Chapter Thirty-Nine: Serious Business

The weather was getting worse. Not totally bad but it was way more pleasant to breathe than the last couple of weeks. Bonnie was still wearing shorts, tops and skirts but when she left her house in the late evening to accompany Kai to some crazy activity, she had to bring a coat.

The two had spent nearly every free minute with each other. That fact had earned them some doubtful looks of the family-fraction. Abby had kept her inquisition to herself once Bonnie told her there was nothing going on between them and only raised a knowing eyebrow. Jo had stopped paying attention to their ongoing flirtation weeks before Kai had left for England and every once in a while, when the Parker matriarch wasn't laying down, even Evelyn Parker smirked at the sight of Bonnie and her eldest son together.

Mrs. Parker's condition was getting worse. She was now always tired and resting. The household help that Joshua Parker had employed was now there every day, helping the family to get along. Kai assured her that his mother's condition was nowhere to critical but the way that he always looked away after telling her, made Bonnie aware of the fact that he was trying to escape the burdening topic. Jo would only confirm her suspicions when she told her that Kai likes to distract himself whenever there is something bigger than him looming over his head. He was putting on a show for her not to worry, for sure.

Faster that she could imagine the summer was over and they had to go back to school. Senior year was at the ready and Bonnie couldn't believe that this would be her last high school year. She now had to think about what she wanted to do with her life. As if living in the here and now wasn't hard enough already, especially when a certain someone made her life a living torture.

Her feelings for Kai hadn't died out like she had hoped they would. On the contrary, during his absence they only intensified and made themselves a home in her heart and mind. Because she saw Kai nearly every day, she was reminded of her feelings on a daily basis. No chance to forget about this boy. But the hardest part about it was that sometime's she had the feeling that Kai was flirting with her. It was hard to tell because Kai had always been teasing, touchy and intruded her personal space but lately she found him watching her while she was busy doing something else. Or all the intensity in his eyes while they were talking serious stuff. His funny and humorous way of making her smile on a more regular basis and his intense smirk that made her wonder what he was thinking, added to that impression. But most of all the closeness between them struck her. They were constantly touching in some form. Hugging, wrapped arms around her shoulder, sitting next to each other and thighs touching, his hand on her back while he is ushering them through a crowd of people and even holding hands. Maybe it is all her imagination because she wants him to do these things, she wants these things to mean something, but maybe this has always been the way they interacted. Anyways it was torturing her and not less often she caught herself staring at his beautiful face.

The last day of the summer break Jo took Bonnie shopping. Kai had refused to come with them because he hated going to the mall but Bonnie asked Faye to accompany the two. They spend most of the time shopping a new outfit for their last first day of school. They wanted to be remembered, which they all knew was ridiculous. In less than a year no one would even remember any of the senior's but it was still fun.
They went to grab a cold smoothie when they decided a break was appropriate and sat down in one of the tiny smoothie cafes. They were having girl talk, mentioning Faye's summer hook ups and Jo's decision to finally ditch Timothy Laughlin after all, which earned her a bear hug and congratulations from Bonnie. When Faye asked about Bonnie's summer achievement, meaning possible boy toys, Bonnie shrugged and told her there was nothing new on the horizon for her and she meant it, actively pushing the thought of Kai's recent behavior away.

Talking, or rather thinking, about the devil Kai joined the three girls table. He placed himself between Faye and Bonnie and slouched into the chair. "Hello ladies."

Faye and Jo greeted him, only Bonnie stayed silent, her ability to form coherent sentences suddenly gone with just one look at his face. She shook her head and reminded herself to get a grip before she turned to him, eyes mock-accusing. "Thought you hated shopping? That it was a girls-thing."

"Still thinking that but I'm not here to shop anything but to steal your drink." With that Kai took Bonnie's smoothie and sipped on it. Bonnie only rolled her eyes and turned her gaze back to the girls, more for self-preservational reasons than actual annoyance.

"You got mom's meds?" Jo asked while Kai was still drinking Bonnie's drink.

"Yup, was just about to head back home when I saw you guys and wondered if there was someone willing to join me?" For the last part he said upright and leaned over to Bonnie. She turned her head to look at him and found he was extremely close. Too close for her to breathe normally but she tried it anyway. If only Jo would have been there she might have not cared but Faye was sitting right next to her, watching her every move, especially now that Kai was sitting next to her. Faye was still not completely over the way he had treated her earlier this year when they were fighting, so she was naturally a little suspicious. Added to that, Bonnie had the suspicion that her friend didn't believe a word when she told her she was completely over Kai.

Bonnie now stared into his gray eyes intently directed to her own green ones and swallowed hard before she remembered how to breathe and shook her head. "I'm with them, shopping. Remember, idiot?" She turned her head away and caught Faye's extremely blank expression directed on the two of them.

"Fine, I'll leave you girls alone then. Call me later?" Kai said while he got up and Bonnie nodded and smiled. He waved at the girls on the table and turned around leaving, giving Bonnie the opportunity to finally take in a proper breath. Only after he had strayed from them she realized he had taken her smoothie with him.

"Hey, give me back my drink." She cried after him but he was already lost in the crowd of people. "I can't believe him." She mumbled to herself and turned back to Faye and Jo, only to be met by two intense pair of eyes watching her.

"What?" Bonnie asked, defensive.

"You little liar." Faye called out.

"Excuse me?"

"You lied to me. Earlier and a few weeks ago." Faye stared at her with open eyes.

"I'm still not following." Bonnie tried to overplay her uneasiness.

"Oh, cut the crap Bennett. You lied when you told me that there was nothing between you and Kai anymore. You just admitted this to us 10 minutes ago but this was clearly not true."

"Well, I don't care if you believe me or not, but I was actually not lying…"

Bonnie was cut short by Faye's derisive laughter. "Oh yeah? Then tell me why he just looked like he wanted to eat you alive, Bonnie?"

Bonnie opened her mouth to reply something but was thrown aback when Faye's statement sank in. "No he didn't." Bonnie claimed, completely unbelieving.

"Oh honey, trust me he did." Faye said watching her while sipping her smoothie. Bonnie's gaze went from Faye and Jo, who was looking down at her lap, seemingly uncomfortable with the situation, like she had been when Jessica and Olive voiced they had the hots for her brother. "Jo, help me out here a little." Faye hit Jo's shoulder, her gaze not leaving Bonnie.

Jo raised her head and watched Bonnie now but she didn't say anything.

"Faye, this is her brother you're talking about. I don't think she is very keen on talking about who or not he wants to eat alive." Bonnie tried to protect Jo and change the subject in the process but to her surprise Jo cleared her throat.

"Actually, Faye is right." Jo admitted silently.

Bonnie's eyes widened at that statement and even Faye, who had probably not imagined Jo agreeing with her, turned around and faced her. Jo sighed before she continued to talk. "Apart from you, I am probably the person that knows Kai the best. While growing up we were always inseparable. When we got older it became clear, very quickly, that Kai was somehow not able or not willing to let all the emotions in. He had superficial relationships with girls, if you want to call them that. He dated but it was clear as day to me that he had never intended anything serious with any of them. Until now." Jo looked at her directly now and something inside Bonnie squeezed. Her heart was pumping fast and she was scared and excited to hear Jo continue.

"A few months ago, I recognized a change within my brother. He was happier, not as moody and seemed more balanced and I couldn't figure out what it was until I saw him with you. The two of you, your constant banter and laughing. He was happy around you. And then something else happened and you fought and he went straight back to being the dick I always knew. To be honest, I think he has never behaved worse than at that time. But now you're okay again. I mean, more than okay. You practically spent every free second with each other and everyone with eyes can see that you've totally fallen for him and his charms. Under different circumstances and with a different girl, I would advise you to run like hell, but it is you. The way he looks at you, the way he talks to you, hell, the way he talks ABOUT you. Bonnie, I have never seen him like this before. I'm almost 100% certain that he is falling for you too." She swallowed. "I think you two should talk."

Bonnie was speechless. Jo's observations about her brother caught Bonnie by surprise. She had had suspicions herself but now that someone had voiced the same thing Bonnie started to panic inside. There was no way Kai Parker was into her. No-fucking-way.

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Later that evening, when she had finally managed to gather enough courage to call Kai she nearly smashed her phone against the wall when she heard the dial tone. She didn't know what exactly she wanted to say to him, only that she wanted to hear his voice. The nervousness spread across her entire body making her walk up and down in her room. Since she got home she had been thinking about what Jo had said but finally came to the conclusion that she wouldn't talk to him. At least not yet. She wanted to take a closer look at the boy who was supposed to like her the same way she liked him. There was no way she would embarrass herself in front of him by confronting him about feelings he might not even have. Given their history, it was even more unwise. So, only if she was 100% certain that neither she nor Jo had imagined this change in his behavior would she address the elephant in the room.

"Hello?" said a hoarse voice on the other end of the phone.

"Oh, hi." Bonnie greeted Kai back. "Did I wake you?" Bonnie turned to check the time, she thought that it had only been 9 p.m. and knowing that Kai didn't sleep until late at night, she thought it would have been okay to call. But his voice clearly held a trace of sleep in it.

"No." Kai reassured her. "I mean, yes but it's okay. I didn't want to fall asleep anyways."

"Oh, sorry. Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, sure. Don't know what happened, I was just super tired all of a sudden."

"Well, maybe you are just excited for first day of school tomorrow." Bonnie teased, the nervousness slightly gone.

"Ha ha, very funny. Did they spike your smoothie with laughing gas earlier?" He teased back.

"How would I know, for you drank all of it."

Bonnie could hear a chuckle on the other end of the phone and that sound send a smile on her face. She just loved the sound of his laughter.

"So, was there anything particular you wanted to tell me?" Kai asked.

"Ehm, I just wanted to call to see how you were doing and to make sure you are going to show up tomorrow."

"Please, of course I will show up. I'm always there for the first few days, only to show the freshmen who the boss in the school really is."

"Very mature." Bonnie stated but couldn't help but smile. "So, I guess I shouldn't hold you up any longer. Your beauty sleep awaits you."

"Nah, I don't need that. I look way better when I am overtired anyways."

Thinking about the fact that Kai was an uneasy sleeper and that he sometimes didn't get more that 4 hours of sleep, his statement held some truth. He had to be tired a lot of times and Bonnie would always think he looked attractive, despite his state.

"Well, if you want to stay up all night, that's your decision to make. But I won't have any part in it. So, I'm going to hang up now. I wish you a very nice night and I'll see you tomorrow."

There was a short silence on the other end and then Bonnie heard "Good night, Bon." in Kai's usual lovely voice. She smiled and hung up before he could draw her in another conversation. It was still early but she let herself fall onto her bed, closing her eyes and wishing to drift off to sleep so that the next day would come faster.

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They had been wrong. Jo, Faye, herself. They had all been wrong. This was Bonnie's epiphany a week into school life. On the first day of school she had paid extra close attention on the way Kai behaved and the following days she continued her secret examination. There was no trace of his touchy-feely version from just a few weeks earlier and Bonnie started to doubt that she had ever even witnessed it in the first place. On the first day she instantly ran into Kai when she parked her car. He was already waiting for her by the entrance to check out their schedule together. He was excited to see they had more than 50% of the classes together, which Bonnie didn't mind at all either. Spending time with Kai was in no way torturous any more.

When lunch time rolled around they met up with the gang and ate their lunch together. Kai had been especially cheerful, even though it was the first day of school. Everyone was happy to see each other again. Perry and Kai even hugged it out, another weird thing that happened that day. The only one being grumpy was Connor. He threw Kai some evil glances which Kai chose to ignore. Bonnie didn't know what happened between the two of them because Connor had been skeptical towards Kai from the start. Luckily, Kai's mood kept him from provoking Connor back and making this even more unpleasant.

Bonnie had hoped that after the summer the air would have been cleared between her and Connor but except for greeting her, Connor had chosen to ignore her. Well, it was fine by her.

Anyways, Kai behaved like an excited kid entering a chocolate factory the entire week. Something about the first week of school was getting him really excited that Bonnie suspected there was alcohol involved. So during this week he showed no sign of affection, at least no suspicious one. He hugged her and smiled his usual warm smile but nothing like secret longing or intense eye contact. So Bonnie decided, at the end of the second week of school, that they must have been wrong. Kai had no feelings for her. It would have been too weird anyways. And no way would she have mentioned her suspicion now anyways. She was going to leave for Mystic Falls for her father's birthday tomorrow and she wouldn't risk starting a conversation about unreturned feelings with him when she would leave the next day and the possibility of not ending that conversation on a good note would rise into the unknown. No, she was glad that she had been wrong. Saved her from a lot of stress, discussion and embarrassment.

"Earth to Bon!" Kai's voice reached her through her cloudy mind.

"Huh?"

Kai chuckled and lay back down into the grass. They had a free period and decided to spend it outside in the warm September sun. Bonnie was sitting, back leaning against a tree, while Kai had laid down the second they arrived. "Where did your mind drift off to?"

"Oh, nowhere. I was just thinking about my visit to Mystic Falls."

"You really aren't too keen on going back home this time, are you?" Kai asked, turning his head to get a better view of her face.

Bonnie sighed. He was right. Usually she was excited to go back to Virginia but it would only be for two days and that would mean she would have no time to spend with Elena and Caroline but just with family. And her dad's side of the family was more than boring. So her excitement was running a little low, even though Care had promised to make an appearance on Saturday.

"Well, I could think of a few better things to do with my time than to spend it with estranged family. It's still my weekend after all." Bonnie complained. A shiver went down her body when a gust of wind stirred so she moved over to where Kai was laying in the sun and placed herself next to him.

"Come on, it's your dad's birthday. Try faking a little excitement?"

"Coming from you, that's bold." Bonnie chuckled, facing the sky.

"Unlike me, you actually have positive feelings for your father. So please-" He turned on his side and watched her intently. "-for me?"

Bonnie shook her head lightly, fighting back a smile. She turned her head to face him and gave him the most exaggerated smile she could muster. He laughed at her.

"See, wasn't so hard was it?" His voice was silky, his expression soft. No trace of mockery to be found. Their gazes stayed locked for the longest moment, neither one willing to look away and break the contact. Aaaand there went all her certainty that Kai Parker had no feelings for her. This felt exactly like the moments they shared leading up to their first time by the lake. She wanted to punch him for being so shady about his intentions. Now that she had decided that there was no way he would feel anything for her, he comes around and gives her one of these intense, breathtaking looks and her entire body changes his state form firm to pudding, her heart bumping in her chest like crazy. To top it all, he reached out a hand and gently tugged a loose strand of hair back behind her ear, his fingertips slightly brushing over her cheek and jaw, leaving a tingling feeling everywhere he touched.

Bonnie breathed in visibly, not caring if he saw it or not. He could be aware of what he was doing to her, how unfair he was behaving. Telling her that it would never be the same between them, shutting her out of the possibility of them ever becoming more than friends and then looking at her like that, teasing her with his touch. He didn't play by his own rules and Bonnie didn't know if she hated that fact more or the irrational reaction she was having to it.

Kai's gaze dropped to her mouth for a second before they wandered back to lock with hers again. He would have to decide whether he wants to kiss her or not, because Bonnie wouldn't do anything. She had been the one pushing their relationship forward all this time and he has been the one to decline it. It was his turn to decide what to do.

Kai tilted his head just the slightest bit and Bonnie's heart stopped. Right when she thought he would lean in and kiss her she heard laughter and footsteps and Kai looked up to see who was approaching. With that the moment was ruined and Bonnie quickly turned her head to face the sky again before she sat back up and faced the approaching group. She wanted to roll her eyes as she realized it was Faye with Liza, Perry and Connor in tow. Why, oh why, did her friends have the talent to interrupt in the most inappropriate moments?

"Hey guys, mind if we join you on this lovely day?" Perry asked but Liza and Faye had already placed themselves on the ground next to Bonnie, not caring for an answer. Kai followed Bonnie's example and sat up, smiling at the group. He was way better at hiding his emotions than Bonnie was, cause she had to try not to look at any of her friends now because she would only send them death glares. That would lead to questions she wasn't willing to answer. Her mood had dropped and it wasn't getting back up, she was sure of it.

"You have a free period?" Liza asked Bonnie, which forced her to return her gaze back to the group. She only nodded in response to that, not trusting her voice to keep the spite out. Liza told her that they ended class earlier and kept on babbling about the new school year. Bonnie zoned out and looked around. A few other students had joined them outside, sitting in the sun. The others started to have a decent conversation but Bonnie had no idea what they were saying. The moment she had shared with Kai just minutes ago still lingered in her brain. Slowly and without realizing it she turned her gaze back to the group, watching her friends and then when her eyes reached Kai, she realized he didn't pay any attention to what was going on around them either. He was watching her. His expression was neutral, nothing to be read into it but the fact that he was looking at her alone said enough.

Quickly, before her body could again react in irrational ways, she looked away. She found Faye's eyes locked on her. Her stare was intense but she didn't raise an eyebrow like she usually would when she was implying there was something going on between Kai and her. No, Faye knew they had interrupted something and her look was trying to tell Bonnie that she was sorry without raising the attention of the others. Bonnie smiled at her reassuringly and then stood up.

"I'm going to head inside, need to get a book from the library. See you guys later?" She didn't wait for an answer but turned around and went inside. She needed to be alone right now.

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Bonnie was done packing her stuff for the weekend at her dad's. Now she was sitting in her car, on her way to the Parker house. She had promised Kai earlier that she would come say good bye before she left early in the morning. When she rang the bell it was Melinda who opened it. When she saw who it was she turned around instantly and yelled for her brother, then she was gone.

Bonnie took of her coat and shoes and went directly to Kai's room. When she entered without bothering to knock she spotted Kai sitting on his desk, searching for something on the internet. He seemed to be focused on that and so she walked over to him, leaned over his shoulder and asked "Don't you think it rude to ignore your guest?"

Kai nearly jumped off his chair. He gasped and held his hand to his chest. Bonnie was laughing at the sight. She had never managed to scare him and the sight was just too amusing.

"Are you crazy? You scared me." Kai accused her, seemingly out of breath. He got up from the chair and went over to his bed, sitting down and stabilizing himself with his arms. He looked like he had just sprinted here and needed to catch his breath now.

Bonnie was still chuckling when she went over to him and let herself fall onto the bed next to him. "Oh, someone's being a big baby. It's not my fault you seem to be deaf. Didn't you hear Melinda screaming I was here? It was loud as fuck."

"No, I didn't. I was concentrated." She gestured to the laptop still open on his desk and Bonnie saw a baseball game playing on the screen. "Gosh, I hate Melinda." Kai added and earned a serious look from Bonnie.

"No, you don't."

"Yeah, I do. Out of all my siblings she is the most annoying one, little brat." Bonnie knew he was only half joking, because she felt the same way. Melinda WAS a brat and WAS the most annoying of the Parkers but she also knew that Kai didn't really hate her. She was still his sister.

"Well, be thankful to have siblings. I always wanted some but well… guess my parents had different plans, didn't they?" Bonnie joked.

"Talking about family- are you ready to spend the entire weekend with yours?" Kai smirked now, knowing exactly how much she didn't want to go.

"Ha ha, you're funny today." Bonnie stuck out her tongue and he did the same. They both smiled at each other. "No seriously, I wish at least Caroline or Elena would come. I would take Amber Bradley at this point only to not be the only one under the age of 40."

Kai laughed at her comment and Bonnie bumped her shoulder into his side. "I know it's pathetic, but I might even miss you a little bit." Bonnie said, looking down to her hands in her lap, a sudden wave of sadness overcoming her. She would most definitely miss him and she was still annoyed by the way they were interrupted earlier. One of the reasons she came here today was that she hoped to find a way to address what happened, even though she had decided to drop the topic. But earlier was just so confusing to her and she needed clarification.

"Hey, it's only two days." Kai said softly. Bonnie didn't look up. She must have looked devastated because Kai moved closer to her, tried to look her in the eyes and caressed her cheek. His touch made her look up into his eyes. They were warm, caring and intense. It was a little like when they were lying in the grass only now they were closer and no one would interrupt. Bonnie didn't dare to move, because she was afraid it might scare him off. Once again it was Kai's turn to decide what was happening next and he looked at her lips and then sighed heavily, closing his eyes for a second. Bonnie had already given up and wanted to turn her head when he was closing the distance between them and placed a soft kiss onto her lips.

Intuitively, she closed her eyes and enjoyed the pricking feeling that was forming in her stomach. It had been so long that she had felt his lips on hers and she had been longing for it the entire summer, so now that it was finally happening it felt so unreal. The kiss didn't last too long, and Bonnie opened her eyes again to see Kai watching her with wide eyes. A second later he gently grabbed both sides of her face and pulled her to him for another kiss, still gentle and soft but more intense. The thoughts rushed through her mind and suddenly she had so many worries and doubts come to the surface that she pulled away. "Wait…"

Kai looked at her with confusion. He was probably wondering if he read her wrong and opened his mouth to apologize when Bonnie cut him short. "I can't do this. Not if you are going to tell me that it meant nothing a second later. This feels too important to me to be messed with. So if you are going to push me away again…"

"I won't!" He interrupted her and when Bonnie looked him in the eyes, she could see he was serious. That took her breath away and she gasped. She felt like she could start crying every second and because that would totally ruin the moment she pressed her lips on Kai's to distract him and herself. The sudden kiss seemed to have taken Kai by surprise because it took him a few seconds before he hesitantly pulled his hands up to place them around her neck and pulling her even closer.

This entire time, their kiss stayed gentle, sweet and meaningful. Kai's hands rested on her neck, his thumbs brushing along her jaw and her hands were placed on his chest. It was such a defying moment for them that neither one wanted to break away or change the pace. Anyways, Bonnie felt like she needed to be even closer to him and without thinking twice about it or breaking the kiss she climbed onto Kai's lap and felt his arms being wrapped around her back, caging her in and making her heart beat even faster. In this tight embrace Bonnie felt comfortable, warm and safe.

There was no way of telling how long they were kissing. It felt like they could waste their entire lives with this slow kiss and neither of them would care. After a while Bonnie leaned closer to Kai so he would slowly lean back until his back hit the mattress, pulling Bonnie down with him. Bonnie was half lying on Kai half sitting, her thighs pressed gently into his rips. She could feel Kai's arms were still wrapped around her waist but now he started to slowly move. His hands wandered underneath her shirt, caressing the lower part of her back and sending heat waves through Bonnie's body along their way.

Bonnie was completely lost. Nothing in the world mattered right now, only her and Kai finally giving into their feelings. She felt dizzy from the lack of oxygen but it was simply the best feeling she could imagine. When Kai grabbed her waist tighter and smoothly lifted her up to change their positions she nearly didn't feel that. Only the lack of his lips on hers made her open her eyes for a second and see that now she was the one being pressed into the cushions of the bed and Kai hovered above her. A second later all she could see was darkness, because she had closed her eyes once more, enjoying the return of Kai's lips on hers. Her hands wandered up around his neck with the intent to pull him even closer to her, but that was simply not possible. Kai was half lying on Bonnie, half lying on the mattress; his left hand was still hidden underneath Bonnie's shirt, slowly drawing circles on her hips. Kai's mouth wandered from her lips to her cheek, pressing sweet little pecks all over them until he trailed them back along her jaw. Bonnie craned her neck to give Kai better access and silently moaned.

When Kai reached her lips again, Bonnie opened her mouth and slowly slit her tongue into his mouth, deepening the kiss but not changing its overall gentleness. The way they kissed and moved was like a dream. Bonnie felt so light, like she was lying on a cloud and she didn't even think about her actions anymore. Their movements were fully automatic, only when Kai's hands were holding the hem of her shirt, they shortly broke away from each other. Kai looked at Bonnie with intensity, his eyes full of want and passion, searching her face for permission to take the next step. The moment was so special that neither of them wanted to say something, so Bonnie did the only thing she could to ensure him her consent. She grabbed the hem of Kai's shirt and pulled it up over his head. Gratefully Kai leaned down and kissed her softly, before he followed her example and freed Bonnie of her shirt. Kai moved his body so that Bonnie was now caging him in between her legs. While kissing her, he traced his index finger down her side and when he reached her thigh he pulled her leg up underneath her knee. After a while his lips slowly started their journey down Bonnie's neck and collar bone. Bonnie's hands followed the trail because they were loosely buried in his hair. When Kai's kisses reached the swell of her breasts Bonnie helped Kai by aching off the bed and giving him easier access to her bra. The next moment the bra was gone Kai pressed his nose in between her exposed breasts, taking a deep smell of her skin before he continued downwards.

Even though their actions were still gentle and sweet and not at all seeming like they were in a rush to finally get it out of their systems, Bonnie felt the lust deep within her spark to life. It was different this time though. It felt… more important. So she wouldn't dare speeding their actions up particularly when Kai seemed to enjoy it as much as she did. Little moans escaped her every now and then and when Kai reached the waistband of Bonnie's pants she exhaled heavily. With no hesitation Kai opened her pants and before Bonnie could clear her cloudy thoughts they were already on the floor next to his bed, along with her panties. Bonnie felt Kai's trail of kisses rise again towards her face, faster this time. It seemed like he was eager to find her lips once more so when he did, the kiss was desperate and passionate, mind-blowing even. Bonnie quickly wrapped her arms around his neck, to keep him in place, never to let him leave again.

The pulsing feeling in her lower body part became stronger the longer they were exploring each other's mouths. Without letting go of his lips Bonnie dragged her hands down Kai's torso and when she reached the waistband of his pants she eagerly unbuttoned it. With combined effort his pants and boxers were lying right next to Bonnie's on the floor. While they were still heavily making out Bonnie could feel Kai's erection, showing her that he was just as ready to really be with her then she was. And when he finally pushed himself into Bonnie it wasn't with the force that she experienced the first two times they had sex before. He slid in slowly, carefully. They both moaned from the incredible feeling of the other. A few seconds passed and Bonnie felt how perfectly the two of them were shaped for each other. Then Kai started moving his hips slowly, resulting in another round of moans. This entire time he never let go of Bonnie's lips, either kissing her, gently nibbling on her lower lip or only softly brushing his lips over hers.

Bonnie quickly joined in Kai's slow movements and both their breathing quickened. It was like going crazy for Bonnie, now that she was as close to Kai as she could get, she felt the overwhelming need to be even closer. So she wrapped her arms around his back, softly but strongly pinning him to her. His left hand was cupping her cheek while the other send sparks through her body on its search for her breast, which he gently caressed once he found them. They had fallen into a slow-dance, slowly moving their hips in unison, kissing each other or placing soft little pecks on the others cheek and panting into each other's mouths. It was nothing but intense and unique. Nothing that Bonnie had ever felt before. The thought crossed Bonnie's mind that this is how it should have been the first time they had sex. She was awestruck that she was experiencing this moment right now, that with such little effort she felt like she was having the best and most important night of her life. With only a slight increase of speed Bonnie and Kai both climaxed at the same time, making this moment even more precious.

Kai lowered his body weight onto her very slowly and pressed his cheek to hers, while they were both trying to catch their breaths. But Bonnie didn't get the chance to recover properly because Kai was already hovering above her and kissing her fiercely. Still in a dream-like state from their passionate intercourse, this additional sign of affection from his side, swept Bonnie even further off her feet. After a while, they broke the kiss to catch some air and Kai pressed his forehead to Bonnie's thus not fully breaking their physical connection.

Kai brushed his nose along Bonnie's and inhaled audibly. Bonnie reached her hand up and buried it into his hair, slowly massaging his skull. Kai relaxed into her touch. He dropped down on the mattress next to her and buried his face in the crook of her neck, wrapping his arms tightly around her upper body. They lay like this for a few quite moments and Bonnie felt a wave of tiredness flood her body.

She felt soft pecks being placed first on her neck before they went higher and reached her jaw and finally her cheek. Bonnie closed her eyes to the sensation she was feeling. She was drifting off into a state of happy sleepiness when she heard his soft whisper "Stay."

She thought she had imagined it but when she turned her head to face him she was looking into hopeful ocean-blues and she knew she hadn't imagined it. She sighed heavily.

"You know I can't. I have to go to the airport by 3 am."

"Where is the problem? You can go to the airport from here, can't you?"

"Yeah, technically I could. But I don't want to wake you up in the middle of the night."

"I don't mind waking up." Kai said and started kissing her neck again.

Bonnie nearly lost herself in his kisses again, tilting her head to give him better access, before she remembered to stay strong. "Kai, I really can't. I still have all my stuff at home and I wouldn't know how to tell my mom where I am. She is supposed to drive me to the airport, I can't leave my car at the airport."

Kai suddenly stopped kissing her and brought his face right into her focus. "I could drive you. And after that I'll drive your car back to your house, problem solved."

He grinned a boyish grin and Bonnie had to smile. She touched his cheek and pulled him down for a soft kiss before she sighed. "I really can't stay, I'm sorry."

Kai sighed as well, defeated. He looked at her and Bonnie's heart broke from all the disappointment and sadness she could clearly see in his eyes. She was surprised that he showed his feelings this openly, normally he would guard them but tonight was something else. Tonight they were completely honest with each other and that included showing of feelings. Kai looked away from her eyes which only amplified the impression of a lost puppy he was giving Bonnie and the guilt within her sparked to life.

"Hey, that doesn't mean I have to leave right away." She softly whispered which made him look back at her again, a sad smile on his lips. He lowered them onto Bonnie's once more for a short moment before he lay on his side and watched Bonnie with his arms wrapped around her waist, pulling her closer. Bonnie turned on her side so she could directly face Kai and moved even closer to him until her chest was pressed to his. She grabbed his blanked and placed it over their bodies. Their noses were nearly touching while their heads rested on the same pillow. Bonnie reached for his cheek and kissed him once more, closing her eyes. Their kiss was deepened and their tongues were dancing a slow dance again for what felt like hours.

When they finally broke away from each other, Bonnie felt a little dizzy from the lack of oxygen and the tiredness resurfacing again. Kai nestled his face into the crook of her neck again and readjusted his body, embracing Bonnie by pulling her close. Bonnie smiled a tired smiled and started caressing his neck and upper back, before placing a soft kiss on the top of his head. Within a few moments she felt Kai's steady breathing on her skin, indicating that he had fallen asleep. Once more Bonnie's thoughts went back to the past day, what happened in school and how they ended up naked, entwined and ridiculously happy in his bed. It was close to a miracle.

The warmth from Kai's body and the blanket wrapped around them was adding to Bonnie's sleepy state. She had decided to wait a little longer before she would have to get up and ultimately wake Kai up from his slumber so she could head home. 'Just a little while longer' Bonnie thought to herself when she closed her eyes to rest them for just a second.

Author's note: Am I the only one that was freaking out about Kai's return on The Vampire Diaries? In the wake of last night's episode I was inspired to speed up my writing and present you with this important chapter. I know there were no Bonnie and Kai interaction (what a shame) and I really do hope us Bonkai fan will get at least one little scene in next weeks episode, but tell me how cute it was when Kai asked Damon if Bonnie sounded like she missed him? I cried at the end of the episode because when I started watching it, I was sure this would be the last I would ever see of my boy Kai Parker and I was super excited when I saw the promo of next week's episode and he is STILL there. Gosh, it is a gift from heaven (or hell apparently). I am really trying to up my game and upload another chapter by next week's episode, I feel so inspired right now. So fingers crossed for that. Shout out to my fellow Bonkai lovers. You guys rock.