A/N: Okay so I got this idea while I was writing the first part of "Trust Me." and it just wouldn't leave me alone. So I hope you guys enjoy this oneshot. Please review and let me know what you guys think, thanks. I promise I'll get back to working on "Trust Me" now that this story is out of my system. Take care everyone. Love, Ellivia22

A/N: In this story, Cyborg never interrupted BB and Rae

Disclaimer: If I owned Teen Titans, we would've seen Beast Boy receive more comfort from the others after Terra's betrayal. But maybe that's because I love Beast Boy and would love to see someone comfort him on the show more often :)

Solace

By: Ellivia22

Raven

He lied. After everything I've done for him, all the love and devotion I gave, it was nothing but a trick. He never loved me. All he saw was a desperate soul. My heart is completely broken.

After I trapped Malchior in his enchanted book I went straight to my room, putting the book in my trunk that I keep in my room. Then, and only then did I let the tears and all my emotions escape. I couldn't let my friends see how hurt and vulnerable I feel at this moment. I couldn't face them after all that I've done. Because of my foolishness, I put their lives in danger. Every time I close my eyes I can see my friends battling the evil dragon and unable to defeat him until I stepped in.

Hours later I'm still locked away in my room, suffering from my very first heartbreak. It's the worst pain I've ever felt in my life. My chest is extremely tight and I feel a burning sensation in my heart. It's as if my heart is literally turning into ash. When Malchior came into my life I didn't feel alone for the first time. I felt as though someone truly wanted to get to know me. He was funny, charming, and intelligent. He actually made me want to feel my emotions. As cliche as it sounds I thought I was going to free him from his book and we'll ride in the sunset. Now that I know that every charming word he said was all a lie, I feel more alone than ever.

I glance at my large mirror on my dresser. It's cracked down the middle because of my unstable emotions. For once I find I don't care. I take a good long look at myself. My short violet hair is messy and my face is puffy and red from the tears. I don't have the life in my eyes like I usually do-probably because I don't feel like I have the life in me. I look truly hideous.

How could I have been so credulous? I should have known from the beginning that Malchior's love was nothing but a ruse. Nobody would ever love someone like me. I am too dark, too moody. A sob escapes my throat. Even though Beast Boy apologized for saying it, I can't help but admit to myself that he was right all along. I am creepy.

Knock Knock

"Raven?" Beast Boy says quietly from the other side of the door. "It's me. Look, I'm sorry."

I'm taken aback by the sincerity and seriousness of his tone. Why is he sorry? "For what?" I ask, coming closer to the door. "You're not the one who-."

"No. I'm sorry that he broke your heart."

I place a hand over my heart, not caring that he can't see it. "I know that it was all a lie, but he was the only person who made me feel like I wasn't...creepy." I speak again before he can. "And don't try to tell me I'm not."

"Okay, fine. You're way creepy," he admits. "But that doesn't mean you have to stay locked up in your room." My eyes stay focused on the ground. "You think you're alone Raven, but you're not."

The tears continue to fall from my eyes. I know he's trying to make me feel better, but honestly, I feel worse. True, he went through the same kind of betrayal with Terra, but it obviously didn't bother him too much. He bounced back to his old self a couple of weeks later. I, on the other hand, will never be the same. It will take me a long time to heal from this heartbreak-if I heal at all. I don't think I'll be able to trust anyone again. Never again will I find someone who loves me. My eyes squeeze shut tight as Malchior's words ring in my head when I had doubts about using dark magic to break the curse.

If you don't break me out of this curse you will never find someone who loves you.

"Y-you're wrong! You don't understand my pain and you never will. Go away, Beast Boy! I don't want to talk to you anymore!"

"But Raven-"

"GO!" I shriek, causing the candles in my room to go out.

I don't hear anything from the other side of the door for at least ten minutes. He must have finally gotten the hint. As if in a trance I grab the cursed book out of the locked chest. I hold it against me and slide to the ground, sobbing. My back rests against the door to keep me upright. I'm alone-just like I'm supposed to be.

Beast Boy

You don't understand my pain and you never will

I sigh sadly to myself. Raven has no idea how wrong she is. I know exactly how she feels. I know how it feels to be used and betrayed. It's a pain I struggle with every day. If only there was a way I could show Raven that I truly understand. I want to be there for her. She doesn't deserve to suffer alone like I did.

I enter my messy room, the door closing behind me. I don't know which emotion is stronger: sympathy and the desire to help her, or pain and sorrow as I start to relive the memories of Terra's betrayal. I try desperately to push back the memories of the events of a year ago. I need to focus so that I can help Raven. However, my chest starts to burn painfully and I struggle to hold the tears back. All I can see is Terra. Her long blonde hair, beautiful blue eyes, and the brown goggles she always wore on top of her head. I can still hear her laugh and feel her touch from our one and only date. I start to tremble as I remember her yellow eyes full of hatred as she tried to take over Jump City; when she tried to kill me and my friends. The day she smashed my heart into pieces.

Finally I find what I'm looking for. Hidden in the corner of my closet is a tattered old shoe box. I've had this for as long as I can remember. It contains all my memories. Memories of my parents and their research in Africa; memories of the time I spent with the Doom Patrol. And...

I pick up the silver heart shaped box from the shoebox with trembling hands. I worked hard to make this for her. It was supposed to be a gift in hopes of going on our first date. The first of many. A tear falls down my face. I was such a fool to think that she would love someone like me. I am...I am a freak. And because of my idiocy I almost lost the only family I have. I squeeze my eyes shut tightly. The memory of coming home to a shattered tower haunts me once again...

I couldn't leave the amusement park fast enough. This couldn't be happening. My teammates, my friends couldn't be dead. Terra didn't betray us-betray me. She was a Titan. She cared about us-she loved me.

Your friends are being annihilated as we speak.

I flew faster and faster, my heart pounding vigorously against my chest. I had to get to the tower. I had to save my friends. The panic was consuming me all over. Terra took me way out of town. What if I was too late? I would never forgive myself. This all had to be a terrible dream.

Beast Boy, it's the truth.

Why? Why would she do this to us? We were her friends. Was everything she told me a lie? Did she not care about us at all? After everything that had happened tonight, I thought she and I had something special. Obviously I was wrong. She never loved me, and never would.

Because you could never give her what she needs

Finally I spotted the T shaped tower up ahead. When I got close enough to see the devastated state of the tower I almost forgot how to fly. It was much worse than I feared. The large doors in front of the tower were open without force. Several windows were busted and I could see what looked like smoke emitting from them. With my strong senses I could smell that the smoke was from a weapon being fired. No. NO!

I flew through the entrance into the elevator, turning back into myself. The fear and panic was starting to take over What would I see once I reached the top? Would I find my friends dead? The doors opened to reveal a destroyed living room and kitchen. I felt sick to my stomach seeing countless bodies of Slade's henchmen lying everywhere-their mechanical parts ripped off and tossed about. The massive TV that was on the wall was on the floor and broken, the couch covered in laser burns. The kitchen was just as bad with dishes broken and everywhere. No sign of my teammates.

"ROBIN!" I yelled as loudly as I could. "CYBORG? STARFIRE! RAVEN! ANYBODY! PLEASE TELL ME YOU'RE OKAY! Please!" Nothing but silence. I was going to be sick any moment.

A figure rose from the floor in back aura in front of me. I breathed a huge sigh of relief when Raven resumed her human form. Her short violet hair was all over the place and her usually pale face was flushed. It was obvious she was in a fight. "Beast Boy?! Where in the hell have you been?!"

I didn't answer her question. Instead I threw my arms around tightly, feeling better almost immediately. I was too relieved that she was alive to care that she didn't like to be touched. "Y-you're alive. Thank God! Please tell me the others are okay!"

"We're all fine," Robin said. I pulled away from Raven to see Robin, Starfire, and Cyborg join us in the living room. All three look just as exhausted as Raven. "Now answer her question. Why didn't you help us fight and where is Terra?!"

Just hearing her name again brought all the terrible events that occurred to me back at full force. I forgot all about the brief happiness that my friends were alive. Instead all I was able to focus on was the anguish and heartbreak that was building inside me rapidly. I was so overwhelmed I couldn't stop the tears that started falling rapidly down my face. "It was all a lie," I struggled to get out. It wasn't easy. Breathing was becoming difficult because of the tightness in my throat. "S-she never cared about us, nor did she love me. She's been working for Slade this whole time. S-she deactivated the security system and helped Slade attack you guys tonight. I-i'm so sorry guys."

A stunned silence filled the room. I could feel the anger and disappointment. I hung my head. This was the worst I ever felt. I had let my friends down because I was too blinded by love to see Terra for who she really was. Not only did the telekinesis crush my heart and soul, but my very reason for living. I wanted to die.

I let out a shuddering breath once the memory ends. Tears dampen my face, with more falling. Even though Terra redeemed herself in the end and saved us all, I still feel the sting of her betrayal as if it was yesterday. I had thought that since it had been over a year ago and I had started caring deeply for Raven, that the pain had finally gone away. Obviously not.

How did I end up back here? I wonder to myself. I must've walked back to Raven's room in a trance. I can hear her sobs from the other side of the door. I want to knock again on her door so that I can show her that I truly understand, but find that I'm too overwhelmed by the painful memories of my past. Instead I slide down to the ground, my back against her door. I clutch the heart shaped box against my chest. I close my tear filled eyes, the water escaping down my cheeks. Just like a year ago, I feel utterly alone.

Raven

When I finally run out of tears I'm not sure how much time has passed. Minutes? Hours? Days? Even though I cried more than I ever had in my entire life, I am far from feeling better. Thoroughly exhausted I bend my head towards my chest, where I'm still clutching onto the cursed book. I should put it back in the trunk where it belongs, but I can't seem to let go of it.

I am temporarily pulled out of my despair when I hear quiet sobs on the other side of the door. Whoever that person is, he or she is struggling to keep his or her emotions back. Beast Boy? Has he returned? Why is he crying? I don't move from my spot on the floor. "Beast Boy?" The quiet sobs from the other side stop abruptly. I forget my own anguish for a second. Is he crying because of me? Did I hurt him? I didn't mean to. "I-is that you?" No response from the other side, except for more sobs. Curiosity gets the better of me. I force myself to my feet, then open the door.

"Ooof," Beast Boy falls backwards, landing on his back in surprise. The green boy must've been leaning against my door. Quickly he scrambles to his feet and steps back into the hall, out of my room. "Sorry Raven," he says in a low voice, his eyes lowered.

I stare wide eyed at the changeling before me. He looks nothing like the happy go lucky jokester I've always known. Instead his green face mirrors mine, being red and puffy with tears stained on his cheeks. Tears are still falling rapidly from his eyes. He looks so small, so vulnerable, as if a huge weight is on his shoulders. I have a feeling that he is not upset because of what I said to him earlier.

I notice a silver heart shaped box he's clutching in his hands. I had seen that object before after the battle in the tower after Terra's betrayal. It would seem that I was wrong. He's still struggling with his heartbreak a year later.

Beast Boy notices where I'm looking. "I made this for Terra the night she betrayed us. It was supposed to symbolize our first date." After a moment he finally has the courage to look at me. I wince seeing the anguish and regret in his emerald eyes. "Every day I berate myself for being so gullible to believe that she loved me at all. And because of my idiocy you guys almost got killed. I know I should've said this a year ago, but I'm sorry Raven." He lets out a despondent sigh. "I just so badly wanted to be loved."

"Me too," I say sadly, looking at the book clutched in my arms. "I'm sorry too. He was the first person who truly understood me. Or at least I thought he did." Beast Boy looks at me, so open and honest it's like he's a completely different person. My chest loosens up slightly as I realize that Beast Boy truly does understand me. "Now that I've seen that you're still struggling with your heartbreak, I realize that you are right. I'm not alone."

I drop my book then step forward, throwing my arms tightly around Beast Boy's chest. I can feel utter shock from him because of my actions, but I don't care. Once he overcomes his shock I hear the heart shaped box hit the ground. His arms wrap around my waist, pulling me close against him. I can feel his rapid heartbeat. Being in his embrace I start to feel comfortable. And calm. It's not so difficult to keep my emotions under control.

"Thank you, Beast Boy," I whisper.

"Anytime Raven," he answers kindly. "It'll take time, but I promise that you'll be okay. I'll always be there for you...if you should ever need me."

"I'll always be there for you, too."

I spend the rest of the night, not thinking about Malchior (who is safely locked back in the chest where he belongs) but Beast Boy's comforting words. It feels good knowing that there is someone who truly understands me. I smile to myself, thinking about his strong embrace. Maybe, just maybe, when my heart is completely healed I can give it to him.

The End

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