So, Thomas and Patton seemed to think it would be a fun idea for me to get a diary. At first I said no, of course. But Patton suggested we all have one so that we could look back on it years later like Thomas did. Technically Thomas did that when he was thirteen but I guess age doesn't really matter for us. I'm honestly just looking forward to seeing Roman's in a few years. Then again he's probably gonna laugh at whatever I say here.

Anyways, what's on my mind right now? The usual for an anxiety I'd assume. (God it's still weird saying "an" anxiety) Just normal concerning facts that pop in to my head that I tell thomas about and then he gets, well, anxious. Lately when I start having those concerns I listen to an audio book or something, still haven't used up the card from like two years ago. I don't listen to very many books, just the same good ones on repeat.

No, this isn't sponsored by Audible.

I think Thomas mentioned it somewhere, but I'm simultaneously going insane but also very happy about quarantine. On one hand, we're stuck inside wasting precious days of our life. And on the other hand, no social interaction. I think I'm driving Thomas insane. Uh, sorry? Y'know sometimes I look at people's comments on Sanders Sides videos, a lot of them seem to say good things about me. But unlike Patton, I know what a ship is. Why? Because like every other comment I see points out something I say and then says, "OMG PRINXIETY!".

I'm just now realizing Thomas will probably share these on YouTube so, sorry to sink the ship guys?

In hindsight Thomas has been pretty enthusiastic about this, he's definitely doing it for content. I guess we'll be seeing each other's diary sooner than I thought. Some people are wondering where I was in what's the latest episode right now. Well sorry but that's none of your business.

I'm realizing that people might be confused about how I got the name Virgil. To put it simply, I honestly don't know. One day it just kinda popped into my head and I was like, that's my name huh? Maybe it was the same for the others? It's not like we have parents that named us or something.

Speaking of parents, I really don't want to say it, but it's honestly kinda nice to have some sorta parental figure. Patton tries so hard to seem like a good dad to me, it's of course awkward at times since we're like, the same age though. I guess if we go off mental age? Then again Patton still is pretty childish. He tries his best, and that's all that really matters.

Gosh I hate heartfelt moments..

I've taken to digging through the comments on our videos and I'm not sure how I didn't realize it before but there's a lot of people that sympathize with me. Wow? Let me try to find an example...

"It really hurts me when I notice little things about Virgil.

How Remus always tries to get him by calling him bad or dark.

How being called paranoid is a trigger

Small notes of regret

Not contributing after his ideas are debunked, like he feels like he'll say the wrong thing.

The feeling that he has to hold himself to a higher standard.

I dunno, it just really hits home for me."

-Charlie, Dealing with INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS

Don't worry about me guys, that's normal for an anxiety.

I think?