tl;dr for anybody that doesn't want to read the giant wall of text: I had a lot going on and didn't really have energy/time to write this, plus I got discouraged after a few years. Too much has changed, so you will need to reread everything to understand what's going on in the new chapters. This is the last chapter but feel free to ask about how I originally planned to end things or really anything!
I don't know if anybody is reading this but I hope you are safe and healthy! Quarantine must have me feeling some type of way since I actually finished this…lol? Anyway, this is long but I owe anybody who is still reading this an explanation… I was a junior in high school when I started this whole thing and a senior when I said I was rewriting. I know it's been almost 7 years but let me tell you what's happened since.
I broke up with my boyfriend at the time, graduated high school, started at a community college (in this summer is when I got the other two fics finished), got my first job, entered an emotionally abusive/toxic relationship, graduated with an Associate's in Communication (cum laude!), started at a university, ended the abusive relationship, started my first professional internship, was kicked out of my (abusive) dad's house, moved in with a friend who let me stay until I got back on my feet, got sucked back into the abusive relationship, was kicked out again but found a place on my own only be homeless 2 months later and living in the same house with the toxic relationship, ended the relationship (for the last time), moved in with my grandma, started my first office job, lost my cousin and uncle to suicide within two months, went to NYC, moved out of my grandma's house, started a new fulltime job on the night shift, went back to NYC, started my senior internship, lost both of my mom's parents to COVID-19, and, finally, today, while quarantined, I graduated with a Bachelor's in Social Work.
I began to rewrite everything because I realized I SUCKED. It was awful, like 90% dialogue, plot holes so large Jupiter would be small in comparison, no actual storyline, just terrible. I don't know how anybody could stomach any of this and u are all fake for telling me I'm great bc I wasn't! (I'm jk, shout out to the people who encouraged me to continue writing, I hope you still follow this and are reading this). But then I completely revised how I wrote and I'm a lot more confident in the quality. When I did have time to write, I wouldn't have energy or inspiration. I ended up finishing the other two fics a year after announcing my hiatus, but I always fell short with this one. I've honestly rewritten it like five times and I'm not exaggerating. As in like a complete overhaul because this one was the fucking worst of all of them. I would just use whatever stupid fucking idea popped into my idiot head even though it didn't FUCKING MAKE ANY SENSE! AT ALL! WHY WAS SHE CUBAN BUT ALSO NATIVE AMERICAN AS IN LIKE TO THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE AND WHY WAS I SO CRINGEY AS A TEENAGER! Like this is almost completely a new story. I could just put this out as a new story and no one would know because of how much has changed, but I'm not because it is heavily based off the original character, with a story line following a similar plot. Most of what changed was the backstory, but the events that happen within the fic are more or less the same, though out of order. ANYWAY! Although it may not seem like it, I've written a LOT in this time. I never abandoned it, it was just the rewriting that took a bulk of the time and then the years started passing by with no progress because this was so much work and I got discouraged. I love this story and I love this character so I continued.
You will need to reread everything before reading the new chapters. With that being said, I'm not continuing this. I just don't have the passion for Chris like I did when I was 16, most of my drive came from my love for the character and the plotline I recreated. I'm writing this before posting so I'm not sure how many chapters will be left afterwards, but I've posted those along with this and that is the end. BUT, if anybody wants to know the original ending or any of the plans I had for this or anything else, I would love to talk about it! Also the name is changing after I post this lol I'm crazy