A New Earth Chapter 5 Needing Someone
Echo sat on the edge of the bed watching Bellamy pull on his boots. He had been unusually quiet the last few days, and she had given him his space. She knew Miller pushed him when he brought up Octavia. He was struggling with what to do when it came to his sister.
"Are you going to the bridge?" she asked
"Yea," he said.
More awkward silence between them made the room feel heavy.
He stood and started to leave, but stopped at the door. She just watched him wondering if he was going to say anything. He paused in the open doorway, and then turned around meeting her stare. "I'm sorry," he said softly, shutting the door and taking three steps to her.
Echo looked up and he sat down next to her, looking at her hand as he held it. His eyes found hers and he kissed her hand softly. He leaned in to her and their foreheads met.
"Bellamy, you know you can talk to me if somethings bothering you." She whispered softly.
He reached up and lightly lifted her chin in his fingers, finding her lips with his. He kissed her ever so softly. She responded leaning into him and running her hand across his chest as her pulse quickened.
Bellamy urged her back into the soft blankets, unburdening them both of clothes, he took in the softness of her body, touching and caressing her, knowing what she desired. He always brought her pleasure before taking it. Just like fire; they burned hot and fast. They laid in each other's arms after, exhausted and spent. It would be only a short respite from the thoughts that haunted him, but he needed it.
He wished he could stay there, hiding out in their room. He lazily rolled over and kissed her softly running his hand down the length of her arm. "I don't mean to shut you out," he said "I just don't know…." he paused looking for the right words.
"I know Bellamy," she whispered as she moved her slender leg along his. "But I'm here for you," She said
As they lie there in each other's arms, Bellamy tried to shut everything out. At least for now.
Echo knew their relationship was more of a physical one, and she had accepted that, but she sensed a change in him since they got back to the ground. He seemed more distant, and she wondered if Clarke had anything to do with it. It never bothered her before; the emotional barriers he had built up, but suddenly small things seemed to set Bellamy off and he would shut down like he would do when they first got to the ring six years ago.
They lie in silence, almost drifting off to sleep, when Echo forced herself up.
"Come on Bellamy, up…" she said trying to urge him to get up. "We're already late,"
He pulled her back down playfully making her smile. "No, I'm not letting you go, not yet," he teased.
She kissed him long and deep before pulling away. "Come on, if we stay much longer, people are going to talk," she smiled and stood up.
Bellamy groaned out loud. "Let 'em talk," he said as he stood and pulled her to him, kissing her.
She kissed him back and then looked at him. "You want to train after my shift?" She asked "We could both use it."
"I don't know," he said "It's been 125 years…I might be rusty," he joked
"You're not rusty," she smiled slyly and ran her hand across his chest with a seductive tone "Take my word for it."
"Keep it up and we'll never leave this room," he smiled and winked.
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Raven walked along the corridor towards the bridge, Indra met her at the door just as she was walking in. "I'm looking for Bellamy," she said.
Stepping inside, they both saw he wasn't there.
"He should be here anytime if you want to wait." Raven said
"No," Indra said. "Have him find me," she said simply "I'll be with Gaia,"
"Alright, I'll tell him," Raven said
Indra turned and left the bridge quickly. Raven watched her leave and then she turned to see Shaw already at the console.
"She's so intense," he said.
"Yea, Indra can be intimidating," Raven agreed and then she looked at Shaw. He had gotten there earlier and had a protein bar waiting for her.
"I loved Monty, but his Algae bars leave a lot to be desired," she said taking it from Shaw.
Suddenly she got quiet. She stared at the bar. Her brows drew together, and she just stared at it.
"You okay?" Shaw asked
She looked up to him. "They made this. They made this all those years ago, just so we could survive." She said softly, tears welling up in her eyes.
Shaw quickly moved from his chair, squatting next to her. "Hey," he said softly rubbing her back. "I'm sorry."
"They spent decades stocking rations so we could have food when we woke up. You would think they would have spent a few of those years making them taste better," she smiled and said trying to shake off her sadness and lighten her own mood.
"They do lack good taste," he agreed kissing her cheek as he stood up, "but for me…one of the things I miss the most is coffee in the morning," Shaw said wistfully.
"I've never had it," Raven said in a deadpan tone.
"What? They didn't have coffee beans in space on the ark?" He joked.
Raven just looked at him. "Nope," she said without expression.
"You don't know what you were missing," Shaw replied shaking his head. "A hot cup of coffee, some cream and sugar," he went on and closed his eyes as if daydreaming. "It sure beats this," he said as he looked at the algae bar.
"Well it may not taste good, but it kept us alive for six years on the ring," Raven said.
Shaw popped the last bite into his mouth. He swallowed it and then turned and faced the large viewing window. "You ready to watch the sunrise?' he asked Raven but didn't wait for a reply before he flipped the switch and let the window open.
Raven walked over and stood beside him. They watched the screen open and the dark grey planet below lit up along the edge as the first of two suns rose. The swirling world began to change from dark grey to bright blue with blinding swirls of white along its surface. The first sun; shooting streaks of golden yellows and orange, were blinding to the naked eye.
"I never get tired of seeing this," Shaw said riveted to the planet below.
"I'll just be glad when we can finally get down there," Raven said, as the sunlight cast a glow on her face.
"Won't do us any good until we know if It's survivable," Shaw mumbled.
Raven smiled without turning away. "Monty found it for us," she said and then she looked at Shaw. "I know it's survivable," she smiled.
The pair stood taking in the beauty of the planet below.
The door to the bridge opened and Emori strolled in. Raven turned. "Hey," she said.
"Hey," Emori greeted her back as she made her way to the viewing screen.
"It's so pretty," Emori said. "Can't wait to get down there,"
"As soon as the transport ships ready," Raven said
Finally she turned and walked to the radio console. "Anything new?" she asked as she picked up her headset.
"No," Raven answered and turned from the mesmerizing view of the planet to the radar screen.
"We're still taking atmospheric readings and monitoring the weather," Shaw said.
"Have you seen Bellamy?" Raven asked Emori "Indra's looking for him."
"He's supposed to be here," Emori said.
"Well he's late," Raven answered back.
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Bellamy followed behind Echo as walked towards the hanger bay. "When you're shift is over, meet me at the armory?" he asked just before she turned to go.
"Yea," she smiled.
Bellamy walked towards the bridge. Once he finally stepped inside, he walked to Emori and put a hand on her shoulder, getting her attention. "Anything?" he asked
Emori just shook her head no.
"Ahh, look who finally decides to show up, what... late night?" Raven taunted.
"Funny," Bellamy smirked and then went right to business.
"You got the check list ready?" he asked
"I do," Shaw spoke up, "but I'm going to the hanger bay" he said thinking he wanted to help get the transport ship ready since he was going to pilot it himself.
"Alright, sounds good to me," Bellamy said "you can head it up then, I still have to get the packs ready,"
"Oh yea.. Bellamy, Indra came by earlier; she wants you to meet her," Raven said "She said she would be with Gaia."
Bellamy stood, hands on his hips, took a deep breath. "Alright," he said exhaling. "I'll find her…Gaia's?"
"Yea…cryo section A," Raven said.
Bellamy left the bridge and headed in the direction of the cryo chambers. He had avoided going there after they woke the others.
He got to section A.
The hatch was open and he stepped inside. Indra was standing inside next to Gaia's chamber, as if she were guarding the entire section.
Bellamy's eyes met hers and he nodded a greeting.
"Bellamy," she said.
"You wanted to see me?" he asked.
"We need to discuss your sister," she said.
Bellamy just closed his eyes. He expected this, but he wanted to avoid it. He had been avoiding it since he woke. He took a deep breath.
"You want to discuss my sister? Or Bloodreina?" he asked in a challenging tone.
"Bellamy, I know you're angry, but Octavia needs you," she said.
"Blodreina was willing to watch me die," he said with a touch of anger.
"I don't know who she is anymore, and to be honest…I'm not sure I want to know." he said his voice growing frustrated.
"A lot happened in the bunker. Things that changed us all," Indra said.
"I tried to talk to Octavia. She shut me out. All she wanted was war. I tried to help her, to stop her. She wouldn't talk to me. She put us all in that fighting pit," he said with both rage and resentment building up.
"I poisoned her, Indra. Do you know how it felt to be forced to poison my own sister?" he said shaking his head and he continued on.
"She was willing to kill Clarke and everyone in that valley. She went too far and…" he turned avoiding her face, trying to steady his own guilty emotion as his jaw clenched.
"I told her there was no going back if she did it…" he finally whispered barely audible to her ears. His back to her, his eyes wet with tears.
"You know…I thought …if I refused to fight; she would stop it…" his voice low and then he turned and got louder, "but she didn't," he glared at Indra as he roared. "She didn't care about any of us…All she wanted was power, and her god damned war,"
"I didn't die in that pit…but my sister did," he finally said and he turned away again. His breath was labored and he was fighting anger.
Indra walked over to him and put a firm hand on his shoulder. It almost made him break down and he fought it back.
"Bellamy," Indra said. "I need to tell you about the dark year."
He didn't want to hear it. He didn't care anymore. He almost left, but he stayed to hear Indra out. He owed Indra that much.
Bellamy listened to the horror of what they were forced to endure, of what his sister became during the 6 years. He was shocked. He wondered if Octavia would ever be able to find her way back, or was she too far gone.
"Wake her Bellamy. Wake Octavia so we can help her," Indra said. "She needs time to adjust and find herself before the others wake. We can still help her. I know we can"
Bellamy looked at Indra and then down to the floor as he considered it.
He left and walked to section C and found his way to Octavia's chamber.
He stepped inside and stood next to her.
She lie there, sleeping; her chamber glass crackled with ice inside. She looked peaceful. Seeing her there reminded him of when she a little girl, and he softened a bit. Then he remembered her in the desert when she threatened his life, and later how she stood over and watched him from her throne as he was bound and gagged. He hated her and who she had become in that moment. That was the only time he remembered ever hating his sister. He was willing to let her strike him down, thinking she wouldn't go thru with it. But in the pit when he reluctantly yanked the sword from the fence, he no longer had a sister.
"Who are you?" he asked, knowing she couldn't hear him. "Are you Octavia? Or are you Bloodreina? Are you still in there O?" he whispered. He stayed briefly, not knowing what to do. Would waking her be a mistake? He needed someone to talk to, and suddenly he needed to talk to Clarke.
He glanced at her and lingered a bit trying to remember the sister he once had. Finally he left.
Jackson watched Bellamy leave cryo, and immediately went to check on Octavia. Madi followed, wondering why Jackson was worried.
"You seriously don't think Bellamy would do anything to her chamber?" Madi asked Jackson, shocked that he could even think it.
"He already poisoned her once," Jackson said. "I don't trust him not to try it again,"
"Bellamy wouldn't do that," Madi said Appalled that Jackson would even suggest it.