Chapter 5

AN: Thank you for everyone for stick it through to long periods of time from one update to the next. I haven't forgot about this story. I have been going through some hardships at the moment which has not got me to a place to write more often. I am working on paperwork for a new line of business for my company in my spare time. It's kept me away from scribbling out more chapters. Which I can't help be laugh because I have to add in the final edits on my business paperwork and here I am finding myself with creating energy and scribbling in my writing world instead. Responsible right?!

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His heart never felt more vulnerable in his long life. Beating thunderously in his ears and pulsing immensely in his chest. Sesshomaru sat on the cold dungeon floor looking down at his chains, remembering about the recent events that lead him here. He had worries about surviving before in the past but this was different. He had no worries about his life ending. It was her, always seemed to be her since she was introduced into his life a few years ago. It felt like he has loved her a lifetime for such short period of time. He was a fool for not realizing it sooner before she left his side.

He will never forget the express on her face that night he came to retrieve her during her escape. The way her entire body shook with fear, tears from her sea blue eyes but she stood up with all her own built up fury. She denied him; rejected him and his claim on her. He didn't need a mating mark to witness the anguish he had caused within. How could he gone so wrong with her for so long? He knew she was hurting but didn't know that truth to the damage it has caused. So he left her to her family for the time being. He couldn't reason with her not now.

He locked himself away in his personal quarters, tormenting himself trying to find answers to reasons why she left. Destroying everything in his vision during the day and howling at his cries of anguish at night. He didn't care who in the fortress heard him. After few days of being locked away the door his quarters opened to the only person who would dare to approach him, his mother.

InuKimi stepped forward hearing his growls with each step she took. But she didn't care, her full pup needed her more than ever and she wasn't going to fail a second time in her immoral life like she did his father. She watched him closely from to corner of the room while examining the damages from the room; the claw marks on the walls, all the broken furniture in the room.

"LEAVE!" He ordered her. She didn't respond just raised an eyebrow at him. She finally stopped four feet from him, "Get up pup and explain yourself!" He let out a thunderous growl and stared back with his golden eyes rimmed green and red. "Does my presence bother you that much? Good! You left your land unattended to for days! And now I have to be here to clean this mess up!" She began to play with her hair. Sesshmaru stood to his full height and turned a quarter away from her. "My kingdom has nothing to do with you Mother! Leave before I had you thrown out!"

"KINGDOM? What kingdom? There is paperwork all over the place, no patrols being done, its chaos! She barked out at him. His eyes flashed red instantly as he rushed at her, grabbing by the neck and holding her inches off the ground. "There is no kingdom without her! Inukimi was stunned by his reaction, grasping for air, "Who is she to you?" she choked out. She knew something happened and she was going to get to the bottom of this. He continued to growl as he spoke, "She was supposed to stay by my side for eternity and she broke her word. He released his hold and threw her across the room. She landed on what was left of his bed, choking. "Who is she, Sesshomaru?" He turned his back to her and whispered, "Kagome."

She widened her golden eyes at him while rubbing her neck, "Your miko plaything? Get another. Its not that hard to find another favorite!" "There is no other, MOTHER! There will never be another for me like my mate!" InuKimi was flabbergasted but it finally made sense to her. Her son has finally found his mate and it's the miko of all people. She sighs while getting up from the bed and approaching him. "Well my son, you need to retrieve her and if you won't I will." She places her hand on his shoulder trying to turn him to face her. "She cant be retrieved she have gone back with to her family where I cant reached her." "What family?" she questioned. "Kagome is from the Higurishi Clan. The Heir in fact." She smiled in the irony. Her son choose well.

"I will try to work my magic and reach out to her. I will bring her back for the sack for my future grand pups." He gave her a sad smile. "But in the mean time you must be the male she needs and you cant let your guard down or your kingdom fall apart." He nodded to her request and embraced her for the first time in years.

He would find a way to be the man required of her love. There was not going back to the way things were. He was a changed man with new resolve. The west began to flourish once again over the course of the months. It was like his break down happened and he had the support of his mother who was staying at the fortress.

InuKimi tried multiple times to reach out to Kagome through her dreams with no luck with convincing her to coming home. She refused her pleads. Each meeting she could tell Kagome was going stronger and becoming an independent woman. The dreams visited to become more less for unknown reasons Inukimi couldn't explain.

Then came this high council visit with their demands. Sesshomaru was needing his mate more than ever. He refused any who was presented as a suitable mate choose from the council so they came to compromise. If he wouldn't choose a mate then he was required to produce a heir to secure the future of his kingdom. With the convincing of his mother and her blessing, he tried. Months and months of trying and having many stillborns, Sesshomaru gave up. He fell into despair finally accepting he was cursed worse than his own father was.

This broke even his mother's heart so she became desperate herself. She dipped into learning stronger magic, determined to get Kagome's attention. She was finally able to reach her.

Kagome found herself pulled from her normal training in her dreams to meeting of InuKimi around a lake with trees around it. She stare down at the demoness with a determining glare. "Why can't you leave me alone? InuKimi just stare back for a moment playing with her hair. Kagome has changed much growing into a mature womanly figure. She had long flowing raven hair down her back, striking blue eyes and purple swirling lines going down her right arm that reach past her shoulder hiding the rest behind her shirt.

"Your mate is in despair miko. He needs you." She finally stated. Kagome sighs while approaching her. "He isn't my mate. He gave up that right when he kept me from my family and lied to me. Love one don't that." "You fool! You are marked Kagome. A mating it's something you can't treat like a divorce like humans do. Your souls bond together." She bit back. Kagome shook her head while pulling down her left side of her shirt to reveal the mark. The mark was online red but nothing more; an incomplete mating mark. "We all have our mistakes, InuKimi. This is mine." "Mating to my son wasn't a mistake. Just talk to me, please. She begged. Kagome shook her head again, "Too much has been done and things are different now. Don't contact me again or the visit you get won't be to talk." And she turn exited the dream.

Of course InuKimi won't give up on either them but she wasn't able to reach her again. A month later the western fortress woke in the middle of the night by a thunderous roar from the western lord. InuKimi and Inuyasha rushed into his chambers to Sesshomaru thrashing around the quarters a tormented struggle with his beast. They couldn't get through to him expect. Mate is in pain. They tried to contain him but he escaped out the balcony and transform to his giant white inu form and rushed to find out her. But her wasn't able to within hours, the western land were under attack from northern army. Months and months of fight they captured Sesshomaru along with the western land.