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She hated herself- she hated that she still thought Jackson could change. She hated that she still believed the words that came out of his mouth. She hated that he still had a hold on her. But more than anything, she hated that no matter what he did she couldn't stop loving him.

All of that was about to change. She wasn't going to put up with him and his games. She wasn't going to go out of her way for him any more. She wasn't going to build him up as a superhero to Maddie anymore. She was done.

Damon had been working all week since the station was short two guys. Maddie had come home with plenty of stories of what she had done with her mothers side of the family. She hadn't accepted any calls from Jackson and hadn't brought Maddie down to the garage.

Juice and Happy stopped by a few times to hang out and check on them, Gemma had come by as well but left when Hailey kicked her out after she tried another lecture about "the life" and Jackson's destiny in it. Hailey thought it was a crock of shit. She never had a problem with the life, never had a problem with the violence or chaos, she always listened when Jax needed her to, always patched him up when he needed, and always was his escape whenever he needed. The only thing Hailey would never accept was the infidelity, but apparently it was too much to ask for.

She was laying in her bed and couldn't turn her mind off. 2:36 The red numbers were blinking back at her and she continued to stare at the ceiling. She listened to the fan as it spun around and around, she could hear the soft music coming from Maddie's room that put her to sleep, but she knew the reason she couldn't sleep was because she felt alone. She looked to the other side of the bed and felt a pinge of guilt, even when Damon was here this week she felt an ache in her heart. She didn't deserve Damon and he didn't deserve this.

Hailey couldn't shake the feeling inside of her and couldn't turn off the noise in her head. Damon deserved a girl who loved him with every fiber of her being, a girl who could give him the life he wanted, a girl who didn't come with all of the baggage that she did, a girl who wasn't as broken as she was.

She wasn't sure when she started crying but she could feel the wetness on her cheeks. She wasn't good enough for Damon, she wasn't enough for Jax. That's what she knew had brought the tears. She never allowed herself to mourn over her broken relationship with the infamous Jackson Teller. She never allowed tears to fall when she found out that he chose his ex over her, she never allowed tears to fall when she was delivering her daughter without him, she never allowed tears to fall for the man that shattered her heart.

It hurt, it hurt like hell and she knew that's why she put it off for so long. She didn't want to deal with this pain, this horrible agonizing emotional and physical pain. Her sobs were muffled by the pillow that she was hugging to her chest. How could he do this to her? How could someone who promised to love her break her the way he did over and over again. But how could she let him? Why did she give him so much power to hurt her this way?

Love. Love is the most beautiful and most terrifying word in the world. Its like nothing else, Hailey knows that she still loves Jackson, because love is pain that we are willing to feel over and over again. She just couldn't bare the thought that he didn't love her back? How could he love her?

God, she hated him.

She looked at the clock and saw that Maddie was out of school. She had just finished up her meeting and was off for the next two weeks. She was happy that she was going to have three months with her baby girl and it made her heart swell.

"Baby!"

"Mommy! I missed you!"

Maddie ran into her arms and she held the little girl tight to her.

"Thanks for watching her, I didn't want her to have to sit there while I video conferenced. How was she today Gem?" She asked while swaying with Maddie in her arms.

"Perfect as ever momma. You should be proud." Gemma smiled at the young mother. "Maddie why don't you get your things so I can talk to mommy."

Maddie turned to her grandmother "okay." She turned her head back to her mothers and placed tiny hands on her mothers cheeks and placed a kiss on her lips. "I'll be back mommy." Hailey smiled and released her. Gemma tilted her head to the kitchen and sat at the small table in there. Hailey leaned against the counter and crossed her arms over her chest.

"What is it Gemma?" Hailey asked, knowing where the conversation was headed.

"Baby... What's going on with you and Jax?" Gemma spoke quietly.

Hailey shook her head.

"I don't know what you're talking about..."

"Yes you do." Gemma snapped. "It's not fair to Maddie if she doesn't get to see her daddy because you won't let him come around." Hailey's head snapped up and her eyes locked into Gemma as if she were an enemy. Hailey was livid.

"Are you fucking kidding me!? That's what you're gonna say to me right now? I didn't keep Maddie from him, he chose to not come around, he chose to live "the life" to the fullest and forget that he had responsibilities, he chose to sleep around with anyone who was willing, he chose to break promise after promise, he chose to not be a real "old man", just like he chose to not be a fucking father! So don't sit here and tell me that I am doing something wrong! I am Maddie's mother, and as far as any court system or legal system is concerned he's nothing but a sperm donor! What-"

Gemma stood and raised her hand to Hailey to tell her to relax. "Hailey, I know my son has fucked up before but it doesn't change the fact that he is still Maddie's dad."

Hailey shook her head "You're wrong, it changes everything. I am her mother, I protect her from anything that can hurt her. Jackson hurts her. Jackson hurts me. I'm doing what's right." Hailey took a deep breath and collected her thoughts before leaving the kitchen, she turned the corner and saw her daughter sitting by the door holding a stuffed dog. "Are you okay mommy?" Hailey took a shaky breath and nodded her head "Come on baby, let's go home."

Gemma heard the front door close and looked through the window, she saw her granddaughter hand in hand with her mother and the two of them got into the SUV and backed out of the driveway. Gemma had a feeling that she had royally pissed off the mother of the princess to SAMCRO, hell she may not let her see her granddaughter. Well, that wasn't going to happen. Gemma picked up her phone and dialed the number to Rosens office.

"Yeah, it's Gemma Teller-Morrow, I need a favor."

"Mommy can we go see Damon?" Hailey looked in her rear view and saw Maddie playing with her toy Dalmatian, "Of course we can baby." Hailey took a left at the intersection and pulled into the fire station a few minutes later. Before her car was even parked she saw the wonderful man walking towards her. 'God I don't deserve him... But hell if I'm letting him go.' She thought as he got closer to the door. She smiled brightly when he opened her door and kisses her deeply. "Hey." He said with a smile.

"Damon!" Maddie yelled happily from the backseat. Damon quickly opened the back door "Hey sweetie! I missed you!" He had gotten Maddie out of the car and was holding her in his arms. "I missed you too, so did mommy!" Maddie said while painting to Hailey. They both laughed at the toddlers words.

Hailey and Damon walked hand in hand out of the station, while Maddie ran ahead talking to the other firemen. He stopped and wrapped his arms around her neck and brought her into a hug, she hadn't expected it but she wrapped her ams around his middle and just allowed his scent to calm her down. "What's going on Hailey?" She pulled back slightly and tilted her head up toward his and took a deep breath. "I don't know I just... I have so much in my head and I... I feel like I dont deserve you. You don't deserve to have to deal with me.."

He cupped her face in his hands "I love you, and nothing is going to change that." Hailey's eyes had filled with I she's tears "But..." Damon leaned down so his face was level with hers, their eyes were locked intensely; "But what? But you have a kid, you have baggage? You have an MC at your back door? But you still love Jax? Hailey I know all of those things. But I also know that you are the greatest mother I have ever seen, I know that you are the sweetest person in the world, I know that you love your daughter more than anything in the world and that you would go to Hell and back for her... And... I know that you still love him..." Hailey tried to look away from his eyes but her held her steady "I know that you do and that's okay, because I know that you love me. I know that you are fighting for this to work everyday, and yeah maybe it's not right or normal or maybe it shouldn't have to be a work in progress but... But I love you. And I don't care what anyone else has to say about it. So please don't over think this, don't let yourself feel like you don't deserve to be happy. You focus on everyone else before yourself and I'm not allowing you to do it right now. You deserve to be happy, and I will do anything I can to make you happy."

Hailey kissed him. She kissed him differently than she ever had before, she kissed him the way she had only kissed one other person before. She kissed him like she loved him. Because at that moment she allowed herself to love him. She knew deep in her soul she wasn't "in love" with him though. And the realization nearly killed her.

Jackson had called again, it had been a week and a half since the party fiasco and three days since she had spoken to Gemma. Happy had come by yesterday to check in and inform her that the club would be heading on an overnight run to Indian Hills. She knew Happy was loyal to the club, but she knew that she and Maddie were his grey area. The rules were different and the lines were hazy, she knew she could trust him.

She and Damon had spent the first two days of summer with Maddie. They went to the park and he installed a set of slip n slides in the backyard for the three of them to use. He was back at work and was still pulling long hours- the station had yet to hire more people. Hailey didn't mind, as much as she loved Damon she also loved alone time with her and her daughter. The doorbell rang just as Hailey had placed Maddie's lunch on the table, "Keep eating baby, I'll be right back." She patted her cheek and went to the door, she looked through the window and saw that it was a man in a suit, she opened the door just enough to figure out who he was and what he wanted. She had picked up the small gun she left in the side table and held it behind her back. Some things just stick with you once you enter "the life".

"Can I help you?" Hailey spoke sweetly to the man on her porch.

"Are you Hailey Ven?" The man said kindly with a smile.

"Yes... Who-"

"You've been served." The man said while handing her a stack of papers. He turned on his heel and went down the driveway. Hailey was confused- served? What the hell am I being served for? She closed the door and started to read over the papers.

"Son of a bitch." She through the papers to the ground and ran her hands through her hair, trying to calm herself down.

Hailey dialed Tristan Oswald's number and hoped that she could watch Maddie for her. When she agreed to be at her house in fifteen minutes Hailey peaked her head into the kitchen "hey baby, Tristan is going to watch you for a few minutes while I run out okay?" Maddie nodded her head "Okay mommy." She continued eating her mac n cheese. Hailey made her way to the living room where the laundry basket was sitting. She changed into a pair of skinny jeans and a simple black tank top, she slipped on her black "bitch" heels that always gave her a serous confidence boost, and threw her hair up into a messy bun.

By the time Tristan arrived Hailey was fuming. She gathered the papers and handed Tristan several bills on her way out, telling her she'd keep her posted on when she'd be back. Hailey got in her car and made her way to Teller-Morrow. Hailey just hoped the man she was looking for was there.

She flew into the lot and pulled her suv to a screeching stop. The workers in the garage all looked over to see who it was. She grabbed the papers and started making her way into the club house. She could hear the music and the people, a party must have been starting. Slamming the door open as hard as she could, many peoples eyes were on her. She stopped and scanned the room for the head of blonde hair and saw him on the couch with a porn slut in his lap. She was seeing red and stormed her way toward him, she grabbed the girl by her hair and yanked her to the ground. "Owww! What the fuck bitch!?" Hailey stepped over her and ignored her words as she forcefully shoved the papers into Jackson's chest.

"I don't know what the fuck you think you're doing. But I promise that if you come after my daughter- I will destroy you." Jax wasn't sure what was going on and he decided to remain quiet while reading over the papers. He and Gemma had spoken about his desire to see Maddie more but he had no idea that she would do this. He shook his head "Hails I really don't know anything about this." He stood from his seat and her anger was bubbling. "Really!? You

have no idea about this? Then why is your name signed on the bottom!? Huh? I told you not to so this Jackson, I told you-"

Jax's nostrils flaired and he stood towering over her "I don't give a fuck what you told me! I know you would like to forget sometimes but MADDIE IS MINE TOO!"

"You're right! I wish I could forget that I was stupid enough for not only getting involved with you -but also tying myself to you until the day I fucking die!"

"You're such a fucking bitch." He spat back.

Hailey shook her head and let out a non humorous laugh "I might be a bitch Jackson but at least I'm not a fucking coward! You wanna take me to court- let's fucking go. But I promise you that you will regret it."

Hailey went to leave when she realized that every person had their eyes locked on the argument. Then she saw Tara Knowels make her way up to Jax's side with a victorious smirk on her face.

Hailey knew she could walk away right then and there but seeing the fading bruises on Tara's face made her realize that she was still angry- why not air out some dirty laundry? "And what the fuck are you so proud of?" Hailey stepped closer.

Tara raised her nose to Hailey "I'm just happy he's finally going to knock you off of the pedestal you've put yourself on. Maddie deserves to see Jax, think about your daughter for once."

Silence.

Silence throughout the clubhouse.

It was so quiet you could hear a pin drop.

Hailey cocked her head to the side "Think about my daughter for once?" Hailey stepped forward and pointed her finger toward Tara "let me tell you something Tara- the only thing I have thought about since the moment I found out I was pregnant has been MY daughter. I have done everything for that girl since the moment she was born. I was the parent that was at the hospital day in and day out, I am the one who takes care of her everyday of her life. So don't you dare try and act like you know what it means to be a mother. Do not sit here and act like you're queen bee because the only thing you are is a worthless, disgusting excuse for a woman, who sucks did and carries a first aid kit." Haileys eyes were filled with venom. "You came back because you couldn't handle your own shit, you couldn't handle your ex and you couldn't handle being a mother. You're a baby killer! You ran away after he did your dirty work and now you're back again because you have no where else to go- so sit here and whisper in his ear that I'm a bad mother and that he's doing the right thing. But don't forget- I'm not the one who went and killed two kids! One of which was HIS kid before taking off again. Am I?" Hailey made eye contact with Tara and then with Jax, she turned in her heel and walked out of the clubhouse with her head held high.

SAMCRO has never seen a war like the one Hailey would unleash over Madison Jade Teller.