Chapter Twenty-one: There Is A Time For Everything
Sitting cross-legged on her friend's bed, watching her get ready for the very important date she would have with her new boyfriend or at least that was what Bonnie had started calling Stefan Salvatore even though Elena had vehemently denied that they were officially together. But Bonnie figured that Elena only wanted her approval to finally make it their official label.
Her father had picked her up from the airport this afternoon and had brought her back to his place. The house that she used to call home and that now was only a mere memory. Her room was still there but that was the only sign of anyone beside her father ever living there. Bonnie didn't have enough time or motivation to change much in her childhood room so there were still a lot of stuffed animals and toys lying around in boxes and the wallpaper was pink with heart ornament spread all across the wall.
Bonnie had only settled in short before heading to her grams house to quickly pick up the car she always allowed her to use while in Mystic Falls. Her dad wasn't mad because he had a lot of work to do like usually when Bonnie visited.
After a quick hello Bonnie headed to the Gilberts house. Elena had called her a few days ago to ask her if she was free the first night of her three-days-long visit. She wanted to introduce Bonnie to Stefan. Bonnie had agreed to meet the new man in her friend's life and had asked Jeremy if he wanted to come along, making this thing kind of a double date. He had agreed to spend the night with his sister, his girlfriend and the new guy who he apparently hadn't met before, which was odd because Elena's parents hadn't stopped talking about him when Bonnie had greeted them.
"So, where is Jeremy again?" Elena asked while trying to decide whether to go with curly or straight hair.
"He said he needed to run some errands in town so he is going to meet us at the Grill!" Bonnie explained. Jeremy had called her right before she was headed to their house that he was going to meet them at the Grill.
" So, anything in particular you want me to pay attention to tonight?" Bonnie asked and she could see Elena smile through the mirror.
"No, I just need you honest opinion after tonight. Caroline already gave me her judgment but I still need yours."
"What if I don't like him?" Bonnie wondered out loud.
"Well, then I'll have to think about what poor choice of character I am." Elena giggled. It was so obvious that this Stefan guy had gotten under her skin, so Bonnie was going to be very careful with her words later; she didn't want to ruin this for her.
"So why is your mom not here? It is her mother's birthday tomorrow after all!" Elena asked to change the subject.
"Oh, she'll arrive sometime in the night. She had the late shift today so she couldn't get the same flight as me, but she'll be here tomorrow."
„Good, mom will be very happy to see her."
Bonnie had to smile when she thought about the fact that her mom and Elena's mom had been best friends since their childhood, just like Elena and her. Their mothers had passed on that to then.
"How much longer is this going to take? I am starving." Bonnie took a look at her phone to see that they were supposed to be at the Grill in 15 minutes and Elena was still handling her hair. The brunet laughed about Bonnie's anticipation, probably because she knew that it wasn't only the food she was looking forward to.
"It'll only be a minute."
And Elena would keep her word. The next minute she walked through the room to her bed, put her phone and wallet into her handbag and slipped into the new pair of shoes she had brought home from Portland.
The two girls headed downstairs and said good bye to Grayson and Miranda. Outside Bonnie took out her car keys and they made their way to the Mystic Grill in Bonnie's old car.
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"No, you have to tell her the right way. This is not really what happened." Elena's voice rang loud to Bonnie's ear. The Mystic Grill was loud and full of people, like it usually was on a Friday night, but Bonnie was able to make out the voices of the two people sitting with her loud and clear.
"Alright, alright. We ran INTO each other, because neither of us paid any attention to their surroundings and that was when I asked her out. Of course she ditched me for spending the weekend with you and Caroline, but I think that is acceptable." Stefan gave Bonnie a wide and friendly smile. He tried really hard to make a good impression and Bonnie saw that Elena was very smitten with him. But something about this guy bothered Bonnie, she couldn't place it. But she had chosen to give him the benefit of a doubt because he really was nice and kind and friendly. She just hoped that her first impression was wrong and the better she would get to know him the more this feeling would go away.
Bonnie returned Stefan's smile hesitantly. She hoped he would only think she was shy or something or that she was mad at Jeremy for being late.
When he was 30 minutes late Bonnie tried calling him but he never picked up, she then decided to start ordering no matter if he was there or not. Now they had already finished their meals and Jeremy was nowhere to be found. Bonnie was furious.
Elena picked up on her tense mood and tried easing it with jokes here and there but despite her friend's effort Bonnie was brooding the entire evening.
When it was time to get going Elena hugged Stefan goodbye and Bonnie also gave him a weird hug. She had decided that he was a good guy and thanks to the long distance between Portland and Mystic Falls she had no need to see him too often.
The two friends made their way to Bonnie's car parked around the corner. As soon as Stefan was out of earshot Elena turned to Bonnie. "So? What do you think?"
Bonnie hesitated, she wasn't gonna lie to her friend. "I'm going to be honest with you, he is nice and I think the two of you are going to make a sweet couple, but there is still something about him that I can't place. I don't know how to describe it, it's just this feeling I had. But it doesn't matter, I chose to trust him and I trust you, so go for it."
"Really?" Elena asked skeptically.
"Sure, turn around and run after him, he is not too far away." Bonnie couldn't even finish the sentence before Elena started running towards Stefan and Bonnie had to laugh. She looked after her friend for a moment and then turned to the bench nearby to wait for her. She still had to drive Elena home.
While she waited for the heavy make out session from across the street to end a familiar voice rang to her ear calling her name. She got up, not giving Jeremy a glance and wanted to rush to her car and wait for Elena there. But Jeremy was faster; he grabbed her arm and turned her around to face him.
"Hey stranger!" he said in a soft tone like nothing was wrong.
Bonnie didn't look at him neither did she say anything. She was just facing the pavement, afraid to slap him in the face if he kept acting like everything was okay.
"Are you leaving already?" Jeremy asked and tried to sound innocent but Bonnie looked right through it. No way he wasn't aware of the time, he knew exactly how late he was and he didn't need to make a show, not for Bonnie's sake. His dumb question made her lose it.
"Already? Don't play dumb with me, Jeremy. We have waited for hours for you to show up and you didn't. You said you would be a little late, NEWSFLASH but a few hours is not just a little late. I can't believe that I was actually excited for this evening. All the promises you made me the last couple weeks, that you missed me and want to spend time with me and when I am actually here, you're just the same as always." She paused and brushed his hand of her arm. "I don't even know why I'm surprised. I should have expected it."
In the distance Bonnie saw Elena approach them. Apparently her make out session with Stefan had come to an end and she had said her goodbyes. Elena saw the two of them together and Bonnie could read something like relief crossing her features but the closer she got the more she took the scene in. This was no happy reunion and Elena hesitated, stopping halfway to her, not sure if she should be interrupting right now.
But Bonnie indicated her to get over to her and get going. She turned her back to Jeremy and started walking to her car.
"Bonnie, I am really sorry. I didn't mean to be so late but I couldn't make it earlier. Please, can we talk about this? You could come over and we could talk." Jeremy's voice sounded desperate and vulnerable but Bonnie was too furious to give a shit right now.
"Hey, Jer." Came Elena's voice from behind and he quickly turned around to give his sister a greeting smile before his attention was back at Bonnie.
Bonnie sighed not bothering to fully face him as she watched Elena go to the passenger's seat.
"I'm tiered Jer. I'll give Elena a ride and then I'll go home and sleep."
The way she mentioned only giving Elena a ride he realized that she really didn't want to see him right now. At least that he respected because he didn't ask about hitching a ride with her, too.
"Okay, I see you tomorrow I guess?" he asked and stepped away from the car a little. Bonnie only nodded and got into the car not giving him another glance. Elena's eyes were on her when she started the engine but she didn't say anything until Bonnie was near the Gilbert's house.
"Bonnie, are you alright? I didn't mean to eavesdrop but I couldn't help but hear you were kind of furious with Jer there."
"Can you blame me? Jeremy has been acting like he has no fucking interest in seeing me for a while now and when he said he wanted to spend some time with me he doesn't show up. I feel a little hoaxed to be honest." Bonnie's tone was mad and she practically shouted at her friend which instantly made her feel bad. Elena had nothing to do with her problems with Jeremy. She shouldn't let her fury out on her. A heavy sigh escaped her when she parked the car in front of Elena's house. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lash out on you like that."
Elena smiled at her understandingly. "I get it, Bonnie. You're mad but please, hear Jer out I think he is going to have a good explanation for tonight. He's done really well the past few weeks, was really excited to see you."
"Don't be mad at me, but I actually don't want to talk about it right now. I am really tired from the flight and just want to sleep." Bonnie said silently not looking at her friend but she knew Elena had an understanding smile on her face.
"'Cause Bonnie. So, see you tomorrow." She hugged her friend good night but before she closed the door of the car Bonnie turned to her and said. "Hey, I had a nice evening."
Elena smiled and turned to walk to the house.
Rushing to her father's house in less than 5 minutes, Bonnie really felt like she could fall asleep just then. She quickly told her dad that she was back and excused herself into the bathroom. She took a quick shower and went back into her old room. Letting herself fall on the bed she hoped for the sleep to take over in a heartbeat so she wouldn't have to waste too much thought on Jeremy.
But the shower had awoken her senses and the sleep wouldn't come to her. She watched her alarm clock on her bedside cabinet. 11:24 p.m.
Bonnie growled and turned around on her belly. There was no way she would be able to find sleep anytime soon. But she didn't want to wreck her brain over the events of the night. Distraction plans formed in her brain and one by one she crossed them off her list: she couldn't call Elena to talk because she would want to talk about Jeremy, the one topic she was trying to avoid; it was too late to call Caroline because she knew her friend had a routine of getting to sleep early when she had a gathering of any kind on the next day; the television program would probably not be any help; she could watch some DVD's but therefore she would have to leave her room and go to the living room, for hers didn't have a TV and she didn't feel like getting out of her bed to sit on the uncomfortable couch of her father. She sighed.
And then she remembered the time difference between Virginia and Oregon. She quickly turned around to fetch her cell from the bedside cabinet and went through her contact list. She was already smiling from anticipation because she knew that the person she was going to call was probably the only person on this planet that could always lighten her mood.
She pressed the call button on her phone and heard the familiar beep, indication that his phone was just now buzzing because of her call. But when he didn't pick up instantly and she kept on waiting without him answering his phone Bonnie's smile slowly died. Just before she was going to hang up his familiar teasing voice rang through the devise.
"Oh, well. She's not even gone for a day and she already misses me." Kai's voice sounded happy despite his mean words and Bonnie had to laugh.
"Hello to you too, idiot!" She could imagine his face lighting up the way it always does when she called him names. Bonnie noticed the background sounds on his end.
"Is it a bad time?" she asked as she witnessed the sounds dying off.
"No, I was just at Brian's place, he is kinda throwing a party but I'm just leaving."
Bonnie frowned at his comment. "Who the hell are you? Your friend is KINDA throwing a party- something that you have to explain to me in detail sometime- and you are leaving before it even begins?"
She heard him laugh at her question and suddenly all the tension from the night drifted away.
"Well, he just decided to throw it five minutes ago without having any idea who to call or how to get some alcohol or anything. I just don't feel like spending my Friday night like that."
"Okay, understandable. How are you doing?"
"Just like I was today at school. Believe it or not but nothing happened in the few hours that you are away that would dramatically change my life." Kai said in a semi serious voice.
"Well, one can never be sure with you."
"What about you? You good?"
Bonnie hesitated there for a moment. Her intention had been to pretend like nothing was wrong but something about this boy made her want to open up. But no, she didn't want to annoy him with her troubles, he had enough of his own.
"Bon…?" Kai reassured himself if she was still there.
"Yeah, yeah. I'm good. Just came back from dinner with Elena and her new boyfriend."
Kai wasn't convinced. "And now we are going to do that again and you are going to tell me how you really feel."
She sighed. "How did you know?"
"Bonnie Bennett is calling me in the middle of the night for no good reason? I don't think so. I knew something was up the moment your name pooped up on my screen. So, spill!" He sounded a little bossy- not angry or something- but Bonnie understood why, she had been bugging him about being honest to her and tell her things all the time that it was his turn now to demand the same. She couldn't help the small smile that formed around her lips because of the fact that he cared about this.
"Well, boy troubles. I don't think that you would want to hear it and I actually didn't call to talk about it. I just needed to take my mind off of this for a moment."
"Well, I accept that, but just so you know: this whole superficial act of yours, not sharing your emotions and stuff, I won't take it too much longer." He started faking a southern accent. "I am not just some random guy you can call whenever you want. I have standards, my love. Don't mistake me for one of your other sluts."
Bonnie snorted with laughter. He kept on going with the annoyed girlfriend act and the way he was completely failing the southern accent made her laugh even harder. She held her rips and begged him to stop and then suddenly all she heard on the other end was his laugh joining hers.
When she finally caught her breath she sighed.
"No, but seriously, you need anything?" Kai's voice was still light from the moment they just shared over the phone but she could still hear the serious concern in it.
"Not anymore, you already delivered on the getting my mind off of things part." She giggled.
"Good, I still offer my never bored auditory functions if you change your mind."
"Thanks, I appreciate it. And maybe I will call you tomorrow and tell you all about it. So be prepared, I am going to annoy the shit out of you during this weekend." Bonnie turned over on her bed, lying on her side and pressing her phone to ear, relaxing because now that she talked to him she felt more at ease, a little bit more like… home.
"You would be surprised at my endurance, Bonnie."
"Oh, I would never make the mistake to underestimate you, Malachai Parker, but you haven't seen me in my talkative mood yet. You would have to listen for hours and I don't doubt you can do that but I doubt that you could keep your own mouth shut for longer than 5 minutes straight, so that is going to be the real challenge." She snickered.
"Aaah, so that's what you really think of me, right?" And Bonnie laughed as a response. Suddenly her eyelids were getting heavier and the fatigue for earlier took over. She yawned into the phone.
"I think I'll go to sleep now. Thank you for cheering me up."
"Always at your service." He stated and she smiled.
"Good night, Kai."
"Night, Bon. Sleep tight."
Bonnie could barely press the button to end the call before the darkness took over her body and she drifted off into a dreamless sleep.
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Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday dear Sheila
Happy birthday to you
Bonnie applauded heavily as her grams stood in the center of attention and every visitor sang the song to her. Sheila Bennett was visibly touched.
Abby had rushed to her mother after everyone had finished and hugged her tightly and Bonnie was second in row to congratulate her grandmother.
It was a very nice day and the crowd had gathered in her grandmother's back yard. It wasn't a big yard so the place felt kind of stuffed but her grams looked so happy that none of that mattered. It was her day and anyone who thought it was too crowded here could stay away, for Bonnie's sake. Grams wouldn't need such negativity today.
Bonnie made way for all the other guests to greet and congratulate her grandmother. She and Abby went back inside to get the birthday cake Bonnie had smuggled inside the house without her grams knowing. When they came back out with the sliced cake her grams expression turned even more sparkling. She had always appreciated good foot.
The guests had settled with a piece of cake on the chairs and tables that Abby and Bonnie had gathered last minute from grams' basement or the neighbors. Bonnie headed to the table where Caroline and Elena were seated because her grams was already surrounded by some old friends and Bonnie would have time to spent with her grandmother at a later point of the day, while Abby stayed with Elena's parents on the table next to them.
Caroline smiled at her when she approached. "Oh, look at your grams! She looks so happy."
Bonnie laughed a little, Caroline had always been a sucker for cheesy moments like these. "Yeah, I think she really is happy."
Bonnie put her own slice of cake in front of her, sat down and started eating it. It wasn't too bad Bonnie had to admit to herself. At least she wasn't a total loser on the baking front.
"Sooo, Bonnie, why don't you fill me in on your final verdict about Stefan Salvatore?" Caroline turned her eyes to Bonnie.
"Well, like I told Elena, I think they are great together."
"Ha, told you she would approve him!" This time Caroline turned to Elena and the latter smiled brightly at Bonnie and she returned it. "So can I officially call the two of you an item?"
"Way it looked yesterday, I'd assume a big fat YES!" Bonnie teased and fought back a laugh.
Elena watched her with wide eyes and Caroline's mouth dropped open. "Elena Gilbert, did I miss anything here?" she accused her with fake shock and the three of them laughed.
"Alright, relax guys. We're not getting married tomorrow so slow down on your commentary." Elena gestured to the table next to them where her parents and Bonnie's mom were currently laughing about a joke Grayson Gilbert had made.
"Okay, let's change the subject then." Caroline suggested. "Bonnie, where is Jeremy? I thought he wanted to be here for the celebration."
Bonnie quickly looked away from her friend and focused her attention to her cake. She hadn't filled Caroline in about her fight with Jeremy last night. There had just not been a calm moment like this today with all the visitors.
"What is going on here?" Caroline asked, concerned. She looked between Bonnie and Elena because her brunet friend's expression had turned into a knowing concern too.
"We had a fight yesterday. He didn't show up for our date and when I ran into him I kind of snapped. I was just so disappointed that apparently all his talk about spending time together was fake. I should have known better." She sighed.
"Oh, Bon." Elena grabbed her hand and squeezed it. Caroline on the other hand had a total different reaction.
"Wow, his change of heart lasted real long, didn't it? Did he even spend a second with you this weekend?" Caroline barked out angrily.
"Care..." Elena alerted but Caroline ignored her.
"The dude is unbelievable. Books a flight to come see you in Portland so you can spend more time together but when he had the opportunity to see you after month he just doesn't show up? What's wrong with him?" Caroline was talking herself into a rant now.
"Care, calm down. We don't know what happened with him. Maybe he just got detained by something. Bonnie hasn't even talked to him yet, let's not jump to conclusions." Elena defended her brother.
"Who is jumping to conclusions here, Elena? I mean I'm just stating the fact that your brother, Bonnie's BOYFRIEND, who knew she was coming for weeks, didn't have the ability to plan his weekend in a way to spend the better part of it with her! What kind of boyfriend does that?" Caroline and Elena were now facing each other. Bonnie had enough of their ongoing rivalry and she didn't want to get into this with them in a mood like this, so she grabbed her cake and stood up. She knew her friends didn't mean it in a bad way but this conversation was just too much for Bonnie. She hadn't even made up her mind about how to handle the situation yet.
"Bonnie, where are you going?" Caroline asked her with regret and concern written on her face. "We'll stop talking about it, I promise." She grabbed Bonnie's arm apologetically but Bonnie shook her head.
"I'm not mad. I just want to be alone for a second." Caroline smiled and let go of her.
Making her way into the house, she passed by her grams table and earned an interrogating look from her, but Bonnie only smiled. Inside the house she turned to the left and opened the door opposite her grams open living room, stepping into a whole different world. This room had belonged to her mother while she grew up and while Bonnie grew up in Mystic Falls, she had claimed this room for her own.
Grams had never bothered to change anything in the room that was why aerobic posters from the early 80s stared down at Bonnie and a handful of phonograph records were lined up on the book shelve. Bonnie had loved roaming threw her moms old stuff when she was a kid. Always fascinated by the things Abby had been gathering while she was a teenager. It had been her sanctuary growing up.
So now she was returning to that sanctuary, only to think about her troubled relationship with a boy. Her fist boyfriend, who acted like he had no interest in staying that. Bonnie sat down on the bed and looked out the window. From this room she could see the street and the front yard that let up to the entrance of her grams cozy little house.
A knock on the door made Bonnie jump a little and when the door slowly opened she saw her grams peeking into the room.
"Thought there was some kind of misery crossing over your face." Grams stepped into the room and closed the door behind her. She made it through the room in no time and sat next to Bonnie on the bed. "Wanna tell you old grams what is bothering you so much you'd leave a party like that, child?"
Bonnie tried to fake a smile and reassure her grandmother everything was alright, but she was surprised when tears streamed down her face when she looked up to her.
"Oh, poor girl. Come here." Grams held her arms open for Bonnie to slip into her embrace and when she did Bonnie placed her head onto her shoulder and cried for a few minutes straight. Grams was brushing her hair the entire time, patiently waiting for her granddaughter to open up about the why.
When Bonnie had calmed down, she lifted her face off Sheila's shoulder looking into her eyes through a shadow of tears.
"It's about Jeremy." She finally managed to say.
"Oh my, what has the boy done?"
"Nothing. I mean, that is kind of the problem. He had been distant for some time now but I thought we were on a path to make it all better again. He promised to spend more time with me, he even booked a flight to come visit me in Portland. But yesterday, it was just like always. I don't even know why this upsets me so much, I should have been prepared for something like that." Bonnie shook her head, lowering it.
"What is he doing exactly? Not texting you back instantly when you ask him a question?" Grams asked.
Bonnie glared at the old woman but she quickly drew up her palms to indicate she meant no harm.
"I just want to know what kind of distant we are talking about here."
"Well, he practically ignores me for days straight and then acts like he can't wait to see me and now that I am here he stands me up. It is like he doesn't even care. I don't know what to do."
"What do Caroline and Elena say about this?"
"Ergh, they are arguing. Caroline is furious and Elena is constantly defending Jeremy, what makes Caroline even more furious."
Grams nodded. Bonnie guessed that she could envision the two girls behaving like that, she did know them their whole lives. When she spoke again her face was serious and her voice calm. "Listen to me carefully, now Bonnie. No boy is worth stepping down from your standards for. If you want to spend more time with Jeremy then he has to be able to do that. If he can't- well maybe then he is not the right guy for you after all. This might sound harsh to you now but you are so young. Jeremy might be your first love but he will probably not be your last and most definitely not be your true love. There is someone out there more deserving of you."
Bonnie only blinked at her grams. She had never been the biggest fan of Jeremy she knew that, but she always held back on her commentary. But it was important for Bonnie to hear this. Someone had to say it to make her realize that this relationship couldn't continue like this.
Looking outside again to clear her thoughts she spotted Jeremy walking to the entrance of her grandmother's house. Sheila had followed her gaze and softly brushed over the back of her head.
"The only question you have to answer now, child, is whether Jeremy Gilbert is worth a second chance at this or not." And with that grams got off the bed and went to the door. Bonnie followed her with her eyes and before she could slip out of the room she thanked her grandmother for her advice. She knew what she had to do next.
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This has been way easier in her head. Standing in front of Jeremy now at the end of the road where her grandmother lived and trying to find the right words to make him understand her position.
She had followed her grandmother outside shortly after she had left the room. Heading straight to Jeremy before he could even congratulate her grams, she took all the courage in the world and asked him to walk with her.
The walk had basically been in silence after Jeremy had tried and failed to instigate a conversation about his reasons to be late last night. Bonnie had straight up ignored his words and after a few tries he had stopped, realizing the intensity of the situation.
Now, they were standing at the end of the road at the cross roads. Not only literally but also figuratively.
"So, what is the reason of your silent treatment?" Jer asked, nervously trying to lighten the mood with his joke. Bonnie breathed in, the talk she had prepared in her head the past few minutes sparking to the surface.
"I… When Elena and Caroline visited me, I was not in a good place. Before they left, I promised myself to have this conversation with you and then you called, telling me you'd come visit me next month and I was… so happy. I was blinded by that happiness again, thinking that maybe you're your phase of indifference towards me was over, that it would get back to normal but… then yesterday you just stood me up. Let me finish." Her left palm had gone up in the air as Jeremy tried to interrupt her by giving her some shitty explanation. Bonnie resumed as he stayed silent. "Your behavior hurts me, Jer. I feel like I am just a cover for you. Like you don't even want to be my boyfriend and I have hoped for so long now that you would change. But I realized that hoping alone won't change anything. It had always been my last defense but I guess, even that last defense is now gone."
There was silence spreading between them. Bonnie didn't dare to look into his eyes just now, afraid of what she might see would make her decision crumble.
"What are you trying to say Bonnie?" Jer's confused voice reached her ears and Bonnie forced herself to look at him for the last part of her speech.
"I'm trying to tell you that the relationship that we are having right now it not enough for me anymore. I don't want to be with a shadow. I want to be with someone that loves me and wants to be with me. And I don't think you can do that. I'm sorry Jer, but I think we should break up."
Jeremy's face was blank of all emotions. He seemed like her breaking up with him came out of nowhere but he must have known that treating her like that was going to come around to bite him one day. Or did he think she was so devoted to him, so in love and depended that she would never leave him?
"So, you're breaking up with me? Just like that? Because I was late yesterday?"
Bonnie sighed. He didn't understand. "No, it is not only because of yesterday but all the weeks before that. You have ignored me and if you didn't you acted strange and I have no idea why. And actually, I don't want to hear another of your sister's excuses why you couldn't make it or why you don't call as often as you should. I don't have the nerve for that and honestly, I value myself too much to take this any longer." Her voice has risen by the end. She hadn't intended to become angry but his obvious ignorance for her feelings did that to her.
Now, Jeremy too got angry. She could see it on his face. "So, you are breaking up with me, without giving me a second chance to make this right? What, do you think you are some kind of saint that can judge people without ever doing anything bad herself?"
Bonnie blinked in surprise- she couldn't understand his sudden outburst. "I don't say that I don't make any mistakes. In fact, I made quite a big one recently when I kissed another guy while I was drunk."
Jeremy's gaze quickly turned up to her, his eyes filled with fury, like he wanted to throttle her.
"But that is not the point. I don't care if you are mad at me for what I did, I was mad at myself too but that action only showed me that there was something wrong with our relationship and it made me think about what I actually want."
"So, you want that other guy? Who is he? Is it this new friend of yours? This badboy? Have you lost your brain now Bonnie?" He kept his gazed glued to hers, still full off irrational anger.
"What? It doesn't matter. If I would be breaking up with you because of someone else I would have the gut to tell you so. I think after all the time we had together we owe a little honesty to each other, don't you think?"
"Yeah, yeah. Sure, whatever you say." He wiped her comment off with his hand and turned away from her but he didn't leave.
After another silent pause Bonnie tried to reason with him once more. "I don't want us to part on bad terms. I still care about you, Jer, deeply. I just can't be with you anymore. Not like this. There is too much broken between us."
"At least we agree on that, but I think you and I have a different kind of explanation about why we are that way. While you think I neglected you, I think the one responsible for breaking us is you, Bonnie. You betrayed me! You went behind my back and then you pretended like everything was okay. Let me tell you something, kissing someone else while you are in a relationship that sucks. And no matter how much you tell yourself that I am the culprit, I will never stop blaming you." He screamed at her and then abruptly turned around and walked away from her, leaving her behind.
She stood there, perplexed at the turn this conversation had taken. Deeply hurt she turned around to go back to her grams party, thinking about his words and if they held more than just a little bit of truth.
Author's note:
Dun, dun. So Bonnie and Jeremy are done. Right?
Another pretty long chapter. I needed to get this done and I didn't know where to cut this so I didn't and now you are presented with the whole glory of this pretty depressing chapter. Next chapter will be back in Portland dealing with the repercussions of this break up. Hope you liked it, or in the case of this chapter, at least accept it. Until next time, LiLaAir.