This had the latter to stop whatever he was doing, meeting his gaze.
« What about me ? »
« I mean, do you need help too ? Can I do something for you ? »
This was one of Yasuo's habits and principles, always return the favor given.
« I'm afraid no. I don't need. Giving you pleasure was all I seeked. »
Yasuo sat up despite the soft ache, coming closer to the latter. Yes, he remembered bits of that old conversation. But it hurt a little not to be able to return this. Sort of sadness, for only being able to receive but never to give back.
This must have showed in his expression, because Yi embraced him, a kiss pressed to his cheek before he made eye contact.
« Is that wrong ? I can sense your sadness. Why… ? »
Ah no ! I made him sad too !
« Not really, please don't feel bad… » Sighed softly, to find the right words for this feeling. « You see, I like to return whatever was given to me. You made me feel so good but I can't even give back that pleasure. »
« You want to give me pleasure too ? »
It came out rather innocent, like a concept he had never heard of before. Yasuo didn't really know what to feel of this reaction. Yes, he was told they didn't fuck, after a memorable question. There would be no use for immortals. Then there was no possibility for pleasure ? It didn't seem very likely.
Soft nod, as much emotion in his gaze : « You have been so kind to me. And really, I'd love to give this back. To know I satisfied you as well. »
For a time Yi merely looked elsewhere, deep in thoughts. Like trying to understand such a thing. Taken out of it when Yasuo kissed him gently, embrace shared as habit.
« I am genuinely surprised to hear this. I never really expected any kind of reciprocation. Pleasure. You're aware I don't have any use for this. »
« I know… » Hidding a little against Yi, holding him close. This was indeed painful to hear. Of course the latter didn't mean anything by this but for Yasuo this sounded like a refusal.
Meaningless, to torture himself with these thoughts, since Yi refused nothing. But there was this increasing emptiness, for wanting to give but it wasn't possible.
The hug got tighter, from Yi's part after he surely noticed that remaining sadness. So Yasuo snuggled even closer, till they had no space left, just warmth against strange coolness.
« Please Yasuo, what can I do ? I hate to see you hurting like this but there isn't much I can find. » Always doing his best to soothe the ache. « Is it really important for you to give back ? »
« I'd love to. You know, it's like any other kind of affection. As if you kissed me but I couldn't kiss you back. I feel bad for this. »
« Oh. I see. »
More silence so Yasuo didn't know what to do then. This was somehow a closed matter. A bit sad to settle for one-way sex but maybe it wouldn't be so bad. Maybe Yi would be perfectly fine with providing something he couldn't experience. In any case, Yasuo's heart ached for not being able to return his own kind of love.
Against all odds, Yi spoke again : « Maybe I can find a way. So you can fully give back anything you want. »
« What ? How ? You said you didn't fuck. » All in honest surprise because it went against what he believed. Did I imagine that ?
« I never used such fool langage. It's more complex than this. I was refering to reproduction, since it's obvious my kind has no use for it. We don't feel need neither, like you mortals would. But some of us do have sex. »
What ? Today seemed to give Yasuo a hard time trying not to have a heart attack. This was too soon to lose his mind on.
« Some of you ? »
« Well, do you really expect us to stay quietly watching universes ? Some surrend to curiosity and try new things. Like I did, with you my love. »
Straight through the heart, no chance to dodge this piercing shot. So sweet again, Yasuo wanted to kiss him so bad after that traitorious affection.
So he did, catching Yi into a kiss, pushing him flat on the mattress to communicate how happily angry he was to be so weak for kind words. A shy laugh from the latter, muffled in the exchange but there nonetheless..
Once he was done and this urge satisfied, Yasuo parted to resume their conversation.
« So they fuck ? Between gods or like you they managed to seduce a mortal ? »
A pause he didn't expect, along a soft gaze from Yi under him.
« I seduced you ? » It was so clear, how Yi smiled despite himself. Glad, happy. Hands went to hold Yasuo close to him again as they gazed at each other. « If that was the case, I never tried to. I would never understand how to seem appealing for your kind. »
Oh no he's so cute.
Funnily, Yi was exactly demonstrating how he managed to steal Yasuo's heart. Unaware of his own appeal.
So he could resist longer and another kiss among the hundreds already shared. Yasuo would never get enough, always craving that heady sensation.
Parted in a second : « You really seduced me. Utterly. No way back. But not once I would regret falling for you. I'm so glad to be yours. »
« Oh. » If Yi could breathe then at this exact instant it would be taken away.
Yasuo was positive that a blush would take over his face, just like it did for him.
About to say something but Yi was faster : « Then I shall be yours too, in return. »
He's killing me and I can't even be mad….
« That's not allowed to be so sweet ! » He came closer and lied on top of Yi, face burried in his neck. « I love you so much… »
« I love you too, my dear Yasuo. » Embrace locked and appreciated, sweet words and a promise not to let go. « My apologies, for changing the topic. I'll answer your question. »
For this, Yasuo peeked and shifted a little, resting against the latter's chest.
« There are only two of my kind who are open to sexual activity, and seeked it. They're in couple. You're the very first mortal to have a sexual encounter with an entity. Feel as you wish after this information. »
« Oh boy. Please tell me you're allowed to, that you didn't break a rule for that. » It would be unlucky, to find troubles for trying to sleep with a god.
« Fear not. There isn't such a rule. We are allowed to interact with mortals though most of times it's not as lucky than when I found you. »
There, he could relax and not stress at night.
« So you've got a couple among your buddies ? What they're like ? Do I know them ? »
« You never heard nor saw any of them. I won't name them directly, to avoid useless attention. Dusk and Dawn. We refer to them as the lovers. Are you asking for a physical description ? »
« Yup, please. You weren't wrong about your queen so I guess this will be true. »
As he listened to Yi, he felt slow caress. Over his back, arms, wherever hands went it met warm skin. It was nice to rest there, where he was loved the most.
« Hmm what could I say ? Dusk's beauty is different from our queen's. She's like a night sky on some planets, always cloaked with stars. Dawn is brighter, loud even in appearance. Passion given physical form. Usually you hear him coming. »
« Oh so a guy and a lady. Okay ! »
Yi's description never really answered what he asked but he guessed this was for the poetry. Entities's approach of shape and beauty. Not enough to imagine on his own but without a doubt it would completely fit if he was to meet them.
And they fucked. Now that he thought about it. Well, it seemed that out there gods and goddesses always managed to have fun.
« Wait, you said before that you could hear each others. Even when they fuck ? »
« We can always hear each one of us, if we pay attention specifically. And yes, we hear them have sex, since you asked. But we turn deaf to that and go on our day. It's not our business. »
AH SHIT. Sudden thought, a good stab of shame.
« You mean they can hear us too ? Even when we…just then ? »
« Don't panick, it's alright. They can hear me, maybe you if they really have nothing else to do. But I don't think they'll bother. »
« Right, right. Hope I'll forget about it. »
It wasn't really relaxing to hear that but Yasuo really hoped they wouldn't barge in the ship after hearing them.
Silence was back, like a comfortable blanket. At some point Yasuo moved, not to bother too much his lover. Knowing Yi, he wouldn't ask for him to move, as he was lying on top of him. So now he was on his side, cuddling with him in cheer contentment.
« I will try to figure something out, I promise. I understand you would enjoy sharing this to its fullest. »
Sweet, to hear him care to that point. Yi always wanted the best for him.
« Don't feel like you have too. If you don't want this. » Just in case.
« Oh but I want to. Receive what you wish to give me and return it again and again. Don't mistake the lack of need for the lack of motivation. »
« Mmmh yes. I just want to be sure you don't feel forced into this. Whatever you find. You guys don't need ? »
« I think need is linked to reproduction, in a way. We don't experience sexual attraction since we have so use in reproduction. But we can want to have sex, we can take part in it and find something enjoyable. There are mortals that feel this way too, we observed it sometimes. »
« It's not always so easy, isn't it ? »
« Indeed. On my behalf, I want to please you. I would never feel sexual attraction but I do yearn to satisfy you. To see you happy and sated, lying in bed like right now. May I repeat how handsome you are ? »
A kiss about to be given but it landed on his cheek instead. No matter where it was aimed, it had Yasuo so weak for him.
For Yi, looking at him like he was the brightest star ever created. Cherished.