Chapter 7: Emotional Overdrive

Honestly Alexinia didn't even really know why she had decided to come to college for classes. Sure she had gotten her high school diploma through online courses ages ago, but she had never thought she would actually be a college student. Always figuring that there would be no time, following Nik and the leads for the ritual meant they traveled a lot, too much for her to even think about it. And she had never really given a thought to the job she wanted for the future, especially not one in the non-supernatural world, there had always been a feeling in the back of her mind that she wouldn't survive the war.
Or maybe it was that a part of her had played with the possibility of asking Nik to turn her. It had been constantly on her mind since Cedric's death in the cemetery, that mortal life was fleeting, and that she was scared what would happen to Nik when she was gone. Could she really leave him all alone?

So when she had asked Nik a couple days ago to turn her, he had declared boredom was making her crazy, which had somehow led to the him convincing her to apply for some college courses. She had a mixture of courses not really planning on a major, but she was taking psychology and nurse classes, her need to help people always making itself known. Plus she had also signed up for a writing and cooking class wanting to improve her skills in both. It had gotten her some odd looks when she registered, but she knew the administrators probably thought she was just trying the waters until she decided on a major.

Of course she wasn't going to be living on campus Nik wouldn't allow that, his overprotective tendencies made it so he wanted her at his side where he could make sure no harm came to her. Although maybe part of it was that he was also afraid she might find another vampire in his minions to turn her. She didn't understand why he didn't want to turn her. Honestly she had thought he would be happy she had made the choice, but instead he seemed a little withdrawn. They still spent time together, but at the same time there was a slight distance that hadn't been there before.

Alexinia was so lost in her thoughts she hadn't noticed anyone was walking in front of her until they both went flying to the ground. Although luckily there were on the grass, and not the pavement where they both could have gotten hurt.

"Oh my god I'm so sorry, I'm such a space case, are you alright?" A blonde woman with hazel eyes, probably only a few years older then her asked. Most of the time Alexinia would have been suspicious, but there was something about this woman that seemed so genuine, and her eyes were warm.

"It was as much my fault as it was yours, so I'm sorry as well, and I'm perfectly alright."

"Oh my god your accent is adorable! You're from England right? Oh where are my manners, I'm Jenna Sommers."

"Yes Jenna I'm from England and I'm Alexinia Potter."

"Old fashioned name, are you a Lady, oh my god did I just knock over a genuine English Lady!"

"Jenna, it's fine. Honestly, and well the house of Potter is technically a noble house, I don't use my title. It's a bit too stuffy in my opinion considering my age."

"Sorry, I'm just so spaced out today. You know what I think we are going to be great friends Ali."

It shocked Alexinia at the sudden nickname, but she found she liked it. Jenna's reaction might have been a little odd, but it was genuine and endearing. It was nice to have someone flustered not over who she was, but the fact that they had literally ran each other over.

"I think we will be great friends too Jen."

Waking up from dreaming of her first meeting with Jen, Alexinia took it as a sign that everything would be alright. Yawning she froze as she felt muscles shifting underneath her. Unlike the last time she found herself in bed with Nik though, this time she was sprawled right over top of him, his legs hooked over hers where they rested in between his thighs, and she had been using his chest as a pillow. His hands were underneath her shirt, but only just resting on her back, there was nothing really inappropriate about how they were sleeping, but it made her flush just the same considering she imagined it would be how old married couples slept. The only consolation was at least this time Nik was sound asleep. A part of her was just so comfortable she debated just going back to sleep, pretending like she didn't know how this might look to anyone who came in. Jen would never let this go if she found out.

Honestly if her best human friend was here right now, she would be telling Alexinia to tease Nik, to pay him back for everything he had been doing to her. And usually Alexinia wouldn't even think about it, but she remembered how she had almost kissed Nik last night. It was as if her inhibitions were a little lower then usual, and she found herself tracing small circles on Nik's chest. His abs were solid, and she didn't know if it was due to his vampire genes, or his workout regime, could a vampire get fat?

Staring at his tattoo she found herself following it tracing the birds and the feather lightly, his pecs were like a gift to man kind. Somehow she found herself lightly kissing one of the birds, tracing it's wings with her tongue suddenly having a desire to see if that tattoo tasted different then his normal skin, and the next thing she knew she was on her back Nik hovering over her lust shining in his eyes, his eyes riveted to her chest and with a squeak Alexinia realized her shirt had slipped enough in her sleep or during the flip that Nik could see her right boob. Clearly able to tell she was turned on by the pebbled nipple, even though he could also most likely smell her arousal. Tracing his tattoo had turned her on, Alexinia had never felt this way before. Feeling shy at the hungry look in Nik's eyes she wanted to move her hands to cover herself, but Nik still had her hands pinned under his own. It was clear he was aroused and a light moan slipped out of Alexinia's mouth when she shifted slightly accidentally brushing their cores together. His hard length probably having some of the moisture from her arousal on it, with how aroused she was it would surprise her if her clothes and underwear were completely ruined.

And then suddenly she was alone. Nik had fled a light tinge of red on his face, it was all Alexinia had seen before he was gone. Blushing like mad, not knowing what had come over her, she darted into her room not knowing when Nik might come back. In all the years she had known him, with all of his teasing, things had never gone like this. She had never done anything like this. What had come over her? Why would she suddenly find herself making moves on him when he had been sleeping? And why did she wish Nik hadn't left? It would have changed everything. Just like Katherine said she would have become on of those pathetic witches. Ruined everything with Nik, over some lust.

Screaming in frustration Alexinia wrote a brief note, even in her harried state she didn't want to worry Nik, gone to see Jen, and then apparated out of her bedroom after a quick shower and change of clothes, not wanting to risk seeing her mortal best friend looking like she had just gotten laid. Not even wanting to take the risk of running into Nik before she processed everything that had happened.

"Alexinia what are you doing here?" Alaric asked suspiciously, he was the one who came to the door when she rang the bell. She hadn't realized things between him and Jen were that serious.

"I need to talk to Jenna."

Perhaps he had seen the desperation in her eyes or heard it in her voice, but Alaric moved aside. Allowing her to enter the house. All Alexinia was focused on the moment was the fact that Jenna could help her. Make her realize she hadn't ruined things with Nik. Her emotions had just been strange, it must be close to that time of the month, and her hormones were all out of wack. That was the only explanation on why she would suddenly want to stop fighting this attraction she had always had for her best friend.

"Oh hey Ali, is it time to go already?"

It was that innocent statement that made Alexinia realize she had slept most of the day away. She was supposed to be talking to Jen about Elena and the ritual, and here she was worried about Nik. God she was an awful friend to the both of them.

Tears were streaming down her face. She was going to lose both of her friends. The ones who meant more to her then anyone in the world. Maybe she really was cursed. Everyone she loved left her eventually. Perhaps she was destined to be alone?

"Alexinia Ivy Potter, whatever the hell you are thinking stop right now. Ric honey would you mind leaving for a little while, it seems like Alexinia is in major need of an intervention before she goes and does something stupid."

Wow Jen had never used her full name in the time Alexinia had known her, she didn't even remember telling Jen her middle name. Unlike when she had met Nik, and was so happy to finally be able to introduce herself to someone, she hadn't added the middle name in their introduction.

She was only vaguely aware of Alaric leaving, and being led upstairs to Jen's room. Being made to sit on the bed and Jen just sitting there. Unlike her forceful words downstairs it seemed she was waiting for Alexinia to start. It was reasons like this that she loved Jenna. She always seemed to know how to snap her out of a panic attack before they started.

"I felt Nik up, I woke up on top of him, in an innocent way, and it was like something primal came over me. I started tracing his abs, and then his tattoo I traced part of it with my tongue. Jen I've never felt like that before, I was so turned on, but I can't want Nik like that. Oh god Nik saw my boob, he knows he turned me on, he was hard and he bloody ran away!"

Jen was looking at her in pure shock. "Ali I can't believe I've never asked you this before, but are you a virgin?" Squeaking she nodded her head. "Sweetie he probably knows you aren't ready for that. Knowing Mr. Overprotective Want to Be Lover, he probably thought you were having a dream, and left before he could lose control. And he wouldn't do something like that with you if you two aren't together. You mean to much to him for him to use you for release no matter how much you turned him on."

Logically Alexinia knew Jen was right, but it still stung a little that Nik had left like that. Even though at the same time she was grateful. She didn't want to change things between them. Maybe she could just act like nothing happened when she got home, treat Nik like normal, and hope he wouldn't bring it up. She knew running from her problems wouldn't solve anything, but she just couldn't confront any of this right now. Not when they were so close to finally breaking Nik's curse. Neither of them needed this sort of distraction. Of course she wasn't going to tell Jen what she had decided knowing her friend wouldn't agree, but she couldn't face how Nik made her feel. Not now, and possibly not ever.

AN: I know it's a short chapter, but I finally got inspiration after all this time. Hope you guys like it, and hopefully it would be so long before the next one. And yes I know Alexinia is over reacting, but she's been through a lot, and trust me I've seen other girls react worse over just a conversation dissection, not something like this. Hope you enjoy, and thanks for sticking with me despite the sporadic updates.