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Chapter 12: The Mighty Fall

"Your crooked love is just a pyramid scheme
And I'm dizzy on dreams. But if you ask me two's a whole lot lonelier than one
Baby we should have left our love in the gutter where we found it
'Cause your only crime is that you got caught"

Katniss POV

"Then tell me Katniss, what happen. Why'd you go?"

I swallow hard bringing Peeta's hands underneath my sweatshirt to rest on my hard belly.

"they're why I left".

This was a mistake. I see several emotions cross Peeta's face before confusion settles in.

"What?" he whispers.

His eyes are wide as saucers, searching mine for conformation or answers I'm not sure. I squeeze his warm fingers gently before peeling them off my stomach. He sucks in a loud breath and plops down heavily on the couch.

"Peeta…" I begin.

I'm not sure what else to say and his silence is killing me. Why had I done this. All I had done was replace his guilt of my leaving with the blow of impending fatherhood.

He rubs his face roughly trying to work it all out in his mind but instead his shoulders slump with the weight of my confession.

Peeta sits forward suddenly leaning his forearms on his thighs. His face is tight with emotion and I can see the questions forming on his lips, so I decide to answer before he has a chance to ask. We've come this far why not be completely honest.

"It was our first time, the penthouse party. We weren't exactly thinking of protection that night. I didn't suspect anything until the day of the carnival. I got sick and Jo put it all together from there".

He nods his head curtly and I muster up enough nerve to go on.

"Jo and I went to the clinic the next day to confirm, then I made an appointment to have an abortion"

I watch him swallow thickly clenching his jaw.

"I didn't go through with it obviously. It's there that I found out I was having twins, it shook something in me. I just knew I couldn't do it. But I also couldn't tell you. I knew you'd give up the band and all your dreams. That can't happen, D12 means so much to you and I couldn't take that away".

Peeta scoffs his eyes cutting right into my soul "You meant more Katniss, you had no right to make that choice for me. No right!"

I blink back the tears threatening to fall "Your right, but I did it anyway. I made the hard choice and I don't regret it. You have a real chance to be something great Peeta. Don't give it up for a mistake we made when we were drunk. Move on and forget about us".

He shoots off the couch pacing wildly and muttering a string of profanity.

"I can't believe you're actually saying this shit to me. I mean what the hell Katniss! Now it's a mistake? Are you kidding me! I mean you can't seriously expect me to leave and tour the world knowing my children are growing up without me".

I sigh moving from the couch toward the front door. This conversation is going nowhere. I see the determination on his face, he's not going to let it go and I neither will I.

"I need you to leave Peeta. I'm tired and Prim will be home from school soon. I'd rather her not witness this. We can talk more tomorrow".

I almost expect him to argue but he doesn't.

"Tomorrow" he repeats with his jaw clenched.

He doesn't turn back to say goodbye when I open the door. I didn't expect him to. I knew once he found out he'd hate me. I just didn't think it would hurt this much.

****M&B****

Peeta's POV

I admit out of all the possible reasons that ran through my mind over the last 5 months Katniss being pregnant, with twins no less, was not one of them. How had I not picked up on it.

"Fuck" I scream hitting the steering wheel as I drive away. How could she. Honestly, did she have so little faith in me. Had I not shown her that she meant more than the fucking band. More than all the fame or money. More than anything in this world!

I shake my head trying to clear all the thoughts running through my mind. I turn toward finicks house when I realize Jo has known all along and probably Gale.

The nerve of those assholes smiling in my face all the while helping keep her secret. All for the sake of the fucking band. I swerve pass and drive straight into town. I can't face them now and I'm sure as hell not going back to my family.

It takes driving around aimlessly for 2 hours before I settle on a local bar downtown. Its relatively nice and has a good size crowd so I won't stand out too much.

I take a seat at the end and signal the bartender.

I'm on my third vodka when I feel a hand come over my shoulder to caress my chest. "Peeta? Is that you?"

I cast a look over my shoulder and see its none other than Glimmer Perkins.

"Peeta fucking Mellark, what are you doing back in this shithole district? aren't you suppose to be living the high life in the capital".

Glimmers hand steals another feel before she slides onto the bar stool next to me. As usual her hair and make-up are perfection and she's modeling a skin tight outfit that leaves very little to the imagination.

"My father is dead". Maybe it's the alcohol but her face softens into concern. "I heard Peeta, I'm sorry. Mr. Mellark was the best baker in town and he will be missed".

I nod in acknowledgement and take another shot.

"So have you seen Katniss? I heard about the break-up a while ago. Heard she got knocked up not long after returning"

Katniss. God! Just the mention of her name brings up all the thoughts and feelings I'm trying to forget. "I'd rather not talk about her" I spit out.

Her green eyes gleam in the dim bar light and my eyes rake down her face. She's beautiful, probably more so without all the make-up. She notices and arches her back giving me a full view.

My hand reaches out and curls around her waist, molding to her soft flesh. She takes this as a green light and attaches her lips to mine. She tasted like fruity alcohol and for the first time in days I feel something other than pain.