Olivia Benson and her last stand
Today was the day I got killed. Nobody including me saw it coming. Well today I felt what it was like to die. I wish I got to say goodbye to Fin, Don, Amanda, John, and Nick. I felt the bullet go through my head. I felt the pain for a second and then nothing. I felt the weight of the world disappear. I also felt the grief of everyone close to me that will miss me. Sorry let me start at the beginning.
I got called in on one of the few days off I took by Amanda. I wish I never went in. Even though it was an open shut case. He got off. Then he went after the main witness. Then we got him with DNA, but the lab ran on the same tray. He got off because of it. When he got off, he came after me. He figured out where I lived. He broke into my apartment and when I got home it started and my 32 hours of hell began.
I had no clue what was going to happen when I got home. I thought I would have a nice and peaceful two day off. I never thought I would start the fight for my life. The fight that I would end up losing. I was expecting not to be the same when I realized what is going. I wanted to be the one to make the phone call to Don and IAB saying I killed William Lewis out of self-defense. I did not want to call Rafael because I was not allowed to call any cops to say I was getting killed.
After Rafael answered the phone, I heard the background. I heard Fin, Amanda, John, Don, and Nick talking about a case. This is how the short call went…
Rafael- Barba
Me- Hey Rafael it is Olivia.
R- Hey Olivia? You never call me by my first name. Everything okay
Me- No it is not. Will you listen to me real close Rafael?
R- yeah do you need to talk in person? I am at the Precinct, but I can meet you somewhere.
Me- No I am not allowed to go anywhere. Rafael please listen to me closely.
R- okay
Me- I am not going to make it after today. I am not coming in to work anymore. I lost the game. I do not blame anyone. Rafael this is goodbye. Clean my desk off. Tell everyone goodbye for me. Then call someone other than Don and tell them to come get my body after I die…
R- NO Olivia Benson Do not you dare. You are an amazing, kind, caring, and most badass person I know. If Cassidy did something to hurt, you let me know. I will help you… Please death is not an option…
Me- Rafael I am not killing myself Mr. Lewis broke in and I said to shoot me because I am so tired of fighting. Please forgive me… I love you… Goodbye Rafael...
R- Olivia I will send help to you… PLEASE HANG ON! Olivia is he still...
I never heard him so sad about anything… I did not want to hang up the phone… But I did because I knew he would kill them if I did not die. I was crying as I left him mid-sentence… I never knew how much pain I would be in hanging up that phone. I started to cry and then that gun went off. I thought I would no longer see what was going on but that was not the case.
I saw Lewis leave me bleeding out. Then about ten minutes later I see Rafael with everyone following him. He saw me and ran to my body yelling my name with tears going down his face. I saw Cragen fall to his knees crying. I saw John drag Rafael and Cragen out while Fin and Amanda checked my empty apartment. Then Cragen calls 1PP informing them about what happened. I saw Melinda holding back tears as she packed up my body.
I then felt a hand on my shoulder, and it was mom. I hugged her. She said it was time. They will get him so you can rest. I said will they be okay. She said yes. I left them to the world and checked on them. I checked on everyone. My desk stayed with my stuff for a year till Cragen cleaned it off because he had. John retired a month after my case. Amanda Fin and Nick remained after. Nick got divorced. Amanda had a girl she named after me. Fin became the sergeant and took over when Cragen was forced to retire. The only one who could not get over what happened was Rafael. He left SVU as an ADA then New York except to visit his mom.