He felt his heart throb as he closed the door to his dorm. Finally he could let out his emotions, now that nobody saw. Katsuki Bakugou sank to the floor and stayed there, totally exhausted. He still felt the weight of All Might losing his quirk push down on him. It was all his fault. He should have been faster, should have been stronger. If he hadn't been captured All Might hadn't have to come save him and take out all his power.
Bakugou thought about the time he spent with the League of Villains. They are all a bunch of losers, he though. But then he remembered All Might crashing through the wall to save him and the tears began to fall. He sat with his back against the wall and cried like a loser. He didn't want to be a loser, why was he acting so weird and emotional? Arg, just stop it! He threw his head back hard into the wall. He felt the pain, but it didn't feel bad. It felt good to feel something other than just raw emotions. He banged his head against the wall again, this time even harder. But then he heard someone walking in the stairs and came to a stop. The person continued walking up, but now Bakugou was more aware of the noises he made. He sat himself down on the bed and started hitting himself. In the stomach, on his arms, legs. He punched and punched, he got madder and madder. He then punched his arm real hard, accidentally using his quirk and leaving a burnmark the form of his fist. Shit, he thought, I hadn't meant to do that. He tried to rub the mark away, but it just hurt.
Suddenly there was a knock on the door. Bakugou went rigid and searched to room for a long sleeved shirt of something he could hide the mark with.
"Hey Bakugou? You in there?", Kirishima. Another knock.
Just go away. Please go away. No one can see me like this! Go away!
"Bakugou? Open up! I know you're in there!" Fuck. Bakugou silently rose and looked at his tear streaked, red, puffy face in the window. It was almost midnight, what did Kirishima want anyway? He found a big sweater and put it on before pinching his cheeks and drying his tears away.
"What do you want Kirishima?", he tried to sound like his normal self but even he could hear his voice shaking a bit.
"Just open up... please?", now Kirishima's voice was softer than before. What did he want? Either way Kirishima didn't seem to go away, so Bakugou slowly opened the door. There he stood, his read hear down and in just a t- shirt and shorts.
"Hi", he sad. "Can I come in?" Bakugou backed up a bit so Kirishima could enter his dorm. He felt anxious and kept pulling his sleeves and looking around the room to see if there were anything out of the ordinary. If there were any proof of what had just occurred in this room.
Bakugou closed the door and faced Kirishima, standing in the middle of the room.
"What did….", he started.
"I heard you….", Kirishima said with a grave face. He then looked down at his feet. Bakugou stared at him in surprise and fear, but he tried his best to look surprised.
"Heard me? I don't understand?"
"You don't have to pretend in front of me.", Kirishima looked up for a second to meet Bakugou's eyes, then looked back down at his shoes. "I've noticed that you haven't been your normal self in a while. It started after All Might lost his power. Do you blame yourself for it? 'Cus it's not your fault."
Bakugou just stared at Kirishima. How could he have noticed all this? He thought he was good at acting like everything was fine.
"I didn't know what to say, so I didn't say anything.", Kirishima continued, now his gaze slowly started to drift up to the walls, anywhere but directly at Bakugou. "But now, I heard banging noises from your room and I just couldn't not do anything. Bakugou,", he now looked Bakugou in the eyes. "please don't hurt yourself."
Bakugou opened his mouth to say something to his defence, to continue denying it. But he knew it was worthless. Kirishima knew. He knew everything. How could Kirishima have noticed, when even Deku had missed to see it. So instead of trying to say anything, Bakugou just looked Kirishima dead in the eyes and sad: "How could you have noticed?"
"Bakugou, we're friends, I notice when you are madder than usual. I noticed this too, you were acting for everyone else, but I saw you in class, when you looked out the window and just stared for an entire class sometimes. Bakugou you don't have to bottle everything up inside you, I'm your friend and I'm always here if you need me."