TMNT: Lullaby for Leo
Ch.10~ Shush it's a secret
"Yo Raphie-boy!" Casey yelled, I smiled and we high-fived, or my case a high-three.
"I'd chest bump ya if I could get out of bed," I stated, he smirked.
"How long you stuck in bed for buddy?" he asked, I sighed.
"Another week then I'm home stuck for another week after that," I answered.
"That's shitty man, I didn't even get you to try beer yet."
"Ya're actin' like I ain't gonna get topside again, I'll be out in two weeks unless Don finds something else wrong."
"Why didn't you call me, when you and Leo have a fight you always call me."
"Wasn't thinkin' I guess, I was just so pissed off."
"Wanna talk about it."
"Hell no; I bet Ape or Leo put you up to this anyway."
"Duh, but you did give us a scare dumbass."
"I know, I seem to do that a lot..."
"Guys like us do that, hehe, we cause a lot of trouble."
"You ain't got nothin' on me."
We both laughed, he turned and punched me lightly in the shoulder. Punching him back we chuckled again.
"Call me next time buddy."
"I will."
"You think I could sneak some beer past the guys for you?"
(Leo's POV)
"I told Casey to make sure Raph called him next time he heads out, although from the look on your face it's not going to be anytime soon." April soothed, I smiled.
"Once he can move with ease he'll be out of here before anyone could stop him," I stated April chuckled at that.
"I guess you're right, Raph definitely doesn't like to be keep in the lair," April stated.
"Hard to believe that Raph ever had that bad experience topside..." I muttered, damn did I say that out loud?!
"What happened?" April asked, sighing I shrugged.
"Dunno he never told us, all we know is that he disappeared for a year and when he came back he was timid and thin... None of us know what happened to him, he's chosen to forget about it I guess." I answered, "don't tell him I told you, he doesn't like people to pity him, so he decided to never speak of that year ever again."
"That would explain the personality," April said I smirked.
"Nope he had this personality before, the only difference was the control he had over his temper and what he does when he gets mad." I replied, "he used to be more open too..."
"Raphael sure is strong, at first he seemed so hard to follow but when we were at the farm-house I saw how gentle and caring he could be."
"Would you believe that's how he always used to act, of course, he still had that temper and sarcasm."
"Hehe. Did you two get along back then?"
"Yep, we were inseparable, although we did bicker. Raph was always acting so tough, he acted more like a big brother than I did. Then one day it all changed, and we began to fight."
"You still want to be close to him like that, don't you?"
"Yes. Raph does too I think, but something happened that we can't undo. Till that's mended I don't think we'll ever stop fighting."
I felt April's had on my shoulder and she smiled at me soothingly. I smiled back, the burden felt a bit lighter, it was nice to get some of that off my chest.
(Raph's POV)
Twirling my sais in my hand absently I stared at my wall completely and utterly bored out of my skull. I would rather listen to one of Mikey's stories than just staring at my wall. Ugh. I know Splinter refused to give me a tv out of punishment for getting myself in trouble. It's not like I planned to be attacked by foot ninja, I just went for a run to clear my head.
I heard a knock at my door, "come in," I said.
The door creaked open and I saw Don holding up the first-aid kit. I guess he needs to replace my bandages, sighing I waited for him to reach the bed before removing my blankets and hanging my legs over the edge of my bed.
"Care to tell me about why your shell is not attached anymore?" he questioned as he began to remove my bandages.
"You don't need to know," I growled I heard him sigh heavily.
"I'm not saying this just as your little brother but as the closest thing to a doctor we have. Whatever happened to you that year you were missing is sure to have effects on not only your body but on your mind too. Mind you I'm not telling you to spill everything, but can you please tell me anything will greatly affect your well-being." he stated, I frowned. "But as your little brother, I feel the need to tell you that if you did spill everything. That I doubt any of us would pity you or at all feel hatred or disgust from you. We all missed you and we were so happy to get you back, none of us could every hate you."
I stared at him for a moment before looking down as a few silent tears filled my eyes. He continued bandaging my wounds as composed myself again.
"Donnie, thanks... Can I tell you something...?" I replied he nodded giving me his full attention. "That place I was in.. well they used me as an experiment..."
I looked at his face as his expression turned to horror before I could mentally curse myself he drew me into a brotherly hug. Wrapping my arms around him I hugged him back, much like I had done when we were kids. Letting me go I pulled back soon he was continuing his job of wrapping my wounds.
"Raph thank you for trusting me, I promise I won't tell anyone." he stated, as he finished wrapping my wounds.
"Yeah don't pull a Mikey on me." I half-teased, he smiled before patting my shoulder and leaving the room.
(Mikey's POV)
I opened Raph's door a plate of some freshly made cookies in hand for the most likely totally bored Raphie. Looking at him I saw him glance up at me from the book he was reading; okay since when did he read novels?
"Didn't know you read books without pictures?" I teased, he glared at me.
"Haha, goofball. I used ta read ya this book when we were kids," he replied, flopping on the chair by his bed I held out the plate of cookies.
"Was it called?" I asked as he grabbed a cookie.
"It was the book of fairy-tales an' fables, you always made me read Cinderella cuz ya wanted ta be a princess." he answered.
"I remember, Donnie always liked the prince and the pauper, Leo liked that scorpion and the frog fable. I bet your favorite was Robin Hood or Excalibur."
"Actually I preferred beauty and the beast."
"Is that the girl in you talking?"
"Don't make me hit you!"
"Sorry sheesh... So why was it your favorite?"
"I saw myself as the beast I guess... I'm surprised you didn't spill my secret to everyone."
"I'm not that cruel telling everyone would be making you April's girlfriend to shop for. You in a dress would be the scariest thing on the face of this planet."
"I would be offended but I never want her to make me wear a dress."
"So if you and Leo get back together could you every have a baby?"
"Technically yes."
"Technically, come on you'd make a great parent."
"For the moment Mikey, I could never think of having a kid, even hypothetically."
"Why?"
"Just drop it alright!"
"Sheesh, touchy... I wish I could be a girl just like you, then me and Don could have cute little babies and.."
"Get out."
"Why?"
"Just get out, now!"
"Alright fine."
Grabbing the plate of cookies I left his room, slamming the door shut for good measure. What's his deal? I was just saying how nice it would be able to have kids like him... Wait, Raph became a girl when he was missing could whoever have done that tried to make him have kids! What if...
Turning back to stare at his door, I ran back into the room dropping the plate of cookies. Before he could yell to kick me out I wrapped my arms around him giving him the best hug I could manage.
"I didn't mean to cross a line, I'm sorry Raphie."
"Get offa me, ya don't know what ya're talkin' about!"
"I'm so sorry..."
"Idiot! You're such an idiot..."
(Raph's POV)
I shifted as I laid with my head resting on Leo's shoulder, me and him haven't said a word to each other. All we did was he gave me a hug as he entered sat next to me on the bed and I leaned my head on his shoulder. He didn't really need to speak his presence was comforting enough for me.
"Raph please be more careful." he muttered, I frowned.
"I will Leo, I just wasn't thinking too clearly," I replied.
"You never are when this kind of stuff happens."
"I guess that's true. Man, I'm an idiot."
"That's for sure."
"You're not supposed to agree with me ass!"
"Haha, why argue with the truth."
"Bastard!"
Angrily I leaned back and shoved him off the bed, turning around he poked one of my wounds on my arm. I kicked him in the shine, leaning over he kissed me lightly.
"This is so different from before."
"Yeah, you're twice the annoying prick."
"No, I mean look at us before we had been so cutsie, no we act like a couple from one of Mikey's cartoons."
"Don't compare us to cartoon characters."
"You're so tsundere."
"Mikey's been making you watch too much anime with him."
"Come on you watch anime too."
"Yeah manly ones, like Dragonball Z, or Bleach, not stupid crap like the sailor shit Mikey watches."
"I'm with you on that one I no idea how he can love that show so much..."
"Well, I can think of a reason..."
"Really?"
"How chicks wearing really short skirts doing lots of fighting which moves that tiny skirt around."
"Surprised you notice stuff like?"
"hehe... I love ya Leo but I can very easily understand Casey when we have talks about women. I love ya for who ya are, and I doubt that change no matter what gender ya were."
"Sounds kinda ridiculous to me."
I froze up, is he saying he would love me if he knew that I was... Biting my lip I turned to glare at him.
"You saying it's dumb that love you only for who you are?"
"I just think if one of us were a different gender our personality would be different, so I guess I just don't believe that gender has no role in who you are. Why does that bother you so much it's not like that would ever happen?"
"Allow me one little sap thing but it kinda sounds romantic."
"Aww, you can be a sap."
"Shut up douche!"
"Well I better head out, training is starting soon. I'll come back to see you later my little sap."
I watched as he left the room, I felt myself grip onto my sheet angrily. I can't tell him, he really won't love me anymore! I was right! He'll hate me! Hugging my knees to my chest I leaned my face against them as I sobbed.
"why... god and I almost told too... he'll hate me... I never get to be with him again..." I muttered, choking back a few more sobs I buried face further into my knees.