The gang returned at the monastery to lie low. The police will coordinate with local authorities in Asian countries because they think that's where they have gone through. They wouldn't bother looking in Italy. Sergio called it hiding in plain sight and they all think it's brilliant. Plus, they all like being in the monastery plus the monks cook them food and they're so good.
They all took a day off to rest and decompress. After that, they proceeded to divide the gold they got from the bank. Sergio made sure to make a generous donation at the monastery as a way of saying thanks for letting them stay there. Despite making it rain of gold in Madrid, there's still enough left for them all. He was also able to send the share of others who helped them pull off the heist including the Serbians and the Pakistani team. Sergio also arranged a trust fund for Nairobi's son as requested by her when she was shot by the sniper. It's the least they can do for everything Nairobi has done for them.
Once they're done with the partition of gold, Sergio moved to planning the team's safe passage to their homes. Tokyo and Rio decided they're not going to go on a same destination and none of them can return to their previous island. Helsinki decided to stay with Martin in Italy while Denver and Monica will be returning to their home since they're identities and cover wasn't compromised. Bogota wanted to go to the Bahamas whilst Marseille is a free man. He and Raquel will be following Marivi and Paula to their new home near Cayo Santa Maria in Cuba. He specifically chose to buy an island there for Paula since she loves the beach and it won't be hard for her to blend in since the country is a Spanish-speaking country.
While Sergio is busy planning everyone's itinerary, Raquel took her time to breathe some air at the monastery's rooftop. It has been her secret place since they came back from the heist and it the spot allowed her to relax her mind. The others are so focused on spending time together whilst they can because god knows when exactly they're all going to see each other again. Raquel wants none of the parties. She just wants some peace and quiet so the rooftop is perfect for her.
"Mind if I join you?" Marseille asked.
She shook her head so the big guy sat next to her. Sergio must've told him where she is since he's the only one who knows about her secret spot.
"Trouble sleeping?" he asked.
Raquel turned to him and searched in his eyes for pity but she found none which is a relief. She's been seeing a lot of that lately and the others had been treating her like she's going to break any moment.
"You can say that, yeah", she answered.
Marseille nodded casually. "It will get easier, you know. You will be able to sleep normally again without nightmares and any of that crap. Take that from a man whose job is to kill people", he said.
Sometimes, people seem to forget Marseille is a hit man. Raquel asked Sergio before where Andres had met the guy but even Sergio doesn't know about that. All he's sure of is that Marseille always got their backs no matter what and that's all that matters to him.
"See, that's where you're wrong", she muttered and then looked at the view. "I have no problem going to sleep and I don't get any nightmares. I feel nothing", she said and she can feel his eyes on her listening intently. "Everyone said it's self-defense and that I was only protecting the others but self-defense isn't supposed to feel nothing. I don't dream about Gandia or feel guilty about it or anything at all", she continued.
Marseille handed her a cigarette to help her relax which she gladly accepted.
"That's what scares the shit out of me, Marseille", she added.
"Why does that scare you?" he asked again.
"I thought about Gandia and realized the man got a wife. He got a son and yet we all knew him as the monster who killed Nairobi. He shot an unarmed woman in the head. No one gets to that point in a snap, Marseille. Like you said, in time it gets easier. Gandia used to be a family man just like Denver or Rio or Sergio. Years of killing for the job molded him into becoming a monster until he felt nothing anymore. He just became a killing machine", she explained.
"…and you're afraid that you'll turn into him", Marseille guessed and Raquel nodded.
"For years I thought I am not capable of killing people. I was a negotiator. My job was to put criminals behind bar. I completely forgot how I started. I was a CNI agent first and I got quite a list on my ledger. I pushed it deep inside my brain that I forgot how it feels like until now. When I left the library, I was waiting for it, the wave of guilt, the conscience to hit me but nothing came. I waited and nothing happened. If I am not turning into a monster then what the hell is happening to me, Marseille?" she confessed.
"Why do you think Gandia killed Nairobi? He could've come after anyone inside the bank but he came after her. From what I've been told, he made a promise to her that he would kill her and he stuck to it. He killed not because of his job anymore but for sport. You, on the other hand, got tons of chances to kill him when you entered the bank and yet you didn't. It was only when he escaped and you realized he's after Tokyo. You took action. I guess my point is it doesn't matter if it feels easy or not. What matters is why you do it? I am a hit man. It is too damn easy for me to kill but I don't do it for sport. That's Gandia. You didn't do it for sport in the bank because you're not Gandia", he explained.
"…for a man of few words, you're full of wisdom. This place has done a number on you", she teased.
"Tell me about it. Few more months and this place will turn me into a monk", he teased back.
"Thank you for letting me talk and for talking some sense to me", she said.
"You're welcome. Now, you go and talk to the Professor. He has been worried sick about you", he replied and she nodded.