridge and into the main corridor. He turned a corner and found a dark place where he had to let it sink in. He closed his eyes and allowed the grief to envelope him. Memories of Monty in Mt Weather, and after as they both struggled with their choices after they followed Pike and all the hurt it caused. Monty and Murphy were the ones that had his back on the ring when he thought Clarke was dead. Monty was there to listen when he locked himself away from everyone that first dark year on the ring. It took another year before Bellamy fully gained the ability to shut off his emotions. Everyone knew not to say that name; the one name that would trigger a reaction. Getting back to the ground was mind numbing. Clarke was alive. His sister was lost. Then Clarke left him to die. The only steady force he could rely on were the same 6 he had relied on in space. Now, a third of his family's dead. So much happened in a matter of weeks and he was still trying to process too much too fast. He could feel himself slipping again.

"Get it together idiot," he said to himself after some time had passed. He stood and made his way back to the cryo chambers. He needed to check and make sure they were all okay. He couldn't lose anyone else, not today. He stood over Raven, then Murphy and Emori. Although the glass was crystalized and they were hard to see, their vitals were good. He stopped in front of Echo, it read the same, and his hand went to the control button. He almost pushed it. He wanted her. He needed someone familiar to hold onto and find comfort in, but he didn't push the button. Finally he checked on Octavia and felt nothing. It was as if he were looking down on a stranger. That frightened him. He sank down and tried to focus on everything that was happening.

"They need to know," he thought. I need to wake them. They have the right to know what's going on."

Bellamy stayed in cryo for a while, he lost track of time as he thought of what to do. He needed someone, and things still didn't feel right with Clarke.

"Bellamy," Clarke called. She stepped inside and saw him sitting with his back against the wall. "We've been looking for you," she said softly, full of concern.

He got to his feet. "I just needed to check make sure they were okay. I can't lose them too," he said with a hitch in his voice.

"I understand," Clarke said as she walked to Madi's pod, checking her child's vitals. "They're your family, I get it," Clarke said, unable to withhold the slightest resentment in her tone.

"They are, and I need to let them know what's going on," he said. "I need to wake them up," he said as he turned towards Echo chamber.

"Wait," Clarke said in a much harsher tone that she intended.

"Wait for what Clarke?" he asked "It's been 125 years," he said full of frustration.

"We need to talk about this first," Clarke said

Jordan stepped nervously into the room, as if he were intruding.

"I don't mean to butt in but, Clarke's right," he said awkwardly looking between Bellamy and Clarke.

"We don't have the rations to wake everyone up yet," he said.

"What are you saying?" Bellamy asked

"Dad stored enough to sustain a small crew long enough until we get the algae farm going again, but that'll take months, or until we can get to the ground, providing it will sustain us," he said with an innocent smile. "He left instructions," Jordan added. "Along with a list of suggestions, of course," Jordan added slightly rolling his eyes. "There wasn't a lot to do up here, so he was pretty thorough."

Clarke smiled at Jordan's innocents and then she looked at Bellamy who was looking at Echo's pod. She walked to Bellamy and tried to meet his gaze. "Bellamy we'll wake them, but first let's see Monty's instructions."

Bellamy shook his head in reluctant agreement.

The three made their way back to the bridge and Jordan found the recorded video that Monty had left for them.

"Hey guys, If you're watching this, you know I'm gone, But I've been working on food storage so that when you wake, you won't starve, or at least you won't if you can follow some simple instructions. Jordan's familiar with the farm and he's really picked up a lot working by my side." Monty smiled "He's smart, you need to listen to him when it comes to the farm."

Bellamy looked over to Jordan, who smiled back at how proud he is to hear his father bragging about him. Bellamy smiled slightly back.

"There enough rations for 6 months. That should give Jordan plenty of time to get the algae started and give you your first bloom; if there aren't any hiccups."

"Bellamy, I know you'll want to wake our people,"

Monty's words of "our people" gave Clarke a stab of jealousy feeling left out,"

"You should wake Jackson and Shaw too. You'll need to run analysis on the planet's surface and you'll need a pilot to go to the ground to do that. Emori will come in handy for Raven. The rations won't sustain more than a dozen people until the Algae blooms so think over carefully who they should be. I know Clarke will want to wake Madi and Maybe her Mom. That's up to you both," said. He leaned into the camera and added. "Bellamy, don't let yourself slip into a dark place. I know you brother, and I know how you can get. Echo and Murphy, they'll help you with that. I wish things could have worked out differently, If I could have cracked the code sooner, but don't be sad for us, we made the choice, and honestly we were happy because we had each other. BE HAPPY Bellamy. Try to find happiness I know you can. I'll see you on the other side." The screen went black.

Clarke wondered what Monty meant when he talked about the dark place, and she wondered what happened on the ring. She felt left out and she hated that. She hated that she didn't have that close bond that Bellamy and the others shared.

Bellamy sat staring down at the floor, his elbows on his knees, hands clasped together. He sat in quiet trying to take in Monty's words. "See you on the other side brother," he whispered under his breath.
Clarke walked to him and put her hand on his back. "Go wake your people Bellamy," she said

He looked up. "Our people," he corrected her.

"Your Family," she answered back shaking slightly.

"But you're family too," he said "None of us would be alive if not for you Clarke."

Clarke nodded but, Clarke couldn't feel it. She still felt like an outsider. She nodded yes, but it was forced; she knew she didn't fit in because family sticks together and she had done everything but that. She was still playing a guilt trip in her head. She was willing to sacrifice her friends without question to protect Madi and in her mind, Bellamy was willing to sacrifice Madi to protect his family, so they were at a stalemate. But she wouldn't bring it up again. She needed to find her way past that.

Bellamy stood and turned towards Jordan. Looking at him was like a reflection of both Monty and Harper. "Meet me on the bridge." he said to Jordan putting his arm on the boys shoulder and leading him from the room, "there are some people I'd like you to meet."

"Clarke, we should wake Abby first. Murphy, Kane and Gaia; I'd feel better if she could monitor them. I'm not sure how cryo sleep effected their injuries."

They woke Murphy, Raven, Emori, Echo and Madi all at the same time. The pods were moments apart and Emori was the first to open her eyes. Bellamy immediately helped her to a sitting position. "Hey," he smiled softly. She instantly gave him a familiar hug and then she glanced around towards the other pods that had opened, spotting Murphy. They both rushed over. "Hey, take it easy," Bellamy said. "Your wounds are still fresh, well not really but they are." He stumbled over his words.

Clarke brushed the hair from Madi's face as she slowly opened her eyes and smiled. "Wake up sleepy head" Clarke whispered.

Bellamy walked to Echo as she sat up and he greeted her with a long hug. She leaned up and kissed him. Clarke tried not to watch, but she couldn't help herself but stare.

Echo pulled back and met Bellamy's eyes. "Bellamy what's wrong?" she asked. She knew him, and she could see the troubled look across his face as slight as it was. He looked at her and just wrapped her in his arms again, no words were spoken. She had seen him like this before; troubled and she let him take comfort in her arms.

Bellamy pulled away from Echo. She looked concerned. She knew something was very wrong. He looked from her to Murphy and Emori and then over to Raven, who was just rising from her chamber. He rushed over to her and grabbed her brace that had been carefully stored next to her and he handed it to her so she could fit it onto her leg. Echo followed him, still slightly stiff from her long sleep.

As Raven was affixing her brace Bellamy spoke up.

"Everyone, get changed and meet me on the bridge. Clarke," he said and motioned for her to follow.

"Bellamy what is it?" Echo asked

He stepped up to her, kissed her softly and met her stare, "Just…meet us on the bridge in 30. We'll fill you in on everything" he said before turning to Clarke, who then followed him from the room with Madi.

"Clarke what's going on?" Madi asked once they were in the corridor. "You just need to get dressed." Clarke said and she glanced over at Bellamy. He looked at Clarke briefly. "I'll meet you both on the bridge," he said.

Clarke watched him turn towards the bridge before she led Madi to the locker room.

When Bellamy got to the bridge he met Jordan there. Jordan had been nervously pacing the room, waiting for them to return. "They're getting dressed. They'll be here soon. Can you just replay the video?" Bellamy asked. "Maybe it'll be easier to let things sink in."

"Yes …sure no problem," Jordan smiled nervously. "I've heard so much about everyone."

Bellamy tried to smile, but his smile was forced and didn't reach his eyes. Instead he felt a deep sense of protectiveness for the young man. Looking at Jordan, he couldn't help but remembering Harpers last words on video. "Take care of our boy," and that's what he was going to do, but the prospect of that huge task scared him.

He reached over and squeezed Jordan's shoulder. "I'll wait in the corridor until they've watched, I'm not sure if I can see it again," he said.