To receive ?
In all honesty, Yi hadn't thought about it before. Indeed Yasuo already showed him many ways to find pleasure together but he hadn't exactly felt the urge to change sides.
He saw all that time how much the latter loved it, how it got him all sweet and satisfied in the end.
Now desire was sparked, by merely mentioning a possibility. Yes, desire and not arousal. That was how Yi saw it, to describe better what he felt. Maybe he was wrong but he could feel that even without being able to sense anything like pleasure so it had to be something else. Something not physical, not a signal or result of stimulation.
It still made him crave, despite having his senses turned off for the moment. Quiet wonder for what it would feel if he allowed it.
I want to try. It sounded nice and he literally got a reaction at the mere suggestion. Memories from when Yasuo pleasured him this way though just with his fingers. How could he need something so soon ?
Then reason and guilt struck back, reminding what happened the latest time. No, please. It wouldn't leave him at peace. Blood, pain. Don't think about it. Trust. Horrible, to feel that way. Seizing fear, invading his thoughts till he couldn't block it.
Caught by this insidious torture, Yi didn't notice the latter's move until it was too late. Nothing bad, at least. Hands craddled his face, having him facing Yasuo forehead to forehead. Shaky moves betrayed the urgence.
« Hey hey hey, it's alright, I swear ! If really you don't want to, we won't. And if it's worry fucking with your head, I'll explain exactly how I'm planning that. » A little quick, greatly careful around him.
It was incredible to hear each point of concern adressed there. Probably Yasuo saw him start to get anxious again and soothed him all he could. With such sentences, there was little to worry about. Make everything clear to show him there was no need to panick.
To finish that ghost of crisis, the latter kissed him gently to help if his words couldn't. Something not very long but its sweetness lingered even after he parted to give a small smile.
« It will be fine, baby. Trust me. »
« I trust you. » Quick answer, the truest. Because the one he didn't trust as much was himself. But no need to bring that in the conversation right now.
Sometimes Yi wondered when he would cry if he was able to, if he could find a proper situation for that in quiet hypothesis. Right now it would have been one of these occasions, when Yasuo smiled so brightly and even closed his eyes for that pure joy. It was wonderful, it was too much and not enough. This was all he wanted, to see his lover smile like the happiest mortal of this universe.
I love him.
Only such genuine moments could make him feel that kind of strong emotion, enough to be felt physically. Yi wanted to give him everything, all that mattered and could be offered. So it meant giving himself.
This soft mood settled between them for a time, holding each other to make it count. No way for Yi to stop gazing at his lover, beautiful person that he held dear. I want to kiss him…
So he did, following another of these new urges becoming habits. Claiming Yasuo's lips once more, for it would never be enough to thank him. Until he poured his very soul in it. And the latter clung to him through it, a very faint moan muffled in that keen display.
Before it risked to take on Yasuo's breath limit, he parted and seized the occasion of that gentle haze after affection to make this clear : « I want to try, take me. »
Words spoken through direct eye contact always made it more impactful. Right then, he saw in real time a lovely blush tint Yasuo's cheeks, along a slightly wider gaze. Beautiful indeed, Yi was equally happy with himself to earn such reaction and slowly overwhelmed.
« O-Okay ! Just, I'll take a few minutes to tell you what we do. » Loud and flustered, obvious joy.
It was endearing to see him react like this to kind words or less innocent ones. As always Yasuo spoke a tad louder as too shift attention from his blush .
Though he got out of Yi's lap and stood by the bed, looking around his room in sort of soft urgence. The latter watched him do, no doubt there was a reason for this move. Yet he craved to have him back in his arms.
To make it clear he opened his arms to his lover, small gesture that was sure to convey his longing. When Yasuo noticed, he looked even more thrilled, found what he was looking for then definitely ran back to bed.
« Mmmh missed that. » So satisfied by merely embracing back his lover.
In any case, Yi was glad to have him right there. It wasn't even long. We're both desperate. On reflex he ran his hand through white locks and untied it when it got in the way. Soothing attention, while Yasuo basked in the feeling.
Almost too kind and innocent to bring sexual topics right there.
Once they both rode their affectionate feeling out, Yasuo parted and looked a bit more serious, in the funny sense. Surely he wanted to seem serious but the gentle mood still lingered.
« Alright, here we go. First, if I suggested that, it was because usually you're the one fucking me and it's still a bit of responsibility for you. So now I'll take the lead and responsibility, no need to worry about making it good for me. »
Small pause, as if he waited for something. He gazed expectantly at Yi, enough to make him react. Oh, alright. Quick nod and indeed that was what Yasuo wanted.
Thinking about what he said, he appreciated the attention. Indeed most of times he tried his best to sate Yasuo so it resulted in not letting go completely. Quite risky, since at some point he zoned out from climax.
The latter resumed : « I want you to lie down, don't try to ride me yet. We'll maybe come to that another time but for now I want to see if it's good for you. I don't like to give orders or shit for sex but maybe it will help you to relax, to know that I got this. »
It ended too soft for them, leaning to kiss Yi shortly before waiting for a reaction.
« I understand. And yes, I think it helps. » Proving it by pressing another peck to Yasuo's lips.
In returned he was blessed by another of these grins. Really it was impressive to feel such impact from a mortal gesture.
« We good ? Do you want to start ? » Almost a whisper, following their rather intimate modd.
« Yes, love. Lead the way. » Last kiss given before he parted for good. They had to move, after all.
« Okay, so come here and lie down, baby. » Yasuo moved and patted an empty place for him.
For now it was fine, Yi followed what he asked. It was a little strange to know he would be the one taken tonight, care for. The fear remained but was greatly diminished thanks to their continuous affection.
Only, when Yasuo came on top of him after nudging gently to spread his legs, he blushed something fierce. Sitting down between Yi's legs, he covered part of his face in a gesture screaming fluster. Really charming to see.
Is it alright ? Yi doubted he was the problem right now. Maybe the latter got his deal of emotions too. After all, he explained not doing this quite often.
« Yasuo ? » He wasn't worried but he still prefered to ask.
« Oh fuck, honey. Sorry, it's just you're really gorgeous and I can't believe I'm about to do that. »
They were still quite clothed. So not a lot explained that reaction except the whole love Yasuo had for him, playing on his needs.
« Do you want me to undress now ? » They would have at some point, probably it was better to do it now.
It wasn't his intention but it seemed to make Yasuo's fluster even stronger.
« Yes, yes ! Okay, I'm good, I'm fine. » Still an effort to calm down.
So Yi did it, clothing vanished to leave him completely exposed and open to his lover. And the reaction he earned was worth everything, so much love in that gaze yet mixed with a healthy amount of arousal. He wants me.
It was still a mystery how Yasuo could find him desirable from a mere eyeful but he learned every day. How could he have found the appearance the latter would love most without knowing ? Yi supposed love indeed played in that perception but he was still very grateful to be praised in such way.
It got such desperate point that Yasuo forgot to undress. He stayed there, watching and nothing in this world seemed more worthy of his interest than his naked lover. Affection was powerful minutes ago and now it had a serious challenger, desire.
We won't do much if he can't stop staring.