Merry Christmas everyone! Hope you had a wonderful holiday. I love all the reactions from the last chapter (lots of twists and turns in the future) this chapter isn't as long as I usually like buuuut wanted something out for you guys! Let me know what you think and keep the feedback coming!! I DONT OWN THE LYRICS
7.
"Wake up! I wanna go shopping!"
Hailey woke to her bestfriend straddling her and yelling into her ear.
The sun was shining in and Hailey had no idea what time it was.
"Fuck Chels, what time is it?" Hailey ran her hand through her hair and sat up with a yawn.
"It's 11 and I already got the rug rat ready so let's go mama!"
Hailey threw the blankets off and started getting ready. She never slept this late but knew that she needed it.
"Mommy can I put some on too?" Maddie asked while watching Hailey put on her eyeliner. She picked the little girl up and placed her on the counter.
"You're already beautiful baby."
"Yeah but I wanna be extra today!"
"Alright..." Hailey put a tiny amount of lip balm on Maddie's lips "smudge baby... Like this."
Maddie did so with a dramatic 'pop' and watched her mother closely.
"Alright now do a fishy face!"
Maddie did so quickly and Hailey swiped her cheeks with pale pink blush. "Perfect peanut."
"I love you mommy!"
"Love you waaaay more."
Maddie giggled and jumped down from the counter. Hailey heard her talking to Chelsea and got dressed.
A few minutes later, and the girls were off to the mall.
By the time they had finished shopping Hailey had new bras and panties, four pairs of jeans, eight new dresses, ten new tops, and 4 pairs of heels. Maddie got nine new dresses, three pairs of sandals, new hair bows and ribbons, and three new stuffed animals.
Chelsea had more bags than Maddie and Hailey combined. The SUV was packed to full capacity. After grabbing lunch Maddie had fallen asleep in the back while clutching her new toy.
"So how is she with everything?" Chelsea asked.
"She's doing okay, she asked about Damon a few times but I explained it to her the best I could. I think her having Jackson around for the past few weeks helped soften the blow though. I mean... Damon and I have exchanged texts and he still makes sure I'm okay and she's okay. I still care about him... That's what I told him, I care about him, I love him, but I'm not in live with him."
"I'm glad that you realized it now rather than later.. So what's going on with you and Jax?"
Hailey looked at Maddie in her mirror and smiled softly. "Honestly... Nothing. He comes by and he's great with her. He and I talk briefly and I guess you could say that we are becoming friends. It's just been different since the custody thing- I think he realized that I had control and knew he needed to change. Honestly, he's been around more this past month and a half than he has in the last five years. I just hope that we can keep it this way." Hailey said with a shrug.
"What about Happy?" Chelsea asked with an all knowing expression while she turned the page in her magazine.
Hailey almost swerved off the road. "Wh.. What are you talking about?"
"Oh please! I'm your best friend I've known since the first time it happened!"
Hailey was shocked! Well not too shocked, Chelsea was always able to read her like a book. "Happy is fine, but nothing is going on. It's only happened a few times and that's it."
"I was just asking..." Chelsea said ol with a smirk. "Soooo how is he?" She raised her eyebrows twice.
"Oh my god! He's... Fantastic. Okay?" Hailey laughed.
"As good as Jax?"
Hailey thought about it for a moment and shook her head "No one is ever going to be as good as Jackson, I don't care what anyone says... Loving someone makes it different."
Chelsea reached across and held her friends hand while rubbing her thumb over the top "I know babe...I know."
(The following day))
"Alright peanut we need to be quiet okay? Mommy's working..."
Maddie looked at her father and nodded her head. She put her tiny finger against her lips "shhhhh"
Jax smiled and grabbed her little hand in his. He quietly opened the door to Hailey's studio in downtown charming. She had the walls painted white and she had black and white photos framed that covered the walls. He had never really been here before, it was her escape from the world.
He picked Maddie up and made his way down the hall. He stopped when he noticed a wall was covered in photos from when they were together. She had photos with Donna, Opie, Gemma, Happy, Juice, tons of photos with SAMCRO. He noticed ones of the two of them when they were together. Many of them were candids an she wasn't sure who took them. When he turned at the end of the small hall, she had walls of photos of her and Maddie throughout the years.
He was lost in the photos and never realized how much he had missed. His favorite photo was the largest on the wall, it was at Madddie's first birthday party. Hailey had Maddie in the air above her face, they both had giant smiles and Jackson was looking at Hailey intently. He remembered the moment, it was one of his favorite. He loved this girl more than anything, he was going to make her see that.
"Come on Daddy!" Maddie said softly while tugging his chin to look at her.
"Alright baby." He continued walking and heard her voice and piano playing.
"Shhhhhhhh" Maddie put her finger back to her lips and another fingers to his.
"I wish you had on sunglasses
to cover up those blue eyes
I wish you said something mean to make me glad that you said goodbye
Why can't you look off somewhere
if you catch me staring at you
Why can't you be cold like any old good ex would do..."
He listened to the lyrics she was singing and knew that he still had a chance to make this right.
Later that night Jax sat in the clubhouse looking around at the men he surrounded himself with, his brothers. He knew they all had his back and he knew they would do anything to help him whenever he needed it. But talking about relationships and looking for advice from guys only categorized you as a god damn pussy. Jax felt someone sit beside him and realized his best friend had dropped by.
"Hey man, what are you up to? Donna know you're here?"
Opie brought the beer up to is lips and took a generous sip. "Shots going sideways man, she doesn't get it. Wants to take the kids to live in Modesto with her mom."
Jax looked over his closest friend and saw that he wasn't as upset as he though he would be at this news. "How do you feel about that bro?"
Opie looked around and shook his head slightly "Honestly brother, I think it's for the best. Donna and I ain't the same. She doesn't accept this life. Doesn't trust me, doesn't want me."
"She's probably just adjusting..."
"Naw man, I know she doesn't. She's been seeing someone since i went inside. Thinks I don't know about it. Guy lives in the same town as her mom. She hasn't even touched me since I've been out. This is where I belong, this is my life and I just can't be half in half out. I don't wanna die man."
"Look man, I can't tell you anything about relationships, my like is straight outta the Sid and Nancy handbook but you gotta do what's best for you."
"Man you have a girl that loves your dumb ass and you do t even see it. Get her back Jax. You're gonna need her when we sit at the head of that table."
Jax had to chuckle at that. His friend was right, he needs to get Hailey back.
"What are you gonna do about the kids?"
"Every other weekend. I told her that. I told her I wanted to be able to come whenever I wanted to and she agreed. It is what it is man."
They both say back in a comfortable silence drinking their needs and watching the party around them.
Some time later a young new sweet butt ran her fingers along Opies kutte and he allowed her to sit in his lap. Jackson looked ahead at the girls that were dancing on the tables in front of them. He watched them but he couldn't help compare them to Hailey. He knew he needed release and so when the one that resembled her the most was within his reach he sat her in his lap. He and Ope resumed casual conversation as Juice and Bobby joined their little circle. After a while Opie stood and brought the little red head back to his room. Jax stood as well and gave the girl in his lap a nod toward his dorm room.
Once inside she began kissing his neck "I can do anything you want VP." Jax chuckled "I don't know about that darlin." She stepped back from him and dropped her dress to the floor. Jax couldn't help but compare her body to the one he ached for every night. His hands went to her hips and they didn't feel right. Her eyes didn't have the flakes of gold that Hailey's eyes possessed. A sudden disgust came over him. What was he doing? He wanted Hailey back and yet he was gonna get his dick wet with a horrible look alike? No. He knew what he had to do to get her back. He needed to be with her and only her. His inner thoughts were interrupted when he felt a pair of lips wrap around his cock. He looked down not even remembering how his pants got off. His eyes locked with hers and he could pretend it was someone else if he forced her head to love so her eyes were hidden. He laced his fingers in her hair and began rocking his hips into her mouth. He imagined it were a different set of lips, ones that were soft and knew exactly what to do to get him off. His eyes were closed and his hips began moving erratically, he felt his thighs begin to shake and he held the girls head still while he exploded down her throat. Once he let go she tried to move onto his bed and he just shook his head. "Sorry darlin, not tonight."
She looked at him like he was crazy "what?" Jax readjusted his jeans and walked to his door opening it "you heard me." The girl huffed and stood up, she pulled her dress back into place and stomped toward the main room, no doubt in search of another son to keep company. Jax went to his bathroom and took a piss. He decided to go grab one more beer before calling it a night.
He sat at the bar and Misty made her way over to him. "What's your poison tonight sweetheart?" Jax gave her his infamous smirk "just a beer misty" she slid one his way and placed another one next to it. Before he even turned around he saw the inked arm of the Tacom Killer grab the neck of the bottle. He sat in the stool next to Jax.
"Where have you been man?" Jax spoke while sipping his beer.
"just takin care of something." Happy rasped.
Jax tilted his beer toward Happys and they clinked glasses. Both men drank their beers in silence before they both called it a night.
"No company tonight killer?" Jax asked comically while they both made their way toward their rooms, the killer had company as frequent as Jax did.
Happy shrugged "I'm all set tonight." His door closed just as Jax closed his own.