Here he was, blushing like a lovesick teen, right in the middle of the kitchen with the worst person who could witness that.
Yasuo saw in real time that wicked grin split Jinx's face, the second she registered the instant. Not so shocked on Sona's part, merely averting her gaze in quiet manner for privacy.
So he acted, before anything could be said : « SHUT UP. » Better be safe than sorry, as always. Yasuo stood, fighting the slight sting of the temporary separation and indeed stomped away, far from the ineluctable.
Loud steps in the corridor he walked barely minutes ago, this time with the firm intention not to hear anything from Jinx. That was going to be hell.
No fucks given to his hunger, he was in no mood to stand her for the day. So Yasuo returned to his room, sliding down the door to sit once it was between him and the entire world.
A dramatic sigh got out. Now two emotions, both fighting to take over and rule his mind for the next hour. Petty anger against Jinx although he was aware it was useless, next day – or even in a few hours – he would be able again to bear her presence. On the other side, he couldn't calm himself down, almost too hot after such open gesture of affection. Right in front of the wrong person but he wouldn't blame Yi.
It felt nice, no matter the situation. Living the memory again and again, he came to rest his face to his knees, pressed to his chest.
« Ahhhh…Fuck…. »
Question of the day : why did he have to get so emotional over this ? Not in a bad sense, of course. But if the most chaste show of affection could get him weak when they were to be seen, Yasuo doubted his heart would keep up.
At least he thought Yi wouldn't kiss him in public. His own self-consciousness prevented it, to avoid showing his face.
Not problem for Yasuo, it meant more profuse love once they were in private. And he didn't mind small contact, it was sweet. Yet it sent him out of the kitchen even as he was starving, just because he couldn't bear the next fit of laughing.
His heart fluttered gently, without more explanation than a peck on the cheek. Yasuo really needed help, this was getting out of control.
« Please baby, come back soon… »
Except that first encounter in the kitchen, the day went rather well. Admitting that Jinx couldn't make it unbearable no matter how hard she tried.
Nonetheless, Yasuo had to get out again, for his empty stomach wasn't glad for the failed attempt. Once he deemed it less risky and most of all ready to face any jokes, he sneaked outside.
What he found in the kitchen was a not so busy Sona, having not moved from her chair since the last time he saw her. Thanks everything, that was merely a hour ago.
She gave Yasuo food left aside for him, which he was very happy for the attention. No Jinx to see around, he could relax.
So he stayed in the kitchen even after having finished eating. Company was nice and really he needed someone to chat with while Yi was gone. It weighed on his soul, little by little.
Also appreciated on the other side. Sona really enjoyed these discussion, each crewmate of the Morning Star had a particularity. Since Jinx was the most available all time, it could get tiring to chat with her. See her personality, difficult to focus on one topic at once.
There, it was fine. The lizard made a small appearance, jumping on the table and both of them played with it.
Hours, without a new sign from Yi. Yasuo came to regret that discreet embrace shared before, to remember how it felt be held with love. Time passed to make him yearn in silence, at least not voicing that part.
Till he couldn't find more to say to Sona without repeating useless stuff. The day wasn't over but he got his share for now. So he moved to his reading corner, to mourn quietly the time lost and absence of a soft embrace.
Still an attempt at staying dignified, seeming unbothered if any of the others tried to sneak on him there. But innerly, Yasuo was so sad. Still cherishing their latest interaction but each time it resulted in another deep sigh. Which became very very often.
No doubt this was the most busy day for Yi since he got to stay at the Morning Star. Noticed absence.
Evening and Yi hadn't showed up yet. It was time to die in bed, like Yasuo knew so well to do. Face down against the sheets, not a single move as he considered his life. Anything, please. Just a kiss. Not even tired but to pace around, search any distraction had him less and less motivated. Longing was so heavy, never letting him at peace.
Only comfort was to know that Yi thought the same. Distance hurt and neither could hold very long without the other. Somewhere his love was waiting too. Probably glancing at him with amusement because Yasuo was in a silly position in bed, mumbling his complaints.
« Babyyyyyyy…. » From time to time, just for the knowledge that he was heard.
Was is true, anyway ? Maybe Yi tried not to hear him for this time.
Here came solitude and the many questions. Uhoh. Better not start on this path, it could get depressing in no time.
Okay, what instead ? There was indeed one last thing he could do but he would earn a soft remark for his eagerness. Well, it wasn't forbidden. And Yi wasn't here to cuddle so he had to make do.
Maybe he would catch his attention and check if he was watchful.
Here came the second half of the craving. More insidious, warming his chest and lower at the first thoughts. Here we go… Almost magic, how he could get aroused in no time. A few well chosen memories, pictures to remember then it was done.
The problem was, Yi wasn't here. All came back to this. So it meant he would have to get off alone, by his hand. Grumbling lowly at that.
Oh wait, where is it ?
Somewhere in that room he got a toy, he knew it. Good use except for these days, since he had Yi around. Far more fun to have the real thing. Thinking of, this could be something else to try with his lover. Still plenty of things to test, make him discover. Mmmh maybe next time.
To actually find the toy brought a light shade of red to his cheeks, thinking of what Yi would say for this. Will he watch ? If he called him, without a doubt. And if he was as needy as Yasuo, he would start watching even before that.
Make a good show, then.