Note from author: This fic was originally called "Everything's Going to be Okay" and "Forty-Six and Two" (after a Tool song…look I was like 16 and impulsively posted this before anything was thought out). If you read this while it was still under those two titles and didn't like it, maybe try giving this one another go? My writing style has changed as has a lot of the plot, meaning a lot of the crappy writing (i.e. 95% of it being dialogue and plot holes so big you could drive a train through it…) has been fixed (hopefully).

Also, this isn't a KicktheStickz or an imagine/reader. The pairing is Chris with a female OC, written in first person, from both perspectives (so if I say something personal about anybody don't assume I'm writing from firsthand knowledge, they're all relatively private about their personal lives so most of the personal stuff was made up for creative purposes and I'm not claiming it as fact).

Last note, but this fic also contains a lot of potentially "triggering" material. I do my best to put trigger warnings at the beginning of every chapter so please read all notes if you need to. One major theme throughout is drug use/abuse so be warned of that because it won't be tagged due to the frequency (just assume every chapter contains drug use/abuse).

Alright I'm all done. Please enjoy and please comment because it'll help me improve my writing and encourage me to update more frequently!