Chapter 60
The warm water of the shower cascades down my body. Only a few minutes in and I can already feel the tension dispersing. Though it's only temporary relief, I'll take what I can get.
It's still running through the back of my mind though. How my closest friends are actually goddesses from another dimension. That sort of development only happens in the movies.
But the thing that's really worrying me is the two gods taking refuge in my body. My heart is tainted with Arfoire's kiss. But the boon of Nepgear suppresses it.
I place a hand on my chest, under it I can see a faint light coming from it. I'm not dreaming, there really is a magical rock embedded in my heart now.
Nepgear gave up a piece of her life to save mine. I'm indebted to her now. Still… I'm not sure what my feelings are for her now. I basically called our relationship quits after I found out the truth.
Now that I think about it… she did seem kind of manipulative in the beginning. And if my memory serves me well, she, as well as everyone else started to gain more feelings for me.
Maybe… Just maybe… they really are my friends after all. Perhaps I was too hasty in my judgment on the situation. Even though the details are still hazy in my mind, but I can feel like they were fighting to get me back the whole time.
"Tch… even when I'm an ass I can't get rid of them." I whisper to myself while giving a smug grin.
I look up to the ceiling once more to take in everything. Feeling the warm water against my skin brings me to a state of clear mind.
All of my burdens are being washed away. All of my stress leaves my being. Yet all my sin remains with me forever. I can accept that though, my sin is the cross that I've chosen to bear.
Damn, being in the shower this long has given too much time to think about life. And on a lesser note, being more philosophical than usual.
Feeling that I'm at the peak of relaxation, I turn off the water and step out of the shower. I grab the towel that I picked out earlier and begin to dry myself off. Not long after, I wrap it around my waist to cover myself.
I think after I get back to my room, I'm just going to lie down and sleep for the night. Too much crazy shit's already happened to me in just the span of a few hours.
I walk out of the bathroom and turn off the lights and close the door. My room is only a few steps left to me, so my door is in sight. But before I move something unexpected hits me.
"Oh goodness… what if this he doesn't like me anymore?" I can hear Nepgear's frantic voice. The strange thing is that it's coming from inside my head.
I believe she did mention something about us being able to tell what the other is thinking now. She must be back across the street worrying about me. I'll be sure to set things straight in the morning.
I reach my hand out to open the door and turn the knob.
"*Click* *Creak*"
"Huh?" I don't even need to turn on the lights to see that Nepgear's standing in my room. The moonlight on this December night is enough for me to see her.
She's hold her arms behind her back and looking to the floor. It's still dark, so I can't tell if she's blushing or not, but I wouldn't put it past her.
Suddenly, our eyes make contact. We look away from each other as quickly as we looked towards each other. It's really awkward to say the least.
"Jack…" Nepgear is the one to break what seems like an eternity of silence.
"Jack… I'm sorry… I'm so, so sorry." She's apologizing for what seems to be the millionth time tonight. Just a few minutes ago she was smiling from ear to ear because I came back.
I guess the guilt is hitting her again. And I can't blame her for it. To be fair, I owe her an apology as well.
"Nepgear…before you say anything… I'm sorry as well…"
"No, what you did was understandable. In your time of need we abandoned you and Arfoire was the one who brought you comfort." She clenched her fists.
"Even though I hate Arfoire with every bit of my existence…" Her eyes begin to tear up.
"I feel like deceiving you about the whole reason why I'm here and it seeming like I never loved you is more of an issue." Her tears stream down her face.
"I'm sorry…" Nepgear's voice sounds weak and frail.
Nepgear closes her eyes and faces the ground. A solemn reminder that they did in fact lie to me. I want to think that everything's alright… but it still gnaws in the back of my mind.
But I still hate it when a girl cries. Maybe after what I'm about to do I can forgive her. Even if it takes a while, I want to trust her with my life again.
"Huh?" Nepgear ceases her crying and opens her eyes. I moved forward and embraced her. Hopefully, the warmth in my body makes her feel better.
"I'm not going to give any big I'm sorry speeches. But I will say this. I still love you Nepgear, I might not trust you right now, but I still care for you deeply. And no matter what…" I pause to collect my thoughts.
"I'll never leave you like that again…" My own tears stream down my face now.
"And as long as I have you with me… Arfoire won't ever take me away again…" I can't say much passed that. I'm still coming to terms with tonight, and it feels great to just let it all out.
For a while we stand here, her shocked in my arms, and me steadily crying all my emotions out. I wasn't lying; I still love her with everything that I have.
Finally, she wraps her arms around me in a warm embrace. I don't waver however. Instead I accept it and continue crying over her shoulder.
One of my hands slowly strokes her beautiful, long, lilac hair. The feeling is comforting to say the least. And the stone in my chest resonates with this. All I feel from this resonance is warmth.
Nepgear nuzzles her head into my chest, further increasing my warmth. Once again it starts to feel like the time when I trusted her completely.
My mind goes blank briefly only for it to return quickly. That stone must be affecting my mind or something. I don't care about it though, Nepgear gave it to me, and so it's important to me.
Out of instinct, I place one of my hands on her chin and lift it up. I look into Nepgear's eyes and feel another surge of warmth. Damn, is that stone going to make me feel everything more intensely?
Even through the confusion, I lean my head down going in for a kiss. She raises her head up and our lips meet for our back together kiss.
"*Kiss* *Kiss* *Smack*" Our usual make out noises can be heard. No one else is here except for Maurice, and he's passed out drunk in the other room.
As expected, both of our tongues glide through the others mouth. The slick walls and irresistible taste of her kiss is more than enough for me to feel happy again.
"Ah!" Nepgear pulls out from my mouth and yelps in surprise. Apparently my hand has a mind of its own and decided to go a little low and feel her cute rump through her dress.
"S-sorry… My instincts must've taken over…" I'm embarrassed by that. I didn't mean to reach down that low.
"I-it's alright…" She fidgets nervously.
"In fact… I don't care if you touch me…" Her last sentence is weak. Nepgear's entire face is flushed red and looking to the ground.
Nepgear kicks off her shoes right next to my bed after she's done speaking. Then she starts to take off her incredibly long socks. When they're finally off I realize that this is the first time I've seen her without those socks on.
"Wh-what are you doing?!" I'm nervous, surprised, and a little scared to be honest.
"Showing you… just how much you mean to me." She looks to the ground even more then she was.
"When I saw you run out of my apartment angry, I felt destroyed. I was worried that our relationship had ended." She says as she starts to unbutton her dress.
"That made me realize that we may never get another chance to do something like this." Nepgear finishes her unbuttoning and is holding the two halves of her dress together.
"And… we were going to do this before… now… I think I'm ready…" She lets her dress fall to the ground. Revealing her pink and white striped bra and panties.
Nepgear holds her arms together around her body, constantly fidgeting over how unclothed she is right now.
Part of me is saying this is a trick just to get me on their side most definitely. But when I tap into the feelings of my chest stone, I sense that her motives are pure and she really does love me this much.
"Nepgear… I'm not sure we're ready for this kind of thing… And what about Neptune? She'll kill me!"
Nepgear shakes her head slowly while retaining her nervous look. "Sis was the one who told me to do this… She trusts that you'll take care of me."
Nepgear takes a few steps forward and sits down on my lap. With her being the girl I'm in love with and her being half naked, naturally I get hard from this.
She puts her arms around my neck and swinging her hips back and forth to rub against my bulge. Now my bulge becomes more apparent through the towel, growing ever so steadily.
As it rises like dough, Nepgear's breathing becomes heavier and her sweating increases tremendously.
"haa… haa… Jack… I love you…" She calls out to me through her constant rubbing. Nepgear lays her head down on my shoulder, squealing in joy for what seems like forever.
Looking down, I see a wet spot on her underwear. I'm not very keen on the subject of sex so I don't know what that means. For now though I'll say that it's a good thing.
My dick enlarges to its highest form. Just a little above average, I think it's nothing to be ashamed of. If anything, average is just the right size in theory.
As it reaches its size, my towel splits and reveals my completely naked form. Nepgear notices this and gets off me to stand back up.
"It's my first time so… forgive me if I'm not that great…" Nepgear, both of us are in the same boat on that one. Hell, I can't even believe I'm doing something like this.
I stand up with her and place both my hands on her shoulders for reassurance.
"If you don't want to do this it's alright. I already know that you love me. I…no, we both had our moments of weakness. Now the best thing to do would be to move on." I just want the bad situation to end.
"No! I deceived you and I still don't think you love me! I-I want to go through with this…for you…for us…" Nepgear's really determined to prove her love to me.
That's one of the reasons why I like her in the first place, it's also something I hate too. She has this tendency to feel guilty for herself even after things calm down. That is unless she resolves it.
Standing here now, I can feel Nepgear's passion to keep me around. I know we just had a huge fight and all, but she doesn't care about that in the slightest. All she wants is to make sure I'm around and that I'm happy with her.
Maybe we are ready to become Shakespeare's metaphorical "beast with two backs." I love her, and she loves me… "Alright, I'm ready for this."
Nepgear moves her hands around to undo her bra strap. The piece of clothing falls to the ground, revealing her breasts. They're not the biggest ones in the world, but they're on the girl that I love, so they outrank every other pair.
She holds both of her hands behind her back and rocks back and forth nervously. "Do you… Like them?"
I move forward and embrace her with a hug. "I like every part of you… but your breasts are extremely beautiful."
Nepgear blushes even more by my statement. I'm not sure if this is what feeling "horny" is like, but my feelings for her become even more amplified when I stare at her.
I can feel her soft pillows pressing against me from our hug. They feel great against me. So great that it's to the point where I'm losing control of my own thoughts and my primal desires kick in.
Turning our positions around, I lay her down on my bed gently. Nepgear's head looks down to her wet panties and back up to my eyes.
Getting a feeling for what that means, my fingers go into the clothing from the side and I pull them down her legs. When I look back up, I'm met with the most private area of hers.
"I…I guess since we've seen each other… there's no going back…" Nepgear puts on a weak smile. I can tell she's extremely nervous about the situation and is trying to hide it.
From what little I know of female anatomy, if it's a girls first time, there's a good chance that it'll be painful at first. I'll try to be as painless as possible Nepgear, but I make no promises.
I crawl onto my bed and position myself above Nepgear. Her heavy breathing and my heavy breathing mix, creating a sound that screams pure nervousness.
"Nepgear… before we start. I want to apologize if this hurts too much. And… if you want to stop, just tell me…"
Nepgear places one of her hands on my cheek. "It's alright, I don't care as long as I'm with you. I know you'll do your best." Damn she really loves me.
My head goes down and we meet for one last kiss before the defining moment. I use one of my hands to position my penis around her entrance. All that's left is for me to put it in.
I lower my hips to try and penetrate Nepgear. So far only about half the head is sticking in and she's already twitching like crazy.
"Mmn… Nmmn…" She holds her breath nervously. It almost sounds like I'm stifling her but it's different.
Instead I notice that she's breathing heavily through her nose. Something foreign is entering her, it's understandable. Her twisted face though is a mix of pain and pleasure.
I use more effort to enter her vagina. Trying not to hurt her too much, I go slow and steady. Then again, that might just prolong the pain.
"Mmn… I-is it… Mmn… all the way in yet?" Nepgear asks after she finally exhales.
"No sadly… just the tip…"
"Don't hold back… ah… I can take it…" She puts on a fake brave smile to reassure me. I know that she's just as worried as I am. But I won't back out after I've come so close.
I try to put more effort into pushing through. The foreign object in her body right now seems to disagree with me though. A little after the head was put in, I reached an area where I can't seem to break through.
Right now, the walls of her genitals are closing in tightly on my dick. Just this amount of pressure on the tip is enough to make me feel immense amount of pleasure.
If this is what the tip feels like then I can't wait to see what the rest of it will feel like when I finally go in all the way.
So far all I've been able to do is move a few millimeters at a time. At this rate it may take all night just to get in all the way.
I look down to Nepgear once more. Again, she's holding her breath nervously in anticipation. One of her eyes is closed while the other is half open. Perhaps I should stop being so cautious and take some risks.
"Alright Nepgear, here I come."
I apply more force to my thrust into her. As I make some more progress, I see the look on her face is changing. Now she must be feeling a lot of the pain that I've heard about.
Just a little more Nepgear… Just a little more and that pain will turn into pleasure. I can feel her hymen stretching to the situation.
All I have to do is give it a little more force. A little more force and…
"Ah!" I feel my entire dick go all the way inside her now. Oh crap… I just ripped straight through the hymen without a care.
I look down at our connection and see some blood trickle out of it. This sight disturbs me, but the face Nepgear makes when I look back up disturbs me more.
Both of her eyes are shut closed. A lot of tears are forming around her eyes. And worst of all, she's biting her lip from the pain she's feeling right now.
Her nails dig deep into the skin of my back. It hurts me of course but I ignore the pain because her safety is my number one concern right now.
"Nepgear! Are you alright?" I ask with serious concern in my voice.
She manages to open up one eye and put on another smile. "It's…ok Jack… Keep going… the worst is over…" She closes the eye she opened after that.
Part of me want to end this right now and just go to sleep. But the other part of me wants to stay and continue for her sake.
I think I'll keep going just to see if this really turns out to be something beautiful. Because all I've seen so far is pain.
"Ok Nepgear, you did good. Just lie there… I'll finish this up as quickly as I can." I don't want to cause her anymore pain.
Nepgear nods while still closing her eyes. I lean down and plant another kiss on her lips to take her mind off the pain she's feeling right now.
I try to pull out slowly but the tightness of her vagina is proving difficult to combat. All around my penis, I feel like soft, slippery walls are clamping down on it, preventing my retreat.
I won't let it conquer me though. With more effort on my pulling out, I exit her until I can see the glands of my penis. With it comes a wave of fluids which is a mixture of blood and other things that I don't know the name of.
"Ugh!... haa… haa… haa…"
I can tell she's still in a great deal of pain, and is trying to block it out. Her rugged breaths are a sign though that she'll come to accept this penetration.
"I'm going to put it back in and pull out more… tell me if it hurts too much ok?"
All I get in response is a nod and one eye opening to see me. Bless her heart, I hope she feels good from this later on.
Pushing back in, I'm met with the same resistance I've seen this whole night. While I'm out, it wants to keep me out, and while I'm in, it wants to keep me in.
Luckily the walls of her pussy are slick enough from her fluids to where I can slide in easier. Once again, I make it to the deepest part of her, hitting the entrance to her womb.
I repeat this process of assaulting and retreating just as quickly as I came in. Through this pounding of sorts, Nepgear hasn't shown one sign of feeling better from this.
"Ugh… Ah… Ow…" Though all she can do is grunt different things, it's clear that there's great discomfort in her.
I know that she's not feeling much pleasure from this… but I'm starting to feel great. The way her genitals won't let me go and then try and keep me out builds up a tension in my crotch area that feels like it needs to be expelled.
"Faster… go… faster…" Nepgear calls to me. Not sure what that'll accomplish but what the hell.
With that, I increase my pace of sliding in and out, becoming more animalistic as I continue on. Relying more on my power rather than precision.
"Hyan! … M-Mhm…Aaah!" She's becoming more audible as I continue on. Both of our breathing takes a lean on more of the heavy side as the pleasure builds up in me.
"Nngh… Jack! … I think I'm finally starting to feel it!" She yells to me while opening her eyes.
For the first during this experience I think that she's feeling genuine pleasure and not discomfort.
"Nepgear… kuh… this feels really good."
Nepgear and I repeatedly repeat this. Before I only went as deep as could be on occasion. Now, I'm hitting her there every time.
Her back arches up from the experience. This surprises me and causes my head to fall onto her chest.
Her breasts are really soft and warm. Not to mention the sweat that's coming off from both of us is making it all the more enjoyable.
Feeling more adventurous, I use one of my free hands that was propping me up to feel around a little. Eventually my index finger and thumb meet on her nipple.
"Aah!... If you do that!... my mind will go blank!" I don't care, she's finally feeling good and that's all that counts.
I continue to lightly pinch her nipple, causing it become like a pebble is a matter of moments. As well as maintain my moderately fast pace of pounding her.
"Nhaaah… ah… when you touch me like that I…" She can't finish her thought. A well timed nipple pinch and womb hit put her at a loss for words.
Her entire face is red and so is my body. Nepgear's nipple is read as well from the constant teasing that it's been getting recently.
"The way your penis moves in me… it feels amazing…"
Once again, my pace increases to a speed that causes her to cry out again like a banshee. We're past the point of pain for sure. Now she's feeling like a true goddess.
"Nepgear… I'm about to…" I can't even finish that statement, I'm too entranced by the pleasure.
"Me too Jack… Let's do this together…"
Hearing her say that makes me pinch her nipple a few more times than usual and get more rough. The sound of me making full contact can be heard throughout the room.
Every time I hit up into her stomach as she put it once, I feel more tension build up that just needs to be released. And it's going to come soon…
"Nepgear… I love you!" I call out randomly.
"I-I love you too Jack!"
With all the strength I have left in my body I push all the way into her and unleash my hot white semen. The second it came out, my entire body lost all of its strength and collapsed on her.
At the same time, she came herself, releasing a wave of clear fluid to mix in with my semen. Below me, I can hear her panting heavily.
I roll over to where she's on top of me now. We're still connected, and some of what we just released pours out of said connection. I'm going to have to change these sheets later.
"Nepgear… haa… that was amazing… haa…" I say to her between my heavy breaths.
"Haa… haa… Yeah… haa… it felt great… haa…" Her breathing is heavier then mine, but it's understandable since she felt more of it then I'll ever fell. After all, women are more sensitive.
"So… where do we go from here?" I ask the big question of the night to her.
Nepgear closes her eyes and smiles at me. "As long as I have you with me… I don't care where we go…"
Her words reach my shattered heart and mend it more. I now know that I can trust her again. Tonight was just one of those nights where something comes up.
I look at her, the sweat on her skin shines with the moonlight coming from the window blinds.
"I love you Nepgear."
"I love you too Jack."
Such honest words meant a lot to me. We're connected now, in more ways then one. Both by a magic stone and the fact that we just had sex.
I pull out of Nepgear and place a blanket over the both of us. After an event like that I'd say we need to get some sleep. It was a nice diversion, but in the morning all of us need to discuss the immediate threat.
But for now, I'll focus on Nepgear and nothing else.
"Huh?" She's already fallen asleep on me. Her skin touching mine must've made it really comfortable for that to happen so fast.
I kiss the tip of her nose one last time.
"Sweet dreams Nepgear. I'll see you in the morning."
A/N: For those of you who were wondering. No, I'm not dead yet. I've just been extremely busy with Marching Band and other school related things. And then there's one thing that really held me up…
Writing a sex scene is harder than one would imagine. Especially if the one who's writing doesn't have any prior experience.
Still though, it couldn't possibly be worse than Black Moon right? Even so, give me some feedback in some areas I need to improve in. Or, just review for the hell of it.
But until then, see you in the next update.
P.S. This chapter would've been almost impossible without the help of one reader. You know who you are.