Chapter Twenty-Eight: The Game
Jeremy was behaving like a little kid in a candy store. It was so unlike him that Bonnie only gave him weird looks and he always said he was so excited to be here. He was actually really interested in the game. Before it even started he had asked Faye all kinds of questions about the players, the other team and why everyone thought that their team was going to lose.
He was also excited to meet her friends. Most of them she had been friends with long before she started dating Jeremy, but since this was his first time in Portland he didn't know anyone but Faye. Jeremy didn't used to be a crowd kind of guy, keeping more to himself and his elected group of people he let into his life. Like Elena, Bonnie and Matt Donavan. But right now he behaved like the most charming guy.
Bonnie wondered if he only did that to impress her and to show that he was very capable of adapting to her friends and her life here in Portland. It was still weird because she knew that it wasn't completely honest.
Bonnie had gotten herself some fries and after she rejoined the group, Perry and Liza had offered Jeremy to show him around campus. They seemed to like him very much. When Bonnie declined to come along Jeremy shrugged and went with them. The others made their way to the stand and searched for free places, keeping three of them free for the missing people of the group.
Faye was in a heated discussion with Connor about whether it was a good idea to bet on any possible outcome of the game or not and Bonnie focused her attention on her fries. When one of them was halfway in her mouth she felt someone drop beside her right side. When she turned to see who it was that so negligently placed him or herself next to her she froze.
Kai Parker's blue eyes locked with her green ones. Bonnie couldn't read anything into them, they just blankly stared into her own without a hint of emotion that she could decipher and that would give her a clue on his current mood.
Kai tilted his head and then stole the fry out of Bonnie's hand. She watched him eat it in delight but still couldn't take her gaze away from him. Nervously she waited for him to snap or yell at her for bringing Jeremy along or to overplay it with coolness. But somehow he didn't want to give her the satisfaction of clarity.
It was Faye that broke the heavy silence between the two friends. "Oh, look who found his way to the ordinary people. Hey Kai." Faye sing-songed.
Kai's gaze shifted from Bonnie to Faye and he smiled at the red head. "Hey, Faye. How are you doing on this lovely Saturday evening?"
This was Bonnie's first indicator to his mood. His voice was calm and had its usual mischief in its undertone but there was something else. Something Bonnie couldn't place. It irritated her along with the fact that he hadn't spoken a word to her directly since he sat down next to her.
"Oh, you know same old same old. I am only looking forward to the drinking part of the night. What about you?"
"Same." Was his calm answer and while he answered Faye's questions he looked at Bonnie. It seemed like he tried to read her as much as she tried to read him.
"How come you are up here and not down there with your buddies getting shitfaced?" Connor asked from behind Faye, his voice anything but friendly.
"Oh, don't worry I have everything arranged." Kai spit back at him and Connor only snorted and turned away making Faye focus on him instead of Bonnie and Kai.
"What was that about?" Bonnie asked.
"Told you he doesn't like me." Calm, no emotions. He was a master of hiding his true feelings.
"That's not true, Kai."
"Well, I couldn't give less of a crap about it, Bonnie." Now Kai's perfect façade got a little crack and his voice turned annoyed. It still was when he started talking again. "Did your mom like the bench?"
Bonnie nodded; she couldn't answer him right now because brining up the bench meant bringing up memories of last night.
After a short silence Kai asked, "So, where is your boyfriend?"
Bonnie tried to take his hand. She needed to have some kind of connection to him while she explained what was going on between Jeremy and her. But when she touched his hand he drew it away and turned his head to the field, not facing her anymore.
"He is not my boyfriend." Bonnie finally explained. It was the truth but still it felt like it wasn't enough but the words got stuck in her throat. What was she going to say to him that wouldn't sound like she was trying to get back together with Jeremy?
Kai didn't reply anything. He also didn't seem convinced by Bonnie's statement. He had probably already come to the conclusion Bonnie was trying to avoid.
"Please, don't be mad." Bonnie said, pleaded even. She didn't want to sound so desperate and she certainly didn't want to say these words but they just came out. She couldn't stop herself. It was just so important to her what he was thinking.
"Mad? There is no reason for me to be mad. Your ex-boyfriend comes into town and of course you'd give him another chance. It's completely logical after all that the two of you have been through and the way you parted. After all, he has always treated you like you deserved." His voice was full of spite and he turned his head back to watch her and finally Bonnie could place the thing in his eyes. It was incomprehension. He just didn't get what she was doing and if she was honest with herself, neither did she.
"Kai…"
"NO." He interrupted her and raised his hand. "I don't want to hear it Bonnie. I don't want to hear you giving me totally understandable reasons for why you even consider giving him another chance, because I won't pretend that I am supporting your decision. This guy hurt you and because he smiled at you once you forget all about it? I thought you were better than that."
A stitch went though Bonnie's heart. It was not the things he said that made her feel hurt but the way he said them. He meant all of it and it wasn't routed in jealousy or anything close to that but pure concern for a person he cared about. And probably annoyance over her stupidity.
Kai got up and stepped down a row before he turned around to her once more. He was standing now but he was still face to face with her. "I'm sorry if what I said was harsh but someone needed to tell you."
And then he turned around and made his way down the stand. For a moment Bonnie just sat there watching him pushing people out of his way and then like on autopilot she rose to go after him. Just as she was about to take the first step she heard Jeremy's voice form the left.
"You school's really nice, Bon." He smiled at her and Bonnie tried for a smile herself. She looked down the stand again to search for Kai but couldn't find him, so she sat back down with a bad feeling in her gut.
During the whole game Jeremy next to her cheered and booed along with the crowd. Bonnie didn't notice anything that happened on the field. Her mind was too far away. Every now and then she felt Jeremy's hand on her leg but she was even too preoccupied with her thoughts so that she didn't smack it away.
When the game was over- their team obviously lost- everyone was getting up and down to the field to get the party started. Bonnie followed her friends not watching where they were headed and when Connor offered her a bear she took it.
Jeremy kept talking and talking and Bonnie was politely replying but something inside her felt bored every time Jeremy opened his mouth.
A few hours into the party Bonnie felt slightly drunk but that didn't help with her confusion. Jeremy tried to get her separated from her friends quite a few times but she always found a reason to stay. She had to get Faye a new drink, she was in a really deep discussion with Connor or she was accompanying Liza to the restroom. Jeremy stayed calm on the outside but she knew that on the inside he was getting furious. This whole trip was to get her back but she didn't give him a chance.
They were standing in a circle in the middle of the field, surrounded by so many other people. Faye and Connor were already pretty drunk and Bonnie herself felt tipsy but not so much that she couldn't fully control herself anymore. Faye next to her was an extrovert when she was sober but when she was drunk she was even worse. So when she spotted Kai a few feet away from them crossing over the field she screamed in his direction to come over.
Kai hesitated for a second but then made his way to the crowed. Connor, who was standing with the back to Kai, was rolling his eyes and Bonnie realized it was Jeremy he was looking at while doing it. Kai came to stand between Perry and Connor. "Evening ladies and gentleman." Kai greeted the group and smiled at them. If he had been drinking Bonnie couldn't tell.
"I'm surprised to see you still up and running." Faye said, in the same moment she lost her balance and had to hold on to Bonnie so that she wouldn't fall to the ground. She giggled.
Kai's eyes followed Faye to Bonnie and his expression turned serious for a second before he turned back to Faye and laughed. "Guess the roles are reversed this year."
"Yeah, I remember last year. I was making out with Brian and he just fell asleep. And then you called me a cap?" Faye slurred.
That was what happened to Faye last year. No one had had a clue where she had ended up because one minute she was just gone. So now Bonnie knew she had been making out with Brian and Kai had been around too. Interesting. Faye had claimed to not remember any of it but her memories were always coming back when she reached to same stage of drunkenness as the time she had lost the memories. It was a talent of hers.
"I didn't call you a cap. I brought you to someone that still could. I think we fell to the floor about 30 times on the short way." They both laughed but Bonnie only looked from her best friend to Faye and back and stiffened. Did something else happen between the two of them that night? Bonnie had to fight a wave of jealousy rushing though her. She had no business being angry about something that happened in the past, or maybe even didn't happen at all.
Kai had noticed Bonnie's change, even though she tried her best not to show it, but the man could read her like an open book. His eyes went soft, trying to tell her that she had nothing to worry about without verbalizing it. Bonnie smiled at him to give him an answer that she understood what he was trying to tell her.
And then suddenly she felt someone grab her from the side. It was Jeremy that had grabbed her waist with his left hand and pressed her into his side. His grasp was so strong and it happened so fast that she couldn't fight it. Her eyes widened as he turned her head and pressed his lips onto hers and she could feel Kai's expression darken. How must this look to him. She had told him earlier that Jeremy and her weren't back together but Jeremy did everything in his power to make it seem that way.
When Bonnie finally pulled her lips away from Jeremy's she turned her head to find Kai, but he had already turned around and was two steps away from the group.
Bonnie wiggled her way out of Jeremy's grasp. "What the hell, Jer?" She pushed him away from her and ignored the irritated look he sent her way. Without hesitating she ran after Kai, who was already lost in the crowed. She heard Jeremy's voice calling for her but she ignored him. She needed to find Kai. She needed to explain.
Pushing herself though the crowd and calling his name to find him, she didn't get an answer. She was already leaving the field when she spotted him near the stand, heading to the exit. He was walking in a fast pace so Bonnie had to sprint to catch up with him. When she finally reached him she grabbed his am and made him stop.
"Kai, wait. Let me… let me… explain." She said out of breath. She really needed to work out more.
"No need to." He said monotonous and tried to walk away from her.
"No, wait." She didn't let go of him and it took all her strength to not let him escape and not hurt him in the process.
He turned around and tore his arm out of her grasp, not walking away but crossing his arms over his chest looking angry. "What, Bonnie? What could you possibly say?" he yelled.
Bonnie had never seen him this way. Angry, yes but never because of her. Because she hurt him. That realization hit her and made her feel like the worst person in the world.
"I'm sorry, Kai." She whispered. The alcohol in her system made her feel dizzy, or was it him, this situation? "It's really not what you think."
"What I think? What do I think Bonnie?" he was mad and when Bonnie looked up she saw his eyes sparkling with anger.
"He just grabbed me, I couldn't do anything. I didn't ask him to kiss me. You have to believe me."
"Sure, I do. Because it totally looked that way." He stopped and breathed in heavily. When he continued he sounded calmer. "You know what, forget it. I don't care. Go back to him and feel miserable again, why should I care?" He shook his head.
Suddenly Bonnie felt angry. Why should he care? Wasn't this the point of this whole conversation? "Really? Now you're pretending you are just angry at me because I'm making a mistake getting back with him? That's your problem?" she yelled.
"You know exactly that that's not it." He glared at her.
"You know, actually I don't. I thought we were on the same level yesterday, but tonight all you do is send mixed signals and that's confusing. So what is it that really bothers you, Kai?" Her raised voice went quiet and left them in silence, only the sounds of the party going on behind them sounding in their ears.
Kai kept quiet, only looking at Bonnie and it drove her crazy. "Answer me!" she demanded but still nothing. He stood a few feet away from her, arms still crossed. His silence was confusing to the core. She turned around and walked around while falling back into a rant. "You know, I'll make it easier for you. Because I'll tell you what I think. First, I am sorry for bringing Jeremy here, but I had to do it. I owed him that much. That kiss, my immediate reaction to it was shock and after that it was disgust followed by anxiety how you might react to it. I am sorry that you had to see that but it made me realize that I don't love Jeremy anymore; I have no feelings for him. We will never get back together so there is no need…"
Bonnie couldn't finish her sentence because she got turned around in one swing and her lips were sealed up with his. Kai's hands were placed around her neck which made it impossible for her to draw away from him, even if she wanted to. Which she didn't. The hard kiss Kai placed on her lips seemed desperate, like he had wanted to do this the entire night. When Bonnie's first confusion slipped away she put her hands, which had loosely hung down her body until now, slowly up his torso and rested them against his chest. Slowly the kiss turned softer and her left hand found his jaw.
Her thumb caressed his cheek and she felt his hands move down from her neck to her back until he placed his arm around Bonnie's waist and tugged her to him. Her need to be even closer to him grew with the second and it didn't take long and their kiss turned steamier, more demanding. Bonnie felt something hart in her back and she only then realized that Kai had moved them to the side of the stand, the metal now pushing into Bonnie's back.
Even though the party was still ongoing this side of the stands was abandoned only used as an exit point but right now there was no one there but Bonnie and Kai. It was dark in the lane they were standing in because the floodlights on the field met the one side of the stand in a way that created a shadow in the small exit way. If anyone decided to leave the party right now they would walk right into their make-out session but Bonnie didn't care.
All she could think about was how good Kai tasted and how the kiss made her feel lightheaded and it only got more intense. The kiss had already deepened, their tongues dancing. Bonnie had to catch her breath quite a few times during this wild make-out but Kai never gave her a real chance to, because every time she moved apart from him for just an inch he reclaimed her mouth a second later. It felt so good to be wanted like that. It has been a while for her to feel that kind of affection towards her and that it was Kai that was the one showing it made her insides tighten.
Without a hint, Kai suddenly lifted Bonnie up and placed her on the ledge of the stand, adjusting her until she found a comfortable place. She was now eyelevel with him, not that she would see because her eyes were still closed, but she felt an easier access to his mouth. He had placed his hands next to either side of her gripping the edge of the ledge and leaning into her body and Bonnie wrapped her legs around his waist, keeping him in place. Her hands were in his hair and she wished that he would take his off the metal and put them on her instead.
His hands stayed where they were but his mouth didn't. It traced her jaw, leaving light kisses all over it until it continued down to her neck, sucking and kissing. Bonnie's head fell back to give him easier access. Her breaths came out in strokes and she felt like no matter how deep she breathed in her lungs wouldn't fill with enough oxygen. Every touch of Kai's mouth sent little jolts through her body and slowly also other body parts answered to him. If she didn't pay attention she was going to go too far too fast and give into him right here, right now.
Maybe Kai had the same thought because he stopped his actions and let his forehead drop to her shoulder and rested it there. His breath, just as hers, was chopped. Because of the extra weight that was now pressing down on her she had to lift one hand to the handrail next to her, stabilizing their entwined bodies but she didn't dare lifting her other hand out of his hair.
She felt her heart beating heavily inside her ribcage. She didn't want to but she had to compare the way she was feeling right now to any situation with Jeremy. Did Jeremy ever make her feel this confused? Or this alive? Shockingly, her answer to that was a solid no. Even if she hadn't made up her mind about her and Jeremy's future already, this moment would have done the deed. She could never be with someone when there was a Kai Parker running around in her perimeter making her feel like this, kissing her like this…
Bonnie closed her eyes and leaned her head down so her cheek rested against the back of his head. She took a deep breath and breathed in his scent. It was an arousing smell, it was his scent, mixed with the freshness of the early spring night, smoke and alcohol, in a word she couldn't get enough.
Kai's breathing slowed along with hers but he didn't move his head from where it lay on her shoulder. His hands that had been resting next to her now moved along the outsides of her thighs up to her knee – the part where her legs where still bent around him- and back. A sudden tiredness overcame her because of the warm feeling spreading through every inch of her body. She could get used to this.
Slowly, he raised his head and brushed his nose along Bonnie's throat, nearly making her loose her mind. With all the willpower she had she kept herself form grabbing his head and kissing him once more. She closed her eyes form the intensity of this soft touch, as Kai's nose stroke her cheek and he left a peck on it before he drew away from her and Bonnie couldn't feel his face near hers anymore. If she hadn't felt his hands on her body she would have thought he was gone. But the certainty of his touch gave her time to revel in her feelings and only after a few minutes she dared to open her eyes again. Intense and serious blue eyes stared right back to her, their depth beyond imaginable. Even though they were standing in the shadows it seemed like there were still thousand lights dancing in Kai's eyes.
His left hand reached up to cup her face and his thumb brushed over her lips. Kai's gaze dropped to the space his fingers had touched just seconds ago before he bent down and gave her the sweetest kiss she had ever received in her life. Her whole world stopped spinning when he left soft pecks all over her cheek until he reached up to her ear and buried his nose in her hair. Not daring to move an inch because it might startle him and this moment would be over before she was ready to let it go, she enjoyed every second of it. What felt like hours were probably only seconds and so she felt awfully lonely when he pulled away from her so he could look at her face.
She gave him a tired smile and his eyes turned caring. With a quick move he tucked a strand of her hair behind her right ear and said "You look tired."
Bonnie shook her head and smiled. "I'm good. I just feel comfortable and my body mistakes this for tiredness."
Kai chuckled and looked away from her. When their gazes met again he looked more serious. "I think we should go back."
Bonnie grunted. He was right, there were still a bunch of people back on the playfield that would notice her absence at some point – most likely Jeremy since he was probably wondering why the hell she rushed away from him right after he had kissed her. She needed to talk to him and after all they had been through she owed him a civil talk, just the two of them, away from all the drinking and sounds.
So the reasonable part of Bonnie nodded when Kai offered to help her down to the ground again, even though the emotional part was screaming at the top of its lungs not to ruin this moment. But Kai wrapped his arms around Bonnie's waist and lifted her sitting body off the metal, pressing her thigh against him and not letting her out of his sight once. Bonnie finally unwrapped her legs from around his waist and straightened them and Kai softly placed her on the ground. To Bonnie's satisfaction he didn't remove his arms instantly but kept her in his embrace for a while longer, his hands tracing up and down her lower back and Bonnie pressed her face into his chest, inhaling his scent once more before she would have to let him go.
Bonnie's heart thrust hard in her chest when she lifted her head off his chest and his hands stopped their cooing movements. Now they were only standing really close and anyone passing by would only think of them as two people that knew each other well and no one would guess what had just happened between them and the meaningfulness of it all.
"I have to go find Jeremy. I have to talk to him." Bonnie broke the comfortable silence.
Kai tilted his head and put on a lazy smile. "Yeah, you better do."
He took her hand and turned her around in one swing so she stood next to him instead of in front. He then placed his arm around her shoulder like he had done so many times before. A move that used to be so innocent -but now nearly every one of his touches seemed electrified. As they started walking back to the field Bonnie grabbed Kai's hand that was loosely hanging down her shoulder and squeezed it, tugging herself in his embrace. In a slow pace they walked back to the crowd of people partying.
But they didn't make it far as an angry looking Jeremy stepped right into Bonnie's view. "Funny, but I keep walking into you two being way too comfortable with each other." His voice was poison. Bonnie knew it wasn't directed to her but to Kai but he seemed to take Jeremy's attempt of a jealousy act more entertaining than threatening. He laughed and luckily he didn't let go of Bonnie.
"I don't see how this is any of your concern." He responded.
Jeremy stepped closer to Kai, trying to intimidate him with his –for his young age- really impressive muscular body- and only now Kai took away his arm from around Bonnie's shoulder but not because he felt threatened but because he felt provoked. Bonnie knew this look and it meant nothing good.
Jeremy stood only inches away from Kai's face now and his nostrils were flaring due to the rage cooking up inside of him. Bonnie tried to reason with the one person that still seemed like he was calm enough to be reasoned with.
"Kai, let it go." She turned to him and placed a hand on his chest but the gesture wasn't enough when Jeremy in front of him kept on provoking.
"It is ALL of my concern, dick. Because Bonnie is here with me and I don't like when people are taking away my things."
His things? What was she, a toy? Bonnie turned around angrily and glared at Jeremy. "Excuse you, but I don't recall ever agreeing with you that you can determine everything I do. I am not your possession. I decide for myself who I am with and who I'm not with. We don't live in the 18th century where you can handle me like I am some kind of treasure for you to give away or keep. No one will ever make decisions for me, you got that?" She spit out.
She felt Kai's gaze on her for a quick second before he turned back to Jeremy. "What she said." After that he put his arm back around Bonnie's shoulder but not a second later she couldn't feel it there anymore because Kai had stumbled a few steps back due to the push Jeremy had given him. Now Jeremy was huffing in rage, his fists balled by his sides, looking at Kai like he wanted to rip him open.
"Keep your hands off my girlfriend!" he said threw gritted teeth.
"Your what now?" Kai asked, his voice was light. He was enjoying this way too much. "Hate to break it to you, buddy but just a few seconds ago Bonnie has confirmed that the two of you are just like this one Taylor Swift song… never ever getting back together."
"Kai!" Bonnie yelled. She couldn't believe he would just spit that information right into Jeremy's face when he somewhat agreed with her a few seconds ago that she needed to talk to him in private. She wanted to be the one telling him and now, in his angry statem Jeremy would for sure take this information as a confirmation that Bonnie and Kai had something going on and that would only make things worse for all parties involved.
Jeremy faltered a second and tried to process the info he had just received. Finally he came to the conclusion that there was only one person that could verify Kai's statement and that was herself. "Tell me this isn't true." Jeremy demanded to know.
"Jer… this is not the time or place!"
"TELL ME IT'S NOT TRUE!"
Bonnie flinched at the volume of his voice and Kai tried to calm Jeremy down. "Easy there, tiger. Why don't you calm down a little and then you two can continue this conversation."
"You shut up or I will rip out your tongue!" Jeremy turned in Kai's direction and pointed at him. Kai only laughed at the ridiculous sight of her ex-boyfriend and said. "Boy, you have some nerve. You picked the wrong time for this!"
"I don't need the right time to kick your ass!" Jeremy yelled, clearly losing control in the temper that was burning inside him. This would escalade really soon if Bonnie didn't do something. She couldn't count on Kai's self-control to kick in and safe the day, hell, she didn't even know if he had any, and she was too small to keep the two guys off each other's throats. So she looked around for a familiar face to come to her aid but it seemed like everyone around them were preoccupied by their own drama.
"I warn you, little Gilbert. You don't want me as your enemy." Kai's voice had dropped some degrees and his gaze had turned dead serious. He wasn't going to take this much longer.
"I think I will take my chances." Jeremy said and the next second he lunged out and tried to throw a punch in Kai's face. But the latter had seen this coming and avoided the impact of Jeremy's fists with one step to the left.
"Jeremy, what the hell are you doing?" Bonnie tried to reason but none of the two were listening to her anymore.
Jeremy had to regain his balance but quickly turned around to throw another punch only to be hit by a very well placed punch from Kai. Everything after that happened so fast. Bonnie only knew she was yelling at both of them a few times before she cried for help. When she finally got a reaction from some guys closest to them, Kai and Jeremy had already been on each other's throats, each one hitting the other numerous times. When the guys finally arrived to go between the two fighting dudes, Kai landed one last punch right on Jeremy's nose.
Bonnie could practically hear the sound of the nose breaking and the next time she looked at Jeremy she could see a stream of blood coming out of his nose. She ran to him as the guys kept Jeremy and Kai apart. Kai had given up the moment the other guys joined in but Jeremy was so furious they had to pin him to nearby wall and Bonnie had to calm him down or else he would have gone after Kai again.
"JEREMY! CALM THE FUCK DOWN! YOU'RE HURT." She tried to reach through his fury and slowly she realized that her words got through- or maybe it was the pain- but he stopped struggling.
"Let him come if he wants to get his ass kicked again." Kai's voice reached her from behind and Bonnie turned her head to glare at him. He was breathing heavily but he seemed to be okay. Right now, Bonnie didn't care. She was furious about the dumb fight they just had and Kai's provocative words didn't help the situation at all. For all she cared, they could both crush their skulls, or she would punch them herself.
She turned around and yelled at Kai. "You're both idiots. If I were you I'd get lost right now Kai, or I swear to god I will kick you to the moon."
She heart Jeremy laugh at that and she turned around to yell at him. "There is nothing for you to laugh about. Make one wrong move and your nose will be the least of your problems." With one last look to Kai she screamed. "Leave!" and reluctantly he took off to the field. The other guys that had helped Bonnie out asked if she needed any more help but she only thanked them and they left too.
Bonnie looked at Jeremy, who was still leaning against the wall, trying to inspect the damage Kai had done to his nose. Bonnie pushed his fingers away from it, a little too rough for a broken nose like that but she didn't care, it was okay for her to see him suffer from his own stupidity. "Don't touch that. Grab your stuff, we're leaving. I have to take a look at your nose."
She turned around and didn't wait for Jeremy to follow her. After a few seconds she found the rest of the group and excused herself and Jeremy. When the others saw his bleeding face they wanted to know what was wrong but Bonnie only promised to call tomorrow and tell them everything before she made her way to the exit, Jeremy slowly following.
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"Ouch, Bonnie you're hurting me!"
"Don't be such a baby, Jeremy. This is your own fault to begin with so suck it up."
Bonnie was sitting in her kitchen with a cold, wet tissue in her hand, trying to clean up the blood from Jeremy's face. After a quick check up Bonnie realized her fist impression had been wrong and Jeremy's nose wasn't broken. She was a little sad about that because he had clearly earned some kind of punishment. She had been dealing with his nose for an hour now and still her own mood wasn't anywhere near calm. She was still furious with both of them. But now that she was nearly done taking care of Jeremy, she needed to find a way to calm herself down, still needing to talk to him about the whole ending things for good thing.
Cleaning the last of the blood from Jeremy's face he started to speak. "Bonnie, I am sorry about what happened. I promise you this will never happen again."
"I know that it won't because you will never run into Kai ever again." Bonnie stated without any hint of emotion in her voice.
Jeremy's looked confused. "How do you want to manage keeping us separated for the rest of our lives? We are going to run into each other at some point. Unless you want to cut one of us out of your life…"
He stopped as he realized that this was exactly what she wanted to do and suddenly Jeremy realized that the one she wanted to cut out of her life wasn't going to be Kai.
"You don't want to get back with me! It's like Kai said. It's because of him." Jeremy stated.
"Jer, this had nothing to do with Kai. I was actually pretty sure about this the moment you showed up on my doorstep. I… I just don't love you anymore and I don't believe that you are ever going to change that much that I would be willing to try this again. It is over and it has been for some weeks now and I need you to understand that. It is entirely my decision."
He looked at her, not angry but disappointed but when he got up he nodded. "I get it. Just promise me one thing, Bonnie. Stop pretending that he has nothing to do with your decision. It is neither fair to me nor to you." His voice sounded reasonable, like he hadn't expected her to take him back after everything that happened tonight.
"Well, can I at least wash my hands before I say goodbye to you for good?" Jeremy asked and Bonnie directed him to the small bathroom downstairs. When he was gone she placed herself back on the chair, now feeling oddly relived that she had got this out of her system. She was still a little angry but now mostly at Kai, because she had used up all her anger involving Jeremy already. She was going to make him suffer a little for this.
A phone buzzed on the kitchen table but she realized it wasn't hers when she reached for it and felt it was heavier that her own. She wanted to place Jeremy's phone back down when a pop-up massage appeared on his screen and her eyes fell on the message that had been send to him.
Bonnie's eyes widened. She unlocked the phone, thank god he had trusted her with the combination once, and went right into the chat with the person Jeremy had just received the massage from. She scanned through the conversation and searched for the time she had still been with Jeremy. This couldn't be true.
"So, I guess I should get going. What are you doing there?" Jeremy had stepped back into the kitchen and walking into her scanning his phone. Bonnie didn't feel caught or ashamed because what she had found out was way worse than snooping.
"Who is Anna?" she asked coldly.
Jeremy swallowed hard. He stayed quiet because he didn't know how to talk himself out of this when she had all the prove she needed in her hand. To provoke any kind of reaction from him she started reading some massages out loud.
"A: Hey beauty, wanna hang out tonight?
J: Sure, if you mean what I think you mean. But I am in Portland. See you tomorrow?
A: Okay, me and my wet cunt can't wait for your safe return.
Or what about this one, that's lovely. Anna: Where are you? I thought you were coming over later.
Jeremy: Sorry, I'll be there in a minute, I just needed to see my girlfriend. She is in town this weekend for her grandmother's birthday and she wants to hang out at the grill with Elena and her new boyfriend. Gotta be quick today.
Anna: The pace is all up to you, cowboy."
Jeremy snatched his phone out of her hold. Now she could only stare at him openmouthed.
"Bonnie, I can explain."
"Safe it! I actually don't want to hear any more of your lies." She said calmly, it wasn't even an act. If she still loved him maybe she would have been hurt but right now she was only disappointed. He had cheated on her this entire time and still while he was trying to get her back he was entertaining some girl at home.
"Please, let me explain."
"There is nothing to explain Jeremy!" she sounded angry now, but not hurt. "You are a freaking hypocrite. You blame the failing of our relationship entirely on me kissing Kai while you were doing far more with this Anna slut. I don't want to hear any dumb attempt at trying to talk yourself out of this because first I don't care and second I am not that dumb, Jer. You are a fucking asshole for playing Mr. Jealousy tonight and trying to guilt pressure me into coming back to you. I can't believe you reacted like a freaking moron when I told you I kissed Kai, when you knew you had done worse. At least I was honest with you and had a bad conscience but even tonight you had this other girl on speed dial while you were trying to get me back. You know what? I won't even get upset about this. At least I have an explanation for all those late nights 'studying' and you being so hart to reach. No wonder when you were busy banging some other chick. Just leave, Jeremy. I don't want to see you."
She had turned around because looking in his smug face made her madder than she had wanted to get. But right now, her decision to end things felt even more right. Without saying another word Jeremy took his coat and went to the door. Bonnie went after him to shut the door behind him. He hesitated to get outside but with a look of annoyance she indicated him that she really didn't want to see him right now.
Reluctantly he stepped outside and Bonnie slammed the door shut- ending the chapter of her life that was Jeremy Gilbert.