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It had been a couple days since her blow out at the clubhouse. She had avoided everyone like the plague. Well, except for one. Hailey couldn't help the smile that spread on her face watching her daughter sit in the back yard with her grandpa. Clay Morrow may be a ruthless MC president but when it came to Madison he was putty in that little girls hands.

Currently he was seated at a small table surrounded by stuffed animals with a small tea set in front of him. Maddie insisted that since her grandfather was the King she should be the Princess, tea time was sacred between the two of them. In fact, no one knew that it was an almost weekly occupancy for Clay Morrow to devote his day to his granddaughter. Hailey was sure that he must make up some type of excuse to the guys regarding his where abouts.

After some time the two finally made their way into the house. Both were laughing while Maddie hung from her grandpas back like a monkey. He placed her on the floor and she ran to her mother with her arms stretched open.

"Hi baby! Did you two have fun?"

"Yes we did. Grandpas my best friend." The little girl giggled.

"What did you two talk about?"

"Mommy, that's secret." Her little eyes connected with her mothers. Hailey knew they had a bond that was stronger than anyone realized.

"Why don't you go to your room and I'll talk to grandpa for a little bit." Hailey said with a soft smile.

Maddie ran to her bedroom and once she heard her start playing Hailey made her way into the arms of Papa Bear Clay.

She held onto him for dear life and he simply tightened his arms. Hailey breather in his smell and let out a shaky breath.

"I'm sorry all of this is happening sweetheart." Clays voice filled the room around her. All she could do was nod her head. She pulled away slowly and wiped at her eyes. "I'm sorry, I just needed that." Clay gave her a smile she knew was reserved for her and Maddie alone. "I will always be here for you'll little girl. Don't you ever forget that." He spoke softly and pointed a finger at her. She nodded her head "I know, it's all just crazy right now and I can't wrap my head around it.

"You listen to me and you listen good," he cupped both of her cheeks in his hands, "you are a damn good mother. More importantly you re the daughter hat I never had. I know you and Jax didn't work out but nothing will ever change between you, me, and that little girl in the other room. I may be an asshole to the rest of the world but I will do anything for you two. You need to do what's best for you." Hailey tried to interrupt him but he cut her off "Indont think you know what you want yet. So just take it one step at a time. No matter what, I'm in your corner." He pulled her in for another hug and softly kissed her forehead.

Hailey shuffled and had to wipe her eyes again but she knew he was right. She had to take it day by day. And it was a relief to know that she had Clay on her side.

"Love you."

"Love you more."

He made his way down the hall and Hailey could hear him asking her to watch a movie with him.

A few days later:

"So how did it go with the lawyer?" Hailey's bestfriend since childhood asked while sitting on the couch across from her.

"Chels I just never thought that I would have to go through this ya know..." Hailey ran her hands over her face and looked at her friend. "I met with the lawyer and he ran Jackson's criminal history.."

"That must have been somethin." Chelsea stated.

Hailey nodded her head "It was 38 pages long! He said that right there was enough to get the 50/50 deal thrown out the window. So he and I talked and he basically said that I have been way to nice and that I let Jax get away with way to much."

"You have, I know that, Jax knows that, hell everyone in this town knows that."

"I know I just... I always thought that he would change, maybe not for me.. But for her... I loved him so.. So much. I was willing to do anything for him, I would have thrown away my life for him... " Hailey shook her head trying to stop the tears from falling.

"I know babe, but... I just don't think he knew what he had in you... I don't see him changing... So what did the lawyer say you should do?" Chelsea asked, trying to get back to the case.

Hailey licked her lips and pushed her hair out of her face "He said that I should counter offer basically, and he suggested on letting Jax get visitation, but only at the Family Visitation Center... What the lawyer said was that IF Jackson really wanted to see her that he would agree to it. He sent it over to Rosen and I guess we just wait to hear back. He said it should be tomorrow."

"What do you think he's gonna do when he gets that news?" Chelsea asked her friend, while sipping her wine.

"Honestly, he's gonna be pissed. But I just... I can't care anymore. He acts like he deserves to do what he wants because he's in the club and it's just... It's not fair. He thinks because he deals with shit all the time and he's stressed that it basically excuses him from being around."

Chelsea nodded her head "what do you think the other guys are gonna say?"

"Honestly... I don't care. I don't care what any one has to say, this is between me, Jackson, and Madison. That's it. Every other person is irrelevant."

"Do you think Jax is gonna say something to you?"

"Oh absolutely, I'm sure that he's gonna throw anything he can in my face. He's ruthless with words because he knows that's how to hurt me. I just need to not give him that power anymore. You can only hurt someone until there's nothing left to hurt..."

"You're a great mother Hailey, never let him take that away from you." Chelsea said while bringing her friend into a hug and rubbing her back. "Sooo... How's Damon with all of this?"

Hailey composed herself and settled back into the couch. "He's an amazing guy, but I don't talk to him about this stuff, I just... I just don't feel like I should. He knows the gist of it all but not the details... It just sucks because here I have this amazing guy, who loves me 100% and who loves Maddie too, and he's honestly... Perfect. And yet I still have this... Empty felling in my chest, and the only person who fills it is Jax. I don't deserve Damon, I know that I don't but... I do love him. I do. It's just, different. I'm just so scared of hurting him or losing him. I don't know... I'm enjoying every second but... Right now all my focus is on Madison."

Chelsea put her wine glass on the table "You deserve to be happy. And if Damon makes you happy than let it be. I know you love Jax, but that love you have for him... It's destroying you. I just don't wanna see you fall."

Hailey nodded her head in understanding, she knew where her best friend was coming from. "You don't have to worry about me, I'm full of wounds and I'm still standing on my feet."

"She wants what!?" Jax yelled while he stood abruptly, the chair he was sitting in hitting the floor.

"Listen, I warned you that if you brought this to a court that this is what was going to happen. I mean what did you expect was..." Rosen suddenly stopped when Jax slammed his fists onto the reaper table.

"What else can we do? Clearly this deal is horse shit." Gemma said while pacing the room of the chapel.

Rosen didn't know how else to put it, he didn't know what these people expected. He was a criminal attorney and had represented all of them on CRIMINAL acts. Now they don't know why they aren't getting custody of a five year old girl.

"The best thing you could do is talk to Hailey."

"Please! She hates my fucking guts, you really think she's gonna sit down and chit chat about me having more time with Madison?"

Gemma knew her son was about to blow up and she told Rosen that they would contact him when they made a decision. Gemma walked him out of the clubhouse and re-entered the chapel.

Jackson was pacing and pulling his hair and huffing out breaths like a caged animal. He through one of the chairs across the room. "I already lost one kid, I'm not losing Maddie." He spoke while sinking into a chair and pulling out a cigarette.

Gemma knew Tara's betrayal cut deep but she had a feeling something under the surface was causing her son so much anger. "Talk to me baby."

Jax shook his head and snarled his lip. "You shouldn't have started this. Hailey would destroy everything in her path for Madison." He flicked his cigarette into the ashtray and exhaled the alike in his lungs. "I fucked up... I fucked up big time with Hailey- I should never have gotten involved with Tara... Could you imagine me havin a kid with her!?" He shook his head and Gemma could see something going through his head. "The ONLY person I should have kids with.. Is Hailey."

There it is. Gemma knew when Jackson had laid into Tara after Hailey stormed off that he wasn't angry about her getting an abortion... He was angry that another woman was almost the mother of his child. He loved Hailey Ven and Gemma realized that she really screwed up.

"Maybe you should try talking to her like he said... I'm sorry baby, I... I over reacted and I'm sorry."

Jax grabbed his mothers hand and held it in his own. "It's alright Ma, you were doing what you thought was right." Gemma smiled and they rose from their seats and made their way toward the doors. Just as Gemma was opening it, the door was slammed shut, she looked up to see her sons hand firmly holding it closed.

Jax leaned down to his mothers ear and spoke "But ma, if you ever... come between me and my girls again... I won't be as understanding." He pressed a kiss to the back of her head and opened the door. He walked out in front of her and headed toward his bike.

Chelsea had stayed over and the three girls were sitting on the back patio enjoying brunch. Madison was eager to play with her toys "mommy can I please go play now?" Hailey saw that all of the food was gone from Maddie's plate and agreed that she could.

"I'm glad you're here." Hailey said while smiling toward her friend.

"I wouldn't want to be anywhere else babe!" Chelsea said with a laugh. "You think he heard yet?"

"I don't know, I..." Just as the words left her mouth her phone rang. Hailey picked it up and saw Jackson's name come across it. She picked up the phone and looked at her friend with an incredulous look "speak of the devil and he shall appear."

Chelsea just shook her head and gave her friend a nervous expression and shook her head.

"Hello?"

"Hey it's me."

"Yeah I gathered that, what do you want?"

"I wanted to know if we could talk."

Hailey bit her lip and shook her head, even though he couldn't see her.

"I don't think that's a good idea."

He was quiet for a moment.

"Please Hailey!?"

She could hear the desperation in his voice and hated her heart for wanting to betray her brain.

"Jackson..."

"Hailey. Please just talk to me. If you still want to go forward with this afterward then I'll sign."

Hailey thought about it for a moment.

"Fine. We can meet somewhere. But I swear to god Jackson if you don't..."

"The Tavern... 20 minutes?"

Hailey took a deep breath.

"20 minutes."

19 minutes later Hailey's SUV pulled into the parking lot of The Tavern, no other cars were around besides Jackson's bike. She wasn't surprised, the owner Burt was friendly with the Sons, whenever one of them asked for him to close down for whatever reason... He did.

The last time she and Jax were here was right after Maddie was born. He asked her to meet him so he could "explain himself" it didn't go very well.

She got out of her truck and her worn cowgirl boots crunched over the gravel under her feet. She wore simple light washed denim shorts with a floral tank top that hugged her body beautifully, her hair was down in loose waves and her makeup was perfect.

She opened the back door and walked down the tiny hallway, she entered the main room and Jackson was sitting at the bar with his elbows resting on top, he was twirling his SONS rings and Hailey knew he was anxious. She bit her lip when she saw what he was wearing. He had his signature white air forces, dark jeans, his belt, his kutte, but he wore THE shirt. It was a blue plaid button up that she always ripped off of him.

Hailey took a deep breath and made her way toward him, here goes nothing.

Jax was twirling his rings around and had a million thoughts going through his head. He didn't know what he was going to say to Hailey. He heard movement and turned his head, his breath caught in his lungs the way it did every time he looked at her.

She looked beautiful walking toward him, all thoughts left his mind and he just watched her. She hesitated before she took a seat next to him. She was quiet for a few moments "You wanna talk? Let's talk."

She spoke without looking at him directly so he turned in his stool slightly. "I just wanted to talk about everything." He cleared his throat before continuing. "Hails, I didn't, I don't, want to take Madison from you. Gemma and I talked about it one night and I said I wish I had more time, she thought she was helping me.."

"Why did you let her do it then?" Hailey asked while still looking forward.

"I didn't know until you came to the clubhouse and then... You get under my skin like no one else and I lashed out... I shouldn't have said what I said but hearing that you feel like you made a mistake with me, like you don't wanna be around me... It hurts like hell and I see red."

Jax turned and looked down at the bar. The silence was deafening. He saw Hailey playing with her bracelet and then bite her thumb.

"I didn't mean what I said." She looked down and then at her lap. She tucked her hair behind her ear before continuing. "I just meant.. I don't know, I was upset and I had finally let myself realize how bad you hurt me. How broken I was after everything happened. And then the next morning practically, I find out that you're fighting for custody..."

Tears started to fall but she continued to speak, Jax hated seeing her cry. It always made his chest tighten.

"When you left me for her.. You took away my life. I loved you with everything I had and we built this life together and then... It was gone. I just didn't think it would still hurt and when I said that... I meant that I wish I never tied myself to you because it's gonna hurt for the rest of my life."

Jax officially hated himself. He never realized how badly what he did hurt Hailey, he never thought about how much she loved him and how it would feel to have that love thrown in her face. He was an asshole and he knew he may never get her back.

"Hails..."

"No. I'm not finished!" Hailey screamed at him.

"I hate that you don't spend more time with Madison. I hate it! I hate it because I feel like I cheated her out of a life where her parents love each other, where she can learn what it means to love another person. She doesn't have a mommy and a daddy to teach her that. And honestly I think that you don't come around because you don't want to be around me! You don't want to be with me so you stay away from Maddie. You wanna hurt me but you hurt her too!" By this point Hailey was crying and sobbing, her breathing was irregular but she wasn't finished.

"I just wish I was enough for you. I just don't want you to hurt her because she doesn't deserve it."

Jax grabbed her and pulled her body close to his. He held her in his lap in a vise like grip and he pressed kisses to her head while she sobbed into his chest.

"Hailey I'm so sorry." He was repeating everything she had said. "I don't do those things to hurt you or her I just, fuck! I just, I don't know how to be what you need. I fucked up with Tara, and when you walked out I was lost. I held onto her like a life line because you terrified me..." Hailey had stopped sobbing and was laying her head against Jax's chest and listening to his words.

He stroked her head and ran his fingers through her hair.

"You terrified me because... The night I met you, was the first time I felt alive since she left. I was in a messed up place but... It was nothing compared to what it felt like not being with you. I wanted to eat my own gun a few times and Tara was just... There."

Hailey pulled away to look at him. Gold eyes clashed with blue ones and he continued to speak.

"I wanted you back every fuckin day but I figured maybe it was better. Maybe if I wasn't around too much you could have a normal life. Maddie could have a normal life... I know it didn't work." He shook his head.

He grabbed her face in his hands before speaking again.

"You were always enough for me. But I was never good enough for you. I'm still not good enough for you but I will spend the rest of my life trying to be. Just... Please don't take her away from me. I need both of my girls in my life."

Hailey looked at him in silence for a long time. Their eyes saying unspoken words to the other. Eventually he saw her nod her head a little.

"I won't take her from you... But I think you already lost me Jackson."

He started shaking his head "Please don't say that." Jax could feel the tears in his eye.

Hailey pulled herself away from him and wiped her face. "I just... I can't do this again. I can't let you hurt me."

Jax saw the tears fall and then she was gone. He heard the back door close and he sunk to the floor. He allowed himself to feel the true guilt of what he has done to the girl that just left.

But he loved her, and he needed to show her that he would never love anyone else. Hailey Ven was it for Jackson Teller.