Sorry for the long wait guys, I recently moved out of my parents house with my girlfriend and have been busy moving all our crap. I hope you enjoy this latest chapter. I love you all so much. Thank you again guys. I added a little song at the end for you all, it's one of my favourites. I finally got round to mentioning Lena in this chapter so don't worry she will come along... eventually.
The car ride was seemingly uneventful. Kara and CJ made small talk with each other in front while Cat was in the back alone texting on her phone just as she liked it. The only time she looked up from her phone was to take quick glances up front or out the window. But after Cat looked up the first few times, she started noticing something. Every now and then when Kara wasn't looking, CJ would glance at her with an admiring look.
Cat started paying more attention to the conversation up front and she knew she had to talk to CJ about her little… crush on Kara. Cat knew there was a big chance that the forthcoming conversation would rub CJ the wrong way, but Cat was used to being the bad guy, heck most of her employees saw her as the bad guy but that was the price of power, because at the end of the day she was the one who signed their pay checks, so no matter what CJ and Cat were having this conversation.
There was no surprise at how glamourous the restaurant was. The lighting that the giant chandeliers hanging from the carved ceiling gave the whole room a golden glow that made new comers stand in awe. When the ladies entered, the maître d' instantly recognised Cat, walking up to her and giving her a polite bow of welcoming after which he lead the group of ladies to their table.
Once the girls were left alone with their menus CJ broke their silence. "I think just from walking though the entrance to our table might have me filing for bankruptcy." The statement causing Kara to giggle, even Cat had a smile on her face until she saw CJ looking at Kara while reading her menu, her heart sinking at knowing that the woman CJ was falling for, she probably could never have.
"Sorry, excuse me I just have to go to the ladies room." Kara announced, leaving Cat and CJ alone at the table. CJ watching her go.
"You're setting yourself up for a fall."
CJ's head snapped up, facing Cat. "Huh?"
"I see the way you look at her CJ." The woman in question just turned back to her menu.
"I don't know what you're talking about Cat." She dismissed
"How long have we known each other CJ? Cat questioned
"Six, seven years."
Cat nodded "That's a long time CJ, and I like to think in those years I've come to know you very well. And I know when you like someone. From your first relationship that ended in heart break with Lena Luthor to your four years with Leslie. Every time you had a crush on someone you have this look in your eyes, one of hope and admiration."
"What's that got to do with Kara?"
"Don't be naïve CJ, you know the word around the office of her crush on James Olsen and it's not just rumours, I've seen it myself and she is head over heels for that boy."
CJ stayed silent, her eyes losing their light, she knew Cat was right but she doesn't want to accept it. Not yet.
"It's only been a week since Leslie, CJ. You need time to heal." Cat said in a gentle voice that only the people close to her get to hear.
"It may have just been a week Cat, but I've haven't felt this lonely since-" CJ's voice got caught in her throat, her eyes welling up with unshed tears as she remembers the one person who helped her through the hardest years of her life. The one who was gone forever. "CJ, you do what you have to do to get passed this, go sleep around with a whole lot of women for all I care, as long as it's safe and legal, might I add, then go for it. I just don't want to see you get your heart broken if Kara doesn't reciprocate the feelings you have for her."
CJ took a deep breath, still looking at the menu in her hands. "You don't have anything to worry about Cat, ok?" CJ said with a hint of annoyance to her voice.
Cat wasn't bothered by it. She said what she needed CJ to hear, and her reaction is better than what she was anticipating. What she does with Cat's advice is up to her.
Finally after god knows how long, Kara returns. "Sorry I took so long."
CJ gave her a smile "No problem, wha-" CJ sniffed the air "I think the kitchen might have burnt something…"
Kara started fidgeting nervously, pushing her glasses up the bridge of her nose, a nervous habit she picked up. Unbeknownst to CJ and Cat there was a small fire a few blocks down that may or may not have needed Supergirl's attention and it it looks like- or smells like the smoke soaked into her suit.
The trip back from the restaurant was almost completely silent apart from Cat asking Kara to update her on tomorrow's schedule. CJ completely lost in deep thought as she drove. Arriving at Cat's glamourous mansion. Kara said her goodbyes to Cat as the woman got out of the car. CJ watched Cat walk away before she suddenly got out of the car jogging after Cat.
"Cat, wait up!" the woman turned on her heel at CJ's calling.
"I just wanted to apologize for my attitude before. I get what you told me and you're probably right. I just, I'm not ready to let this go and in the end you'll probably be telling me 'I told you so' but I don't know…" CJ huffs as she tries to explain herself "with Kara she, she sees me Cat. Apart from Leslie and you, I don't really have anyone. I have no friends in or outside of work because no one talks to me and half the time my anxiety makes me too scared to go talk to them. And now that Leslie is gone I'm all alone and I'm so scared Cat. I'm scared when I'm alone in bed and no one is there to wake me from my reoccurring nightmares, I hate the constant silence in my apartment, I hate that my body is constantly wanting sexual attention because it's not used to week long dry spells."
"Didn't need that much detail CJ."
"I know, but my point is my whole world is changing yet again and I feel so lost Cat." CJ lowered her head as she pinched the bridge of her nose, she's so tired of being lost. "I just don't know what to do anymore Cat. When I see Kara, she lights up my day. Her smile makes me giddy with butterflies in my stomach and the only time I felt that was with Lena, and despite how that ended I felt like I was on cloud nine during the time we were together.
I just wanted you to know that I'll always be grateful for your advice Cat and I'll always appreciate what you did for me." CJ finished with misty eyes.
Cat was looking CJ straight in the eyes through her whole speech only now breaking it to bring CJ in for a heartfelt hug. The type of hug she only saves for Carter.
CJ had to admit she was taken back by the action but gave in to it as she dug her head into Cat's shoulder collapsing into tears, finally letting out all the hurt caused from this past week.
Cat wished there was more she could do but she knew the only thing she was able to do right this minute was just hold the sobbing girl tighter letting her know she was there for her and always will be.
As Cat held CJ she looked towards the mustang where Kara waited. In Cat's mind Kara would be a wonderful other half for CJ, if only she was interested. CJ deserved the best and Cat would do anything to help that along but she knew even the Queen of all Media could only do so much and forcing a love interest was not one of them.
Kara was watching the whole ordeal, eventually getting teary eyed herself as CJ broke down, but she didn't use her super hearing to eaves drop on the pair, wanting to respect both woman and their privacy. When Cat looked towards her she snapped her head forward pretending like she wasn't watching and preying Cat didn't see her. Cat and CJ's relationship still fascinated her. Never has anyone brought out such a loving side to Cat besides Carter of course. Kara had to admit to herself that the mystery of their relationship was one that she was hoping to solve soon. It annoyed her how much the matter was bugging her.
After a few minutes passed, CJ gathered herself up and once Cat made sure she was okay to drive she gave CJ one last piece of 'strange' advice: "Find yourself a friend with benefits CJ, at least that will get rid of the sexual tension" CJ gave her a weirded out look and bid her final farewell for the night and left with Kara making their way to her apartment for game night.
The car ride was relatively quiet with CJ red eyed and embarrassed from her break down and Kara chewing her nail, deep in thought of how to bring up the subject to CJ about her relationship with Cat.
It wasn't until the middle of game night till she got to finally ask. Unfortunately her timing was horrible. CJ had been watching how Kara interacted with James, Cat's comment still on her mind and to CJ's heartbreak, Cat was right. When they were playing trivia every time it was James' and Lucy's turn CJ saw the envious look Kara had whilst the couple scored again and again and again. And just to add the cherry to the top of the breakdown cake, when the game changed to the cliché spin the bottle Kara's spin landed on CJ and Kara took the opportunity to ask the question that's been on her mind for more than a week now.
"Ok CJ um… How do you and Cat know each other?" Ha I have you now!
It was easy to tell that CJ was taken back by the question from the quizzical look on her face and it didn't help when James and Whin made ooooooo-ing noises in the background. "Ah ok. Well… a few years ago, I was homeless for quite a long time and through the days I slowly wondered through National City and one day I was camped outside of CatCo Plaza, and when Cat was going to work that day she came over to where I was sitting and she just gave me this stare. Now back then, on the streets you kinda harden yourself and so I basically just cussed her out, I thought she was looking down on me but in the end she grabbed my arm, dragged me to the nearest food joint and sat with me while I ate till I was stuffed. There were a lot of questions and then she took me up with her to the top floor of Catco Plaza just to tell her assistant at the time that she was taking the day off and to move her appointments." CJ let out a breathy giggle as she thought back to that day. "Then she walks me into her office sits me into her big 'I'm the Boss' chair and told me 'If you work hard enough CJ, you could be a Queen just like me. No matter how hard it gets you have to keep going till you get to the top.' That night she gave me a new home and a few months later she enrolled me into college where I slowly became the woman I am today." A small smile grew on CJ's face as she thought of how lucky she was for Cat to take her in.
"Wow. I had no idea CJ." Kara said.
"No one does. This is the first time anyone has asked and the first time I've told the story."
"Explains why she still has her job" James murmurs in a soft voice but unfortunately CJ heard.
"What did you just say?" CJ growled
"Let's just admit CJ you're not the best editor, not to mention all the time you have been taking off. Don't you think you have it easier than the rest of us?"
The room was silent after James' comment. Everyone apart from James and CJ had their mouths drop open in surprise. CJ's face was riddled with anger.
CJ just closed her eyes and took a deep breath "Kara, I think I'm going to go, I get the feeling I give Jamesie-boy 'little man syndrome'" she said wriggling her pinkie in the air before she turned and walked out the door. Kara quickly went after the woman, hearing Lucy and James start to get into an argument as she closed the door behind her.
"CJ wait." The woman turned to face Kara "I'm sorry about what happened back there. James was way out of line."
"Kara. You don't have to apologize for him. To be honest James and I never got along anyway so nothing changes. But Kara I don't think I'll ever really fit into you little group. You guys are really social where for me I kinda struggle with it. But thank you for trying to cheer me up, you really are a sweet heart. Thanks for caring Kara." With that said CJ left and went home.
Now sitting alone in her apartment CJ sat on her couch drinking another bottle of grog, thinking of past times when she looked to the corner of the lounge room where her guitar sat. She smiled as she thought of the memories, her playing for Leslie which usually ended up with them in bed exhausted from round after round of rough sex.
Missing the feeling of the steel strings under fingers she got up and grabbed the black acoustic and started playing, not knowing that Supergirl was hovering outside her window, out of sight, listening to her play with tears in her eyes.
Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well ya shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well ya shoved it in my face
Everyone is changing
There's none left that's real
To make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you when to runaway
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to runaway
This pain you gave to me
You take it all
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Song: Blurry by Puddle of Mudd